"Hell is a teenage girl."
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Remember, you're gonna be okay. You deserve people to be kind to you. You're doing great. Keep up the good work, alright?
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new customer! meet cute? :)
I like to call this au Eden's Garden! Simon takes a job as a florist after his life of prison and is slowly healing, hope you enjoy something cozy!
forgot to screenshot it, but there's also a scene where daniil can defend a boy who allegedly killed his own father who was caning him. will try to grab a screenshot if i go back to that day.
daniil being insistent his brooch is a man's brooch while the child claimed it was a woman's - daniil you are never beating the transgender allegations
Come one, come all, to a fabulous repeat performance of the traditional play of the bold, miserable and just masks... We've heard your criticisms, we'll do it differently this time. The bold and miserable masks need new actors, yell loud enough and we'll hear you! A play is to serve the audience, after all...
Two new actors, just for you! And scenes drastically changed- almost everything with the bold mask is completely different! ... This time with a twist! Or should we say tryst?
LOVE CANT BE SURROGATE: A BURAKHOVSKY ROMANCE MOD. (nexus download, installation instructions included)
Can be enjoyed without having played classic but it is recommended. Some text is taken directly from classic, but the majority of it is written roleplay between the two actors. Rewrites all of the Bachelor's direct interactions and everything related to him in canon, as well as some... other stuff. Don't worry about it! And almost every time he is mentioned by the Haruspex or other characters. As well as all three endings. Pathologic 3 is not canon to this mod.
Made by two actors, (the two mods of this blog) each playing their own role. The Haruspex (played by the Executor) The Bachelor (played by the Tragedian).
If you make fan art/fanfiction with this mod and it's on Tumblr we want to see it. Tag this blog.
okay so i highkey hate horror gameplay and getting chased by a plague monster like shabnak in patho3 is basically my nightmare...... AND YET somehow here i am, the biggest shabnak apologist, I can neither shut up about her or stop thinking about her. My darling sweet plague daughter literally made of anguish who can do no wrong, whom i will forgive unconditionally for all the times she killed and scared me. (she didn't mean it)
Because!! She's so important to the narrative of patho3 around Daniil and trauma and PTSD and What Simon Did To Him™ and AND WHY THE TIME TRAVEL STORY IS OUT OF ORDER IN THE FIRST PLACE it's beautiful actually and I don't think enough people got it.
So!!! Let's do this:
Pathologic 3 has Daniil experience a lot of symptoms of various mental health conditions in very deliberate ways, but I think his memory lapses and non-linearity are specifically an exploration of a PTSD experience and shabnak is the heart of that. It all ties back to the first pyre, the moment shabnak says she was created, and the moment Daniil's mind breaks in exactly the way Simon wanted for his test. It's another round of the plague being an intentional ordeal to achieve transcendence in Simon's terrible master plan.
Plague!Clara talks to you as though you're Simon about it before we see it on Day 1. "What's happening to Dankovsky?" we ask, and get: "His head is breaking. Poor thing, really..." and"He's out at the Lot, head full of holes. Just like you wanted, really—broken into pieces so you could put him back together."
The images we get when we actually get to see when it happens? Harrowing. Daniil forcibly held back by men as the girl burns, screaming for someone to stop this horror. "What madness is this?!" he yells, "She's just a girl!! Murderers!"
And then we see him in the aftermath, sitting there alone in the dark, head in bowed among the smoking ashes. And crouching beside him calmly, newly birthed from the Earth's pain, is a smoldering Shabnak, just watching him like she's imprinting upon him the way a baby bird does.
(@snapshotsfromgorkhon X )
Shabnak tells our later Daniil, the one the player controls, that she's the truth of the world, the savagery of human nature, that Simon Kain. without question, laid bare. "Look at it, doctor. Look. Look," she insists. Daniil can answer her: "And I looked. Stood there and watched it happen. And did nothing." It's traumatic, it breaks him. Throughout the entirety of the game he is in a post-traumatic state. (This conversation is literally labeled "Trauma" in the game files!)
But like most things in this game, it's told out of order on purpose. The player doesn't get to see Day 1 until very late in the game. The cause is divorced from the effect, and we only see the symptoms of what Daniil experienced. There's an implication that the burning was so terrible that Daniil repressed it entirely (expressed as the player not getting to know it happened to him, unless they happen to have played an earlier Pathologic and can guess). Yet, he and shabnak play out this cruel pantomime over and over. He is constantly reliving the moment of trauma with her, and he sees it everywhere around him. She writhes and screams like that girl did and now he's the one who threw the match. Some of his voice lines when shabnak is burning are painful: "The Town went mad... but you, Dankovsky? How could you?"
And to tie it all together, whenever he starts to talk about this desperate struggle against shabnak he's done, he and the player get yanked out of the narrative and presented with his beloathèd rival Telman who... accuses him of going mad and killing regular, innocent human women because he's mistaken them for a superstitious steppe monster. (Where might he have heard of something like that happening before?)
Telman tries to make Daniil think he's as dangerous and violently misguided in his actions as the mob on Day 1... but the player hasn't seen Day 1 yet when that conversation with Telman happens. We can't fully understand why that accusation would be so uniquely painful to Daniil until later.
Telman interrupts again after the Day 1 scene too, though, in the middle of talking to shabnak, and he and the Inspector pat themselves on the back that they've solved this whole shabnak delusion: PTSD hallucination, that's all, nothing more.
And... they're right, but they're also wrong, because this is Pathologic and the things that are literal are also metaphor. The things that are metanarrative are also tangibly diagetic in-universe. The creature that is a mad doctor's trauma-induced hallucination is also supernatural and real enough to crush his ribs whenever she picks him up too roughly. He's too fragile a doll for her, but he's also her favorite one.
She can't help herself. He's made of the same anguish she is. She loves him. How could she not?
The prince has been cursed, forcing him to live the rest of his life as a woman. At least that's the story the royal family is going with, because apparently an "unbreakable genderswap curse" is (sadly) much more acceptable than the princess being trans.
Maybe someday I'll render this , but with my new job I don't have energy for anything except sleep.😴☠ Serious living and living up to serious expectations sucks.
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