I couldnât think over the noise over all the chaos, over the wailing sirens and the rampant, insistent firing of the enemy ships outside. But this was it, I knew it was. I looked up at Ben, his eyes wide with fear, with desperation. A clear understanding of the horror mounting around us forced his usually calm expression to falter in the form of a crease above his brow. Finn and Poe each looked at me, then at Ben, both faces etched with confusion of something Iâd probably never be able to explain to them, not fully, not sufficiently. Taking a deep breath, I grabbed hold of Benâs arm as the ship dipped in a violent shudder as we took another hitâa few more and our shields would be gone. There wasnât enough warning, not in my dreams, not in the waking hours that plagued me with what I already knew was the answer. âRey!â my eyes shot up, meeting Finnâs. âWhat is going on?â Keeping my gaze locked on his, I forced a tight smile and looked across at Poe and finally at Ben. âItâs too late, you need to leave, all of you.â Ben moved quickly, taking my hand and forcing my attention to him, whatever I was about to say would be lost, if those dark, fierce eyes stole my attention any longer. Despite the agony in doing so, I forced a deep breath into my lungs and pulled my hand free. âHe knew, he always knew thereâd be one, stronger than you, stronger than Vader, he knew, and he was waiting and after all these years, after all this time, heâs coming for me.â The two men behind Ben were warriors, both were strong in their own right, both had come up through this war as heroes, men I was proud to fight beside, and I didnât need to look across at them to see the disbelief flooring them, I didnât need to see because I felt it, like Iâd felt everything my whole life. âYou said it yourself, Ben, when we touched hands, you saw me turn, you saw me switch sides, just like I saw with you. We were both right.â âNo, Rey.â He shook his head, he wouldnât believe it, even now, as I stood there, darkness emanating from within me, a darkness I always knew was there. Itâs what Iâd told Luke, wasnât it? That itâs always been there, but Iâd been afraid. That was a lie, I was never afraid, I was curious and now I knew why. There was always something that kept me safe, alive when most skilled fighters would have fallen, succumbed to the loneliness and pain, something I now finally knew and understood and it their strength, my weakness disappeared. But not without a cost. The cost came in the form of losing everything just when Iâd found it. Benâs eyes narrowed, taking me in, completely hanging onto every thought I was afraid to think because heâd see it and heâd feel the truth in it. And he did. On the surface he was still, calm, but inside, where I felt every fiber of the force pulsing between us, he was shaken, he was in shock but most of all, he was afraidâa true fear Iâd only felt once, when Snoke was about to launch is finest weapon against me, just before he turned against Snoke. âReyâŠâ My eyes snapped back to Benâs, ignoring the others, ignoring the sirens and the bucking and protesting shakes coming from the ship. âAnakin and Yoda shielded me from birth, they knew Snoke would be coming, they knew heâd sense the force in me, I was born of it, of the darkness and now, the shield is gone, itâs broken, and he knows itâs me.â âRey, I know you, I sense the light in you, the good.â Ben stepped toward me and I stepped back. As I studied his expression, I saw the resolve break, he didnât believe what he was saying, but he believed in me, in us. âThereâs only Darkness, Ben, only darkness and I wonât be able to fight it when he comes. You need to leave now.â âIâm not leaving you, weâre not leaving you. Whatever comes, it comes for all of us.â âOnly it doesnât.â I said, keeping my hands safely wrapped around my chest and my eyes away from the pleading in his lips. âRey.â Finn added. âHeâs right, as much as it pains me to admit, weâre not going, and by my count, we donât have long before the shields drop.â âWhich is why you need to leave. Right now.â âNot happening.â Poe added. âBut we do need to move, this bridge isnât going to hold much longer.â
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Just re blogging the intro to my Reylo fanfic!!