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First off, I'd like to say that I, absolutely, adore your writing! With any and all characters you write! I recently got into Outer Range and your Rhett fics have single-handedly put me in a spiral lol the best kind, of course 🤪
If you're still accepting requests, I'd like to shoot my shot! Is it possible if you can write a reader version of your previous request, 'Times when Rhett fell in love with you again and again' (I forget the exact name but it's along those lines). So like basically all the times when the reader falls in love with Rhett over and over again. Idk what the backstory could be between the two but I always imagined that it followed somewhere along the lines where they've known each other since forever and she tries to help Rhett get with Maria when they were younger and/or when she comes back to Wabang, and during that whole situation, she has an 'Oh' moment where she realizes her love for him runs deeper than what she thought, etc, etc. Like she always knew she loved him but not to that extent until she had that realization moment.
Idk tho! I'm happy with whatever the backstory is between the two! If you do write the request, thank you!
P.s. I know you already said this, but I love your writing! I'm rooting for all your future works! 🥰❤️🔥
The Five Times You Fell for Rhett Abbott
A/N: i’ve been absolutely feral over this one for DAYS and it still wasn’t enough.
this is the softest, slowest burn of all slow burns. it’s tender. it’s aching. it’s home.
Rhett Abbott, you will always be famous in this house.
oh this cherri is talking about this one: Reasons Rhett Falls in Love with You (Over and Over)
Warnings: soft heart tug, yearning so thick you could bottle it, small town nostalgia, Rhett Abbott being emotionally devastating in the gentlest way
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Reason One: The Way He Waited
The reunion smells the same as every Wabang gathering ever has — too much cologne, cheap beer, and someone’s perfume that hangs heavy in the hall. You’ve been moving through the crowd all night, half-smiles and “remember when’s,” when your eyes catch on him.
Rhett Abbott, leaning against the wall like he’s part of the wood itself, hat tipped low, arms folded. He hasn’t changed much, not really. A little older around the eyes, a little broader through the shoulders, but still Rhett. And looking at him now, the memory comes back so sharp it’s like you’re seventeen again.
—
That night after the homecoming dance, you were sitting on the school steps with a ripped hem and mascara smudged on your cheek. Your date had disappeared halfway through, taking the truck and the promise of a ride home with him.
You’d told yourself you didn’t care. That it wasn’t worth crying over. But the gym lights spilling onto the parking lot made the whole world feel too bright, too loud, too empty.
And then you saw him.
Rhett.
Sitting on the hood of his truck, like he’d been waiting all along. He didn’t say anything at first — just tipped his chin when you came down the stairs.
“You done in there?” His voice was quiet, low enough that it barely carried.
You nodded, clutching your clutch tighter. “Guess so.”
He slid off the hood, boots scuffing against the gravel. “C’mon. I’ll take you home.”
You tried to make a joke of it, because that’s what you always did around him. “What, no lecture about picking the wrong guy?”
Rhett just shook his head. “Ain’t my business who you pick.” He looked at you then, really looked, and for a second it felt like he saw through every little wall you’d built. “But I wasn’t about to let you walk home in those shoes.”
That was Rhett. No fanfare, no questions, no pity. Just showing up, steady as the ground under your feet.
You rode the whole way home in silence, the windows cracked, cool night air brushing your face. He didn’t press, didn’t even look at you more than once. Just drove careful, one hand on the wheel, one arm stretched across the seat like he could anchor you to the world if it tried to shake you off.
And you remember thinking then — not for the first time, but maybe the clearest — God, I could fall for him.
—
Back in the reunion hall, someone calls your name, laughter bubbling around you, but it’s far away. Your eyes stay locked on Rhett’s across the room.
He hasn’t moved. Just watching, same steady gaze, like he’s still that boy waiting by the truck all those years ago.
And your heart does the same stupid, helpless thing it did then. It falls.
—
Reason Two: The Way He Broke Her Heart Without Knowing
The reunion hums with noise, the gym strung up in cheap fairy lights, laughter echoing off the walls. You’re halfway through a conversation when you see her.
Maria.
Her laugh carries the same as it did in high school, head thrown back, hair shining under the light. She looks almost the same — maybe a little older, maybe a little wiser, but still the girl every boy turned his head for.
And for a second, you’re seventeen again.
—
It started the fall of sophomore year. You’d been teasing Rhett on the bleachers after practice, nudging him about how Maria had been watching the game.
“You know she likes you, right?” you’d grinned, pretending the thought didn’t twist your stomach.
He’d rolled his eyes, muttered “Don’t start,” but the week after, you saw them talking by the lockers. The week after that, Maria was sitting shotgun in his truck.
And just like that, Rhett Abbott — the boy who’d always felt like yours in some unspoken, secret way — wasn’t.
You told yourself it was fine. You even tried to help it along, throwing Maria’s name into conversation, joking about her cookies, her soft sweaters, the way she batted her lashes at him.
But every laugh you forced made something splinter deeper in your ribs.
For a few months, it was them. Rhett and Maria. Everyone knew it. Everyone said they looked good together. And you… you smiled, clapped along, told him “good for you” when he brushed past you in the hall smelling like her perfume.
But then, just as quick as it started, it fizzled out. Maria stopped showing up at games. Stopped riding in his truck. Stopped being a name you had to choke down like it didn’t matter.
One night after practice, you found him leaning against the hood of his truck, cap pulled low, hands shoved in his pockets.
“Thought she was the one,” you teased, voice just a little too sharp. “Guess cookies weren’t enough?”
He shrugged, looking off at the horizon like it had answers. “She ain’t her.”
The words hit so hard you almost staggered. He didn’t mean them for you, not really. But in that moment you knew: Maria hadn’t broken your heart.
Rhett had. Without ever trying.
—
Back at the reunion, Maria floats by, tossing smiles like it’s still high school. You notice she doesn’t get one back. Rhett doesn’t even look her way.
Because his eyes — steady, unblinking — are already on you.
And your chest aches in that familiar, helpless way, the same way it did back then. Only now, it feels less like splintering and more like something finally piecing itself back together.
—
Reason Three: The Way He Found You When You Thought No One Noticed You Were Gone
The reunion is loud — too loud — a messy blend of old stories and cheap punch and someone’s terrible playlist. You excuse yourself from a conversation about “where everyone ended up,” step toward the hallway where it’s quieter, and lean against the wall for a breath.
Someone behind you laughs and says, “Man, this place is just like those old bonfire parties. Always someone goin’ missing.”
The comment hits you right in the center of your chest.
Because you remember the one time you went missing.
And the one person who noticed.
—
It had been senior year at Tommy Eads’ bonfire — the kind where half the school showed up, where the flames crackled loud enough to drown out everything else, where girls in denim shorts laughed around the fire and the boys passed bottles they weren’t supposed to have.
You’d come with friends, but somewhere between the too-loud music and too-many eyes, you felt the world tilt. Your throat got tight for no reason you could name, and you slipped away. Quiet. Unnoticed.
You walked past the barn, past the trucks lined up in the field, and climbed into the bed of an old Ford someone had abandoned beside the pasture. It smelled like dust and sunshine baked into metal.
You hugged your knees and stared at the stars.
At first, you expected someone to look for you. Or at least text you.
No one did.
Ten minutes passed. Then twenty. Then more.
You started to feel stupid for leaving, stupid for hoping someone might—
The truck bed creaked.
You jolted, heart in your throat.
A familiar voice drawled from behind you, softer than usual.
“Thought I’d find you out here.”
Rhett Abbott climbed into the bed like he’d done it a hundred times, sitting beside you without asking. His body heat settled beside yours, warm in the cool night air.
You tried to laugh it off. “Didn’t think anyone noticed I left.”
He didn’t answer immediately — just picked a piece of hay off his jeans, tossed it over the side, then looked at you like he could see through every lie you rehearsed.
“Didn’t like not seein’ you.”
Your breath hitched. “Rhett—”
“You okay?” His voice was steady. Too steady. Like he’d been worried longer than he’d let on.
“I just… needed a minute.” You shrugged, looking back at the stars. “Didn’t want to ruin anything.”
He huffed a quiet sound — not quite a laugh, not quite a sigh — and rested his forearms on his knees.
“You bein’ gone ruins it more than you bein’ overwhelmed,” he said, plain as the sky above you.
You blinked at him, caught completely off guard.
He didn’t look away. “Ain’t fun for me if you ain’t there.”
Something cracked open in your chest. Something you didn’t dare touch, not then. You just swallowed hard and nodded.
Rhett leaned back beside you, shoulders brushing. Neither of you moved for a long time. The fire in the distance kept popping; someone whooped; someone dropped a bottle. None of it touched you here.
Just you.
And him.
And the quiet way he made you feel seen without needing you to explain a thing.
“That why you came lookin’?” you whispered.
Rhett’s jaw flexed, eyes tracking the sky. “Didn’t like the idea of you bein’ alone.”
It was the simplest sentence in the world.
And it gutted you.
Because no one else noticed you’d left.
But he did.
He always did.
—
Back at the reunion, standing in the dim hallway, a knot forms in your throat. Someone calls for Rhett in the distance — a joke, a toast, you can’t tell.
But when you step back into the main room, your eyes go to him instinctively.
And just like that night years ago, his eyes are already on you.
Noticing.
Always noticing.
And you fall for him all over again.
—
Reason Four: The Way He Made You Feel Like You Belonged Even When You Didn’t Anymore
Someone at the reunion clinks a glass and announces a toast “to all the ones who left and came back wiser.”
Everyone laughs. You smile along, but something twists in your stomach.
Because leaving Wabang did make you wiser, sure.
But it also made you different.
Different enough that coming home felt… foreign.
And the last time you visited — before you left for good — you felt that difference like a bruise that wouldn’t stop throbbing.
Until Rhett walked into the room.
—
It was two years after graduation when you came back home for the first time. A quick visit. A long weekend. Nothing fancy.
Cecilia insisted you stay for dinner. Perry joked that your suitcase probably had “big city perfume.” Royal grumbled that the roast was burning, even though it wasn’t.
You stood in the Abbott kitchen, feeling like you’d stepped into a life that kept going without you — louder, warmer, but somehow too big all at once.
You smoothed your shirt for the tenth time that evening, swallowing a tightness in your chest you didn’t want anyone to see.
“Thought you weren’t comin’,” Rhett said as he walked in from the mudroom, brushing dust off his jeans.
You jumped a little. “I—uh—Cecilia insisted.”
“She does that.” He said it like he was glad.
Like he had been waiting.
Dinner was loud. Messy. Everyone talking over everyone. Perry teasing you about your job. Royal asking questions you weren’t ready to answer. Cecilia shoving more biscuits on your plate because “you look thinner than last time.”
You tried to keep up with the conversation, but it felt like trying to slip into an old denim jacket that didn’t quite fit your shoulders anymore.
Your smile was polite. Your laugh was a beat too late. You stirred your mashed potatoes twice without taking a bite.
Rhett noticed.
Of course he did.
He nudged your knee under the table. Once. Soft.
You looked up at him.
He wasn’t laughing, wasn’t talking. He was just… watching you.
Steady and warm and familiar in a way that made your throat burn.
“You okay?” he mouthed.
You nodded too fast.
He didn’t believe you — but he let it go.
After dinner, when the kitchen buzzed with cleanup and Cecilia insisted you sit, Rhett slipped out onto the porch. You followed, needing air more than anything.
The sun was low. The cicadas loud. The air thick and sweet.
Rhett leaned on the rail, arms folded. “You look like you can breathe again,” he said softly.
You let out a shaky laugh. “I don’t know why I felt so out of place. I grew up in that kitchen.”
He turned to you then, really turned, eyes flicking over your face like he was memorising it all. “You didn’t look out of place.”
“Rhett—”
“You looked like you.”
A beat.
“And that’s enough here.”
Your breath caught. He stepped closer, close enough that his shoulder brushed yours, close enough that the porch light caught in the soft curl of his hair.
“Don’t matter where you been,” he murmured.
“Feels like you never left.”
Something cracked open in you. Something warm and terrified and so, so real.
You didn’t tell him that.
You just looked at him like you were seeing him for the first time all over again.
Rhett tipped his hat back with one hand, studying you.
“Glad you came home,” he said quietly.
“Kitchen felt right tonight.”
You swallowed. “Because of Cecilia’s biscuits?”
He gave you a slow, crooked smile, the one he saved for moments that weren’t meant to be loud.
“No,” he said. “Because you were in it.”
Your heart didn’t just fall then — it sank.
Straight to the bottom of you, heavy and certain.
You knew, in that moment, with the porch bulb humming and the whole ranch settling for the night:
You didn’t fit everywhere anymore.
But you fit here.
With him.
Always with him.
—
Reason Five: The Way He Finally Said It Without Saying It
The reunion is starting to thin out.
People slipping into old habits, old jokes, old pairings.
The lights over the gym flicker, humming softly like they’re tired too.
You’re standing near the refreshment table, pretending to be deeply invested in a cup of weak punch, when someone bumps your shoulder.
“Figured I’d find you hidin’,” a familiar voice murmurs.
Rhett.
You look up to find him standing just close enough that his hat brim nearly touches yours. Close enough that you can smell dust and cedar and the faint trace of the cologne he only ever wears to weddings and funerals.
“Not hiding,” you lie.
Rhett’s brow lifts, slow and skeptical. “Mm. Sure.”
He tilts his head toward the exit — a silent question. You nod.
Outside, the night is warm. String lights cross the parking lot, humming softly in the dark. The cricket song wraps around the quiet in a way that feels familiar, like slipping under a blanket you forgot you loved.
Rhett shoves his hands into his pockets, rocking once on his boots. He looks nervous.
You don’t think you’ve ever seen that on him before.
He clears his throat, eyes dropping to his boots before lifting to you again. “You look good tonight,” he says, quiet like he’s afraid it’ll spook you.
You blink, surprised. “You… didn’t say anything earlier.”
Rhett shifts, jaw tightening like he’s annoyed at himself. “Yeah. I know.”
“Why didn’t you?”
He huffs out a shy, frustrated breath — a sound you’ve heard a hundred times from him and still feel all the way down your spine.
“‘Cause I couldn’t think of nothin’ that didn’t sound stupid,” he mutters.
Then, softer:
“And I didn’t wanna stare at you like some fool in front of everybody.”
Your heart catches. “Rhett…”
He shrugs helplessly, eyes doing that earnest, steady thing he can never quite hide around you.
“I’m thinkin’ I should’ve said it the second you walked in,” he murmurs, voice going rough around the edges.
“Hell — I been tryin’ not to say it for ten years.”
“You remember those bonfire nights?” he asks quietly.
Your breath catches. “Of course.”
“Found you sittin’ in that truck bed once. Scared me half to death thinkin’ you’d left.”
You swallow. “I didn’t leave.”
“Yeah,” he murmurs. “You stayed.”
The silence stretches between you — warm, soft, heavy with everything unspoken.
Then Rhett steps closer.
Not much. Just enough that your shoulders brush, just enough that you can feel the heat of him down your arm.
“You always do that,” he says.
“Do what?”
“Make it easy to breathe.” He huffs out a breath. “Even when everything else ain’t.”
Your heart squeezes so hard you have to look away.
“Rhett—”
He cuts you off, voice rough and low.
“I ain’t ever been real good with words. You know that. But every time I thought it'd fade… every damn time… it just got worse.”
“Worse?” you echo, breathless.
“Yeah.” He nods once. “Deeper. Stronger. Whatever you wanna call it.”
He shifts, boots scuffing the gravel, like what he’s about to say might split him clean open.
“I didn’t know if you’d come back tonight. But when I saw you… hell, darlin’. It was like the whole damn room got pulled into place.”
Your throat closes.
He keeps going, voice shaking just once. “I don’t know what the future looks like. I don’t. But I know one thing for sure.”
He turns to you fully now, moonlight catching the soft edges of him — the tired eyes, the gentle mouth, the boy you grew up with and the man he somehow became.
“It ain't her.” A pause that feels like a held breath.
“…It’s you.”
You suck in a breath so sharp it hurts.
Rhett swallows. “It’s always been you.”
Something warm and trembling breaks loose inside you.
You step toward him before you even think, hand lifting to touch the edge of his jacket sleeve.
He stills — utterly, completely — like the whole world is holding its breath with him.
“Rhett,” you whisper, voice cracking, “I’ve been falling in love with you since we were young.”
His breath leaves him in one stunned, trembling exhale.
He’s on you in a heartbeat — not kissing, not grabbing, just wrapping his hand around yours, threading your fingers together like he’s been waiting a decade to do it properly.
“You’re killin’ me,” he murmurs, forehead dropping gently against yours. “You really are.”
You laugh, watery and shaking. “Payback.”
His thumb sweeps over your knuckles, slow and reverent.
Then, softer than the night around you:
“Don’t stop fallin’, okay? ‘Cause I don’t think I ever did.”
And God — you’re gone.
Falling, crashing, landing right where you always knew you would:
In him.
—
EXTRA
You wake before the sun.
Not fully — just enough to feel the cool morning air drifting through the cracked window, enough to hear the soft clatter of something outside. A bucket. The fence gate. A distant dog bark.
You pull on a sweater and step onto the porch barefoot.
And there he is.
Rhett Abbott, half-shadowed in the sunrise, fixing the hinge on the back gate with a stubborn little wrinkle between his brows. He’s shirtless, hair messy, jeans riding low on his hips, but it isn’t the sight that hits you hardest — it’s the quiet.
The steadiness.
The way he moves like a man who’s always worked with his hands and always will.
You stand there a moment, unnoticed, just watching the man who once waited for you outside the gym… the man who found you in a truck bed when no one else noticed you’d disappeared… the man who confessed under string lights that it’d always been you.
He doesn’t hear you approach, not until the boards creak under your feet.
He looks up — and the second he sees you, his whole face softens.
“Hey,” he says, voice warm from sleep. “Didn’t mean to wake you.”
“You didn’t.” You hold out the mug you poured for him. “Thought you might need this.”
He steps closer, fingers brushing yours as he takes it — slow, deliberate, the kind of touch that says everything his voice never quite manages to.
His thumb skims the back of your hand.
Not possessive.
Not shy.
Just sure.
“You sleep alright?” he asks quietly.
You nod, but your eyes drift past him — to the wide pasture opening up behind the gate, to Amy’s bicycle leaning against the barn, to Cecilia’s laundry dancing on the line, to the empty yard where a child could one day run barefoot through the dust.
All the pieces of a life you didn’t know you wanted until now.
Rhett watches you look. He always watches you look.
“What’re you thinkin’?” he asks softly, like he already knows but wants to hear it anyway.
You swallow.
Slow.
Brave.
“That this…” You gesture at the morning, the ranch, him. “…feels like something I could stay in.”
Rhett’s breath catches — barely, but enough that you see it. Enough that it knocks something warm and tender loose in your chest.
He steps closer, close enough that you feel the heat from his bare skin under the rising sun.
“You don’t gotta stay,” he murmurs. His fingers graze your wrist, featherlight.
“But I’d sure like it if you did.”
Your heart folds in on itself.
Because he’s not asking you to promise anything wild.
Not asking you to speak vows.
Not asking for a future neither of you can see.
He’s just standing there, steady as the gate he’s fixing, offering you a place beside him.
And for the very first time in your life…
Forever doesn’t scare you.
It settles.
Warm.
Deep.
Right where it belongs.
You step into his space, rest your forehead against his chest, breathing in dust and sunshine and that stubborn, steady heart.
“Rhett?” you whisper.
“Yeah, darlin’?”
“I think you’re the kind of man I could build a whole life with.”
He freezes — just for a second — then exhales like he’s been waiting his whole damn life to hear it.
His arms wrap around you slow, reverent.
One hand on your back.
One at the base of your neck.
Holding you like something precious.
“Good,” he whispers into your hair. “‘Cause I been buildin’ mine around you for years.”
The sun breaks over the fields.
The day warms.
And you stand there wrapped in Rhett Abbott’s arms, realising:
It’s about what’s left — and whether love can survive it.
Chapter 1: Too Late
Chapter 2: Say You Hate Me (NSFW//MDNI)
Chapter 3: Tell Me You Did Feel That (NSFW//MDNI)
Chapter 4: Break Me Again (NSFW//MDNI)
Chapter 5: Reap What You Sow
Chapter 6: Let You Go
more chapters? idk… maybe try chapter 6 and cry about it.
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A/N: dropping this like a silent 💣 bc closure is a scam and I’m just the messenger.
Warnings: no warnings, just pain. I don’t like this ending either — but sometimes that's just how life breaks but maybe keep your eyes open for some clues
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You didn’t leave angry this time.
There was no shouting, no slammed door, no midnight truck engine rattling the windows as it tore down the gravel road. No one is screaming through the yard. No fists. No names. Just silence. Just the hollow sound of zippers and folded clothes and the faint clink of your keys when you set them on the counter, only to pick them up again moments later.
You packed slowly. Careful. Like you didn’t want to wake the city.
You hugged Amy too tight last night, kissed the crown of her head even though she was still half-asleep and mumbling about breakfast. You left a note for Cecilia, one for Royal — nothing dramatic, just enough to explain. And before the sun had even begun to spill across the ranch, you slipped into your truck, the cat curling up in the passenger seat like he knew something had ended. Like he could feel the shift in the air that no one else would say out loud.
And Rhett?
Rhett didn’t chase you.
Didn’t slam out of the house barefoot in his jeans, didn’t stand in the drive shouting your name like he used to when things got bad. He just stood at the window upstairs, one hand on the frame, and let you disappear.
Because deep down, he didn’t believe he deserved to stop you.
The first morning after you left, he poured two cups of coffee out of habit. His hands moved without thinking — your old mug was still there, hanging from the same little hook by the sink, chipped rim and all. He stared at it. Picked it up. Set it down again. Didn’t touch it after that. But every morning, his hand hovered near it like maybe this time it’d be warm, like maybe you’d walk back through the door and ask if he was going to stand there or bring you your damn coffee, just like the old days.
The porch didn’t sound right without your boots. The boards creaked in a way that felt unfinished, like a song with the last note missing. When the wind blew from the east, it carried something soft and familiar — a scent he could never name, but always knew was yours. That shampoo you said cost too much. The one you hid behind the towels so no one else would use it.
—
Maria stopped by three days later.
She didn’t bring questions. Just beer. Just silence. Rhett let her in without saying a word, and she didn’t ask for one.
The kiss was easy — too easy. It didn’t ache. It didn’t heal. It didn’t mean anything.
Later, when she lay beside him in the dark, breath shallow and eyes closed, Rhett sat on the edge of the bed with his elbows on his knees and stared out the window. He didn’t smoke. Didn’t drink. Just watched the night roll in and wondered if it might give him permission to rewind. To fix something. To go back and say the right damn thing when it mattered.
It didn’t.
—
He tried writing you a letter the next night.
Just your name at the top.
He stared at it for nearly twenty minutes before he finally moved the pen.
I’m sorry I didn’t stop you.
I still hear your voice in the mornings.
Then he folded the paper — still mostly blank — and tucked it into the inside pocket of his coat. Not to send. Not yet.
Maybe not ever.
—
Amy noticed.
She always noticed.
The way Rhett skipped breakfast now. The way he didn’t speak at dinner unless someone forced him to. The way he avoided the barn. The ring. The arena. The damn bull ropes. Wouldn’t even drive past it.
She started leaving little notes in his boots. Tucking them in where she knew he’d find them. Things like:
Eat something today.
Fix the latch on the paddock. Grandma’s getting mad.
She asked me to keep lookin’ out for you.
He never answered. Not directly.
But one morning, taped to the fridge, Amy found a Post-it in his scratchy handwriting:
Trying.
—
Maria came again.
This time it wasn’t careful.
It was fast. Desperate. Stripped of any real connection.
She didn’t stay long. Didn’t even take off her boots.
After, he sat at the edge of the bed again, head in his hands. She didn’t speak. Just pulled her coat back on, said something about feeding the horses, and left without looking back.
Her necklace stayed behind — forgotten on the nightstand.
Rhett didn’t notice it until two days later.
He didn’t call to return it.
Didn’t even move it.
He shut the drawer and didn’t open it again for weeks.
—
Some nights, Rhett walked the south fence line with nothing but a flashlight and your gloves stuffed into his back pocket. Those same worn gloves you’d worn when the two of you patched that crooked post together — the one that still leaned, slightly, like your hands had left their shape in the wood.
He’d walk the line in silence, tracing the cold wire with bare fingers, and remember the way your mouth twitched when you smiled to yourself. The way you stuck your tongue out when you concentrated. How proud you were when the post held.
He couldn’t bring himself to fix it properly.
Not without you.
—
Royal never said your name.
Never asked where you went. Never said a damn word.
But Rhett caught him once — standing by the barn, eyes fixed on the far-off hills like he was remembering something he couldn’t undo.
“You think she’ll ever come back?” Rhett asked, voice low.
Royal didn’t blink.
Didn’t speak.
Just turned and walked away.
—
On a random Monday, Amy found another letter.
Not sealed. Not folded. Just crumpled on the edge of Rhett’s desk.
It said:
I keep checkin’ the window at night like maybe you’ll be on the porch.
She didn’t cry. Didn’t tell him she found it.
She just smoothed it flat and slid it into the drawer with the others.
—
He tried sleeping in his bed again.
Once.
It lasted an hour.
The pillow still smelled like you — faint now, faded, but enough.
He took a blanket and moved to the porch. Slept upright in the old rocking chair with his boots still on and arms folded across his chest, like he was guarding something.
Something long gone.
—
One night, he walked down to the creek and skipped rocks until the skin on his fingers split open. He didn’t count. Didn’t care if they sank.
You’d once skipped four in a row and grinned like you’d just cracked some secret code. He used to tease you about it — said he let you win.
But the truth was, he never could get past two.
That night, he wrote again.
Didn’t tear it up.
Didn’t burn it.
Just scrawled:
I never stopped loving you. But maybe I stopped deserving you.
He folded it, placed it in the drawer, and left it there. No envelope.
Didn’t need one.
—
Amy hugged him in the hallway a few days later.
Didn’t say a word.
Just reached up and wrapped her arms around his ribs, small hands tight and certain.
He didn’t mean to fall apart.
But he did.
Not with sobs.
Just one hard breath, chin on her shoulder, a sound low in his throat that cracked open something he thought was already hollowed out.
—
By the third week, he found himself back in the pasture.
Didn’t mean to go there. Didn’t plan it.
He just walked.
No gloves. No tools. Just boots and the aching quiet of his own thoughts.
He stopped at the broken fence, pressed his palm to the wood you’d patched months ago, and stood there for a long time. He didn’t move. Didn’t speak.
Then he said your name once.
Soft. Like a prayer. Like a wish he didn’t believe would ever come true.
—
You were gone.
But Rhett didn’t move on.
He didn’t start over. Didn’t chase something new.
He just… stayed.
He fed the animals. He sat on the porch. He drank his coffee. He kept your mug clean.
And every time he opened that drawer with the letters — those half-written confessions, those broken thoughts with your name at the top — he didn’t read them.
Didn’t even unfold them.
He just ran his fingers across the paper like it might remember the shape of you.
And waited.
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The cab of Rhett’s truck was quiet, the kind of quiet that didn’t just happen — it was built, brick by brick, over the course of an exhausting, heart-wrenching, and perfect day.
The low hum of the engine was steady beneath you, a vibration you felt more than heard. Every so often, the faintest rattle came from his old keychain — a silver bottle opener and a flattened bullet casing that had been hanging from the ignition for as long as you’d known him. It tapped gently against the steering column each time the road curved, like it was keeping time with the miles.
Outside, the night pressed close. The headlights carved out a tunnel of pale gold light that stretched ahead, catching on the dust in the air, turning it into tiny sparks before they vanished into darkness again. The country road unfurled in front of you, familiar in its twists and dips. Tall cottonwoods and fence posts stood sentinel on either side, their silhouettes sharp against the faint glimmer of the stars.
The air coming through the cracked window was cool enough to make you aware of the heat in the cab — the heat of his arm resting close to yours, of the little bundle sleeping against your chest.
You shifted slightly, adjusting the swaddle without jostling her. She didn’t stir, just let out a slow, fluttery breath that ghosted against your collarbone. Her cheeks were impossibly soft under your chin, warm in that brand-new way only babies were. You brushed your finger gently over the pale fuzz of her hair — barely there, more like a whisper than a presence.
“She’s out,” you murmured, keeping your voice low.
Rhett didn’t look over right away, eyes still on the road, but you caught the way the corner of his mouth lifted, almost reluctant.
“She’s like you already,” he said, voice rough from hours without enough water and from all the quiet he’d been keeping since you left the hospital. “Knocked out the second the ride starts.”
You smiled, eyes tracing the curve of his profile — the way the light from the dash caught on his jaw, the faint shadow of stubble, the brim of his hat pulled low.
“Well,” you said softly, “I didn’t scream nearly as much during the drive.”
That got a full grin out of him, small and crooked but worth it. “You bit me.”
“You deserved it.”
His hand left the wheel briefly, knuckles grazing your thigh — not lingering, just reminding you he was there, grounding you without needing to say it.
“I’d let you bite me a hundred more times if it meant bringing her home.”
Something in your chest went warm and tight at the same time. You looked down at the baby again, at the little sigh she gave, barely louder than the whisper of the wind coming in through the window.
“We really did it, huh?”
“We did.”
His voice had dropped lower now, softened into something you felt as much as heard. It wasn’t pride exactly, and it wasn’t disbelief — it was both, tangled together.
“You sure you don’t wanna call ahead? Give ’em a heads-up?” he asked after a beat, flicking a glance your way.
You shook your head. “They already knew she was coming. Just not when. I think… I want this part to be ours a little longer. Let them see her when we show up. No fanfare.”
He nodded, and the quiet stretched comfortably again. “Alright then.” A beat later, his mouth twitched. “Let’s go ruin their evening.”
You laughed, too softly to wake her, and leaned your head briefly against the backrest, letting the hum of the tires lull you.
It wasn’t a long drive from the hospital to the ranch, but tonight it felt like crossing an ocean. Each landmark on the way seemed sharper than usual — the old windmill you used to see from the school bus window, the broken fence post Perry swore he’d fix two winters ago, the low dip in the road where rainwater liked to collect in spring.
Every mile was a piece of the world you were bringing her into.
And with every mile, you could feel Rhett settle more into the role he’d stepped into today. He didn’t fidget the way he sometimes did on long drives. He wasn’t chewing the inside of his cheek or tapping a rhythm on the steering wheel. He was steady. Focused. Like he had exactly one job, and it was to get the two of you — all three of you — home safe.
—
The gravel crunched beneath the tires as Rhett turned down the long drive, the sound muted under the hum of the engine but still familiar enough to sink into your bones. The headlights swept across the fence line, catching on the pale glint of barbed wire and the ghostly shapes of cattle further out in the pasture.
The Abbott ranch looked the same as it always had, though tonight it felt like it had been holding its breath, waiting for you. The porch light spilled a steady amber glow across the steps and down into the yard, warm against the dark.
Royal was out front, bent over the railing of the porch, his hand working at the loose section he’d been “about to fix” for years. He looked like he was having a silent standoff with it, the kind where he’d win purely through stubbornness.
Amy was curled up in the porch swing, her socked feet tucked under her, flipping lazily through a glossy magazine. She had earbuds in — probably blasting something Rhett would roll his eyes at — and the swing moved with the faintest creak each time she pushed off.
From the open kitchen window, a warmer light glowed — golden, steady. The faint clatter of something metal hitting a counter drifted out, along with a whisper of cinnamon and sugar. Cecilia was baking, which meant the house would smell like comfort the moment you stepped inside.
Rhett slowed the truck to a crawl as you reached the end of the drive, then eased it to a stop in front of the porch. For a moment, neither of you moved.
He kept one hand on the wheel, the other resting loosely on his thigh. “Last chance to back out,” he murmured, glancing over at you with a half-smile that didn’t quite hide the flicker of nerves in his eyes.
You arched a brow. “And miss seeing their faces?”
His grin deepened, the edge of his teeth catching the dash light. “Alright then.”
He was out first, boots hitting the gravel with a low crunch. You watched him come around to your side, his hand already reaching for the door handle. He opened it slowly, like he was unveiling something fragile, and held it there for you as if you were made of glass.
The night air wrapped around you as you stepped down — cooler than the cab, carrying the faint earthy scent of hay and distant rain. One arm stayed curled protectively around the tiny bundle against your chest. The baby stirred only slightly at the change in air, her nose wrinkling in that little way that was all Rhett when he caught a whiff of something odd in the barn.
Amy noticed first.
The magazine slid from her hands without a sound, landing in a crumpled heap beside her on the swing. She blinked, then straightened so fast the swing gave a startled jolt. Her earbuds dangled forgotten around her neck.
“Wait—” She was already on her feet, nearly tripping over herself as she stumbled down the steps. “Is that—”
Your grin widened. “Say hello, Aunt Ames.”
“NO WAY.”
She stopped short a foot away, bouncing in place but holding herself back like she wasn’t sure she was allowed to cross that invisible line yet.
“She’s here? You didn’t even say anything—! She’s so small. She’s like—like a biscuit!”
That made you laugh, your shoulders shaking despite the careful hold you kept. “She’s about the size of one, yeah.”
Amy’s hands hovered in midair before she clasped them tightly behind her back. “Can I—can I touch her?”
Rhett stepped forward then, his presence solid and easy but with that subtle protective edge you’d already seen more than once today. “Let her sleep a little first. She’s had a long day.”
Amy nodded like he’d just handed her some sacred instruction, her voice dropping to a reverent whisper. “Right. Got it. I’m gonna scream though. Just a little.”
She did — a quiet, breathless squeal she seemed to swallow halfway through, bouncing once on her toes before settling into a barely-contained sway.
The screen door creaked open behind her, and Perry stepped out, a can of something cold in his hand. He stopped mid-step, mid-sip, mid-breath. His gaze flicked from you to Rhett to the bundle in your arms.
“The hell—Rhett? Is that a baby?”
Rhett just nodded once, easy. “She’s ours.”
Perry blinked, lowering the can. “You’re holding a whole human child right now.”
“Good observation,” you said dryly.
He stepped down onto the gravel beside Amy, eyes wide but his voice casual, like he was trying not to admit how surprised he actually was. “I thought y’all were gonna wait a bit. You said you’d call—”
Rhett shrugged, hands in his pockets now. “Didn’t feel like calling.”
The screen door swung again, and this time it was Cecilia. She had her apron still tied at the waist, flour dusting her hands and streaking the front. The smell of cinnamon came with her, warm and rich against the cool night.
Her eyes found you first — then dropped to the baby — and her breath caught audibly.
“Oh my god.”
Her hands went to her mouth, but only for a heartbeat before she was moving, fast but careful, like she’d been waiting years for this exact moment.
“Is that her?”
You nodded.
Cecilia didn’t bother to wipe her tears away as she closed the last few feet between you. “Bring her here, baby. Let Grandma see.”
You stepped up onto the porch, the boards giving softly under your weight. Carefully, you passed the baby into her arms. Cecilia cradled her like something holy, her touch gentle but sure, like she’d been rehearsing for this moment in her mind a hundred times over.
“She’s perfect,” she whispered, her voice breaking. “She’s absolutely perfect.”
Behind her, Royal had straightened from his work on the railing. He didn’t come forward, didn’t speak — but you could feel his gaze, heavy and measuring, like he was trying to take in more than the moment could hold.
Rhett’s hand brushed yours, his knuckles rough but steady. You glanced at him, and he gave the barest nod toward his father.
“He’ll come around,” he murmured.
And maybe he was right. Because when Royal finally did take a step closer, the look in his eyes wasn’t cold or distant. It was full.
—
The moment you stepped over the threshold, the air changed.
The warmth of the kitchen had already been spilling through the open window outside, but in here it wrapped around you fully — a mix of sugar, cinnamon, and the faint clean tang of lemon oil from freshly polished wood. It smelled like home.
Cecilia moved with purpose, though she still kept the baby nestled against her as if every step was calculated for safety. She was murmuring something soft, not quite words, just the kind of cooing you did when your heart was so full it needed an outlet.
“She’s warm,” Cecilia noted immediately, glancing toward you as if to confirm her observation. “Is she warm enough?”
“She’s fine, Ma,” Rhett said, his voice softened but with a smile hidden in it. “You’ll overheat her.”
Amy trailed after them like a shadow, craning her neck for another peek at the swaddle. “Her nose is so tiny,” she whispered, reverent. “Like… like a grain of rice. I didn’t even know noses came that small.”
“She’s got her mama’s chin though,” Perry said from the couch, settling in with all the ceremony of someone who’d been born to take up space. “You can always tell a chin. That’s some genetics right there.”
You glanced over your shoulder at him. “Is that a compliment?”
Perry shrugged, entirely unbothered. “I mean, you got a good chin.”
Rhett gave him a flat look. “Perry.”
“What? I’m being nice.”
Cecilia shot him a look so sharp it might’ve taken paint off the wall.
“You could try just saying congratulations.”
Perry lifted his hands, can still in one. “Alright, alright. Congrats, you two. She’s cute. A little wrinkly, but I’ve been told that’s normal.”
Amy smacked her father’s arm, hard enough to make the can slosh. “Shut up, Dad.”
You laughed quietly, the sound melting some of the tension still knotted between your shoulders.
Finally, you eased down onto the loveseat, careful with the hem of your jacket so it didn’t bunch against your side. Rhett followed close behind, lowering himself into the cushion beside you until your knees touched.
He hadn’t stopped looking over at the baby since you’d arrived — little flickers of his gaze, like he was making sure she was still real. His arm brushed yours, and you felt the low hum of him even when he wasn’t speaking.
“She looks like you when she sleeps,” you murmured, tilting your head toward him.
“You think?”
“Same little frown,” you said with a faint smile. “Like she’s already judging the world.”
That pulled a soft huff of laughter from him, and he dipped his head just enough to press a kiss to your temple.
“Hope she’s not too much like me,” he murmured. “Kid deserves better.”
“Don’t say that,” you countered softly. “She hit the jackpot.”
Amy was still practically vibrating beside Cecilia. “Can I hold her now? I washed my hands and everything.”
You looked to Cecilia, who smiled warmly but kept her tone firm. “Sit down first, sweetheart.”
Amy didn’t argue. She dropped onto the armchair like she was about to take the world’s most important exam, her posture straight, hands out in the exact position Cecilia had taught her years ago for holding newborns.
The transfer was done with the precision of a surgeon — Cecilia easing the baby into Amy’s arms, adjusting her elbow just so. Amy’s eyes went wide the second those tiny fingers twitched.
“She’s so light,” she breathed. “Like a feather. Like if I breathe too hard she’s gonna float away.”
“She’s got lungs,” Rhett said, the corner of his mouth lifting. “Screamed the whole way into the world.”
Amy grimaced. “TMI, Uncle Rhett.”
Cecilia stayed close, her eyes never leaving the baby’s face. “You didn’t tell us on purpose, did you?” she asked, not accusing — just reading the room.
You hesitated, your eyes flicking to Rhett. He rubbed the back of his neck, the way he did when he didn’t want to lie but didn’t want to hand over the whole truth yet.
“We just… wanted a little quiet,” you admitted. “The hospital, the drive, the first few hours. Just us. We weren’t hiding her. We just… weren’t ready to share her yet.”
Cecilia nodded slowly, like she’d been expecting that answer. “I get it. I do.” She dabbed at her eyes with the side of her apron.
“But next time you do something that life-changing without calling me, I’ll disown you.”
Perry raised his can lazily. “Seconded.”
Amy’s grin was immediate. “Thirded. No secrets. Not when it comes to tiny perfect human biscuits.”
You ducked your head into Rhett’s shoulder to hide your smile, and he took the opportunity to wrap an arm fully around your waist, pulling you closer. The scent of hay and soap clung to him, grounding you in a way nothing else could after the chaos of the day.
After a while, Amy reluctantly surrendered the baby back into your arms. You felt the warmth of her through the swaddle, her tiny body twitching with some dream only she knew. Rhett leaned over and pressed his lips to the crown of her head, lingering there for a moment longer than he probably realized.
The house had settled now — voices softer, movements slower, the kind of rhythm that came after an emotional high. Everyone seemed full, content.
Everyone except one.
Royal was standing at the edge of the room, near the bottom of the stairs. Arms crossed. Brow furrowed. He didn’t look angry, but he didn’t look ready to join in, either. It was a position you’d seen before — the kind that meant he was thinking hard about what he wanted to say, and whether it was worth saying out loud.
Then, finally, he cleared his throat.
“I’ll take her,” he said quietly. “If you’ll let me.”
—
The room stilled.
Amy froze mid-step toward the kitchen. Perry stopped with his can halfway to his mouth. Even Cecilia’s hands stilled on her apron, as if she’d pressed pause on herself.
You looked up from the baby to Royal.
He was still by the stairs, back straight, shoulders squared like a man who’d spent his life taking on weight without complaint. His eyes, usually as guarded as the front gate in a snowstorm, were fixed on the swaddle in your arms.
He didn’t move right away. Didn’t try to soften his voice when he spoke again. “If she ain’t too fussy.”
“She’s not,” you said gently, rocking the bundle once before stilling her again. “She’s quiet when it matters.”
Rhett rose before you could, the motion unhurried but deliberate. He took the baby from your arms with the same care he’d shown since the moment she was placed in them hours ago. He’d barely let her go all day — only to you, to adjust the swaddle, to check that tiny chest rising and falling.
When he crossed the room toward Royal, it wasn’t just handing her over. It was like passing on a secret, a trust older than the wood in the floorboards.
Royal’s hands — big, work-roughened, lined with years of ranch work — hovered for a second. Not from uncertainty about holding a newborn. You could tell in the way he finally settled her into his arms that this wasn’t his first time. He’d done this before, long before Amy could remember. Long before you were part of the family.
The recliner creaked under his weight when he lowered himself into it. The old leather groaned the way it always had, bolts complaining quietly. He adjusted the blanket with careful thumbs, tucking it just under her chin.
And then… nothing. No movement. No sound from him except the steady rhythm of his breathing.
She didn’t stir. Didn’t cry. Just shifted faintly, her tiny mouth pressing into a softer pout. One impossibly small hand worked its way free from the swaddle, the fingers splaying once before curling into the fabric of his shirt.
Royal didn’t breathe for a moment. His eyes were fixed on her like he was trying to memorize a blueprint he’d never get to see again.
“She’s got your eyes,” he said finally, tilting his head toward Rhett.
“You think?” Rhett’s voice was softer than before, almost boyish.
Royal nodded once. “And your mama’s mouth. I’d know that pout anywhere.”
His thumb brushed gently along the curve of her cheek, slow enough you knew he was afraid of waking her. But she stayed where she was — warm, steady, trusting.
“Didn’t think I’d get another girl in this house,” he murmured. His gaze stayed on her, but his voice reached everyone in the room. “Always figured it’d just be the boys. Breaking things. Fighting over horses. Didn’t think I’d get to hear tiny feet running up that hallway again.”
No one spoke. Not even Perry.
“You’re gonna be somethin’ fierce,” he whispered to her. “I can already tell.”
The hand on his shirt shifted again, gripping just enough to make the fabric dimple. His mouth twitched — not quite a smile, but something close.
“She’s strong. Already got a grip.”
“She gets that from her mama,” Rhett said, and you felt his hand find yours without looking.
Royal glanced up then, meeting your eyes for the first time since you walked in. And this time, there was nothing unreadable in it. No distance. Just something warm and steady and unexpectedly proud.
“You did good,” he told Rhett. Then, softer, to you: “Both of you. Real good.”
You bit down on the lump rising in your throat, nodding once.
“She’s lucky,” he went on. “Not just ’cause she’s an Abbott. But because she’s got two people who love her more than anything.”
His voice caught just slightly on the word love. He cleared his throat, shifting in the recliner like the moment was getting too big to hold in his hands.
“You bring her by this chair anytime. Doesn’t matter the hour.”
It sounded like a command, but the crack in it made it something else entirely. An invitation.
“I got stories to tell her,” he added. “About this place. About all of you. And I reckon she’s gonna need someone to sneak her cookies when her mama says no.”
Your vision blurred unexpectedly, and you found yourself blinking fast.
Royal didn’t look away from the baby, but his voice softened again. “You gave this old house a new kind of quiet. The good kind.”
Behind you, Amy — ever the mood-breaker — piped up with deliberate innocence.
“Was everyone this soft and weepy when Dad brought me home?”
Perry froze mid-sip. “What? No! I mean—probably! I don’t—shut up, Amy.”
Rhett’s shoulders shook beside you, his face dropping into your shoulder to hide the smirk that betrayed him.
Royal’s mouth twitched, and you caught the barest flash of amusement before he looked down at the baby again.
Cecilia muttered, “Lord, here we go,” but she was smiling too.
Amy grinned, satisfied. “Yeah. That’s what I thought.”
—
It took a good fifteen minutes before Royal let anyone near her again.
Not because he was keeping her, exactly — just because no one else dared to interrupt.
The baby stayed perfectly content in his arms, head nestled into the crook of his elbow, her small breaths soft enough to make you lean in just to hear them. He rocked the recliner slowly, the leather creaking in a rhythm that matched her breathing.
When Cecilia finally touched his shoulder, it was more like she was asking than telling. “Alright, hand her over, old man. She needs her mama.”
Royal made a sound that might’ve been a grumble, but it softened into something that could almost pass for a laugh. He rose, careful as anything, and passed her back to you like he was handling something made of glass and sunlight.
The weight of her settled against your chest, familiar and grounding. She twitched once, then let out a little sigh, her lips pursing in that same faint pout Royal had pointed out earlier.
“You hungry?” Cecilia asked, already halfway toward the kitchen.
“I’m okay,” you said, but she waved it off.
“Not asking. You’ve been running on adrenaline since this morning. Sit down — I’ll fix you a plate.”
Perry stretched on the couch, making no move to help but smirking like the room was his personal stage. “Bet it’s pie.”
“Bet you don’t get any,” Cecilia shot back without turning around.
Amy had reclaimed her place in the armchair, knees pulled up to her chest, still staring at the baby like she was waiting for her to open her eyes and deliver her first profound thought.
“What’s she gonna call me?” she asked suddenly.
“That’s up to her,” Rhett said, lowering himself beside you again. His knee pressed to yours, his hand finding its way along the back of the loveseat so it nearly brushed your shoulder. “Might be Aunt Amy. Might be something she makes up herself.”
Amy considered this seriously. “As long as it’s not something lame like… ‘Auntie Face.’”
Perry snorted. “You’d deserve it.”
“Would not.”
“Would too.”
The familiar back-and-forth rolled on in the background, low and harmless, while you leaned into Rhett’s side just enough for his arm to slide down and settle across your shoulders. His thumb brushed slow circles against your arm — not intentional enough to draw attention, but steady enough that you knew it was for you and not anyone else to see.
“You okay?” he murmured, pitched just for you.
“Yeah,” you said, and you meant it. “Just… tired.”
He pressed his lips briefly to your hairline, and you could feel the smile in it. “Me too.”
The kitchen filled with the sound of plates being set down and drawers opening. Cecilia returned with two slices of pie and a small bowl of whipped cream, setting them on the coffee table like it was a peace offering.
“You feed the mama first,” she said to Rhett, like it was non-negotiable.
“Yes, ma’am,” he said easily, and handed you a fork.
Royal had moved back to his spot by the stairs, arms crossed again, though his eyes lingered on the swaddle. You caught him watching once or twice more, that same quiet look — the one that said he wasn’t just seeing her, he was seeing everything she’d change.
It made something in your chest pull tight in a way you couldn’t name yet.
By the time you finished eating, Amy had started listing all the things she planned to teach her niece when she was “old enough to know fun.” Perry had started telling a story about Rhett as a baby, which Rhett interrupted three times before giving up entirely.
The house felt different now — not louder, not exactly — just fuller. Like it had gained an extra heartbeat.
When you finally stood, shifting the baby in your arms, Rhett was right there, his hand on the small of your back. “We’ll get her settled.”
Cecilia kissed your cheek before you could leave the room. “She’s already home,” she said quietly. “You all are.”
You smiled, a little too choked up to answer.
Royal didn’t say anything as you passed him, but you felt the weight of his gaze, warm and unblinking. And maybe, just maybe, you thought you caught the faintest nod before you stepped into the hallway.
—
The hallway felt different with the baby in your arms, like the shadows were softer somehow, like the hum of the house had dropped into a quieter key just to make room for the rhythm of her breathing. You moved slowly, not because you needed to, but because you could — because there was no one on your heels anymore, no one asking to peek, no voice calling out one more joke, no kitchen drawer clacking open, just the faint creak of the floorboard outside the bathroom that always complained, the soft rasp of Rhett’s boots as he followed you, guarding the space behind you the way he had guarded every minute of the drive.
He reached past you at the bedroom door, palm flat to the wood, easing it open like the hinges themselves might spook her. The room was exactly as you’d left it the morning you rushed out: bed smoothed but not perfect, the hospital bag gaping in the corner as if surprised to find itself empty, a folded stack of tiny clothes on the dresser like a promise you’d made to a future that finally arrived. The late-night lamp cast an amber circle across the quilt, catching the dust motes as they drifted, turning them into slow sparks.
Rhett clicked the lamp down a notch. “Too bright?”
“It’s okay,” you said, but he dimmed it anyway, and the light softened into something you could breathe in.
The bassinet was by the window, quilted sides you’d stitched by hand over a handful of evenings when your feet were swollen and you’d pretended you didn’t mind it. He’d sanded the legs himself, running his fingers over every edge until there was not a single splinter left in the world, at least not one that would find its way to her. He’d done it at the kitchen table because the garage smelled like grease and old oil and he’d said he wanted her first furniture to smell like cinnamon and coffee and the house that would hold her.
You passed her into his arms just long enough to tug the blanket straighter. He took her the way he’d taken her from the nurse, the way he’d taken her from Royal — like a vow being made with hands as well as words. He didn’t need any instruction; she sank into him without fuss, and a sound like the idea of a sigh left her, the kind that makes your own lungs answer without meaning to.
“She’s heavier than I expect,” he said, quiet, almost laughing at himself.
“She’s a whole person,” you murmured. “Feels like it more when it’s just us.”
He leaned down so his face was closer to hers, the brim of his hat almost brushing the swaddle before he remembered and set it on the dresser with a soft thud. The crown of his hair was a little flattened, day-old gel and hospital sweat and whatever wind had found him on the walk from the truck to the porch. He looked younger without the hat and older, somehow both things at once.
“You think she’s hungry?” he asked, not because he couldn’t tell, but because asking let him linger in the question a second longer, let him look, let him keep naming the little things as they came. He’d been naming them all day: that’s her foot, that’s her hairline, that’s her tiny hiccup, that’s her mad face, that’s the sound she makes when she’s deciding whether the world deserves a cry.
“Maybe,” you said, and it was the truth, but the truth was also that you wanted to sit with her in your arms in the hush before the clock struck another hour and the day that brought her into the world turned into the day you brought her home.
You sat on the edge of the bed and he handed her back, a trade you both completed without words, practiced already, seamless. Her weight shifted against your chest, that little rooting motion starting and stopping, her mouth a soft petal that opened and pressed and opened again, instinct pulling on instinct until she found what she was looking for and the room shrank to the sound of her swallowing and the soft shh you didn’t even know you were making.
Rhett sank down onto the floor in front of you, back against the bed frame, knees bent, one arm hooked over them, the other hand reaching to rest lightly on your calf as if to steady the ship. He watched her with a look you knew you’d see again and again — the look that said I’ll spend the rest of my life learning the map of your face, and I’ll never be done. His thumb dragged a lazy line along your ankle bone, not even a motion so much as a presence, and you thought of all the nights ahead when the house would be this quiet and he would still be there, somewhere inside the circle of you and the child you’d made, anchor and witness, worn-out boots kicked off by the door.
“Hurts?” he asked, eyes flicking up to yours, reading the tightness at the corner of your mouth the way he’d learned to read spooked cattle and a stubborn bull — not with panic, not with pride, just a steady consideration that made you feel like you were safe even in the places that weren’t.
“A little,” you admitted. “Less than earlier.”
“I can get the ice packs,” he offered, already halfway to standing.
“After,” you said, and laid your free hand on his shoulder, keeping him there. “Stay.”
He stayed.
Minutes passed the way minutes do in rooms like that — stretched out, then suddenly gone, then stretched again. She paused once, gave a soft, indignant sound that made both of you laugh in your throats, then settled, her lashes a pale brush against her cheek, her fist opening and closing against the edge of your shirt like she was trying to grab hold of the world and pull it closer.
“You bit me,” he said finally, and there was a smile in it, the good one, the one that lifted just his right cheek first.
“You deserved it,” you whispered back. “You said ‘you’re almost there’ when I was not even slightly almost there.”
He winced and laughed at the same time. “I was trying to be encouraging.”
“You were trying to keep your hand,” you said, because teasing was a way to let the memory live without letting it overwhelm you.
He reached up and laced his fingers with yours where your hand rested on his shoulder. “I would’ve given it to you,” he said, not looking away from the baby. “Any part. All of it.”
Something tender and achy loosened in your chest, the kind of ache you wanted to keep, the kind that made everything else make sense. “I know.”
She finished and drifted, mouth going slack, breath going slow. You eased free and adjusted her, and Rhett was already up on his knees, already holding out his hands for the transfer. He put her against his chest so naturally you might have believed that’s where she’d been made, his palm a span across her back, his chin tucked to keep her hatless head warm.
“You want me to burp her?” he asked, glancing down as if he’d catch the answer in the set of her tiny shoulder blades.
“Yeah.”
He did it with the gentlest insistence, little pats and longer strokes, the kind of rhythm you could fall asleep to if you weren’t already afraid to blink and miss it. She gave a valiant, unimpressive burp that made him light up like he’d won a belt buckle, and he grinned down at her as if she’d told the funniest joke in the world.
“There you go, cowgirl,” he murmured. “First of many.”
He walked a short, slow loop of the room, not to put her down, just to feel what it felt like to be moving through a space with her in it. He stepped around the hospital bag as if it were a sleeping dog, nudged the closet door closed with his hip, paused at the windowsill where you’d set the tiny framed photo of the two of you in front of the south fence line, the one Amy took where the wind caught your hair and Rhett hadn’t noticed because he was looking at you like the fence line wasn’t the only border he’d ever seen.
“You wanna… try the bassinet?” he asked, but he didn’t move yet, and you could tell he was cataloguing the moment, writing it down behind his eyes.
“In a minute.”
The minute turned into three, maybe five, and then he returned, crouched so you could tuck the blanket corners like you preferred, and together you lowered her into the small nest by the window. She made a brief, diplomatic protest — one soft mewl, two tiny stretches that ended in a scrunched face — then settled, the kind of surrender that makes you both proud and a little bit devastated.
Rhett rested his forearms on the edge of the bassinet and bowed his head, not in prayer exactly, just in gratitude so quiet it felt like prayer anyway. “Hey, little bean,” he said, voice barely air. “That’s your spot. For now.”
You stood beside him, shoulder to shoulder, your hip nudging his, your fingers sliding up to the nape of his neck, where his hairline was warm and soft. He leaned into your hand like it helped him stand there without melting into the floor.
“What do you think she’ll be like?” he asked, eyes still on her, and the question landed between you like a gentle dare.
You considered the tiny breaths, the slow even rise of the blanket.
“Bossy,” you said, because the thought made you smile. “Kind. Stubborn when it matters.”
He huffed the smallest laugh. “Sounds like someone I know.”
“Which one?”
He tilted his head toward the bassinet. “Both.”
Silence folded back over you, the good kind, the kind you could live in. Somewhere down the hall, a pipe ticked once in the bathroom wall, then again. Farther off, the refrigerator motor in the kitchen kicked into its steady drone. The house kept being a house around you while your whole life rearranged itself inside of it.
“You scared?” he asked, quiet, not fishing for reassurance so much as inviting the truth to sit with you.
“A little,” you said. “But it’s a good little. The kind that makes you look both ways and hold the rail when the steps are wet.”
“Yeah.” He nodded once, like he’d been waiting for you to name it that way. “Me too.”
He straightened and turned, and you let your hand fall to his chest. His shirt was soft with wear, the seam at his shoulder frayed, the beat of him steady under your palm. He covered your hand with his, fingers sliding between yours, the both of you still facing the bassinet like you were standing watch.
“I keep thinking about my dad,” he admitted, and the words were careful, like he wasn’t sure how many he wanted to let out. “About that chair. About how he held her. I didn’t think—”
He stopped, searching for the right horizon line.
“I didn’t think that’d be the picture we got,” he said finally. “But I’m glad it is.”
You didn’t say me too, because he knew. You didn’t say there’ll be days it’s not like that, because he knew that too. You just squeezed his hand and felt him squeeze back, and the truth folded neatly between you like a note.
“We should sleep while she’s sleeping,” you said, practical and hopeful, and he smiled like you’d said something hilarious and wise.
“In theory,” he agreed, but neither of you moved.
You tidied the hospital bag because your hands needed something to do. He picked up the tiny hat from the bed and smoothed it between his fingers, then set it on the dresser beside his own hat like a little joke only the two of you would see every morning. He plugged in the baby monitor even though the bassinet was eight steps from the bed. He checked the window latch and then checked it again.
You turned down the quilt and slid in, moving slow so the mattress wouldn’t complain. He rounded to his side and sat on the edge, unlacing his boots with the concentration of a man defusing a bomb, setting them heel-to-toe under the nightstand as if there were a rule about it. When he finally lay down, it was on his side facing you, one arm under the pillow, the other reaching over the small distance until his fingertips found your wrist.
“You did it,” he said simply, and you could feel how much he wanted to stack more words on top, how many comparisons and metaphors were lined up behind his teeth, all of them unnecessary.
“We did it,” you corrected, and watched that sink into him like a balm.
He glanced at the bassinet again. “You think she needs a night light? I could grab the one from the kitchen, the little cow.”
“She’s asleep.”
“Right.” He settled. “I just—want it right.”
“It is,” you said, because it was, because even the parts that hurt had a shape you could bear, because the air in the room felt gentler for being shared.
Outside, something small moved in the yard — a fox, maybe, or a stray cat working the fence line. The ranch talked in its sleep the way it always did, coyotes far off, one lonely truck on the road a mile away, the electricity in the walls making its small, constant confession. The baby breathed. You breathed. Rhett breathed. The room found its rhythm.
You were almost under when you felt the shift of the mattress, the ghost of his weight pulling away. Your eyes opened and found him already half standing, bare feet careful on the rug, his silhouette moving toward the bassinet. He didn’t pick her up. He just leaned over and looked, one hand on the rim, one hand on his own chest like he was quieting himself.
You watched him there, and you thought of all the versions of Rhett you’d known, all the places you’d found him — at the end of the bar, at the edge of a pasture, under a truck with grease on his jaw, in a kitchen with a coffee mug warming his hands, on a rodeo chute with a prayer he didn’t say out loud — and you knew this one would undo you the most, the man who could stand in a dim room and be content with nothing but the sound of his daughter sleeping.
He came back softer, sank down, tucked in, and you slid your toes over his ankle like the oldest ritual in the world. He smiled without opening his eyes. You closed yours and let the day tilt and slow and finally stop. It didn’t last — the first startle came twenty minutes later, a little gasp from the bassinet that had the two of you sitting up like you’d been called to attention — but when you leaned over and she sighed again and settled and you both exhaled, there was laughter in it, sleepy and disbelieving.
“Guess we’re doing this,” he murmured, half a grin.
“We are,” you said, and lay back down, and this time you slept, not all the way through, not for long, but enough to make the next waking feel like a gift you were ready to open together.
i’m handling the worst client imaginable, got scolded for something i didn’t even do, and i’ve been working 12+ hour days back to back.
i’m tired. like… deep-in-my-bones kind of tired.
i am still writing — just really slowly. i know some of you are waiting, and i hate keeping you waiting, but right now… work is just swallowing me whole.
sometimes i think about quitting corporate altogether.
maybe working in a quiet little café somewhere, where no one yells, no one blames, and i can just make coffee, serve kindness, and write when the sun’s still up.
whenever i feel really down, i scroll through your replies and comments…
and honestly? they remind me that life might still be worth living — even just for a moment, even just for one of you 🩷
i’m trying my best. please don’t lose hope on me.
i see you. i’m grateful for you. i’m just… really, really tired.
I need need need sunshine reader who is always bubbly and fun and grumpy rhett and someone suits on reader and makes her sad so now rhett has to fight a batch (maybe slash their tires)
Where Wanting Isn’t Wrong
A/N: when my cherri asks, i DELIVER 🍒💌 did cherri send this like a month ago? …yes. am i sorry i’m late? …also yes 😭
and yes, this is a little long...
Warnings: blame the dust, blame rhett, blame me wanting something that’s not easy but real.
Masterlist
Feedback and reposts are appreciated ☀️
The morning smelled like sun-warmed grass and cheap lemonade, the kind the PTA sold in Styrofoam cups for fifty cents, a line of sticky-handed kids waiting while you poured, bright and easy, your laughter ringing out as you ruffled hair and handed out cups with that smile everyone in Wabang knew.
You were a light in this dusty town, the kind that made people pause, made them think maybe today wasn’t so bad. That made Rhett Abbott stop dead in his tracks when he caught it from across the schoolyard.
You didn’t even see him at first. He’d shown up because Perry made him, a truckload of hay bales for the petting zoo you were setting up with your class, because it was the kind of thing you did, volunteering when no one else would, organizing a fundraiser so the kids could go see the state fair, your clipboard clutched against your chest as you gave instructions to parents who never listened.
Rhett tried to drop the bales and leave, quiet, unnoticed, his boots scuffing gravel, hat pulled low, eyes avoiding the way you were bent over tying a kid’s shoelaces with a soft word and a gentle pat.
But you looked up, saw him, and your face cracked into that wide, warm smile, your hand lifting in a wave that made his throat tighten.
“Rhett! Thank you so much for bringing these, we couldn’t have done this without you!”
Your voice carried, soft but somehow stronger than the heat rolling off the asphalt, and he fought the way his stomach twisted, nodding once, tipping his hat without meeting your eyes, his jaw working as he swallowed the words he’d never let himself say.
“Yeah,” he muttered, barely loud enough for you to hear, turning away, wanting to leave before you could get closer.
But of course, you did.
Your boots crunched on gravel as you jogged up, wiping your hands on your jeans, eyes bright.
“Really, thank you. The kids are going to love the petting zoo.”
Your smile didn’t falter, and that was the worst part, the way you looked at him like he wasn’t just Rhett Abbott, the screwup, the one who could never quite get it right.
He shifted, uncomfortable, eyes darting to the kids running past, to the truck, to anywhere but you.
“You need anythin’ else, just let Perry know.”
You opened your mouth like you wanted to say something else, but the whistle of a kettle from the bake sale table cut through, and you turned, waving as you jogged back.
“Thanks again, Rhett!”
He watched you go, that bounce in your step, the way you ruffled a kid’s hair as you passed, and he let out a breath he didn’t know he’d been holding, scrubbing a hand over his mouth before climbing back into the truck.
He didn’t look back, but he could feel you, the way you made the world around you warmer just by being in it.
—
He drove back to the ranch, windows down, the wind hot against his face, trying to shake you off, trying to tell himself it didn’t matter, that you didn’t matter, that you were just being nice, that it wasn’t for him.
That you were sunshine, and sunshine didn’t belong to anyone.
—
But later, when Perry teased him over dinner, elbowing him as Cecilia laughed softly, when Amy giggled about how “She is the best teacher, Uncle Rhett, she’s so pretty and nice,” Rhett felt that tightness in his chest again, pushing at the edges of his ribs, a pressure that made it hard to breathe.
“You gonna help out at the fundraiser tomorrow?” Perry asked, eyebrow lifted, grin lazy.
Rhett shook his head, stabbing at his food.
“Ain’t my thing.”
“Could be,” Perry drawled.
Rhett looked up, eyes sharp.
“Drop it.”
Perry put up his hands, still grinning, but Rhett could feel Cecilia’s eyes on him, warm and sad, like she knew, like everyone in this damn town knew, like the whole world was in on the joke except for you.
—
That night, Rhett sat on the porch, beer bottle sweating in his hand, the crickets loud, the stars sharp and clear.
He thought about you, your laugh, the smudge of flour on your cheek from the bake sale, the way your eyes met his and didn’t flinch, didn’t look away, didn’t judge.
He thought about the way you’d smiled at him, the way it had made something in him ache so badly he wanted to punch something, or pull you close, or both.
He took a long swig, swallowing hard, letting the bitterness burn down his throat.
“Don’t be stupid,” he muttered to himself, leaning back in the creaking chair, eyes on the dark sky.
You weren’t his.
You’d never be his.
But that didn’t stop him from wanting.
—
The next morning smelled like dusty gravel and the sweet tang of early summer, the kind that stuck to your skin before noon. You were there early, pinning up streamers on the chain-link fence around the schoolyard, hair tied back, shirt tied at the waist, humming under your breath as you directed volunteers where to place tables and fold-up chairs.
You were always there, Rhett thought. Always smiling, always making the tired look up and the grumpy pause, even if only for a moment.
He wasn’t supposed to be there. He told Perry he wouldn’t come. Told himself he wouldn’t come. But there he was, parked across the street, engine ticking as it cooled, watching you fuss over the lemonade table, your laugh floating over the hum of the small crowd gathering.
Then he showed up.
Caleb. Fresh boots, crisp plaid shirt, the too-bright grin of a man who wanted everyone to notice him. Wanted you to notice him.
He sauntered up, carrying a box of donated snacks, all swagger, throwing a wink at you that made Rhett’s hands tighten on the wheel.
“Well if it ain’t Miss Angel herself, brightenin’ up the whole damn parking lot.”
You laughed, easy and polite, stepping forward to take the box.
“Morning, Caleb. Thank you for bringing these.”
“Anything for you, darlin’,” Caleb said, voice too loud, too slick, eyes lingering too long.
You didn’t flinch, didn’t drop your smile, just turned away, gesturing where the snacks needed to go, pulling your clipboard against your chest as you gave instructions to a pair of teens trying to wrangle folding tables.
Rhett watched you tuck a loose strand of hair behind your ear, your shoulders rolling back as you squared up to face Caleb again when he followed too close, leaning in like he had a right.
“Can I help with anything else, sweetheart?” Caleb drawled, leaning against the table, elbows spread wide, like he wanted the world to see how close he was standing.
“We’ve got it handled,” you said, still polite, still warm, but Rhett saw the shift in your shoulders, the way your fingers tightened around your pen before you turned away.
Caleb followed you anyway, stepping around a kid with a juice box, flashing you a grin like he thought it meant something.
Rhett’s jaw ticked, heat blooming in his chest, crawling up his throat, bitter and sharp. He forced himself to look away, to focus on the cracked dashboard of the truck, the sweat rolling down the back of his neck, the buzzing hum of the cicadas screaming in the heat.
“Ain’t your business,” he muttered to himself, fingers drumming against the steering wheel.
—
But he couldn’t leave.
Couldn’t tear his eyes away from the way Caleb hovered, the way you laughed politely at something he said, though it didn’t reach your eyes. The way Caleb’s hand brushed your arm, lingered for half a second too long, your shoulders stiffening before you pulled away, moving to help a kid adjust the sign on the lemonade stand.
It was a small thing, that moment, but Rhett felt it like a punch, the blood rushing in his ears.
—
Later, Rhett moved to the edge of the lot, leaning against his truck, arms crossed, cap pulled low. Watching.
Caleb kept orbiting you, always too close, always talking too loud, throwing jokes your way that made the PTA moms giggle, made the other men smirk, but Rhett saw your eyes darting away, your smile thinning at the edges.
“So, what’s a girl like you do after hours, huh?” Caleb’s voice carried across the lot as he leaned against the fence where you were stapling up a banner.
“Grade papers, eat dinner, go to bed. Same as everyone else,” you replied lightly, focused on your task, not looking at him.
“Aw, c’mon. A smile like that deserves better than microwaved leftovers,” Caleb pushed, stepping in, shadow falling over your shoulder.
Rhett’s knuckles went white where they gripped his arms.
—
You turned then, looking up at Caleb, your smile polite but your eyes cool.
“I appreciate your help today, Caleb, but I need to focus on getting this ready before the parents arrive.”
“I’m just tryin’ to be friendly,” Caleb said, leaning in, voice dropping, low enough that only you and Rhett, standing far enough to watch but close enough to hear, could catch it. “Unless you’re too stuck up for that, Miss Angel.”
Your jaw tightened. Rhett saw it, that flicker of steel beneath the sweetness, the way you squared your shoulders, chin lifting.
“I’m not interested. Back off.”
For a heartbeat, Caleb’s grin slipped, replaced by something colder before he forced the smirk back.
“Your loss,” he drawled, pushing away from the fence with a shrug that tried to play it off.
You turned back to your banner, fingers trembling just once before you pulled the last staple from your pocket, pressing it into the fabric with finality.
—
Rhett let out a breath he hadn’t realized he was holding, tension snapping along his shoulders as he pushed off the truck.
“Don’t,” he muttered to himself, jaw tight. “Don’t do nothin’ stupid.”
But he watched you walk back to the tables, greeting parents with a smile, letting kids hug your waist, your laugh bright but a little tighter, your eyes flickering once across the lot where Rhett stood, meeting his for half a second before you looked away.
He stayed, arms crossed, boots planted in the dirt, watching as Caleb slunk around the edge of the event, trying to catch your eye, smirking when you turned away, whispering something to another ranch hand who chuckled.
Rhett’s hands twitched, rage simmering under his skin, mixing with something else, something he didn’t want to name. Something like want, like need, like the ache that burned low in his belly every time he saw you smile at someone else.
—
The sun dipped lower, the crowd thinning, the air cooling as shadows stretched across the lot.
Rhett didn’t leave. Couldn’t. Not when Caleb was still there, hovering, eyes on you like you were something to claim.
Not when you were there, sunlight in your hair, holding it all together, holding him together without even knowing it.
—
The fundraiser wound down with the taste of dust in the air and kids running through the last dregs of sunlight, parents laughing, cars pulling out one by one, the lot slowly emptying until it was just you and a few volunteers folding tables, the hum of cicadas rising with the cooling air.
You were tired, but it was the good kind, the kind you earned, the kind that made your skin glow as you wiped sweat from your temple, pushing stray hair from your face while you stacked leftover cupcakes into boxes for the staff lounge.
You didn’t see Caleb watching from the fence, didn’t see the way his eyes tracked the last volunteers as they left, didn’t see how he lingered, waiting until you were alone.
You were humming, the soft song you always sang when you cleaned up alone, because it made the silence feel less heavy.
—
“Need a hand?”
The voice made you jump, the cupcake you were packing toppling sideways.
Caleb.
You turned, forcing the polite smile, brushing frosting off your fingers onto a napkin.
“Thanks, but I’ve got it,” you said, moving to close the box, folding it carefully.
“Aw, c’mon, sweetheart. Let a man feel useful.”
He stepped closer, boots crunching gravel, the sun catching the edge of a smirk that made your stomach twist, but you kept your voice even.
“I said I’ve got it.”
“Don’t be like that,” he said, hand reaching out, brushing your arm, lingering, thumb stroking the inside of your elbow like he had a right.
You stepped back, pulling your arm away.
“Caleb, stop.”
“You’re just playin’ hard to get, Miss Angel. Everyone sees it.”
The air felt thicker, pressing against your ribs as you held your ground.
“No. I’m not interested. Leave.”
“Don’t act like you’re better than me,” he snapped, the grin dropping, eyes hard, stepping in until your back bumped the table.
You lifted your chin, letting your eyes flash.
“I said. Leave.”
His hand snapped out, gripping your wrist, fingers pressing bruises before you could wrench away. The world narrowed to the smell of stale cologne, the heat of his breath, the weight of his anger.
“Let go of me.”
“Stop pretending you don’t want this—”
Your knee came up fast, slamming into his thigh. He stumbled back with a curse, loosening his grip enough for you to shove him, hard, your breath ragged.
“Touch me again, and I’ll bury you.”
Your voice didn’t shake. Your hands did.
Caleb’s eyes darkened, rage and embarrassment twisting across his face as he stepped forward again.
“You think you can—”
“She said stop.”
The voice was low, calm, deadly.
Caleb froze. You turned, chest heaving, and there was Rhett, standing a few feet away, hands balled at his sides, hat low over his eyes, boots planted in the dirt like he was part of it, like nothing could move him.
Caleb let out a breath, scoffing.
“Oh, this what it is? You lettin’ Abbott here fight your battles?”
You stepped forward before Rhett could, shoulders squared, voice sharp.
“I don’t need him to fight for me.”
“Doesn’t look like it,” Caleb sneered.
“Get. Out.”
Caleb’s jaw ticked, spit hitting the ground as he glared at you, at Rhett, at the way Rhett’s body blocked your view, even though you pushed forward, refusing to hide behind him.
“Crazy bitch.”
You flinched, but you didn’t step back.
Caleb turned, heading for his truck, muttering under his breath, shoulders stiff with wounded pride.
—
You felt your breath leave your body, knees threatening to buckle, adrenaline making your fingers tingle.
“You okay?” Rhett’s voice, low, careful, like approaching a spooked horse.
You nodded, but your eyes were hot, throat tight.
“I had it handled.”
“I know.”
Your eyes flicked to him, the way the tension in his jaw trembled, how his fingers flexed like he was holding himself back from tearing the world apart.
“Don’t—”
“Stay here.”
And before you could speak, he was gone, long strides across the gravel, boots thudding, darkness swallowing him as he rounded the corner.
—
You stood there, chest rising and falling too fast, fists tight, the air thick with dirt and the smell of hot metal, your pulse drumming in your ears as you tried to decide whether to scream or keep it together.
You heard it first—a dull thud, a sharp grunt, the scrape of boots on gravel.
Then Rhett’s voice, low, dangerous:
“Don’t put your hands on her again.”
You rounded the corner, heart in your throat.
Rhett had Caleb pinned against the side of his truck, forearm pressed hard against his chest, the other hand fisted in Caleb’s shirt. Caleb’s face was twisted, blood trailing from his nose, his eyes wide with panic.
“Rhett,” you called, your voice hoarse, steady. “That’s enough.”
Rhett didn’t look at you. His jaw was tight, shoulders tense, eyes fixed on Caleb with a rage so cold it made you shiver.
Rhett’s fist slammed into the truck next to Caleb’s head, hard enough to leave a dent.
“She’s not your business,” Rhett said, his voice like gravel.
You moved closer, boots crunching on the gravel.
“Rhett. Let him go.”
His eyes flicked to you then, dark, unreadable, before dropping to your wrist where Caleb’s fingers had left a smear of dirt and red.
Rhett’s jaw flexed once, twice.
Then he stepped back, letting Caleb stumble forward, gasping.
Caleb wiped his mouth, spit in the dirt, trying to cover the fear in his eyes.
“Crazy bastard,” Caleb muttered, backing away.
“Get in your truck and go,” you said, your voice flat.
Caleb hesitated, but your stare didn’t break. He glanced at Rhett, then back at you, before climbing into his truck and peeling out, tires spitting gravel as he fled down the road.
—
The silence that followed was thick, the only sound the rasp of Rhett’s breathing, your own heartbeat loud in your ears.
You turned to him, anger rising to your tongue before you could swallow it down.
“What the hell was that, Rhett?”
He didn’t look at you, hands flexing, blood drying on his knuckles, chest still rising and falling.
“He touched you.”
“I told him to leave. I handled it.”
“Didn’t look like it to me.”
You stepped closer, pointing at him, heat rising to your face.
“You can’t just beat the shit out of people because you decide it’s your business.”
His eyes met yours, and for a moment you saw it, the flicker of something raw, unguarded, terrified.
“It is my business.”
You froze, blinking, your hand dropping.
“Why?” you asked, your voice quiet, the anger draining into something you didn’t want to name.
Rhett swallowed, looking away, jaw working.
“Because I wanted it to be.”
The words hung there, heavier than fists.
You opened your mouth, closed it again, unsure whether you were angry or grateful or something else entirely, something that burned in your chest in a way you didn’t have words for.
Rhett took a step back, shaking his head.
“I need to go.”
“Rhett—”
But he was already turning, walking toward his truck, boots crunching over the gravel, leaving you there under the harsh glow of the single light above the school doors, your arms wrapped around yourself, the night pressing in, your breath shaking out of you as you watched him go.
—
You didn’t sleep that night.
You went home, showered off the sweat and dust and the lingering scent of stale cologne on your arm where Caleb had grabbed you. You tried to eat, pushed food around your plate until the cat meowed and you set it down for him instead.
You replayed it over and over—the way Caleb’s hand tightened, the fear that turned to rage, the way you’d shoved him off, the way Rhett appeared out of nowhere, fists and fury and cold, hard rage.
And the look in Rhett’s eyes when you asked him why.
“Because I wanted it to be.”
—
You didn’t sleep that night, the ceiling above your bed glowing faintly in the dark, your mind replaying the way Caleb’s hand had clamped around your wrist and the heat of your fear twisting into anger as you shoved him off, replaying the thunder of Rhett’s boots on gravel and the flat crack of his fist against Caleb’s jaw, the way blood had splattered on the side of the truck, the way Rhett’s shoulders had risen and fallen like a man barely holding himself back, the way he wouldn’t meet your eyes when you demanded to know why, how his voice had gone low, wrecked, as he’d said, Because I wanted it to be, and how that had settled in your bones like something you didn’t want to carry but couldn’t let go.
You got up before dawn, pulled on jeans and an old T-shirt, hair still damp as you tied it back, the air sticky even in the early morning, and you didn’t think, didn’t plan, just grabbed your keys and drove, the road to the Abbott ranch familiar and empty, the sky slowly bleeding light as you passed fields that glistened with dew, your heart pounding in your chest as you rehearsed what you would say but none of it feeling right, none of it feeling enough.
You pulled up to the ranch just as the sun broke over the fence posts, painting everything gold and sharp, and there he was, near the corral, hammer in hand, fixing a section of fence that didn’t need fixing, his hat low, the muscles in his arms flexing with each strike as dust rose around his boots, sweat already clinging to the back of his neck, his entire body wound tight with that restless energy you had felt in him since the day you met him, the energy that made him look away whenever you caught him staring, that made him leave rooms you entered, that made him clench his jaw when you smiled at other men.
You stepped out, slammed the truck door a little harder than you meant to, the sound splitting the quiet morning, gravel crunching under your boots as you crossed the dirt toward him, the heat of the rising sun pressing against your back, dust swirling around your ankles as you planted yourself a few feet away, crossing your arms over your chest like armor as you let out a breath you hadn’t realized you were holding, felt it burn in your lungs as you forced out his name.
“Rhett.”
He didn’t look up, didn’t pause, kept driving that nail into the fence post with methodical violence, the wood splintering as the hammer cracked down again and again, the sound sharp and cruel in the soft dawn.
“Rhett.”
This time his shoulders tensed, the hammer pausing midair before dropping to his side, the muscles in his jaw ticking as he slowly set the hammer down on the post with deliberate care, like he was afraid of what would happen if he let it fall.
When he turned to face you, his eyes were dark and tired, the skin under them shadowed, his lips pressed into a thin line as he looked at you like he was bracing for impact.
“What do you want me to say?”
Your throat tightened, but you held his gaze, forcing your voice to stay steady.
“Anything. The truth.”
A harsh sound slipped from him, almost a laugh but empty, broken, as he shook his head, dropping his eyes for a moment before lifting them back to yours, letting out a breath that ruffled the hair falling across his forehead.
“The truth? Fine. I saw him touch you, and I wanted to kill him.”
You felt the words settle heavy in the space between you, the heat of them searing across your skin, anger rising to meet the fear and confusion you hadn’t had the time to process, your hands curling tighter around your elbows as you forced yourself to respond.
“I didn’t need you to do that.”
He scoffed, the sound low, bitter, as he took a step closer, the heat of him meeting yours, his eyes blazing.
“Yeah, you did.”
Your lips parted, incredulous, the flush rising in your cheeks as your pulse quickened.
“Excuse me?”
“You think I don’t see it? The way you’re always smiling, always being nice to everyone, how you act like nothing ever gets to you, like nothing can touch you, but he got to you, I saw it in your face, and I couldn’t—”
You shook your head, cutting him off, your voice rising as your heart hammered painfully against your ribs.
“He scared me, Rhett. That doesn’t mean I needed you to fix it.”
His jaw clenched, eyes narrowing, his breath coming heavier as he stepped closer, close enough that you could see the flecks of gold in his eyes, could see the way his chest rose and fell like he was trying to calm something inside him.
“I know you can handle yourself,” he snapped, his voice low but shaking, the veins in his neck standing out as he fought to keep control, “but that doesn’t mean I’m gonna stand there and watch some piece of shit put his hands on you like he has the right.”
Your hands dropped to your sides as you took a step forward, refusing to look away, your voice trembling with the frustration and heat that had been building in your chest for months, years.
“Why? Why do you care so damn much, Rhett?”
And there it was, the way he flinched, the way his eyes flickered with fear before he swallowed hard, shaking his head as if he could stop the words from coming out before they slipped past his lips.
“Because I can’t not.”
The silence that fell was so heavy it felt like it pressed down on your shoulders, the air thick and buzzing with everything unspoken, your breath caught in your throat as you tried to find words, but all that came out was a whisper.
“You think you get to just—what, beat the shit out of people who look at me wrong? You think I need that?”
“No.”
“Then what, Rhett? What the hell do you want from me?”
His chest rose and fell once, twice, before he let out a breath that sounded like it scraped his lungs raw, his eyes closing for a moment before opening again, dark and shining.
“Everything.”
Your heart stopped, the word echoing in your mind, your breath catching as you tried to swallow, tried to push down the way it made your chest ache.
“You don’t get to say that,” you whispered, your voice hoarse, “not after you’ve spent so long acting like I don’t exist, like I’m nothing to you.”
His eyes shuttered for a moment, his jaw clenching, before he stepped closer, so close you could feel the heat radiating off him, so close you could smell the sweat and soap on his skin, the scent of dust clinging to him like it was part of him.
“I never acted like you’re nothing,” he said, his voice low, rough, every word carrying the weight of something he had tried to bury. “I stayed away because I can’t give you the kind of life you deserve, because you deserve someone better, someone good, and I am not—”
“Don’t decide that for me,” you cut in, your voice sharp, your eyes burning, your hands shaking as you stepped closer, so close your boots almost touched.
“You don’t get to decide what I want, Rhett.”
He opened his mouth, closed it again, shaking his head.
“You don’t know what you’re asking for.”
“And you don’t know what you’re denying yourself.”
Your eyes burned with the weight of everything unsaid, but you refused to look away, refused to let him shut you out again, refused to let him retreat behind that stoic silence he wore like armor, because you were done letting him hide while you carried the burden of pretending you didn’t see the way he looked at you when he thought you wouldn’t notice, the way his jaw would tighten and his throat would bob when someone else made you laugh, the way he would leave the room with his head down, boots heavy on the floor, because staying was too dangerous for him, too close to everything he spent his whole life running from, and you let the words pour out, your voice low but fierce, layered with the ache you had kept buried for too long.
“You think I don’t see you, Rhett, you think I don’t see the way you watch me when you think I’m not looking, how you find reasons to leave when I walk into a room because you can’t stand to be close, how your jaw clenches so hard I can see it from across the damn room whenever someone else makes me smile, you think I don’t feel it every single time you stand near me, like the air changes, like the world tilts just a little because you’re there, and you think I don’t know what that means?”
His hand lifted then, hesitating in the space between you as if he wanted to reach for you but couldn’t let himself, couldn’t cross that final distance, before it fell back to his side, fingers curling into a tight, shaking fist, his eyes locked on yours, dark and searching, voice cracking under the strain of all the things he had never let himself say.
“Don’t.”
The single word was a plea and a warning, thin and breaking.
“Don’t what?” you asked, your breath catching as you stepped closer, refusing to give him room to run.
“Don’t look at me like that,” he ground out, each syllable heavy, painful.
“Like what, Rhett?” your voice softer now, trembling but unyielding, your chin lifted as you stared him down.
“Like I’m worth it.”
Your chest cracked open at that, something inside you splintering wide in the quiet between his words, something raw and terrified and real unraveling inside of you as you let out a slow breath that trembled on your lips.
“You are.”
—
The silence that followed was thick enough to drown in, stretching between you in the dusty morning air as the world seemed to hold its breath, the whisper of wind across the dry grass and the distant groan of the barn the only sounds that dared to break it, and you could hear your own heartbeat, loud and insistent, thundering in your ears as you watched the way Rhett’s eyes dropped to your mouth and then dragged back up to your eyes with that same war-torn look, like he was fighting a losing battle with himself, with the need that was carved into every tense line of his body, with the fear that clung to him like sweat.
“Don’t,” he said again, softer now, the word so quiet it almost disappeared, but it carried everything he couldn’t say out loud, everything he was too afraid to admit, everything that made him take a half step back even as his eyes pleaded with you not to leave him standing there alone in the wreckage of everything he’d tried to bury.
“Rhett,” you whispered, and it came out as a promise and a demand all at once, your own fear swirling in your chest but overridden by the certainty that you weren’t going to walk away from this, from him, not now, not ever.
“Don’t,” he repeated, the word a cracked thing, fragile and desperate.
“Please,” you breathed, your voice trembling, your eyes searching his, refusing to let him retreat, refusing to let him hide from you, from himself, from the truth that was sitting between you like a live wire.
—
Your hand lifted slowly, fingers trembling with the weight of everything you felt, everything you had kept bottled behind polite smiles and quiet strength, and you reached for him, letting your fingertips brush the edge of his jaw, the roughness of stubble scraping against your skin, the heat of him sinking into your bones in a way that made your breath catch, in a way that felt like it was searing itself into your memory so you could never pretend you hadn’t felt it, never pretend you hadn’t wanted it.
He flinched under your touch, his eyes squeezing shut, his breath leaving him in a shaky exhale like he had been holding it in for too long, like the simple contact of your hand against his face was enough to crack something deep inside him that he had fought to keep locked away, and you didn’t pull back, didn’t let him retreat behind that wall of silence and fear he wore like a second skin, you simply let your palm settle against his cheek, steady and warm, your thumb brushing lightly along the rough edge of his jaw.
“Look at me,” you whispered, your voice low but steady, carrying across the small space between you like a promise and a command all at once, because you were done letting him hide from the truth, done letting him pretend you didn’t see him, didn’t feel him, didn’t want him.
His eyes opened, slow and reluctant, dark lashes lifting to reveal eyes that were glassy and raw, that held fear and longing and something so soft it made your chest ache, and for a moment he just looked at you, breathing hard, like he was trying to memorize every detail of your face in this light, in this moment, like he was afraid if he blinked you would disappear.
“I’m not going anywhere,” you said, barely above a whisper, but it felt like it echoed in the quiet, like it was the only sound that mattered, the only truth you needed him to hear.
He let out a breath, one you felt against your wrist, warm and uneven, and his hand came up, hesitating for a moment before it covered yours where it rested on his cheek, his fingers wrapping around your wrist, not to push you away, but to hold you there, to keep you close, to ground himself in the feeling of your skin against his, the reality of you standing there, refusing to let him hide.
And in that moment, in the heat of that silence, in the roughness of your breaths and the closeness of your bodies, with the smell of dust and hay and the sharp morning air between you, something shifted, something gave way, something finally broke open.
You didn’t know who moved first, or if it even mattered, only that one moment you were standing there breathing the same uneven air, your eyes locked on each other with a desperation that bordered on painful, and the next his hand was sliding up to the back of your neck, his palm warm and rough, his thumb brushing along the line of your jaw as if he was memorizing the feel of you, grounding himself in the reality that you were there, that you weren’t turning away, and your own hand was curling around the collar of his shirt, your fingers tightening in the fabric because you needed something to hold on to before you drowned in the way he was looking at you.
Your breath hitched as his forehead dropped to yours, the brim of his hat brushing lightly against the top of your head before he lifted it off with a clumsy, shaking movement, tossing it aside without looking, his other hand coming up to frame your face, and you could feel the tremor in his fingers, could see the way his eyes searched yours for any sign that you would pull away, that you would leave him standing there alone in this raw, terrifying moment he had tried to avoid for so long.
And you didn’t pull away.
You let your eyes flutter closed, let your lips part on a breath that felt like it carried every quiet wish you had ever made in the dead of night, every silent hope you had pressed into your pillow, every ache you had hidden behind your smiles, and when his lips finally touched yours it was soft, so soft you almost thought you imagined it, the lightest brush of rough lips against yours as if he was giving you one last chance to stop him, to step back, to end this before it began.
But you didn’t step back.
You leaned in, just enough for your lips to press more firmly against his, and that was all it took for something to break open between you, for the kiss to deepen, for the soft, hesitant press of his mouth to turn into something hungry, something messy, something real, your fingers tightening in his shirt as you pulled him closer, closing the last breath of space between your bodies, feeling the solid heat of him against you, the rough scrape of stubble against your skin as he tilted his head to deepen the kiss, his breath hitching against your lips in a way that made your knees weaken, made your pulse thrum everywhere, made heat bloom low in your belly.
And it happened fast, in the way storms roll in across the plains, unannounced but inevitable, when the air shifts and the pressure drops, when your body knows before your mind catches up that everything is about to change, and you let it, because you’re tired of resisting things that are meant for you.
Rhett didn’t reach for you like a man seeking comfort; he reached for you like a man who had decided to stop punishing himself, his hand sliding into your hair, not gently, but with a certainty that made your breath catch, tugging you forward as he lowered his mouth to yours, not testing, not asking, but taking in a way that made your stomach tighten and your knees soften, your fingers finding the front of his shirt and fisting it just to keep yourself standing upright.
The kiss wasn’t soft; it was alive, a push and pull, his teeth catching your bottom lip as you gasped, your hand sliding up to his jaw, feeling the roughness of stubble against your palm as you tilted his face, deepening the kiss because you wanted more, because you were done pretending you didn’t want everything he was trying to hold back.
You felt him exhale against your mouth, a low sound that was almost a curse, almost a laugh, like he couldn’t believe this was real, like he’d spent too long telling himself it couldn’t happen to let himself enjoy it, but you swallowed that sound with your mouth, pressing closer, your hips bumping into his, the sun at your back, the taste of dust in the warm air between breaths, the world beyond the fence line falling away as your lips moved against his.
When you pulled back, it wasn’t because you wanted to, but because you needed to breathe, your lips brushing his as you caught your breath, your eyes meeting his in the narrow space between, and for a moment there was no fear, no running, no doubt, just the two of you, here, now, in this place that smelled like hay and sweat and warm earth.
You smiled, a small, sharp thing, as your thumb traced the line of his cheekbone, your voice low, steady, alive with something that had been sleeping inside you for too long.
“Don’t think too hard about it, Rhett.”
And he let out a breath, the corner of his mouth twitching, and he shook his head once, short, almost like a laugh, before he kissed you again, harder this time, his hand splaying across your lower back to pull you in, to remind you he was there, solid and warm and real, and you let yourself lean into him, let yourself kiss him back like you meant it, like you had always meant it, like you would mean it tomorrow and the next day and the day after that.
There was nothing gentle about it, and you didn’t want it to be. You wanted to feel it in your bones, to carry it with you when you left this spot, to let it remind you that some things are worth wanting, worth taking, worth keeping, no matter how hard you’d tried to convince yourself otherwise.
—
It was strange how quiet the world felt afterward, how the air seemed softer somehow, as if the wind itself was holding its breath, letting you have this moment undisturbed.
You didn’t pull away, not fully, even after the kiss ended, your lips swollen and warm, your breath a little uneven as you rested your forehead lightly against his collarbone, feeling the steady rise and fall of his chest, the warmth of him grounding you in a way you hadn’t realized you needed until this exact moment. You let your hand settle against his chest, the rough fabric of his shirt scratching your palm as you traced your thumb in small, absent circles, feeling the hard beat of his heart beneath your hand, steady and strong, like a promise you hadn’t asked for but found yourself accepting anyway.
Rhett’s hand didn’t leave your back, his fingers splayed wide, holding you there, not possessive but certain, like he wasn’t ready to let go, like he wasn’t sure how to step away now that he had let himself touch you, now that he had stopped running from what he felt and had let it spill out into the world, tangible and undeniable, painted across the dust and the morning air and the soft heat lingering between your bodies.
Neither of you spoke for a while, and it didn’t feel like silence so much as it felt like a pause, like the world giving you space to breathe, to find your footing again after the rush of something you had both spent too long pretending wasn’t there. You could hear the rustle of the dry grass in the breeze, the creak of the fence settling under the heat of the rising sun, the distant call of a bird overhead, but mostly you could hear him, the low, steady breaths, the way they caught slightly when your thumb pressed a little harder against his chest, the quiet exhale when you shifted just enough to look up at him, your eyes searching his face, trying to read him in this new light.
His eyes were softer than you had ever seen them, the harsh lines of his brow eased, the tension that always lived in the set of his jaw loosened as he looked at you, his lips parted like he might say something, like he wanted to, but the words caught, tangled up in everything else he hadn’t said, everything you both already knew.
You were the one who spoke first, your voice low, careful, but steady, like you were testing it, letting it carry between you without breaking the fragile warmth hanging in the air.
“We’re really doing this, aren’t we?”
His breath hitched, a small, almost disbelieving smile ghosting across his lips, and he let out a sound that was part laugh, part sigh, before he nodded, once, sharp and certain, his hand tightening slightly against your back as if to anchor himself to the truth of it.
“Yeah,” he said, his voice rough, the word scraping out of him like it cost him something to say, but there was relief in it too, soft and raw. “Yeah, we are.”
You felt the corner of your mouth lift, a small, honest smile, your thumb brushing over his shirt as you let your forehead rest against his again, your eyes closing for a moment, letting yourself sink into the warmth of him, into the reality of this moment you had both been dancing around for far too long.
“Took you long enough,” you murmured, the words teasing but gentle, the kind of soft laughter you hadn’t let yourself share with him before, the kind that tasted like relief and hope.
“Don’t,” he muttered, but there was no real heat in it, and you felt the way his chest shook under your hand when he let out a low laugh, the sound rumbling through you in a way that made your heart clench, made you want to pull him closer, made you want to keep him laughing just to hear it again.
You lifted your head, your eyes meeting his, letting the smile linger as you studied him in the morning light, the way it caught on the dark of his hair, the curve of his jaw, the softness around his eyes as he looked back at you like he wasn’t quite sure how you were real.
“I’m not going to break, Rhett,” you said softly, your thumb brushing against the side of his neck where his pulse beat fast and strong beneath your touch, reminding both of you that you were here, that this was real.
His eyes flickered, dark and uncertain, before they softened again, his hand lifting to tuck a piece of hair behind your ear, his fingers lingering there, brushing lightly against your skin like he was memorizing the feel of you under his touch.
“I know,” he said, the words low, steady, carrying a weight you felt settle in your chest, heavy but not unwelcome. “I just… I don’t want to hurt you.”
You let out a quiet breath, your hand dropping from his chest to catch his wrist, pulling his hand from your face only to hold it between yours, your thumb brushing over the roughness of his knuckles, the small cuts and bruises from the fight, your eyes meeting his with a clarity you hadn’t felt in a long time.
“You won’t,” you said, your voice sure, your gaze steady, and you saw the way his eyes widened slightly, the way he let out a breath he hadn’t realized he was holding.
He nodded, once, like he was accepting it, like he was letting himself believe it, and you stepped closer, your bodies pressed together in the quiet morning, the heat of him sinking into you as you rested your cheek against his chest, letting your eyes close as you listened to the steady rhythm of his heart, the warmth of his hand as it settled against the back of your neck, holding you there, holding himself there, in this moment you had both chosen, finally, without fear.
You didn’t need to talk about what came next, not yet, because there was time now, time to figure it out, time to learn what it meant to stay, to want, to keep, and you felt the way his thumb brushed lightly against the back of your neck, the quiet way he let out a breath, his head dropping to rest against the top of yours as he held you, and it was enough.
For now, it was enough.
—
That evening you had parted quietly, the weight of what you’d shared still humming under your skin, and when you woke the next day, you moved through your morning with a soft, uncertain lightness, your chest tight with the newness of letting yourself want something without apology.
The next morning came with a quiet you hadn’t felt in a long time, the kind that settled in your bones, warm and calm, as you moved around your classroom, sliding books into cubbies, checking the small plants on the windowsill, letting the morning light fill the room with soft gold as you tried to keep your hands from shaking.
You heard the knock on the door before you saw him, and when you turned, there he was, standing in the doorway with a cup of coffee in one hand, a small clay pot in the other, a tiny green sprout poking out of the dirt, and something about the way he held it, awkward and unsure, made your chest tighten, made your lips twitch into a smile you couldn’t hide.
“For your desk,” he said, clearing his throat, his eyes darting around the room before settling on yours, holding there, soft but steady.
You took the plant from him, letting your fingers brush against his, warm and calloused, and you set it on your desk, turning back to him with a small, real smile that felt like it reached all the way into your chest.
“You’re impossible,” you said, your voice light but your eyes soft, your fingers reaching for the coffee, your thumb brushing against his knuckles as you took it from him.
“Yeah,” he said, his lips twitching, a breath of a laugh leaving him as he scratched at the back of his neck, a flush rising on his cheeks. “But you still want me?”
You didn’t answer with words.
You set the coffee down, stepped closer, letting your fingers hook into the collar of his shirt, pulling him down to you, your lips finding his in a soft, quiet kiss that wasn’t rushed, wasn’t desperate, just was, and when you pulled back, you let your forehead rest against his, your eyes closing as you let out a soft breath, the world beyond the classroom door falling away for a moment.
“Yeah,” you whispered, letting the word hang in the quiet, letting it fill the space between you.
And it wasn’t everything, but it was Rhett's, and that was enough to start.
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It’s too hot in Wabang for the time of year, but there’s a cool breeze rustling through the grass and giving them some reprieve, even though Perry is still sweating through his t-shirt. They’re fixing the fences for the millionth time, except that Perry is busy swinging the hammer and Rhett is a million miles away, staring into the horizon.
Part of Rhett is still here; he can hear Perry’s excessive ramblings about worrying for Amy, and he can hear the dull whack of the hammer hitting the fence post over and over, but he’s not really listening, and he’s not even holding the post like he’s supposed to be.
“Helloooo, earth to Rhett…” Perry stops and stands up, waving his hand in front of Rhett’s face. “Where the hell are you, man? You’re not even listening, and you’re also not doing your job.” He nods toward the fence. “I wanna get this done before dinnertime.”
Rhett’s eyes clear up and return to the present, but he’s still chewing on the inside of his cheek, and he can’t meet Perry’s eyes. “I gotta tell you somethin’,” He mutters, eyes on the post rather than looking at his brother.
“What is it?” Perry asks, lifting the hammer back up and bringing it down against the post one more time.
Rhett’s chest heaves with the deep breath he takes, clenching his jaw before he speaks. “I think m’queer,” He mutters out, low, like if he speaks at a normal volume, the rest of his family will hear him all the way across the pasture and back at their house.
Perry makes the mistake of not giving Rhett his full attention, and the words that come out of his brother’s mouth make his head snap up just as he’s bringing the hammer down again. “Ah shit, fuck, god dammit,” The hammer comes down and clips the edge of his thumb before it falls into the grass and Perry brings his hand up and yanks the glove off to bring the throbbing edge of his thumb to his mouth as if he can suck the pain out. “So, we’re back on this again?” He asks once the stinging pain has dulled.
“Again? The fuck are you talkin’ about Per?”
“You already told me about this, don’t you remember? When you were like thirteen, you came home crying about how you were going to hell ‘cuz you had some sort of sinful thoughts about a boy in your class.”
Rhett’s eyebrows are still knitted together, but there’s a pounding in his chest— he remembers.
***
Rhett and Perry always get home before their parents. The school bus that goes out into the country drops them off a good thirty minutes before Royal gets back from bull auctions in town and Cecilia gets back from her work with the church.
Normally, they walk up the dirt road and to the house together, Perry tasked with looking after his younger brother. Today, though, Rhett couldn’t get away from everyone fast enough, running up the dirt road as fast as his still-growing legs would take him. He can hear Perry calling after him, but he doesn’t stop, and he doesn’t look back, even as the screen door to their house slams behind him, he just runs up the stairs to his bedroom and collapses on his twin bed.
He’s crying, his cheeks are wet, and his nose is starting to run, but it only makes him angry. He’s too old to cry now, Royal tells him so. He’s becoming a man, so unless bone is sticking out of skin, tears are prohibited, and even then, it depends on what kind of mood his dad is in.
Perry doesn’t knock before he comes in; he never does, but Rhett doesn’t yell at him this time, he’s too busy trying to stop the tears. “What’s the matter?” Perry asks, almost sitting down on the edge of the bed, but he hesitates. Rhett’s long limbs are taking up too much room now; they wouldn’t fit together like they used to, maybe he should ask his mom to ask his dad to buy Rhett a bigger bed.
“Nothing, go away,” Rhett huffs, sniffling pathetically.
“I’m not going away, it’s my job to look after you, and you better stop crying before Dad gets home. If you tell me what it is, I can fix it, and you’ll stop.”
“You can’t fix it, Perry, you can’t, no one can.” He’s still sniffing, but at least he’s sitting up and looking at Perry now, eyes shiny with tears.
“You won’t know that until you tell me what it is,” Perry argues.
Rhett wipes at his eyes again and looks at his brother. He can’t see his own face, but he knows he looks as terrified as he feels. He still follows his mom to church every Sunday, and he isn’t brave enough yet to question the scripture that the pastor recites. He’s not brave enough to ask his mom what things mean.
He feels it every single time he sits in the uncomfortable wooden pews and looks up at the altar. A tightness in his chest and an itching of his palms. It feels wrong to be here, but he doesn’t know why. The entire room is always filled with a judgment that isn’t his, and yet it choked him all the same. Riding bulls felt like nothing compared to a thirteen-year-old boy questioning the church. “I’m going to hell, Perry,” He whispers.
Perry’s own teenage face, that hasn’t been sullen by parenthood or the disappearance of his wife yet, crumples at his brother's words. “Why would you say that? You haven’t done anything worth going to hell for.”
“I have…” Rhett nods, eyes filling up with tears again. “There’s this new boy in my class, I wanted—” He starts, interrupted by a choked-off sob. “I thought he was pretty and I wanted to kiss him, Perry,”
“No, you didn’t,” Perry responds without missing a beat.
“I didn’t?”
“No way. It's just all those new hormones in your body wreaking havoc. You ain’t going to hell cuz you ain’t queer, it’s not real.” The front door squeaks open loudly, and both boys' heads whip over toward Rhett’s open bedroom door. It was either a bad sale day or a good sale day because their dad is home early, and suddenly Perry doesn’t have all the time in the world to make Rhett see that his feelings toward this boy were nothing more than a blip that he can just forget. They can just stop this right here, and neither of them would go to hell or get in trouble, as long as it stops before someone sees or hears them.
“Say it,” Perry growls out, hard and demanding, gripping Rhett’s wrist tight enough to bruise.
“I ain’t going to hell, I ain’t queer, s’not real.” Rhett recites, punctuating each part with an obedient nod, committing the words to memory, even as he tries to yank his wrist away.
Royal’s heavy steps clomp up the stairs, and he stops outside Rhett’s door, looking over both his boys, eyes moving more slowly over Rhett’s wet, red face. “You cryin’?”
“Uh-uh,” Rhett shakes his head quickly, and Perry turns to face their dad.
“No, he just fell off the bus and face planted into the dirt, that’s all,” And since when could Perry just lie like that?
Their dad’s sigh comes out wearily. “How many times I gotta tell you to look after your brother? What kind of man are you if you can’t even make sure he stays on his feet?” Royal shakes his head at the older brother, “Fuckin’ useless.” He mutters, walking down the hall and clicking his own bedroom door shut.
Perry feels his heart sink into his stomach. He’s not useless; he’s the one who’s saving his little brother from a life of condemnation, his dad just doesn’t know it. Can never know it. It’s times like these that he would ask his mom what to do. He knows that she would know exactly what God would say in any situation. Except that what God would say about this particular situation is the reason he can’t talk to her about it. No, this has to stay between them. It’s going to be Rhett and Perry, just as it always has been— it always will be.
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⭒ 7 minutes of lewis & yn talking about each other by @/dontpulloutman
⭒ can you fight? (twitter shenanigans) by @/dontpulloutman
⭒ favorite muse by @/dontpulloutman
Rhett Abbott
⭒ Hell on Heels by @strawhbrrries
you made the devil a deal; he made you pretty, he made you smart and rhett abbott she’s coming after you.
⭒ ticking all the boxers by @petcr3
when rhett notices something about your nighttime attire, it leads to a unexpected and tender conversation about the things you love about one another.
⭒ to the nines by @bradshawsbaby
⭒ a sky full of stars by @/bradshawsbaby
⭒ is it casual now? By @lewmagoo
⭒ Yours, Officially by @verricherri
Calvin Evans
⭒ a fraction of a second by @voidsxntry
one morning walk. one wrong step.
⭒ imagine by @moon-fics
⭒ Lessons In Taking A Break by @jungle-angel
Calvin's stressed out from grading midterms, but one little moment in your day helps him immensely
⭒ 𝚒 𝚠𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕 𝚐𝚞𝚒𝚕𝚝𝚢, 𝚒 𝚠𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚒𝚝'𝚜 𝚠𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚐. By @spaceycat and @zottts
you are new to hastings laboratory, being placed on a search for different materials around the lab. you entered calvin's laboratory without knocking, and arguments ensue.
Miles Miller
⭒ Hotel El Royale by @astraldelights
After a long journey, you only had one place to rest between borders
⭒ some nights by @/lewmagoow
⭒ Druxy by @noncrush
when you get hired at the el royale, you don’t imagine you’ll be staying there long. you don’t imagine you’ll find the love of your life, either. as it turns out, you’re wrong two for two.
