brb falling apart

ed safe space (no numbers, no tips, no thinspo)

[violettpettals]

it doesnt matter that you say you're not pro ana, if you still post

- calorie counts

- thinspo

- ana diet guides

- MEANSPO

under tags that you know people with eds look at, then you’re pro ana. we all know eds are competitive, by doing that you're enabling people to destroy themselves. keep the thinspo to yourself, and if not, don’t put it under recovery-related tags. jfc

[violettpettals]

I’m marrying whoever made that new 7-Eleven vitamin-water-zero slushee, gn

[pxper-dxisy]

can ed tumblr stop bulimia shaming? i get it, purging is dangerous but all eds are dangerous so stop trying to pit them against one another all because you have a superiority complex. everyone on this side of the internet is engaging in or trying to recover from extremely harmful behavior. whether it be anorexia, bulimia, binge eating, or whatever else, we are all here for a reason. we want to find people who share our struggles to relate to and taking that away from an entire group of people is not okay.

bulimia is not diet anorexia, bulimia is not failed anorexia, people who are struggling with bulimia are not people who "arent commited enough" to be anorexic.

we are all struggling too, stop shaming people who struggle with something different than you.

[violettpettals]

sugary cereal is actually such a valid safe food, and fuck anyone who tries to tell you otherwise. 1 cup of cereal doesn’t even make up 1/10 of your TDEE, enjoy your Cinnamon Toast Crunch as much as you want.

[violettpettals]

I took the act a week ago, and my stomach started fucking growling like a mf halfway thru the test, I hate it here

[violettpettals]

*TW ED***

Ive been holding in everything about my ed for so long, and all I wish I had is someone who I could talk to about my habits, my thought, everything. But I don’t want to risk potentially setting someone down the path towards having an ed, or triggering someone who already has one. Conflicted.

[violettpettals]

*TW ED***

going vegan has cut out a lot of my safe foods (egg whites, yogurt, chicken broth, etc), but it’s also cut out the majority of the foods I binged on the most. sounds pretty fair to me ig. but I’ll stop if I feel like it’s making my relationship with food worse.

[violettpettals]

ya bitch is going plant based now. finally giving into whichever god cursed me with lactose intolerance and an intense fear of salmonella.

[violettpettals]

*TW ED****

I’m so fucking stupid. My brain has decided that I now have to restrict to a very specific number for however long, just because I thought to myself “hehe, funny number” 🧍🏾And yes, it’s probably one of the numbers that you’re thinking, but I’m still not gonna write it bc y’all don’t need even more motivation 🗿

[violettpettals]

*TW ED***

Ig it’s pre-school year relapse time

I hate it here.

[violettpettals]

*TW ED***

coming to terms with the fact that the only way i’ll stop b/p-ing is if i increase my daily intake. quick loss is gonna have to be postponed ig so i can combat at least one ed habit. i dont think im mentally ready to stop restricting completely, but i cant continue the way i have been. scary stuff.

[violettpettals]

foods that make me feel safe *TW ED***

Note: I will not be providing calorie counts for any of these. Whatever food makes you feel safe is valid regardless of how many calories are in it. You deserve nutrition and you deserve to feel safe above all else (regarding food).

So hi, I haven’t rlly posted anything about myself, and a safe food list seems like the least triggering information I could give relating to my ed. As you’ll probably notice, most of these are sweet bc I’m an absolute sugar fiend. Anyways enjoy ig? Idk but ily and ur valid, byeeee :))))

🥴Sour Gummy Bears (specifically the Haribo brand)

Idk why but I think it’s bc they’re so tiny, and I can’t eat too many bc of the citric acid. They remind me of being a little kid which is comforting, and I kinda just like the process of chewing something for a while so they’re good. Also ofc they’re sugary.

🥴 Those Big “Gourmet” Lollipops (they’re sold individually, usually at like Walgreens or smth)

They’re big so they last forever and give me the feeling of eating for a while, but they’re not too big so I don’t feel particularly guilty. The cotton candy one is the best. Idk if I’m doing a great job at helping you visualize them but I feel like you know which ones I’m talking about? Idk.

🥴 Sugar Free Jello Pudding

I usually make them with almond milk, and they’re so so good and filling. I never rlly liked chocolate pudding before my ed but I rlly like these idk why. The chocolate and white chocolate ones r the best. The pistachio one tastes like realizing you’re not getting into your dream college, wouldn’t recommend.

🥴 Soup (non-cream based)

It’s warm and filling, and there r like infinite types so that’s cool. It’s rlly bad for you, but I love the Campbell’s canned chicken noodle soup, it’s so salty and tastes like a shot of straight msg right through my veins. Also kinda reminds me of cheap chicken ramen, which is a big fear food of mine so that’s nice ig. Non cream based though, bc just like every other poc apparently, I’m lactose intolerant 😩

🥴 Fruit

I’ve convinced myself that I don’t have to count (most) fruit calories into my daily total so that’s pretty good I think. I do count bananas, avocados, and other fruit like those though. But grapes and watermelon? Completely safe, probably because they’re mostly water.

🥴 Banana Bread

I think it might be a pretty unconventional safe food bc it’s carbs, sugar, bananas, and baked all in one. But I find it fairly safe, mainly bc I used a low cal recipe so it ends up being a doable amount per slice. Also I can pack in flax seed and protein powder and a bunch of other supplements for hEaLtH and pretend that I’m not literally mentally ill.

🥴 Water

Putting this here bc I KNOW some of y’all r not drinking enough water. Drinking water isn’t suddenly going to undo the negative effects of your ed and make you “safe”, but it’s still rlly important.

So yea that’s all I can think of rn. I know there are definitely a few more but i suddenly don’t feel like typing anymore, and they’re also rlly basic safe foods (Diet Coke, gum, black coffee, etc).

[violettpettals]

An Opinion That Should Actually Just Be A Fact:

If you send meanspo, in any form to any person, you’re being a shitty person. It does not matter whether or not that person has asked for it, because people with eating disorders HAVE DISORDERED ACTIONS. Nothing justifies taking advantage of a vulnerable individual.

[violettpettals]

*TW ED*****

bro I love my parents and I love cooking for them but CAN YALL STOP EATING MY SAFE MEALS THEYRE ALL I HAVE 😔😔 it also makes me uncomfy bc they don’t realize they’re low calorie so they think they’re eating a full meal :((((

[violettpettals]

*TW ED****

straight up, few things make u feel more empty than hitting what u thought was your goal weight, and still hating ur body. Pls get out while you still can, ana will never stop trying to take until it, or you, are gone. Your existence is worth so much more than some bones and a pair of small jeans.

[violettpettals]

*TW ED****

a message 。。。a binge after restricting isn’t "messing up", its ur body staging an intervention bc it wants you to be ok. your body is literally going into survival mode and your subconscious is overriding your conscious.