* 𝖋𝖔𝖝 𝖔𝖓 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖑𝖔𝖔𝖘𝖊

[violcz]

Tatiana.

        “ vi ! ” tatiana exclaims loudly as she stumbles into the brunette’s room, placing a hand against the open door to steady herself. her other hand grips tightly onto a brown bag, grease darkening its color, & a bottle of tequila. “ we’re celebratin’ – or rather i was alone ‘til i decided my party of one needed to grow. ” her eyes are bright, evident of her inebriated state as she makes her way over to viola’s bed. “ my father’s hostin’ a press conference tomorrow & guess who’s lucky ‘nough to attend ? ” her tone darkens slightly, brows furrowing in annoyance. her mood swing doesn’t last long, a smile brightening her features once again as she adds, “ so ‘m tryin’ to keep my buzz goin’ ‘til the am. i was hopin’ you’d join me – i brought ‘nough greasy food & ‘quila to share. though, i did bring a bit of ‘caine if you’d rather leave the ‘quila to me. ” she shifts, reaching into her back pocket & tossing a bag onto the plush bed in the hopes of tempting viola to join her pity party. 

@violcs

the words on the screen in front of her had begun to melt into each other, the crisp edges of the letters blurring into something completely unintelligible, so viola’s relieved sigh as tati burst into her room was one hundred percent genuine. closing her laptop to save the essay for an undisclosed but decidedly later date, vi grinned at her friend, both amused and eager to join tati in blissful oblivion. “ i don’t say it enough, tati, ” she began, patting the bed beside her in invitation. when the other girl was within reach, vi planted a kiss on her cheek, an impression of chanel n°5 stained in bright red clarity on tatiana’s skin. “ i love you. ” gladly curling her fingers around the small baggie, vi raised a brow, eyeing the tequila in tatiana’s hand dubiously. “ ooor.. ” she began slowly. “ we could be adults about it and share it all. tequila, lady caine and food my trainer would’ve killed me for even smelling? yeah, we’ve hit the trifecta. ” years of being voyeur to tatiana’s home life, viola knew better than to comment on the upcoming torture her friend was going to be subjected to — in these situations, it was always better to distract and divert. “ christ, i smell mcnuggests! you’re really my soulmate, huh? know me better than i know my damn self. ”

[violcz]

Vera.

“ the cashier at the starbucks down the street knew my order before i even ordered it; is he good at his job or does just he want to raw dog me? either way i applaud his ambitions. ”

“ v.. you go to that starbucks twice a day — if the entire staff doesn’t know your order by heart at this point, then they should all be fired. ”

[violcz]

Vera.

“ yes, the worst ever. ” she emphasizes, daring her sister to mention anything she’d much rather pretend never happened to begin with. “ seriously, look at me — and be honest — do the bags under my eyes look like i woke up before my alarm or like i’m aging prematurely? ”

the corner of her lip curling in amusement, viola raised a single brow in challenge, eyes narrowing slightly. “ mhmm, ” she acquiesced, giving vera this one. leaning slightly closer to her sister, viola’s eyes squinted in concentration. “ hm, more like you forgot to set an alarm all together and were pulled right out of your rem cycle. ” offering a sympathetic look, viola shrugged. “ i suggest a generous amount of concealer & a nap later today. ”

[violcz]

Tatiana.

         tatiana shakes her head, straightened brunette tresses covering the smile on her features. her heart swells momentarily from her fondness for viola – a rarity, most days spent numbed to the world. “ sorry vi you’re just gonna have to wait – the suspense will really add to it all ! ” she giggles at viola’s concern, rolling her eyes before putting the brunette out of her misery. “ ‘m not gonna put chocolate syrup on your face. i know better than to mess with ya’ & your complexion. but that’s it – just ‘cause your a fan favorite doesn’t mean ya’ special privileges. ” tatiana says, feigning nonchalance, as she fiddles with the camera’s focus. her stomach twists at viola’s proposition – concern quick to worm its way into her thoughts. tatiana’s mind, her own personal tormentor, toys with her – what if you next deal is her last – do you even care for your so called best friend ? she’d be responsible for not only one but two deaths. before she can spiral any further, tatiana reaches for a glittered flask tucked into the back pocket of ripped jeans. taking a sip, she nods, “ yeah vi, of fuckin’ course. ya’ already know i only give ya’ the very best. ” they might as well burn together. 

     sighing in surrender, viola mentally prepared herself for whatever brand of torture tati had planned for today’s video — though, if viola was being honest with herself, she was just as excited as tatiana was; being in her friend’s videos was always a good time, no matter what they had on the agenda. “ at least you know my limitations, ” she said with a grin and a nod. “ oh, no? you’d think having hundreds of my adoring fans bombarding you in the comments and DMing you on instagram would be enough motivation not to keep me on such a tight leash. ” pulling her legs up underneath her on the chair, viola gathers all her hair in both hands before letting it spill behind her back, hoping that would be enough to keep it a safe distance from whatever torture was in her future. to say her mood had improved would be an understatement, though she knew that dark cloud of doubt wouldn’t be so easily dispersed — guilt-tripping a friend into enabling? she wanted to say it was a one-time thing, but she couldn’t count on both hands how many times she’d done exactly that ( and how many times she was sure to in future ). “ sounds like a deal, babe. so, will i be blind for the intro or will i be able to give a short will and testament on camera? ”

[violcz]

Daisie.

     the brunette sadly was already more then done with the place she had just spent the last two hours at. all she wanted to do was either go hit up another club or just head back to her place & crawl between her sheets.  “ well, if you really want to make a scene about it. you know i would never be the one to stop you. ” she chuckled, shrugging softly at the girl.  “ i’ve heard nothing but good things about how great those lungs of yours are. might just be your greatest aspect aside from your spectacular ass. but shh, don’t tell anyone i said you had a great ass. people might think i have a CRUSH on you or something. you know how shit travels around here. ”  she grinned, knowing enough that viola would hopefully only take what she had said as a simple compliment.  “ you should’ve seen his pants, either the man was leaking his not so liquid glory or his balls were just … on fire. because he had a huge wet spot on the front of his pants & he smelled like he hadn’t worn deodorant in about … TEN years. ”

     tearing her attention from the odorous offender, viola looked back at daisie with a sly grin on her face. “ it’s not about whether or not i want to make a scene, but whether or not one is necessary. ” laughing lightly, viola took a sip of her drink and leaned an elbow on the bar, her fingers folded and resting against her temple. “ who gives a shit if people think you’ve got a lady boner for me? it wouldn’t be the first time it’s happened and i’d be lying if i said it wasn’t flattering coming from a hottie like you. ” winking, viola left the intentions behind it up to daisie’s interpretation. she knew the fluctuation in her sexuality was a bit off-putting to some people, and even harmless comments often made them squirm. “ jesus christ, that’s disgusting. this just goes to show that you’re better off finding someone to take home at the bar than on the dance floor. most of the men out there are desperate, childish and don’t know the definition of personal hygiene. my advice? find someone hot before you both get sweaty on the dance floor or, you know, fucking in the bathroom. ”

[violcz]

Dylan.

                dylan had an unyielding need to make those around her happy. she’d sacrifice every bit of herself for someone else, without question. in HINDSIGHT, such selflessness was the root of all of their problems. she wasn’t born into this life. it was given to her by chance. what made her so deserving, as compared to any of the other struggling souls she’s come across? it never made sense to dylan. the overwhelming guilt only increased the older they got. viola’s indifference was something she wished she could achieve herself most days. ❝ he really went for it, didn’t he? ❞ she joked, mustering all of the positivity to her voice as she could spare. such a silly event wouldn’t be a blimp on someone else’s radar, yet dylan would be a liar if she said the child’s rejection hadn’t stung the tiniest bit. the smile on her opposite’s face was far more compelling than rehashing her day. ❝ mm, that’s a pretty smile, vi. a penny for your thoughts? ❞

      viola hadn’t spent much time around younger children outside of the studio, but she’d been witness to more than one occasion of deadpan honesty at someone else’s expense ( occasionally her own, when they were feeling particularly nasty that day ). although she herself was no longer a child, she felt as if there was at the smallest possibility that she hadn’t grown out of it — much to her parents’ annoyance. one thing viola couldn’t say she was entirely used to was sharing the errant thoughts that ran through her head, usually at rapid speed. pausing a moment, she considered avoiding the topic, knowing it was likely better not to wax poetic about the two people she felt an extension of her family, but she couldn’t keep the small smile from her mouth as their faces swam into focus in her mind’s eye. “ just thinkin’ about teo and frankie. she makes a point to rail him ceaselessly every chance she gets. i mean, obviously it’s not meant maliciously, but it’s hilarious to see. he gets the most adorable pout on his face, i swear, they’re a handful. ”

[andyoucallmeupagain]

Fuck u, next.

[violcz]

Mateo.

        viola’s presence was always something of a world-balancing, blood-boiling dream to mateo. she was like ice in his warm hands: solid for a moment, but slowing melting and slipping between his fingers with every passing moment, and mateo was too passive–or perhaps too scared of the possibility of them  ending–to confront the fact. still, he basked in his ability to forget all of that ( for her sake, mostly ) as she slid her legs over his lap, her body weighing him down deliciously. “hm,” he hummed, taking a moment to look around and the apartment from where he sat, before casually looking down at her, a hand immediately moving to caress her jaw, moving so that his thumb could run over her bottom lip as he grinned absentmindedly. ours. the word vibrated through his chest. “big for what’s expected of them, then,” he said. he wanted to kiss her–wanted to take advantage of the moment and take her home and play pretend like they had grown so good at, and so used to doing. but then she was sitting up, frowning, and his brows furrowed as he listened to her next sentence–only half-surprised when it ruined his mood. but he understood. he did. it just didn’t change the fact that it wasn’t at all what mateo wanted to hear. “you don’t even know what ‘some’ is,” mateo said, the words falling from his lips as a fragment of his subconscious more than anything. he didn’t sigh–but he wanted to. “but yeah,” he said, reaching slowly into his back pocket and pulling out a small bag of white powder–whiter than crushed xans, which meant that mateo had no real use for it. he had scored it after spending a measly hour with the pricks who owned the place. the funny thing was: he hadn’t seen a use for it until just now. give her what she wants–make viola happy; that was his prerogative. “you wouldn’t want the kind of some i’m on tonight anyway,” he said, leaning back against the couch again as he held his open hand out to viola. he fought the urge to look away, and licked his lips instead, the hand on her thigh tightening. “all yours.”

viola had never felt so unsteady as she did in this moment, so malleable and fragile in the bone-liquefying presence of someone who’d been nothing but unmovable in all the time she’d known him. she wondered if she’d take new shape should he press his fingers hard enough into her skin — and whether he’d still want her when his fingertips were molded into her flesh. she could have melted there, her lip catching on the pad of his thumb as she sighed lightly, eyelids fluttering at the burn of his touch ( he was a living flame, leaving scorch marks on her arms, her jaw, her throat — and, god, was she glad to sizzle and char ). but then reality swept in, cooling the air and settling icily between them. she didn’t drop her eyes as she slowly took the baggie from his proffered hand, forcing herself not to snatch at it like the starving animal she knew she resembled. “ as long as it gets the job done, right? ”  she’d plenty of experience with disappointment, but it always seemed to slice right into the center of her chest when it came from mateo; had she not been so terribly masochistic, she’d have apologized, stepped away and left.. but viola was nothing if not self-indulgent in all her endeavors. rather than give up the heat radiating from him ( self sacrificing, she was not ), she carefully shook some of the powder on the back of her hand, inhaling it with a shiver and a sigh, the throbbing headache already beginning to fog over. blinking slowly, she breathed deeply as the high began to settle in her bones, her heartbeat steadily picking up speed with each breath. focusing her eyes on mateo again, she smiled in thanks, pressing her lips to the corner of his mouth ( she’d meant to kiss him properly, but she’d missed, encouraging her to try again ), her fingers toying idly with the collar of his shirt. “ you know i’m down for anything, ” she teased quietly, her mood noticeably brighter than it had been not five minutes before. her mind was still a bit clouded, but sitting so comfortably with the one person she knew wouldn’t let anything happen to her, she didn’t let the worry weigh on her. sighing contentedly, she rested an elbow on the back of the couch beside his head, leaving their faces only a few inches apart. she studied him, re-memorizing his face for what felt like the millionth time, finding something new and fascinating every time she did so. her finger trailed so lightly across his features that she barely touched him at all ( and yet she felt her fingertip begin to grow hot the longer it spent in almost-contact with his skin ). “ you’re so beautiful, teo. “

[violcz]

3, 7, 32, 51

32 — what is your favorite color?

“ hmm, probably mauve. ”

51 — favorite food?

“ i could eat baked ziti every day of my life and never get tired of it. but, you know, after about a week i’d have gained at least twenty pounds or whatever. oh, well! ”

[violcz]

3, 7, 17, 31, 65, 70

3 — do you regret anything?

“ #noragrets “

7 — what did you last eat?

“ a ten count nugget meal from mcdonalds. ”

17 — ever made out in the bathroom?

“ uhh, of course i have — i was sixteen once! ”

31 — does somebody love you?

“ i mean.. i know vera does, ‘cause we’d have to have some words if she didn’t, but i’m pretty sure somebody.. else does, yeah. ”

65 — your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

“ well, speaking from, uh, experience, i tend to.. ignore it. ”

70 — is there anyone you would die for?

“ oh, definitely. it’s all or nothing whenever i find myself giving a shit, you know? so, yeah, i’d happily die for vera, teo, frnakie or tati on any given day. ”

[violcz]

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contact name: bigDICKenergy 🍆ringtone: marimba

[ 1:49am ]: lmfao this girl just went on for like ten minutes about how shes gonna marry u VJCNDK to be fair, she’s drunk off her ass but GOD idt i’ve laughed so hard in my LIFE!!![ 1:53am ]: she just puked in these people’s ficus or w/e and shouted, at the top of her lungs, I LOVE DICK!!!! JBVCN[ 1:55am ]: LMFAO her boyfriend is so PISSED he says hes gonna kick ur ass into next week 😂😂😂😂 i wouldnt worry tho cos hes clearly never been in a fight in his life[ 1:56am ]: i mean, he’s wearing a polo with the collar popped so i mean?? dude’s a bitch if u ask me but i digress![ 2:01am ]: well.. just an update since ik ur RIVETED: theyre currently fucking in the bathroom so i think ur ass is safe

[violcz]

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contact name: tati(tty)ringtone: marimba

[ 11:06am ]: oof GIRL if i get one more of ur subscribers coming into my dms asking me dumbass questions im gonna fucking lose my mind[ 11:09am ]: this guy really and truly just came into my messages asking if id ever fuck my sister ??? im gonna fuckin choke, bitch !!!

[violcz]

# :~) x2 LSKDFLKSDF

contact name: teo 🖤ringtone: marimba

[ 2:42pm ]: just thought u should know that i kidnapped your sister for the night[ 2:43pm ]: she says not to worry about her and that if she finds out you Did freak, she’ll tell me that secret you made her swear never to say out loud[ 2:43pm ]: but now that im thinking about it im insanely curious so i might just try to bribe it out of her anyways! xx

[violcz]

mix tape :~) u just gotta do it to em ig

carry your throne jon bellion

if you're lost in this darkness, i'll carry your throne. no i won't let it swallow you whole

nfwmb hozier

if i was born as a blackthorn tree, i'd wanna be felled by you, held by you, fuel the pyre of your enemies

drive glades

i want you when the sun goes low; your body warmth wants me close. you say you're always by my side ‘til my blood runs dry

can i tedy

but can i try to just believe you'll never let me go

heaven finneas

so what if i'm fucked up, fallin' in love? so what if i'm such a sucker for pleasure? so what if one night is never enough? drive me insane

[connectivitty-blog]

cell phone headcanons

send me “#” for cell phone headcanons about our muses including:                              - what your muse’s name is in mine’s phone                              - what your muse’s picture is in mine’s phone                              - what your muse’s ringtone is in mine’s phone                              - my muse’s last text to your muse

[livixdunne-blog]

70 horrible questions ... Fuck it

[violcz]

livixdunne‌:

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? 02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? 03: Do you regret anything? 04: Are you insecure? 05: What is your relationship status? 06: How do you want to die? 07: What did you last eat? 08: Played any sports? 09: Do you bite your nails? 10: When was your last physical fight? 11: Do you like someone? 12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? 13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? 14: Do you miss someone? 15: Have any pets? 16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? 17: Ever made out in the bathroom? 18: Are you scared of spiders? 19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? 20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? 21: What are your plans for this weekend? 22: Do you want to have kids? How many? 23: Do you have piercings? How many? 24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? 25: Do you miss anyone from your past? 26: What are you craving right now? 27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? 28: Have you ever been cheated on? 29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? 30: What’s irritating you right now? 31: Does somebody love you? 32: What is your favourite color? 33: Do you have trust issues? 34: Who/what was your last dream about? 35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? 36: Do you give out second chances too easily? 37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? 38: Is this year the best year of your life? 39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? 40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? 51: Favourite food? 52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? 53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? 54: Is cheating ever okay? 55: Are you mean? 56: How many people have you fist fought? 57: Do you believe in true love? 58: Favourite weather? 59: Do you like the snow? 60: Do you wanna get married? 61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? 62: What makes you happy? 63: Would you change your name? 64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? 65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? 66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? 67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? 68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? 69: Do you believe in soulmates? 70: Is there anyone you would die for? 

[violcz]

mix tape

comethru jeremy zucker

and there's one thing that i need from you, can you come through

wannabe spice girls

make it last forever, friendship never ends

true friend hannah montana

we sign our cards in letters BFF

laura palmer bastille

found yourself a path upon the ground; you ran into the night, you can't be found

old friends jasmie thompson

i miss my old friends ‘cause they know when i need them the most