Arekks

Personal Development

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What A dream I think is

It took me some time to finally write something about what dream really is or what dream for me is.

A dream is I think, is a goal to aim at or the one that triggers our will to live. I've always find myself thinking about these kinds of things. I do think about it when im walking my way home passing by an empty field— So open that it makes you want to sort things in your head; or when doing the dishes, and making music my company. Like all of a sudden, just like a child who grasp the epiphany of uttering her first words, I've also got my 'aha' moment. Our dream should not be from other else's but from what we truly want for ourselves. The dream we create for ourselves isn't deserving to be compared to other else's just to be diminish. For it's when we invalidate our own self, our dream, that we lose the enthusiasm when we got it first hand.

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Tanging Yaman

The movie depicts a family's feud as the children of Loleng (Gloria Romero) came into reunion on her 75th birthday. The film for me, was quite amusing because of how old this was. Here, in the beginning of the story, introduced the different characters of their family. Danny, a loving father together with her supportive wife, molded their children with love and support despite being placed almost close to the poverty line. Art, the most succesful of the three, which later on in the movie conceded where his temperaments are coming from. And Grace, a typical filipino who migrated to the other country to hope for a better life with his loving husband who she thought she fell out of love. Even if the major character's family showed the typical, slightly unrealistic, cliché filipino family, all is just rooted to a single route, and that is the lack of understanding what a family should is and the thirst for love.

What I learned from this movie is that, everyone plays an important role in a family. Even if we don't really understand where our parents are really coming from and, sometimes might overlooked their favorable treatments, let us be reminded that they have different ways of showing their love and affection. Another is that even if put under difficult disputes, all it takes is an understanding heart and courage to forgive to mend what was broken.

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School Boy

To fit my self in the child's perspective vicariously was more of indulging to my subconscious mind than just watching an advertisement. To not fit to any circle and not be able to penetrate their walls just to be part of them was the most frustrating part of growing up. I watched kids play with other kids and be pampered by their mom while I was there, vulnerable to any form of abuse. My story didn't end up like what's in the advertisement that is why I'm still in constant search to always prove myself to people.

My ideal family is not for my present self's form of satisfaction to fulfill but a "was" for my younger self. With the different perspective and knowledge I acquired, my ideal family now is an image of parents who will wake me up at 7:00 o'clock in the morning to help me prepare to school, show up to school activities I find interesting enough to participate, fetch me every after school or just putting bimpo at my back when I get too sweaty running around with kids my age. Nevertheless, I'm still grateful for having both parents that are loving and hard working.

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I've always thought my love language is physical touch but after taking the test, I figured out that it's actually quality time. Yet, I'm quite not convinced. Maybe because I was too attached to the thought about the placement I put myself to certain grounds that I'm becoming adamant to believe the result. Otherwise, I'm still open to take in the results that is because I know it's just beneficial to the deeper understanding of ourselves.

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My take away for today's lesson does not solely focus on the entire discourse but the particular feeling I've felt during the exchange of political dialogue in the first part. Ive notice the urge to take a stand to my political views but I remained dormant and caught myself leaning to observing than to indulge in the conversation. I learned from that experience to not silent yourself on disputes that are substantial and nurturing because you'll learn something more in conversing rather than just listening.

In these times when the authorities are sequestering the bold truth and silencing the voices of the just, let there be people who will fight alongside with the truth. I will use this chance, to call out my fellow teenagers to register to vote for 2022 elections. Let us not be blind to the damages this administration had caused its people.

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not all the risk that we take will lead us to the pedestral.

This day had taught me about making proactive decision in moments when our minds just sit still with the comfort of gratification. At this moment, I am just ruefully baffled that I didn't bother the presage of the grumble.

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Menace and Utopia

To be asked of what makes me happy is still a mystery I have to solve. I've grasped winning moments which I thought would make me feel better, but I feel contrary to that. Whenever opportunity knocks in my door, I just don't know but the fear of taking a risk is always overwhelming. I am always scared and doubtful but I always try to hide it and just take whatever is thrown at me. Yet,I don't despise that. In fact, I'm greatful for all of it because most of the time its those opportunities that cultivate me and my potentials.To what makes me happy, I guess when I could finally be able to go to a film school— but I couldn't. Am I happy? At this hour, yes. However, My life isn't always a 24 hour live streaming of uneventful stories. I also know whenever I am happy and that is when I am with my friends or just watching entertaining shows.

My takeaway for this lesson is just a short note, "everyone is best".

Honestly, I have a deep connection with the word "close" so I never really label someone with that word easily. Maybe because everyone I've called that just don't see me the same way. So, if there's someone that is close to me, that would be myself, because I never really speak my mind with all honesty to any human being other than myself. Yet, If I were to shape fit to what is generally considered close, that would be my friends and family. I am more close to a specific group of friends because they're all very receptive people. Aside from them, within my family I'm more close with my little sister, because we can vibe easily and has the same taste in music.

Interlude: I don't know if having my own definition is just normal or I just make social interactions more complicated.

I was in deep thoughts on what kilig moment/s to share when the train of thoughts just poured a different flavor of tea to my cup. The idea of sharing how giving I am to the people I liked just seeps off my mind and I think, I will just talk about that. As I said, I am a very kind person. I always help people but I double the labor when it comes to the person I like. Even being loaded with school stuffs I would still do whatever favor that person asks for, because that's the only time I could start a conversation. Just the picture of that person's name poping on my screen just send electric charges through out my body. I think because just the thought of that person sends me a message means that ive been on their mind. And that is my kilig moment. Dont judge.

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Hitting 2 birds in 1 blog

The human brain is most superior even to the most powerful computer because it stores alot of information while we're growing. Unlike softwares that upgrades from time to time, our mind just adapts to whatever changes occurs and untangle the mystery of manipulating it without much of effort. To put another, the brain controls various system in our body and functions 24/7 restlessly which gives more impact to how human brain is superior.

To answer the second question, it was given that both brain hemisphere functions side to side, but to make both hemisphere dominant, I guess the specialized people with this gift are at the pedestral or niched placed in society. To be given such gift is a menace or utopia depending on how a person controls their fate.

My takeaway for this day is that our mind is a very powerful thing. It might look as a dormant jelly like object but it has tons of power that one cannot still solve the mystery behind its greatness.

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Evaluating stress

For me, what I can consider a positive stress is when I stress over my academic responsibilities. While negative stress for me is when my positive stress becomes overwhelming that I became super impulsive.

My take away for this day, is that we need to experience stress at some point of our lives because its an imporant phrase of growing. However, we should also be knowing of what type of stress we are going through so we can address it and not be consumed by it.

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A step forward

Answering the question to where I am in my adolescence stage, I guess I could say im already taking a step forward to finally becoming more responsible and adult like person, or to put it in a phase, I'm already at the exact transition of starting my pre-self redemption, still in a coming of age genre.

My takeaway for today's class is that growing is a process, we need not to rush our growth. We must learn to track our progress and be able to develop a bold sense of responsibility to the person we are becoming.

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Let it loose then breathe.

While listening to forgiveness by matthew west, I had catched a glimpse of my younger self forgiving someone who was labelled as untrustworthy. Because I was surrounded by people who can't digest her apology, I had have to keep it to myself that I have forgiven her ages ago even if I was the one who she had done wrong the most – Afterall, she's my friend. I've always know how naive I am. Even still, I have never despised myself because of that for I always see the good in people... Or I guess it's just my nature.

I have this little idiosyncrasy to find energy in a song. Be it the one that drains your jubilant nature or the electrifying ones that makes you groove to your limit or the uplifting beat of the drums. I've grown fond to that. In this song, what I have got for myself is the realization that I've always been forgiving, but never did once I have forgiven myself. Which have unravelled the fineline between my personal feelings and the role I've been playing. Since I kept on suppresing what I truly feel, I have lost the ability to formulate my own opinions and principles. It caused me to be a paradox of my own possession. By that I guess you have already hinted who's this person I find difficult to understand — that is myself. Yet, I don't rush myself to fully fathom who really I am, for I know I am still in the phase of discovery.

My take away for this day is that what we feed our minds becomes who we are inadvertently. A positive mindset changes our perception of what surrounds us. Another is that to fully understand people we must take time and try to evaluate ourselves.

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People comes in different colors. No matter how different someone may be, the superficial representation does not define his soul.