End of a decade
2019 is coming to a close and I have nothing better to do than type up this entry in what is basically an electronic diary at this point. Nevertheless, here are my year thoughts on everything that has happened and what is to come. 2019 brought a lot of traveling; I’ve never traveled so much in my life. I made three full tours around the United States and have a European tour coming up in a couple months. It’s all so exciting and humbling to get to travel the world and put on rock shows for a living. Doing this has definitely changed the way I perceive the world, people, and ultimately myself. This year I think I’ve made a lot of positive progress managing my depression and anxiety. I think that touring has to do with it slightly, constantly being put in uncomfortable situations. But I haven’t had any major breakout since April (8 months) which is pretty good so far. As I get older I’m starting to realize how my mental illness doesn’t define me and simply just a condition I own. Coping is getting easier as time goes on. I still think of her almost everyday though. And sometimes I’m mad at myself for doing that. But I can’t help it. Catching up would be cool, but I’m not going to count on it.
