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He casts his gaze back down at Victor, curious to hear his answer. Instead, he finds himself slightly enamored at the sight of the former assassin on the verge of blushing. He would have figured after the night before, and even the current state the two of them were in at that moment, would have been enough to stamp down any lingering shyness between them, yet there Victor was, smiling into his chest as if he needed to fight off the urge to hide the grin.
“Well I should hope so,” he chuckles quietly. He’d be offended to some degree if his name wasn’t one of the first out of Victor’s mouth, what with just what all Eris did in order to coax out the luminescent mist from the other auror’s wand. He doesn’t comment any further though, allowing himself to fall quiet again as Victor goes on. The mention of Cain is the first time he can recall Victor ever using his former boss’s name, in fact if Eris hadn’t did some quiet digging of his own he likely wouldn’t even know that was the original connection between the two, rather than simply an old boyfriend.
He can’t help but wonder just what that relationship- if it could even be called that, was like. Victor’s urge to find anything and anyone to throw his loyalty behind wasn’t unnoticed by Eris, in fact it was one of the first things that drew him to the former assassin, realizing how valuable an ally he could be. For Victor to so thoroughly betray that trust, Cain must have done something unforgivable- if not once, then gradually over time, until Victor had no choice but to commit the act he did.
Any such thoughts of Cain though, quickly leave his mind as Victor next mentions a daughter. Now that certainly hadn’t come up in any research he’d done before. His confusion only grows further as Victor speaks though, as he seems to go back and forth on his own relation to the girl, then goes on to suggest that somehow his conduct could affect just whether or not she does become his or not.
“Kind of your’s?” He asks, figuring it’d be better to address one source of his confusion at a time. “Does her other parent have custody or…?”
It’s strange to share. Strange to give these parts of himself out just because someone asked a simple question. But Eris makes him feel torn open and vulnerable somehow, makes him want to find his heart where it lies under all the armour and hand out out, hand it over. He’s never kept it for himself, it’s always been someone elses to hold and to control. Cain had it in a pretty cage for so long, even after Victor saw him locked behind bars, even when he began to understand the myriad of ways that Cain had been bad for him –– bad to him. The therapist he went to see sometimes, not as often as he should, threw a lot of words around about it all. Words he didn’t like to think about. But he couldn’t change the fact that Cain had owned him in far too many ways. Victor hated him now, more than anything, but he was the largest thing that lingered in the world, in the past.
He’s glad, for a moment, that his head is resting on Eris’ chest. He’s glad that he can behere now, instead of back there. He’s glad that he doesn’t have to look up, that he can close his eyes and think about the best way to tell the story. He used to do this for her, his little girl. Let her rest against his side and close his eyes, find a way to build a story for her until she fell asleep. She liked that, liked to hear him talk. The sound of his voice worked better than anything to send her away. “Kind of mine.” He echoes, the uncertainty that lives inside his chest is an insidious thing.
“Cain –– he had a wife. She was. He didn’t love her or anything, she was a means to an end. He wanted someone to keep up appearances. He wanted someone to give him an heir, and it couldn’t be me. I wasn’t really supposed to be his, even if everybody knew that I was. So, they had Ileana together.” He swallows. “Something happened to her, I don’t know what. He must have had her put down, once her job was done. Or he sent her away.” That was what must have happened to Victor’s mother too. He held on to her for longer than most others had, until he was about Ileana’s age now. He remembers her soft touches and her soft voice. “But Ileana was mine, too. He said so.”
A soft sigh, and he turns. His head back on the pillow. He blinks his eyes open and looks at the ceiling. “She’s why I did all of this, everything, why I got Cain locked away. I didn’t want her to grow up the way I did. But they don’t just let ex-assassins raise little girls these days, I guess.” He tries for a smile. “She lives with Chief Montero now. For now. Until everything gets fixed up alright. And thats...well, gotta be okay, I guess.”












