spiritualexpressions

[vereignnn-blog]

written at 19 years old.

19 A young lady, a young woman Growing and developing Feelings running wild Underestimating forevers happiness Becoming faiths mistress Taking in simple stress Forgetting how to cope with hope

19 an odd number, or am I just even? Or even uneven Frozen and numb from the sum Added up from Love equalling leaving Every letter committing treason Not committing to eternity It seems that’s why we’re all temporary.

- is eternity temporary?

[vereignnn-blog]

inside

The Love we look for will never survive in the hearts of others The Happiness we need will never be eternal if we search for it in others The Joy we yearn for will forever be missing if we are reliant on others These radiant feelings are riddled in the blood of our own, in the hearts and minds of our own Why do we search for the vibrant lifestyle we obsess over and expect the most when we give absolutely nothing to ourselves, to our God? A million things could be going right, one thing goes wrong and life's fuxked? We're so quick to blame our God for our troubles all because he's in charge? Why do we never consider free will and the choices we make, all on our own, could be the reasons for our shitty outcomes? What if all these triumphs are blessings in disguises? Do you say thank you for all that is right? Do you say thank you at all? Or do you constantly concentrate on other people's negatives, bad hair days and shit relationships? Why is the world so concerned with everything around us other than ourselves? In the aspect of putting everyone's wants and needs before our own This is far from selfish because isn't it more selfish for others to rob you of your kindness? As a result you feel second place to yourself? Why are there people who even make us feel as though we lack capability in the first place? Yeah yeah strengthening and all that jazz That's correct, but not everyone needs 'tough love' It never really works, it's an illusion It either silences you from speaking on how you feel or allows you to act that way in your day to day life I will never let the absent love of others harden my heart I will never be the percentage of those who turn cold because of life situations I trust my God Unlocking the power within is unlocking the love of our God The answers we seek resides within We so desperately want the love of others Because those others lack love for themselves Because of the delusion that's all we need In that case, You will always be giving and never receiving Eventually after all this giving, you will give and receive to and from the right people The harsh reality of this is, not all humans are capable.. not before their time anyhow If there time even arrives.. All you need in this realm is the love of yourself and God With those crucial factors, everything else our God gives us is a bonus. -relatively unknown.

[forced-nostalgia-deactivated201]

She never looked nice. She looked like art, and art wasn’t supposed to look nice; it was supposed to make you feel something.

Rainbow Rowell, Eleanor & Park (via forced-nostalgia)

[poemswords]

[vereignnn-blog]

invalid behaviour

I can taste her breath on your tongue So distinctively, it’s weirdly like I’m the one kissing her What did you accomplish? Did you feel like more of a man? Like you’re the one in control because life has a way of controlling you? Did the taste and smell of her intrigue you so much, that you allowed yourself to caress her insides with the same stiffness you explore my insides with? Did you enjoy collecting a lost souls energy, intwining it into yours ‘oh so passionately’ then passing it onto me? Has it occurred to you that your infected energy is just about enough for me to carry? Did you have fun bringing contaminated energy into the sacred place we lay our heads together and contaminate me? Oh you must have felt like a prick at some point, no? Aren’t you ashamed you let someone else satisfy you? I didn’t think so, you did it in the first place I don’t need your sorry’s and I won’t do it again’s I don’t need the answers you think I want to hear, that I actually do want to hear but only from a genuine mouth The conclusion is; you’re a boy trying to live a mans life There’s so much God in me that you cannot handle to be in the light of I have an overload of love you are not ready for & There’s too much woman in me that it scares you into being someone you’re not

- times’d two

[vereignnn-blog]

love can be interesting

She is trying to be okay Her heart feels torn in two Unable to breathe from the emptiness in her lungs Her stomach turns whenever her mind sees his face or her heart hears his name He makes her so weak Weak for love and weak for happiness Weak for a whole heart She feels as though her God is pulling one arm He's pulling the other She repeats 'God, I choose you. I trust you' She chooses her God and he holds her hand He shows her what he aches to see himself everyday As she's crying, body limp from the salty stream of deep mourning pouring from her face She sees herself She sees the woman she never thought she'd turn into again Begging and pleading someone to love her but their heart is closed, ears are sealed and eyes fully covered His senses blocked from feeling because of his own heartache He cannot do it, he cannot give her what he doesn't understand yet himself She begs to receive the love she has given She gave that love so openly, so honestly With her closet clear of skeletons Her love flows deep and hard like the waves of the ocean She has this special way of loving She tried to make him feel warm and whole When all he's used to is cold and defeat He misunderstood when she said 'I'll help you, I love you too much not to' He thought that meant take and take because not everyone he's around values giving What other choice did he have than to take if no one he wants to receive from gives Therefore he ended up underestimating her heart and the love she possesses It's because he underestimates his heart and what it's capable of It's scary to love so hard But it's much scarier to receive love when you're not ready for it She gave all of her to him willingly anyway, trust oozing from her already shattered heart He broke her again Not because she deserved to be broken But because he's broken himself. - no one is to blame

[vereignnn-blog]

half of me

You were a man of little speech Who spoke volumes with his mouth wide shut Family oriented man, but still a broken young boy Nonetheless You taught me what love feels like, with forth action and perseverance Even with the soul sucking disease sucking the soul of you Exploding episodes of pain from only a soft index finger of love The vast creation of unbearable, unbreathable pain

You fought with zero fight left You cried with zero tears You tried with truth of fears Yet remained in uniform at peace Faith riddled in your infected blood

I think of you as the half of me who is beyond earth I am you in female form Your strength and silent love speaks through me with a loud spiritual tongue My personal angelic guidance I know who’s looking after me.

- dad

[anancientheart]

ok universe, i’m ready to feel good things. make me feel good things.

[anancientheart]

whenever i post this it works  reblog if u want to feel good things & the universe will bring u something sweet 

[vividvega]

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[thegoodvybe]

[vereignnn-blog]

- God, Universe & Me.

God thank you, I trust you I love you. Thank you for my wombyn-hood I praise you for the beautiful nature that we possess to always nurture If I have ever been ungrateful for all you have done, my heart aches apologetically Universe I thank you, for your hospitality For providing a home for me to live in until I leave this realm Thank you both for allowing me to choose my own path, with guidance from you Thank you for letting me live my given life accordingly to me & all I’d need is something as small as an optimistic thought, You both have been the parent I do not have in human form Thank you for parenting me spiritually, I decided to stop searching for the half of me that died years prior, in the opposite sex Instead I looked to seeking you, God With nothing to loose and everything to gain, I gave belief another try and trusted you again Best decision I’ve made on my human journey.

- I thank you.