My USUK Epiphany
Dammit, it’s been years and I still love USUK. Like, it was the first real ship I was completely consumed by. I read every doujin i could find, drew fan art and comics of it constantly, role played the characters, even had a girlfriend with Alfred’s personality (it was just how she naturally was) and now I sit here, gonna be 28 this year and I still find myself going back and reading doujins while I’m at work. I’m not upset by it, but it makes me sad because I miss the community and closeness I had with some users on here who were into the hetalia fandom and the ship.
I know, time changes all, and people have moved on to other things, but every now and then I still get the urge to draw those two bastards again. Except… IDK. I had a whole doujin i was going to make with Alfred and Arthur. And I was prepared to start drawing it but I guess I got discouraged? I used to have friends also in the fandom and ship that really inspired me and encouraged me to make things. Those times when you thought of a funny scenario and then talked about it amongst yourselves, and I would be that one friend that would have to draw it so we can see if all in person. I miss that.
I still see some artists who are into the ship and that makes me happy! But then sad because I wanna be their friend so we can draw awesome usuk stuff together again. I have shit anxiety and so when I muster up the courage to say something, I oven and freak out so it doesn’t come out. I then watch at a distance imagining the friendship we could of had.
I’m sorry this is all so dumb but I wanted to express this feeling.
