not so private diary

i dont have an outlet, my hope is that 'shouting into the void' may bring some peace. (tw)

[venusepitaph]

today I was told im "wasting away to nothing" lol im still big but ty

[venusepitaph]

I thought i had lost 20 lbs and was just getting started, but when the dr weighed me it turns out I lost 55

I thought wl was impossible. this is everything i ever wanted but im not satisfied

I thought I would look alot different at this size but my body composition is the same (high body fat %) and now the dr is saying I dont need to lose more and should increase my calories but I dont want to.

im not trying to be insanely thin. I just want to be seen for who I am and not what I weigh.