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photos i took of allison :)

[view-no-evil]

we are desolate. Beings of nothing. Fuck, it’s so hard to talk to you. I have so much to say to you. Yet there is no order of the English language that makes sense. I cannot give that to you. But there is so much I would give to you. So much I would do for you.

[compulsive]

[destroymylife]

[especially]

[melisica]

Lina Scheynius

[melisica]

elizabeth quaranto

[structuredconcept]

“I wrote so much I don’t even know who I’m writing to anymore.”

— to: no one

[structuredconcept]

Clasp your hands against my thighs. Dig your teeth into my skin. Kiss my imperfections and worship my flaws. Never forget my devoted faith. Moan my name in prayer. I am the church.

[primulaceas]

Alice Walker, "Coming Back from Seeing Your People." Absolute Trust in the Goodness of the Earth

[view-no-evil]

I had a panic attack the day you left me. I won't pretend to be okay and I won't pretend you'll actually read this. It's just sometimes my world is falling apart and I just can't fucking believe I'm the only one who notices.

buildings crashing 

[view-no-evil]

Sometimes everything just sucks. Everything just fucking sucks. I want to love you more on your good days and especially your bad days. It looks like I'll only be inside the bad days from here on out

Nothing makes any damn sense

[view-no-evil]

I could get lost in your eyes for ages. Everything you said to me was monumental. Listening to the way your heart drummed against your chest when I clutched you tightly anchored me back to reality. Lying with you as the rain pattered outside is the only moment I want to live in.

Now it’s just silence

[view-no-evil]

I used to write about traveling through galaxies and exploring stars, but lately my time is being split between being asleep and barely awake. I know that I am alive and maybe life is just happening too fast and that's why what I have to say has slowed. Everyone is running and I'm left stumbling along behind. I wished you'd stayed

but you didn’t 

[view-no-evil]

I've been trying to be nicer to be kinder and even wiser. Sometimes it feels good to admit I still get angry and aggressive and moody. I don't wish the world to know or understand that they have managed to breach my walls and barriers. That they have torn through my gates and crashed over my fences. That they have rushed through my doorway and entered my home so abruptly.

I guess I’ll make everyone some tea