Caracal, Lord of Change

Transmasculine, it/its.

[viragodude]

So after months of not touching this app, i’m not thrilled that my old shit is STILL being reblogged, especially after i’ve made posts denouncing those views, and especially by CRYPTOTERFS of all fucking people.

Do not spread/reblog my old content. Viragoism is dead and it should stay this way. If i catch anyone continuing to reblog any old posts you will be blocked and i will name and shame you. I don’t care if you even remotely resonated with them, i will use what little standing i have to ensure that this isn’t repeated.

I’ll be sure to pin this and continue blocking people. Hope everyone has a good day.

[voraciveous-deactivated20250311]

Transwomen are between 500 and 815 times more likely than cis females to have committed sexual offenses, and they are between 4,5 and 11 times more likely than cis males to be sexual offenders.

The Rorschach Test

The release of some early 2021 census statistics relating to gender was greeted with glee and elation by Nancy Kelley, CEO of Stonewall in t

[viragodude]

Stay the fuck away from my profile.

[unholymoonlight-deactivated2024]

Something I really hate about transphobes is that it has made it increasingly harder to talk about complex issues within the community without them deciding to take claims and fucking run with the ideas and spin false narratives around them.

If a transfem is abused by a transmasc and talks about it online- especially if that transmasc used their transness as leverage in the relationship, some people will jump on the transfem for supposed transphobia. We get this personally in the reverse- but I have enough awareness to understand that transfems do experience this as well.

Transmascs can't talk about lateral aggression and sexual objectification that happens of afab bodies within the trans community without transphobes saying some really fucking weird shit about it.

Transfems can't comment on ways they experience lateral aggression and sexual objectification in a misogynistic way within the trans community without transphobes running with it either.

Enbies can't talk about lateral aggression from binary trans people without being dogpiled and harassed by transphobes and have their messages misconstrued by transphobes.

Intersex trans and cis people can't talk about the complexities of their own gender and identity and experiences without being dogpiled as well.

There are brutally transandrophobic transfems who are so poisoned by the radfem ideology that they actively do state they want to commit violent hate crimes against transmascs, there are brutally transmisogynistic transmascs who want to do harm and subjugate transfems and are very literal MRAs in the sense of the incely type behavior, there are a lot of exorsexist binary trans people who do inflict a lot of horrific harm onto enbies, there is a massive common issue of intersexism within all of the trans community.

These things should be talked about and addressed but it is so much more difficult given how transphobes love the idea of us fighting- and how they will twist things and cause people to misunderstand each others messages.

We should be able to talk about how people can use their queerness to appear safe but still be abusive and awful and -phobic. We should talk about the way transfems are dogpiled by transmascs, we should talk about how transmascs are dogpiled by transfems, we should talk about the tokenization of intersex people, and we should talk about the stigmatization of enbies. It's just a fucking mess and it makes me so sad that so many important and nuanced conversations just do not seem to happen.

[viragodude]

heads up pringorr is a cryptoterf reblogging your old anti-transfem posts

Well, time to make another terf block.

[viragodude]

It never is fun going back on here and seeing the (possible) damage that my own rhetoric has been capable of. It hurts that my own pain is/was being used as a weapon against active solidarity, whether by TERFs of all people or by other transmasculine people who are experiencing the same pain as i have.

Onviously my nonsense on here hasn’t put a wrench in things, no, but it still is disheartening knowing that i have people (such as an anon that recently cane in) being upset that i stopped disparaging non transmascs. I understand and do feel for this minority of transmascs, and i understand the betrayal they must feel; that their supposed idol took the time to reflect on its own feelings and is working to combat those thought patterns.

Fucking hell, man.

[viragodude]

you were speaking truth about non transmascs being shitheads to us and how we shouldn't have to succumb to political husbandry for an ounce of respect and then immediately bailed on it the second people criticized you. its just sad to see man, you were one of the few people ACTUALLY talking about this shit in the anti-transmasculinity discussion. at this point, trans fems will never be there for us. they just see us as stupid cis girls wanting to be "special" . they will continue to forcibly erase us and our struggle. they will go to the lengths of siding with terfs to push us down. i get you dont want the hate, but you shouldn't have went back on your beliefs.

I didn’t bail on them the moment i was criticised; i kept a lot of my views even when i faced backlash, if you dive into my poating history you can very well see that. The only reason i came to was the fact that i learned my worldview came from a place of hurt, and that i was misplacing that hurt onto transfems.

I see that you’re facing a similar (if not the same) pain, it might feel good in the time; but really look at yourself. Think about what you are doing, why you felt/feel that way, and why you feel lateral aggression in retaliation is the response. I’m not denying that shitty non-transmascs exist, they very much do; but for God’s sake, my host has a transfem partner who LOVES him and listens to him. My host has transfem friends who WILL listen.

Do not let a specific group warp your view on people, and, i mean this in the kindest way, please go outside and find a local trans alliance group.

[viragodude]

Do you have any kind of support in your offline life? Or even good online friends? Because holy shit, dude, I'm glad you've calmed down, but this is some fucking toxic stuff. Like I wanna block you, but I also wanna give you a hug bc it seems like you need one? No need to post this if you don't want to, I guess I just wanted to say I hope you have some kind of resources bc it looks like you're really going thru it...

My host has his partner, but aside from that not much in terms of irl. Host’s partner has some connections with an local irl trans group and has been trying to hook us up with a therapist who could help with these issues.

In terms of online friends, host has some too.

Ngl we could use a hug lol, but i also understand the impulse to block.

[viragodude]

Disregard my last post about leaving the platform. I wasn’t in the best spot, and upon kinda mellowing out i can’t believe the response was overwhelmingly positive. Seeing so many positive messages geared to me wasn’t something i expected, and as requested by some of tou i’ll be staying on here.

Might be the 12 hbwr seeds talking, but on the bottom of my heart, thank you lot for caring enough to knock sense into me and shit. 💚

[viragodude]

What do you mean by " a path that is dangerous"? What are you referring to

Viragoism is a seperatist movement that i attempted to spark. It was formed out of my anger and hurt at the lateral aggression i faced, and it already attracted the attention of a TERF who attempted to use my page as a possible recruitment tool.

[viragodude]

At 4:30pm CST tomorrow, i’m deleting this blog. Do not archive anything i’ve posted or anythijg related to Viragoism. This account was a horrific, rotting mistake.

To any transmasc reading this, find solidarity amongst other trans people. Not just transmascs; OTHER TRANS PEOPLE.

Forget ATA/ATE. Forget my posts, and forget me.

I regret everything i’ve done on this site.

[viragodude]

What am i doing

I don’t even know why i made this account. I don’t know why i’m here causing so much trouble and pain not only to myself, but to other trans people here. I hate it so much, for God’s sake i just want to feel joy. I felt no joy making that God forsaken Virago text bullshit. I never felt joy responding to my own detractors, if anything they’re right; i’m leading every single transmasc who follows me and even related to anything i posted into a path that is not only dangerous, but isolating.

I can’t do this anymore. I can’t keep hurting myself and others.

To wveryone calling my bullshit out; you were right. So right and i in my own attempt at deflecting did not see it. I hate admitting this, i really do, but good God what the hell am i doing?

[viragodude]

Genuine question I am not trying to be rude but how is transmasc separatism going to handle multigender and non-binary people? Because some people are men and women. Some people are neither men, nor women. And these people can be trans, so where do they fit? In the "non-binary but basically your AGAB" queer spaces online?

Well, i’m on the perspective that AGAB-based division in inherently flawed, as i’ve stated before that i believe amab masc-aligned nonbinary people are (potentially) affected by anti-transmasculinity.

When i first penned the Viragoism text, i myself did run into that question. Considering that multigendered people as well as nonbinary people have different experiences from others that cannot always be painted in the broad stroke of transmasculinity, it might be hard to really determine.

I wish i personally knew the answer and how to properly categorise it.

[viragodude]

Tw Suicide, rape, death

I feel frustrated and tired, and I know that if I pursue transitioning my life will never get any easier, and any joy I feel will be undercut by the fear of being raped and murdered no matter what. I wish I could rip out my uterus. I wish I could slash off my breast and be a posterchild for body mutilation. I'm not white. A part of my fear of transitioning is heightened by my race. If I could just be a girl, at least I could pretend I'm doing something right. But god, it going to kill me. Either way, it's going to kill me.

I just want to let you know that your pain is heard, and it is also a pain that i (mostly) share as a pre-T trans man.

I myself happen to be white, and my experiences with this similar fear isn’t influenced by my race as much as yours. I cannot imagine the impact this stuff has on POC transmascs and i really wish i had a much better understanding of it.

However, i can relate to the experience of needing to force yourself in the closet; whether its because of your family, your community, or even the whole of this fucked society we are currently in. I also understand the pain that comes with it, the loss of joy when you’re forced to play a part that you weren’t meant for.

I also can relate to the fears that come into play even when transitioning starts. That all of the joy that comes from your body feeling like its own will be ripped away from violent transphobia, from rejection from the people and communities you thought would have your back, ect.

I wish i had the advice needed, i wish i knew how to assure you that it’ll be ok; truth be told, i want to hope that there will be a silver lining for you, and by extension for the rest of us.

Just know that i hear you.

[viragodude]

Thanks for answering my ask about transmedicalism. From what I understand of your POV, you want a separatist movement for all transmascs, right? Would that include those who are currently transmeds, because I can see some problems arising from that. If they are included, how would you combat the problem of the community you want to build turning on itself?

I believe that transmeds (not their ideology, the people themselves) can potentially have a place in this movement. If i had to combat transmedicalist ideology, i would hope that others (and even myself) would have to ensure that not only are they heard and understood, but to try and perhaps sway their views. Obviously you can’t cure an ideology overnight; most often than not transmedicalism, specifically in transmascs, is more than likely a trauma response. However, you can make people feel heard and hopefully have them delearn any harmful beliefs.

[viragodude]

This is not to say that they wouldn’t be held accountable for saying shitty things. In order to have solidarity, even our uglier aspects need to be addressed and ensured that our spaces can truly be safe for ALL transmascs. We need to embrace ALL transmascs, even those with identities that seem inherently contradictory.

[viragodude]

Thanks for answering my ask about transmedicalism. From what I understand of your POV, you want a separatist movement for all transmascs, right? Would that include those who are currently transmeds, because I can see some problems arising from that. If they are included, how would you combat the problem of the community you want to build turning on itself?

I believe that transmeds (not their ideology, the people themselves) can potentially have a place in this movement. If i had to combat transmedicalist ideology, i would hope that others (and even myself) would have to ensure that not only are they heard and understood, but to try and perhaps sway their views. Obviously you can’t cure an ideology overnight; most often than not transmedicalism, specifically in transmascs, is more than likely a trauma response. However, you can make people feel heard and hopefully have them delearn any harmful beliefs.

[viragodude]

You're an ex-transmed, right? Could you talk a bit about why you left that ideology?

I left the transmed ideology in 2018 when i myself had gone through the motions of my own gender identity; coming to the conclusion that i don’t need to gatekeep transness bc, truth be told, what would be the point in gatekeeping who can identify as what. Transmed ideology was hurting me despite me using it as a coping mechanism from the transphobia i faced when i was growing up.

It isn’t nonbinary people, people using neopronouns/xenogenders, or non-dysphoric trans people who prevents us from transitioning; its Cisnormative Patriarchy.

[viragodude]

What makes you terfy is your hatred of transfems. You share with terfs/terfism the hatred of transfems where both of you see them as enemies, violent, malicious, dominating beings.

I see sometimes transmascs talking in a terfy way about them but the environment you are trying to cultivate, where people can womit their hatred of transfems without restraint will only amplify the phenomenon.

Your approach is counter productive. Your blog participates to dismantling the efforts that transmascs are making to have their oppression recognized and you are contribute to radicalize transfems into more transandrophobia. Your blog probably circulates in some circles and is pointed out as proof that the anti-transandrophobia movement is an incubator for transmisogynists, that transmasc-centric movements cannot be trusted because they will always drift towards the hatred of transfems.

Stop posting on the transandrophobia/anti-transmasculinity tags, you are destroying our efforts. Fucking hell.

If non-transmascs become more hostile to transmascs bc of the things i’ve said and highlighted, then that is on them for continual denial. I never came on here to perpetuate positive energy, no, i was not offered that and will run my site accordingly. I apologise (not) for being unkind and unwilling to placate myself for the sensibilities of non-transmascs.

If you’ve been in my shoes, you’d probably garner similar viewpoints. Anyways i will continually tut TERFs appropriating my experiences and hurt in irder to further their agenda.