Fic Summary: The owner of The 107th wants you to be his girl whether you like it or not.
Fic Warnings: DARK AU, noncon/dubcon, stalking, coercion, threats, gaslighting, inner turmoil, violence, creepy and unhinged behavior, flashback, possessiveness, Bucky Barnes (he's a warning, okay?), more warnings to come.
Fic Status: Ongoing with tentative updates every other Sunday.
A/N: Club owner!Bucky obsessed with you wouldn't leave my brain and now we have this! Hope you lovelies enjoy! â€ïž Bucky edit by the beautiful @nixakimbo and divider by the talented @firefly-graphics . Please follow @navybrat817-sideblog for new fics and notifications. Comments, reblogs, feedback are loved and appreciated!
Summary: Lily McIntire, trainer for new SHIELD recruits at the Avengers Tower, has been in love with her best friend, Bucky Barnes, from the moment she met him. She's been content with her role of the #1 girl in Bucky's life, even if it means she has to sabotage a romantic relationship or two. It'll be worth it when he realizes that they're meant for each other, right? There's just one small problem: Lily McIntire never expected Bucky Barnes to fall for You. ONGOING
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Warnings: 18+ Minors: GTFO; I donât serve your kind here.
"*" indicates explicit sexual content (each chapter will feature its own warnings as needed), language, angst, excessive use of Bleachers' lyrics
More will be added as the story progresses, and some chapters may have specific warnings that I will keep under wraps to avoid spoilers. When we get to those sections, I will let you know, so if there is a specific trigger that you absolutely cannot handle, let me know and I will tell you if the section is safe. As always, please let me know if I miss any warnings.
Word Count: Currently 39k; Total TBD
Prologue Lily (04.27.24)
1.1 Major (04.29.24)
1.2 Bucky (04.30.24)
1.3 Major (05.01.24)
Summary: Lily McIntire, trainer for new SHIELD recruits at the Avengers Tower, has been in love with her best friend, Bucky Barnes, from the moment she met him. She's been content with her role of the #1 girl in Bucky's life, even if it means she has to sabotage a romantic relationship or two. It'll be worth it when he realizes that they're meant for each other, right? There's just one small problem: Lily McIntire never expected Bucky Barnes to fall for You. WIP
Warnings: 18+ Minors: GTFO; I donât serve your kind here.
"*" indicates explicit sexual content (each chapter will feature its own warnings as needed), language, angst, excessive use of Bleachers' lyrics
More will be added as the story progresses, and some chapters may have specific warnings that I will keep under wraps to avoid spoilers. When we get to those sections, I will let you know, so if there is a specific trigger that you absolutely cannot handle, let me know and I will tell you if the section is safe. As always, please let me know if I miss any warnings.
Word Count: Currently 23.5k; Total TBD
Prologue Lily (4.27.24)
1.1 Major (4.29.24)
1.2 Bucky (4.30.24)
1.3 Major (5.01.24)
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Summary: This is a very long series/collection of one-shots about a nervous/awkward journalist Reader meeting, falling for, and dating Matt Murdock. Meant to feel like a realistic look into dating Matthew Murdock and all the sweet, vulnerable, sexy, and dark sides that come with him. Reader also gradually gains more confidence in and out of the bedroom as the relationship progresses.
List of Installments
Part One: "The Night You Met"
Part Two: "The One-Sided Pining"
Part Three: "The Time Daredevil Saved You"
Part Four: "The Night You Almost Kissed"
Part Five: "The Wedding Day"
Part Six: "The Wedding Night"
Part Seven: "The Post-Wedding Brunch"
Part Eight: "The First Date"
Part Nine: "The Pool Game"
Part Ten: "The Growing Insecurity"
Part Eleven: "The Night Together"
Part Twelve: "The Week You Tried to Avoid Matt"
Part Thirteen: "The First Time He Walked You Home"
Part Fourteen: "The Time Matt Got Jealous"
Part Fifteen: "The Vulnerable Side of Matt"
Part Sixteen: "The Time You Saved Daredevil"
Part Seventeen: "The Revelation in the Rain"
Part Eighteen: "The Visit to Fogwell's"
Part Nineteen: "The Time You Almost Told Him"
Part Twenty: "The 'I Told You So'"
Part Twenty-One: "The Time You Did Tell Him"
Part Twenty-Two: "The Night You Couldn't Sleep"
Part Twenty-Three: "The Day of Phone Tag"
Part Twenty-Four: "The Devil and the Baker"
Part Twenty-Five: "The Leather Couch"
Part Twenty-Six: "The Big Win"
Part Twenty-Seven: "The Grocery Run"
Part Twenty-Eight: "The Early Morning Wake Up"
Part Twenty-Nine: "The Questions Over Coffee"
Part Thirty: "The Introduction at Clinton Church"
Part Thirty-One: "The Flight to Chicago"
Part Thirty-Two: "The Night He Couldn't Sleep"
Part Thirty-Three: "The Thanksgiving Dinner"
Part Thirty-Four: "The Ex Encounter"
Part Thirty-Five: "The Very Bad Day"
Part Thirty-Six: "The Cozy Night In"
Part Thirty-Seven: "The Bad Dream"
Part Thirty-Eight: "The Black Suit"
Part Thirty-Nine: "The Secret Santa"
Party Forty: "The Secrets in Your Suitcase"
Party Forty-One: "The First Half of the Trip"
Part Forty-Two: "The Argument in the Hotel Room"
Part Forty-Three: "The End of the Trip"
Part Forty-Four: "The Christmas Eve Party"
Party Forty-Five: "The Christmas Dinner"
Part Forty-Six: "The Night of Christmas"
Part Forty-Seven: "The Devil in Need"
Part Forty-Eight: "The Perfume"
Part Forty-Nine: "The Cemetery Visit"
Part Fifty: "The Interview"
Part Fifty-One: "The Devil's Wrath"
Part Fifty-Two: "The Breaking Point"
Party Fifty-Three: "The Downward Spiral"
Part Fifty-Four: "The Impossible Friendship"
Part Fifty-Five: "The Disheartening Valentine's Day"
Part Fifty-Six: "The Nightmare"
Part Fifty-Seven: "The Rough Conversation"
Part Fifty-Eight: "The Aftermath"
Part Fifty-Nine: "The Necessary Conversation"
Part Sixty: "The Long Awaited Kiss"
Part Sixty-One: "The Things You Didn't Know"
Part Sixty-Two: "The Pinky Promise"
Part Sixty-Three: "The Dinner Party"
Part Sixty-Four: "The Lesson at Fogwell's"
Part Sixty-Five: "The Shower"
Part Sixty-Six: "The Night Out"
Part Sixty-Seven: "The Morning in Bed"
Part Sixty-Eight: "The Sleepover"
Part Sixty-Nine: "The Lunch Date Delay"
Part Seventy: "The Thoughts About the Future"
Part Seventy-One: "The Sleepwalking"
Part Seventy-Two: "The Belated Valentine's"
Part Seventy-Three: "The Easter Sunday"
Part Seventy-Four: "The Boy's Night at Josie's"
Part Seventy-Five: "The Hangover"
Part Seventy-Six: "The Request"
Party Seventy-Seven: "The Very Frustrating Day"
Part Seventy-Eight: "The Night You Cooked Together"
Part Seventy-Nine: "The Hell Day"
Part Eighty: "The Revisitation of Moving In"
Part Eighty-One: "The Nighttime Visit"
Party Eighty-Two: "The Overload"
Part Eighty-Three: "The Really Bad Idea"
Part Eighty-Four: "The Late Night Snack Hunt"
Part Eighty-Five: "The Romantic Voicemails"
Part Eighty-Six: "The Moving Day"
Part Eighty-Seven: "The Week of Distractions" {Coming Soon}
Warnings: angst, self-esteem issues, fake dating trope gets slapped around but then it punches me in the face, so many feelings, smut, fake smut, Steve's dumb but it's okay, and it's 24 parts.
Listening to: Wake Me Up by Sam Meador
Summary: Decisions have been made.
Author's Note: Posting this early because it's supposed to be a nice treat for all the wierdos that are desperate for answers... the problem is I'm not going to post 23 early. So. This is actually a treat for me. Enjoy having even more questions and still having to wait until the 30th for 23 to post. <3
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Taking a deep breath, even underwater, felt good. It wasnât lost on you that barely an hour passed after getting back from the mission. Bucky had gone from being affectionate to being broken, you were some magical creature, and you were sulking at the bottom of the lake instead of getting back what you lost.Â
Even though only Bucky knew that something had been going on with you, no one had an idea that you were getting flashes of memories. Loki seemed to understand it and was confident. Out of everyone else, even though you didnât know him, you were choosing Loki.Â
Breaking the water's surface, you didnât know why Bucky was still at the dock, and he didnât notice you, so you went to the boathouse. Changing quickly, you were out, glancing over your shoulder, but Bucky hadn't moved an inch.Â
You had understood what he said and why, but it was bullshit. This wasnât what either of you had planned, but if heâd rather shut down, it might be better this way. As you walked into the compound, you had the awful mental image of tossing everything you had in a blender. If anything survived this, you could deal with it after.Â
As you entered the lab, Tony and Thor stopped talking and looked over at you. Loki was on his own but stood as you walked into the room and said, âIâm ready.â
âReally?â Tony asked; seeing him shocked was worth all the inner turmoil.
Loki was walking toward you, smiling kindly before he glared at Tony and asked, âIs there somewhere private?â
Only a few minutes later, inside an office, Tony and Thor anxiously watch as Loki pulls the chair from behind the desk in front of it. You sit down and reassure Loki that youâre comfortable. Itâs an office chair; what did he expect?
Setting another chair, one that had been next to the door, in front of you, Loki sat facing you. He sighed before explaining, âItâs going to be fast, but I promise everything will be alright now.â
That was an odd thing to say, especially with how he looked at you with a mixture of concern and excitement, but the longer you were around Loki, the more you felt safe. It didnât make sense, considering how uneasy all this made Tony. You knew Tony Stark and trusted his judgment until now.Â
As Loki raised his hand, you felt panic bubble up inside you, but he shushed you. The sound wasnât human, it was an odd guttural sound, but it calmed you immediately. Holding up his pointer and middle finger, barely a few inches from touching your forehead, he said, âNo tears. Donât waste them on this.â
âWhat?â you asked as Loki gently touched your forehead.
It was like watching a movie sped up too fast to understand what was going on, but you did. Memories flooded you, things you had been so close to knowing but didnât have enough time. Realizing that you had closed your eyes, you opened them and smiled at Loki before wrapping your arms around him.
You looked up at Loki and smiled before hugging him. In a rush, you said, âAmâve misst du.â
âAm tanke amâd lost du,â Loki replied, and it was so good hearing his voice after so long.Â
At the same time Loki spoke, Tony asked in a panic, âWhat happened? What language was that?â
Thor stepped forward and sounded livid, âLoki, what didââ
âPlease, Thor, Tony, I need a few minutes to talk to Loki,â you said, pulling back from Loki and standing. Tony looked like he was about to faint, but it made sense. You werenât scared anymore and tried to sound reassuring, âIâm fine, really. Please, close the door behind you.â
The second the door closed, Lokiâs hands were holding your face as he spoke to you in Jotun, âHow did you get out? I searched for you, but there was nothing but rubble.â
âThey attacked early, ohâŠ.â you trailed off as you remembered your mother, sisters, and father. It took you a moment before you were able to explain, âShe stuck to the plan but used a stronger curse.â
Lokiâs eyes were bright as he sighed, âItâs been so longâŠ.â
âI know, but⊠we have time now,â you smiled, hugging him again as you whispered, âI have to go.â
You stood, but Loki grabbed your arm, âYou have a responsibility. You haveââ
âBold of you to lecture me on anything, especially responsibility,â you narrow your eyes as you jerk your hand out of his and turn to face him, âMy place has been vacant for centuries, and yet the oceans are safe.â
âYou should be with us on Asgard, not hereââ
âMidgard is and always will be where I belong,â you said as you walked to the door.Â
Opening it, there are a lot more people than just Tony and Thor. You smile as Thor asks, âYou speak Jotun?â
You have more important things to do than deal with this and decide to throw Loki under the proverbial bus, âItâs a long story, but Loki can explain for me.â
As you try to walk around Thor, Tony asks, âWhere are youââ
âLoki?â Wanda asks, cutting Tony off and shoving past him.
You take her hand and hope you can do this without hurting her feelings, âWanda, seriously, I have something I need to do, and then we can talk. Please understand.â
A tap on your shoulder and Sam is smiling at you, âGo, but you owe me.â
Part threeeeeee! This kinda gets a bit fluffy at the end so who knows what the heck is happening but I hope you enjoy it!
Doctor kink, breeding kink, dubious doctors behaving dubiously but also sweet so..... Also pregnancy talk so please avoid if that may upset you â€ïž
Part One // Part Two
The next week you were inundated with tasks and paperwork to read over before your next session with the Doctors. Copious notes about your cycle, number of times you felt aroused in the weeks and detailed descriptions on what that consisted of.
It was a bit embarrassing to send these off every evening but Dr Barnes insisted it would be helpful. Some of your deepest fantasies, and some more recent thoughts about your recent encounter with two hot doctors. Hopefully they wouldn't judge you too much.
Dr Rogers had emailed you requesting images which you had felt even more embarrassed about, but complied in the name of science. You sent him images of your pretty pussy for the most part, but he also seemed to need pictures of your ass, breasts and even one of your mouth open. It made little sense to you but he said it was all required for the process, so you did it. The more you spoke to them and thought about having a little baby of your own you felt more desperate to get everything right and make them happy. You didn't want to risk them kicking you off the programme just because you didn't send a little picture here and there.
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Eventually the date arrived where you would go through the first procedure. You felt incredibly nervous but also so excited. You still didn't quite know what the process was going to look like, but if it was anything like your check up you were quite happy with that. Dr. Barnes did say it was quite 'revolutionary' so who knows what was in store?
It was a day time appointment for a change but the whole office was completely empty. "We shut the place for today, it's a special day sweetheart" Bucky said, guiding you into his examination room, a place you were starting to look forward to being. "I'm excited, but I do feel a bit scared Doctor." You mumble as he takes your coat and hangs it up before turning to you and taking your soft hand in his warm one.
"Hey, everything is going to be fine. Steve and I are going to take such good care of you and make sure you feel great the whole time. You've trusted us this far, keep going sweetie." You smiled and squeezed his hand back nodding eagerly. "You're right, it's going to be great..."
At that moment Steve walked in and smiled at the little scene in front of him. "How are we today? Ready to make a baby?" You giggled and nodded again making them smile at you. "Oh did all my pictures come through Dr. Rogers?" You ask, heat flaring in your cheeks as you suddenly wanted to know he liked them, even though that wasn't the point!
"Oh they were marvelous, really helpful. And your little diary was also enlightening. So glad you enjoyed your time with us last time..." You thought you might die from embarrassment but they just chuckled and nudged you.
"Ok sweetie, we're gonna try and few things out today, so if it's uncomfortable just tell us, the better you feel, the more chance it has of working right?" You nod and they start moving round the room as you wait for instruction.
"Right, we need you to undress now honey and we'll get everything set up." Steve said before providing a screen for you to take your clothes off. As you did so, you could hear movement on the other side, equipment being moved and a bit of huffing from the doctors.
You peaked around the screen and watched them set up a bench, with a thin flat leather cushion. It looked quite...kinky and you couldn't help feel a twinge of excitement through your body. They turned around and caught you peeking. "Come here sweet thing, nothing to be frightened of..." Bucky said, holding out a hand for you, which you gratefully took after shuffling over, an arm over your breasts as you approached them.
"This is a sort of breeding bench. You have to lay face down on this soft cushion here and we can stimulate you from either end. We can also tilt the bench once you are inseminated to make sure it really takes. You should be nice and comfortable but if you need to move at any time, you just let us know. Any questions so far?"
"Um, how will the...insemination bit happen?" You say quietly, nibbling on your finger and looking between them. "Well we can do it two ways. Either we can use a machine, but that might be a bit uncomfortable..." Steve said, looking at your seriously and you bit your lip. "Oh, what's the other option?" He rubs your back, making your skin tingle, before brushing your hair away from your face. "Dr. Barnes and I are happy to provide samples directly. That way we can adjust to your comfort and monitor you more closely."
Your eyes widened at the thought. You'd had a little bit of first hand experience with their direct approach. They were both very well endowed and you wondered out loud, "do you think I can take you?" They both chuckled and rubbed your arms and back, "absolutely sweetheart, we've done the tests and you're perfect for us... but it's up to you of course..."
There was a beat in the air until finally you nodded. "Let's do it that way. I don't want to be uncomfortable with a machine. Are you sure that's ok?" They nodded quickly and told you it was absolutely fine with them.
"Good, that's really good honey. Are you ready to start?"
They guided you onto the bench, your breasts hung down on either side of the leather and you rested your chin on your folded arms as they positioned your legs into place. You felt remarkably relaxed for the compromising position you were in, but you were in good hands. Hands that were now running over your soft skin, squeezing gently at you making you sigh.
"Feeling good?" Bucky asks, a clear amusement in his voice as his fingers squeeze at your ass cheeks before running down your leg. "Mmm yeah, this is so comfy" you almost moan.
"Good, anything changes, let us know. We'll get started then, just relax and let us do the work."
You try and watch them but it's difficult from your position, so you decide to close your eyes and try and figure it out from the sensations. You think it's Bucky who is settled between your legs, running his hands along your upper thighs, occasionally rubbing across your folds, making you moan quietly into your arms.
Your moan becomes louder when Steve grips your nipple between his fingers and starts squeezing and twisting. In moments you are humping Bucky's hand as he rubs more vigorously along your wet slit. "Good girl, so responsive for us hmm?" Steve mutters in your ear as he pulls and tweaks at you.
"Tell me how it feels" Bucky says and you whine, "feels good...want more please?" You are begging already, but it only seems to make them happy. Steve attaches a suction cup to your breasts which makes you cry out in delight before you feel his hand brush at your hair. You manage to open your eyes as Bucky sinks a finger into your pussy, his thumb rubbing firmly at your clit. "Want something in your mouth honey?" He asks and you moan, nodding your head and reaching for him.
His cock springs free and you immediately latch on, focusing all your tension and desperation on his thick length, sucking harder than you ever had. "Jesus Christ, she's feeling needy today" Steve growls, gripping your hair tightly as he thrusts slowly in and out of your mouth.
Bucky, unable to retain his impatience anymore, slips his cock free of his boxers and lines up to your aching heat. Thanks to his excellent preparation he glides in until he is flush with your ass, and begins to rut. You are already fluttering and squeezing him like a vice as he grips your ass cheeks and spreads them open.
"That feel good baby? You like that" he mutters, testing a quick spank to your pretty cheeks as he fucks you. Pausing for air you cry out a yes, before Steve guides you back to him. Tears stream down the face as pleasure rips through your body, their unrelenting pace already making you feel like you are floating on air.
"Gonna make us a baby ain't ya? Gonna be a good girl for us and make us a daddy hmm?" Steve says through gritted teeth as he pulls out of your hungry mouth. He crouches down and presses a kiss to your sweaty forehead. "Nothing I'd like more than to see you swallow my come honey, but gotta save it for your pretty cunt right? We're gonna fill you up.."
You nod and reach your hands out for him which he takes, pressing more kisses to your messy lips. "Already drunk on cock honey? We knew you'd be the perfect little candidate. Like a little bunny ain't ya? Just made for getting fucked and full right?"
As he goads you, Bucky rams his cock faster into your aching hole, his fingers rubbing at your clit from underneath. Your hips buck at the sensations but they have you tied down just enough that any movement doesn't get you very far. "Atta girl, gonna make me come, just keep squeezing me like that sweetness" he groans. The tension builds in your stomach until one final swipe has it snapping, your orgasm ripping through you and clamping down on Bucky.
His groans mix with your wails, as you squeeze Steve's hand even tighter until you drop everything, laying there panting as your lower half twitches. When he's satisfied Bucky pulls out but you suddenly feel Steve slide in and continue the steady pace.
"Ah I can't... S'too sensitive" you cry but Bucky has taken position at your head. "Come on sweetheart, we don't want to waste any samples. You can do it. For us, I know you can..." Steve keeps his hips moving steadily, but not too rough to hurt so you can only let the pressure build again. You watch Bucky fiddle with the suction cup on your breast, the vibrations and suction getting stronger until you can't contain your scream as another powerful orgasm rips through you and Steve is filling you up.
After a moment where you think you must have stopped breathing you feel the table tilt forward and a tape is put over your sensitive pussy. "Did so well for us baby. Gonna leave you here for a bit to get that settled, then we'll do it all again."
"Again?" You cry, not knowing how you could possibly manage another round of that. They chuckle and press a little kiss each to your face. "Yes silly, don't you know it takes lots and lots of goes to make sure it all works. Today's the best day to do it. Although we might even keep you in overnight so we can keep going..."
You begin to protest but Bucky presses another kiss to your face and switches on the suction cups, cutting your voice off immediately and replaces it with a groan. "That's better" he says before providing his thumb for you to suck on which you cant resist as he pushes it passed your lips.
"Don't worry, we want to take care of you sweetheart. We know just what you need..."
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After a few more rounds you needed to change position, so Bucky picked you up in his strong arms and carried you to a more comfortable couch. From there, they both spent what felt like hours fucking you full.
The idea of getting you pregnant seemed to fill them with an insatiable lust. They fucked you until your holes were aching, each flick to your clit was like agony, but you couldn't resist how good it felt either.
"Fuck sweetheart, you're milking me dry?" Steve groaned through gritted teeth, as you could only mewl in delight. "Aw has our pretty girl gone dumb for cock" Bucky mocked softly as he rubbed your clit while Steve filled you up again.
Bucky swiftly takes his place, pushing your aching pussy apart and spitting on your messy heat. "Fuck!" You cry out, already on the edge as he presses in to you. "Don't let it come out sweetheart, dont wanna waste a drop do you?" You shake your head as he slides in and out, every nerve ending on fire as he does.
"See that little bunny" Steve says, tugging at your aching heat, making your squeal. "That's a pussy being used correctly, filled with come and begging for more... Fucking perfect.."
Your whole body shakes as he keeps rubbing while Bucky groans, unable to contain his orgasm as you come yet again.
"Good girl, take it all, every drop" he moans, wrapping a hand around your throat as he fucks through his release.
Finally they decide to move you somewhere more comfortable and in the space of moving you, you fall asleep so they leave you to rest for a little while.
When you woke there was a jug of water, a bowl of fruit and a plate of sandwiches which you tucked into. While you nibbled you glanced down at your aching heat and found it puffy and overused, but not feeling at all bad about it. Your mind drifted back to when you and your ex husband had tried for a baby and you sometimes never even orgasmed, let alone felt like this. You had realised that all along he had lied to you and made you feel terrible when it was him who was the problem. But you didn't want to dwell anymore on him. It was pointless.
You took in the rest of your body, swollen nipples, little marks from their hands and lips as they had kissed, and bitten and sucked at you. You bit your lip remembering how you had written all these things in your diary to them. Clearly they had taken it very seriously, which you appreciated.
As you were beginning to wonder where they were, they arrived back into the office where they left you. There faces full of brightness at the sight of you awake.
"There's our girl! Are you feeling ok sweetie?" They both took time fussing over you, pressing your tummy for any aches, massaging your legs and hands and pressing cold stethoscopes to your chest making you giggle, as they tried to warm them up but failing.
"I feel fine I promise" you said after calming down and gripping their hands. They both leaned in a pressed a kiss to each cheek, but you felt bold and leaned over to Bucky then Steve, stealing a kiss on the lips from both of them.
"Oh sweetie, you really are perfect ain't ya?" Bucky says, pulling you back for a longer kiss before guiding you over to Steve so he could kiss you deeper, making you moan.
"Alright pretty girl, let's get you back in there, you ready?" Bucky says, squeezing your thighs and you nod eagerly. You go to stand but he tuts and slips his arms under you and picks you up, making you squeak and wrap your arms around his neck. "I gotcha" he whispers and you steal another kiss from him, feeling so safe and happy in his arms. Before you are finally released and eagerly climb into place and settle down, wiggling at the anticipation.
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After a whole day they decide that the work they've done should be enough for now. They take you home in Bucky's car with Steve carrying you up to your apartment, which although you insist ksnt nessecary, you grip him tighter and lay your head on his shoulder. While Bucky unlocks your door Steve presses kisses to your forehead, all of your feeling quite happy with the amount of kisses being passed around.
Seeing the sorry state of your flat you cringe as you go inside. At least you had the forethought to tidy before you went to them the day before.
Bucky finds your pyjamas and once Steve pops down he gently helps you change as if you are precious cargo. You giggle as you tell him so and he smiles at you. "Sweetheart, you are..." He presses a hand to your tummy and you smile back "the most precious as far as we're concerned..."
Your tummy flips with something new but you decide not to worry right now. You feel exhausted despite the many naps you've had. "Ok you gotta sleep, eat and drink as much as possible. Try to leave the shower or bath until tomorrow morning if you can just to be sure." Steve says, placing a big water bottle on your side, with a bag of groceries on your kitchen table, filling up the fridge with healthy but delicious goodies.
"Ok I promise...when do you think I can do a test?" You say, as you snuggle up into your blankets. They explain that you might have to wait until next week, but if it's negative they can just keep repeating the process until it sticks.
You nod, feeling nervous but excited. They both kiss you goodbye and leave. You feel suddenly overwhelmed at the silence, having had such a crazy 24 hours of close, initmate contact. You take a big drink of water before sinking back into your pillows, your eyes fluttering closed as your mind was filled with images of them surrounding you and the pleasure that comes with it.
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One week later you are waiting nervously in your bathroom, a pregnancy test perched on the sink as you nibble your finger and watch the stopwatch on your phone.
You daren't look. You've been in this position so many times before it just feels horrible. You still have 2 minutes to wait but you feel sick at the thought of what's to come. You fiddle with your phone for a moment until you decide to call Bucky.
He answers almost immediately, concern in his voice. "Hi sweetie, everything ok?" You are a little surprised at his quick answer so you stutter for a bit, which makes him even more worried. Finally you manage to choke out, "I'm fine!" You both take a breath before you restart.
"I'm waiting for a test... Got a few more minutes and I just.... I feel scared..." You say quietly, trying to ignore the tears pricking at your eyes. He sighs at the other end and you know he has a concerned look on his face still.
"It's all ok sweetness. Whatever it says we still got you alright? You don't need to worry becaise Steve and I are with you every step of the way..."
You can only nod as he talks, his warm deep voice filling you with calm. Your phone buzzes as the timer runs out and you take a deep breath. "Ok are you ready?" You say and he tells you firmly that he is and it's going to be fine.
With shaky fingers you turn the test over. A little gasp escapes your lips and he asks with a more stressed voice than he would probably like. "What does it say sweetheart?"
Hi, for the bingo thingy, can you use âCan you stay?â for a chapter 3 of the Co-parenting ex husband Bucky fic? đđ (if you turn that into a sad ending again, Iâll ugly cry. đ đ)
the wait is finally oveeerrr. I didn't expect to write this but it quickly turned into my favorite piece! Thank you for the love (especially after I wrote two sad parts loooolll)
Here it is! and you can find Pt 1 Here and Pt 2 here!
(Y/n) crossed her arms and leaned her head back on the wall, waiting for the principalâs door to open. She couldnât believe this, Peanut was in kindergarten for fucks sake! How was the principal already calling her in. A couple of teachers had given (Y/n) a heads up, to control the situation before it exploded.Â
So, a week ago (Y/n) and Bucky had to have the talk with their five-year-old daughter. Not the birds and the bees, the whole: Your dad is an ex-assassin called the Winter Soldier, he was actually born in 1917 and the whole vibranium arm thing.Â
Bucky sat Peanut in front of them. âP, Iâm going to tell you something but you have to pay attention okay?â
Her big blue eyes turned into marbles and she nodded her head.Â
âYou didnât do anything wrong baby,â (Y/n) assured. âWe just need to talk about something that happened to Daddy because we want you to know it from us okay?â
âWhere do I begin?â Bucky sighed, he never thought the most difficult person to explain this to would be a child. His child. Bucky never thought he would be able to have a child in the first place. He felt (Y/n)âs hand rub circles on his back and he relaxed into her touch.Â
Bucky had warned her about this, how the Winter Soldier would always shadow him. Looming in the darkness. But (Y/n) had said she didnât care, that their children together would understand what happened and the rest of the world can process it however they wanted to. And here she was, carrying out her end of the deal.Â
âI was born a long time ago Peanut.â Bucky started.
P bursted into laughter. âI know that, silly goose. You have white hair! Like the pictures you show me of Uncle Stevie!â
(Y/n) bit the inside of her cheek to hide her laugh but she ended up having to hide behind Bucky as to not incite their daughterâs roasts.
âThis is going well.â Bucky muttered.
âYou donât look like Steve, I promise.â She assured, running her fingers through the short hair on the back of his head. âPlus, I like your hair like this. Salt and pepper suits you.âÂ
But now, a week later, the two of them were called into the principalâs office. The glass door opened.Â
âGood morning, thank you for coming.â He told (Y/n). âShould we wait for Mr. Barnes?â
âHe wonât be joining us today.â She said in automatic but as she was walking into the principalâs office, a huffing Bucky came into view.
âSorry Iâm late.â Bucky took a deep breath, taking off his leather jacket and placing it behind one of the two chairs in front of the principalâs desk. He took the chair next to him out for (Y/n) to sit in before sitting down himself.Â
âI know the two of you are very busy but this issue with your daughter needs to be fixed.â The principal started. âAs you know, we are a very private school and we can assure you weâre talking to Billyâs parents as well.â
âYesterday, Billy told your daughter that he knew who her father was.â The principal continued, making Bucky look down at the floor. âBillyâs older brother told him and showed him some videos on the internet.â
(Y/n) grew angry. âIf this is Billyâs fault, then why are we here. James and I talked to you before P came to this school and you assured us it wouldnât be a problem. We spend a lot of money on this school for this to suddenly become a problem.â
âThe problem is that after this, your daughter threatened Billy. She said,â The principal took a look at the paper in front of him, a teacherâs report. âIf you know who my dad is then you know you shouldnât talk to me like that. When I tell him about you, he will squish you with his metal arm.âÂ
(Y/n) jaw dropped. Oh my god.Â
She turned around to look at Bucky but he didnât have the reaction she wanted. He sat there with a smug smile on his face and his arms crossed.Â
âSheâs defending herself.â Bucky shrugged and (Y/n) covered her face with her hands.
âYou canât just say that!â She laughed, they decided to get some coffee after the meeting with Pâs principal.Â
âWhy not?â Bucky smiled. âIâm not going to tell off P just because of that stupid kid Billy who by the way, I would squish with my arm.â
âGood to know youâd turn Winter Soldier at the blink of Peanutâs eyes.â She rolled her eyes.Â
âSheâs my little girl! What else am I supposed to do?âÂ
âSomething along the lines of: Peanut you canât threaten people.â (Y/n) said, she didnât think she would have to be explaining why threatening people is wrong to a hundred-year-old man.Â
âIâm not going to tell her not to defend herself.â Bucky said. âSheâs gutsy and headstrong, P takes after her mother.â
(Y/n) rolled her eyes. âIâm not headstrong.â
Bucky stopped in his tracks, taking (Y/n)âs shoulders in his hands and making her look at him. âI didnât mean it like that, like itâs a bad thing- I love that about you. It was one of the things that drew me into you.âÂ
A smile developed on (Y/n)âs lips. âWho knew Pâs heroic stunt would turn into a compliment shower. Not that Iâm complaining.â
Bucky sipped his coffee, tucking her body under his arm and bringing (Y/n) flush to his side. âYou want more? Letâs see, youâre insanely witty, you have a beautifully complex mind, youâre extremely hot and you have a thing for older men- which I much appreciate.â
She laughed, burring her face in his chest. It felt so familiar, it felt like home.
-Â
It was two am when she heard the shriek. (Y/n) jumped out of bed and opened her bedroom door, trying to find Peanut. The moonlit stairs looked like a crime scene. Blood dripped from step to step all the way to the bottom, where Peanut lay screaming bloody murder.
She raced down the stairs and held her daughter in her arms.
âMommy it hurts.â Peanut cried, bringing her hand up to a gash on her forehead.Â
âI know it hurts baby, I know.â Tears flooded (Y/n)âs eyes but she couldnât break, not in front of her bleeding daughter. âItâs okay P, Iâm going to take you to the hospital okay?â
(Y/n) grabbed the first coat she could find in the closet and the nearest pair of shoes, she rushed to strap P on her car seat and drove to the hospital.Â
Ring, ring.Â
âPlease answer Bucky, please.â (Y/n) had called her ex-husband from the car.Â
âHello?â Buckyâs raspy and sleep filled voice answered.
âBuck?â (Y/n)âs voice cracked, making Bucky sit up straight in bed in a second. âSomethingâs happened with Peanut, weâre on our way to the hospital.â
âIâll be there in five.â Was all he said.Â
(Y/n) paced outside the room, she could see her daughter sleeping on the white hospital bed through the cracks in the curtains.Â
Two hands gripped her shoulders, one cold and one warm, making her eyes shoot up from the floor.Â
âWhat happened?â Bucky asked, peeking into the room.Â
âI donât know what she was trying to do Buck- she got up in the middle of the night and somehow. I donât know, she fell down the stairs and cut her forehead open.â (Y/n) spoke quickly, like if she processed the words she was speaking she would break. âShe said something about wanting to sleep with the doll you brought from Wakanda- I donât know.â
âHey, hey, itâs okay. Peanut is fine.â Bucky tried to soothe her.Â
(Y/n) clenched her fists at her side and bit her cheek. Anything to stop her from crying. âIf I hadnât forgotten the stupid doll-â
Bucky took her face in his hands. âThis was an accident, itâs no oneâs fault.â
(Y/n) slowly nodded, trying to blink away the tears.Â
Buckyâs eyes furrowed. âDoll, darling, look at me. Iâm going to need you to say that. You know it was an accident right?â
âIt was an accident.â She whispered, the pain becoming unbearable.
Bucky wrapped his arms around her, bringing her as close to him as possible. âYouâre okay, everythingâs going to be fine. Iâm here, Iâm here for you, for as long as you want me to be.â
That was it, what she needed to hear to break down. To be vulnerable. To know someone would be there to catch her if she fell.Â
(Y/n) sobbed into Buckyâs chest for what felt like hours. And he was there, rubbing her back soothingly and whispering kind words into her ear.Â
It was well into the evening the next day when Peanut was finally given the all clear from her doctors. Three stitches and an ankle sprain later, she was tucked into bed.Â
âI need you to promise me you will never ever do that again.â Bucky brought the comforter up as he tucked Peanut in.Â
âPromise daddy.â She smiled. âYou wanna know something cool?â
âWhatâs that?â Bucky ran his finger against her cheek.Â
Peanut sat up and pulled Buckyâs cap sleeve up to his shoulder. âDaddy and P are gonna match.â
Buckyâs eyes swelled with tears as he saw his little girlâs tiny hand rub against the scarred skin on his left shoulder. It was like all the pain and suffering suddenly turned into something good. With six simple words, Peanut made everything worth it.
âWe sure are.â Bucky lips turned upwards.Â
âShe looks so peaceful, you wouldnât imagine sheâs a little tornado once those pretty eyes open.â Bucky chuckled lightly as he closed his daughterâs bedroom door.Â
âWeâve been amazing parents for the past 24 hours, could I interest you in a glass of cheap wine that will definitely give us a headache tomorrow?â (Y/n) smiled.Â
âYou read my mind.â Bucky leaned his head back with closed eyes, he grabbed the baby monitor from the hallway credenza. âHow about you go outside and Iâll bring everything out. You deserve a break.â
And what a break he gave (Y/n). Bucky just about held the glass of wine to her lips. He brought out the drinks, some snacks and started by bringing her legs closer to him. Massaging her tired calves.Â
âI still remember when we bought the house.â Bucky hummed. âAnd now itâs been what- six years?â
âDo you remember when we wanted to buy that new build? Everything was so white and sterile.â (Y/n) laughed. âBut as soon as I found this house, I knew it was the one.â
âExcuse me?â Bucky laughed, eyebrows raised. âIf I remember correctly, I was the one who found the house. You were sad thinking we hadnât found a home, and I was the one who begged you to come and see it.â
(Y/n)âs happy smile dimmed. âWe were so happy when we first moved in, what happened?â
âI took you for granted.â Bucky sighed. âThatâs what happened.â
âAfter Steve left, I think I just stopped wanting anything. Work seemed boring, life at home was scary, taking care of P was terrifying for me. For years I thought I would be alone in this world and then suddenly, you came and gave me more love than I deserved. Gave me a beautiful daughter.â Bucky opened his heart. âAnd instead of working on myself I decided to just stop, stop trying. And it was selfish of me to think that you would just ride along with me even though I did everything to push you away. I never wanted you to think I didnât love you, God do I love you. Sometimes Iâm truly scared of what I feel because I love you so much it hurts. It pains me to have had you and lost you.â
Bucky tried to get out a strong voice but it cracked. âAnd Iâll live the rest of my life loving you and regretting having lost you. Sometimes, I think itâs a form of Karma. Like the gods above donât know every wrong thing I did wasnât me so now I have to live with this deep regret. The kind that settles into your bones.â
âBuck-â (Y/n) tried to comfort him.
âNo,â He shook his head. âyouâre too sweet for your own good and youâll try and tell me itâs not my fault. But it is. Iâm not telling you this so you have pity on me, I just want you to know that I fucked up. You were perfect and amazing and I didnât know what to do with something so delicate.â
âAnd Iâm saying this just so you know that Iâll always be here for you. Iâll always love you.âÂ
(Y/n) couldnât take it anymore. She crashed her lips onto his. A kiss that would explain everything she felt. All the anger, all the sadness and especially all the love. A kiss that says: I love you too.
She rested her forehead against his, her breath shallow. âCan you stay?â
âStay tonight?â He asked, his voice pained.Â
âPlease stay forever.â She whispered.Â
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Hi, can I request ex husband!bucky x reader with the prompt âwhat makes you think you canâŠâ from the bingo card??
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âPlease donât pick up, please donât pick up, please donât pick up.â (Y/n) begged, hearing the third ring on her side of the phone.Â
She didnât know what to say. Hell, she didnât know it was happening until this week! It would have gone completely unnoticed if it hadnât been for an especially excited teacher. (Y/n)âs stomach just about dropped onto the floor as she heard her daughterâs teacher say how generous and kind Bucky was.Â
Another ring, one more and I can hang up. She thought but no, nothing with Bucky was ever simple. He couldnât not answer the phone when (Y/n) wanted. Was that too much to ask? For Bucky to read her mind?
âHey, do-â Bucky stopped himself, trying to mask it with a cough. He couldnât call you that anymore, he had to remember that. âWhatâs up?â
âHi, I just wanted to ask you about something but I guess youâre busy so Iâll just-â
Bucky laughed. âIâm never too busy for you.â
(Y/n) rolled her eyes, talk about nothing being simple. He couldnât even make the divorce that he wanted easy!
âSo, I didnât know this happened or better yet how it happened but,â She took a deep breath. âPeanutâs school is having a gala, a fund raiser and somehow P put your name down.â
The line went silent for a couple of seconds.
âI tried to explain to the school that you would be busy and that you donât even go to your work galas.â She tried to joke, gnawing on her bottom lip nervously.
Bucky broke the silence with a noise. âMhm.â
âBut they said that when the parents saw the school was auctioning a day with an Avenger, ticket sales went up like 200 percent.â
âOh Peanut.â Bucky groaned.Â
âI know youâre probably going to be busy,â (Y/n) said. âI just had to ask. P threatened to paint her hair blue if I didnât give you a call.â
âShe gets that from you.â Buckyâs low chuckle sent tingles through her body.Â
(Y/n) leaned on the wall behind her with a deep breath, she could always count on Bucky to calm her nerves. âSure, we can say P gets her determination and ability to blackmail from me and not her father, James âBuckyâ Buchanan Barnes.â
Buckyâs belly laugh warmed (Y/n)âs heart, it had been a long time since sheâd heard it.Â
âWhenâs the thing?âÂ
âItâs next Friday but donât worry, we can auction off something from that old box I have in the attic. Maybe that old leather jacket-â
âDonât you dare.â Bucky playfully growled. âNever get rid of my lucky jacket! If I remember correctly that thing is the reason I got a second date out of you.â
Her mind went to that moment in time, all those years ago. It was Buckyâs favorite but he said it looked better on her.Â
âIs P going to the gala?â Bucky interrupted (Y/n)âs thoughts.
âYeah, kids can go too.â She continued. âHow about you ask Sam to submit a signed shield. The prototypes that no one uses-â
âIâll be there.â
âWhat?â Her eyes just about bulged out of their sockets.
âIâll be there.â Bucky repeated casually, like it wasnât the first time ever he wanted to go to any of Peanutâs school events. Let alone a gala!
âYou do know youâll have to wear a tux, right?â She noted.
âYouâll be there, right?â Bucky asked.Â
âMhm.â (Y/n) brought her bottom lip in between her teeth.Â
âThen Iâm sure I can find one or two in the back of my closet.â Bucky smiled thinking about his options. She wonât be happy, but itâll be worth it. He thought.Â
âOh-okay. So I guess Iâll see you next week.â
-Â
(Y/n) smoothed the fabric of her dress nervously. Did Bucky forget he was supposed to be here? Was he sent on a mission at the last moment? She looked over at Peanut at the kids table, so excited that her dad was finally going to something at her school.
When she first started, some of her classmates and teachers didnât believe she was Buckyâs daughter. (Y/n) and Bucky had chosen an extremely protected private school for the same reason, they didnât want someone else telling P about the Winter Soldier, not before she was old enough to understand.Â
After the first tear dropped from Peanutâs eyes, when she told her dad no one at school believed her, you best believe Bucky picked her up every single day. He would often take off his jacket as soon as he got to her school just so everyone would shut their mouths. No one was to make his little girl cry, ever.Â
(Y/n) turned to the bar behind her and ordered a glass of champagne.Â
âDo you think heâs actually going to come?â One of the women next to (Y/n) asked her friends.Â
âHoney, if he does, you gals better take out a loan because that man is going home with me.â An older woman laughed into her drink.
âA recently divorced hunk? Sign me up. I donât need the full day, just a couple of hours with him and itâll be enough.â Another one said.
(Y/n) cringed at their words. She obviously has eyes, she knew what her ex-husband looked like but did people have to talk about him like he was just a piece of meat?Â
The whole room suddenly got quiet. (Y/n) looked left and right to see what had happened and it wasnât long until she found out. Bucky strolled into the room.Â
He did not. (Y/n) thought.
Bucky was wearing the tuxedo he wore at their wedding. The black-on-black combination made him look even more mysterious than he already was. But every ounce of his dark persona disappeared once he heard the two magic words.
âHi Daddy!â Peanut came running towards Bucky at full speed. With a small umph Bucky picked up his daughter and twirled her around.Â
âHello princess.â Bucky smiled, melting for his sweet little girl. âWhy donât you tell me where mommy is?â
Peanut pointed a chubby finger towards (Y/n) and she held up her champagne glass, the murmurs and gasps of the women next to her didnât go unnoticed.Â
Bucky placed Peanut back on the floor and set his eyes on (Y/n), it was like everything and everyone around him became blurry. He could only see her.Â
âYouâre late.â (Y/n) looked up at him.Â
âIâm the talent, I am never late.â Bucky smiled at her, the kind of smile that made women all over the world want to drop to their knees, for various reasons.Â
(Y/n) laughed, pushing Bucky away with her left hand. Bucky took her hand in his and brought it to his lips, kissing the spot on her third finger where her ring used to sit. Â
âYou look radiant.â Bucky came closer to (Y/n) placing a kiss on the corner of her mouth.Â
She took in his intoxicating smell, it had been forever since sheâd been this close to him. (Y/n) took a deep breath, the memories coming to life again. But before she could get lost in the past, the present came into view.Â
(Y/n) cleared her throat and took a step back before turning to the women gawking next to them. âLadies, may I introduced you to my ex-husband, James?âÂ
Bucky rolled his eyes and turned to them, a forced smile playing on his lips.
(Y/n) slipped from the group with a light laugh and sat down at her table, the auction about to start.Â
It wasnât long before Buckyâs category came up, women desperate to cheat on their husbands without actually doing it. (Y/n) smiled cheekily as she saw Bucky fidget on the stage, the bright lights made him feel like he was a show horse.Â
âMr. Barnes was kind enough to auction a day with an Avenger, the winner of this would spend the day at the Avengers Compound and meet some of the people responsible for our safety!â Peanutâs principal spoke into the microphone.
âI canât assure a tour of the compound.â Buckyâs raspy voice said through the speakers.Â
âWeâll see the details later.â The principal waved him off. âHow about we start the bidding at four hundred dollars?â
âFive hundred.â A woman way too old to be with Bucky, and thatâs taking into consideration that heâs over a hundred years old, raised her bid card.Â
âSix hundred.â Another woman said.Â
âSeven hundred.â A third spoke.
Buckyâs eyes kept getting bigger and bigger, he hadnât considered the fact that women would actually bid to be with him. He turned to (Y/n) with pleading eyes.
âMommy, arenât you gonna bid on daddy?â P asked her.Â
âHoney-â (Y/n) was about to explain how for some people spending a day with her Dad would be the experience of a lifetime, when one of the women she heard speaking so vulgarly about Bucky raised her card.Â
âOne thousand dollars.â The woman had a smug look on her face.Â
âGoing once-â The principal said.Â
âMommy do something.â Peanut whispered.Â
âGoing twice.â Bucky threw his head back. Fuuck. He thought.Â
âGo-â
âTwo thousand dollars.â (Y/n) raised her card.Â
Buckyâs head snapped forward at the sound of her voice. His scowl turned into a smile.Â
âSold, to the lady in the back.â The principalâs eyes just about turned into dollar signs.
-Â
âI didnât get the chance to thank you.â Bucky whispered, hiking Peanutâs body up. At some point in the night she had fallen asleep and now her father was carrying her to (Y/n)âs car.Â
(Y/n) waved her hand. âIt was nothing. I couldnât let you spend a day with that hornetsâ nest. She wouldâve eaten you alive.Â
âStill- thank you.â Buckyâs kind eyes were one of the first things that drew (Y/n) to him, the same shade he now shared with his daughter. Â
(Y/n) unlocked her car so he could strap Peanut in.Â
âSo, when should I pick you up?â Bucky opened (Y/n)âs door so she could get in.Â
Her eyebrows furrowed. âOh, about the auction thing. You donât have to do that, Iâm sure youâre going to be busy.â
âHowâs next Thursday at 8 sound? We can take P to school and Iâll give you an extremely memorable âDay with an Avengerâ.â Buckyâs smooth words coated her heart.
âIâve already had a couple of âDays with an Avengerâ and they havenât been that memorable.â She teased.
âI can think of a couple of memorable days where you would beg-â
(Y/n) clamped her hand over Buckyâs mouth. âYou canât say that!â
âWould I be lying?â Buckyâs muffled voice said proudly.
âIâll see you next Thursday.â (Y/n) rolled her eyes with a smile. âPlease donât be late.â
âPromise.â
-
The doorbell rang at 7:50 am on Thursday.Â
âBe careful Peanut!â (Y/n) yelled as she opened the door. âDonât fall from the stool! I donât really feel like visiting the hospital right now.â
She huffed as she opened the door. Mornings were always chaotic but now, without another pair of helping hands it felt impossible. But here he was.Â
Bucky stood at the other side of the door, rocking back and forth on the balls of his feet. A bouquet of her favorite flowers on one hand and balancing two coffees on the other.Â
âGood morning.â Bucky placed a soft kiss on her cheek. âNeed help with anything?â
(Y/n) stepped aside with her jaw on the floor, letting Bucky come inside.Â
âHiya Daddy!â Peanut beamed, shoving another forkful of French toast in her mouth.Â
âHowâs my number one girl doing this morning?â Bucky asked, placing a kiss on the top of her head.Â
(Y/n) stepped into the kitchen, feeling like sheâd walked into another dimension.Â
âSorry doll, youâve been bumped down to the number two spot.â Bucky winked at (Y/n) and her eyebrows shot up. âYou still keep the vases on the top cupboard?âÂ
(Y/n) slowly nodded, the shocked expression never left her.Â
Definitely an alternate dimension, itâs the only explanation. She thought.Â
Drop off was perfect and the ride to the compound was actually pleasant.Â
âYou got a new car.â (Y/n) hummed, looking around Buckyâs new SUV.Â
He nodded proudly. âI canât ride around on a bike forever. Plus, you asked me to get a car.â
âI asked you to get a car over a year ago.â She snorted.Â
Bucky shrugged, the relaxed smile on his lips never faltered. âTook me a while but I got it.â
(Y/n) eyed her ex-husband curiously. Fresh haircut, cologne, pressed t-shirt. New car, more present. Something changed. âOkay, who is she?â
âWhoâs who?â Buckyâs forehead creased.
(Y/n) rolled her eyes. âIâm not a child, you can tell me who she is.â
âIf youâre trying to say Iâm dating someone, Iâm not.â Bucky looked a little offended.
âI never said anything about dating.â (Y/n) laughed. âYou can get some without making it official.â
âIâm not doing that either.â Bucky grumbled, his grip on the steering wheel made his knuckles white.
âIâm sorry for asking. I didnât know you not getting any was a sore subject.â She held her hands up in surrender and laughed. âYou do know you can do that right? Iâm pretty sure the papers we signed mean that weâre no longer together, meaning you can have se-â
Buckyâs groan interrupted her, he ran his palm through his face. âCan we not talk about my sex life please? I actually have a nice day planned, and it doesnât include this topic of conversation.â
âYou. Have a day planned.â She emphasized the words.Â
âPlease feel free make me sound more like an asshole.â Bucky chuckled.Â
And what a day did he have planned.Â
It started by taking her to the newly renovated Avengers Museum on the compound. Bucky showed (Y/n) a few never before seen pictures of himself from the 40âs.Â
âThe investigators dug these up.â He smiled.Â
âYou were a baby!â She laughed, posing for a picture next to the blown-up print of him.
âYou think Peanut will look like me when sheâs a little bit older?â Bucky came up behind her, resting his head on hers and tossing his arms over her shoulders.Â
(Y/n) relaxed into his body. âYou want her to look more like you? Sheâs basically your twin.âÂ
His laugh made her whole body vibrate. âWhat can I say? We should have tried to get a boy after P, maybe he would look like you.â
Afterwards came a late lunch by the lake followed by a tour of the new wing dedicated to Steve Rogers. Bucky had thought of everything. He asked Sam to pick up Peanut from school and make sure she did her homework, took a bath and brushed her teeth before going to bed.Â
The sun was setting as Bucky drove (Y/n) home, he rested his hand on the center console hoping she would take it. It wasnât long until she intertwined their fingers.Â
Bucky opened her side of the door and helped her down. (Y/n) leaned on his car.Â
âThank you for a lovely day.â She smiled. âDonât know if it was worth 2k but, I had an amazing time.â
Bucky fake gasped, clutching the left side of his chest. âYou donât think Iâm worth two thousand measly dollars?â
âSome of us actually have to work to get two thousand dollars, not just pose around and look cute.â She bit the inside of her cheek to stop a smile from forming.
Bucky stepped closer to her. âWell I would pay you way more than that to pose around for me. You already have the cute thing down to a T.â
He tucked a strand of her hair behind her ear, dragging his knuckles against her cheek and stopping at her lips. Bucky pulled her closer to him and placed his lips on hers. At first it was soft but once his brain registered what was happening, it turned dark and hungry. It was like he was running out of oxygen and the only thing that could breathe life into him was her kiss.Â
With a gasp, she pushed him away.
âWhat are you doing?â (Y/n) asked breathlessly, bringing her fingers to her throbbing lips.Â
â(Y/n), please.â Bucky sighed. âI want you, I need you. And Iâm not talking about stupid sex, Iâm talking about you. Talking to you every day, telling me off for things I do or donât do, I want us. Together.â
Her eyebrows creased, she felt her body heat up with rage. âWhat makes you think you can kiss me like that? Like nothingâs ever happened. Like youâve forgotten weâre not together anymore.â
âPlease.â Buckyâs crystal blue eyes reddened. âDo you want me to get on my knees? Because Iâll do it. Iâm begging you, please take me back. I want to be with you, forever.â
(Y/n) sniffled, tears of her own threatening to fall. âIâm not falling for this, not again. Iâm about to finish mending my broken heart, Iâve just finished putting the pieces back together and for you to come here and-â
âIâm trying-â Bucky cried. âIâm really trying to show you that Iâve changed.â
(Y/n) let out a dry laugh. âDoes going to one gala and buying a car mean youâve changed? I asked you to buy that thing for a whole year and you never even thought about it.â Â
âBut Iâm doing it now, does that mean anything?â Bucky asked with saddened eyes.
âYes, it means that you only want me because you canât have me.â
âThatâs not-â He tried to argue but she turned towards her door.Â
âThank you for the nice day James but, I have to go to my real life. The one in which weâre still divorced and you have to leave for some undisclosed amount of time to a classified location. Do you remember? Your reallife.â (Y/n) opened her front door, thanking Sam for taking care of Peanut.Â
Bucky was left on the driveway with tears running down his cheek.Â
Part 3 here!
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Summary: Co-Parenting is always tough, especially with the man you thought you'd be spending the rest of your life with. Now add a super soldier.
Pairing: ExHusband!TFATWS!Bucky x Reader
Her foot impatiently tapped on the floor as she sat straight as an arrow on her couch, had she done everything already? Dusted the tables, done, washed the clothes, done, organized the fridge, done twice. (Y/n) looked down at her watch and huffed.Â
âThey should be here any minute now.â She said to herself while smoothing down her skirt.Â
(Y/n) had gone to enough therapy and read way too many self-help books after her divorce to not know that this was just her brains way of controlling the situation. The only thing wrong with her defense mechanism was that thereâs no way of controlling co-parenting with the man you thought youâd be spending the rest of your life with.Â
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Bucky had met (Y/n) through Samâs sister, Sarah had insisted on setting him up with a friend once she heard Sam say he was ready to start dating.Â
âI never said I wanted to be set up on a blind date.â Bucky groaned through the phone, the three-way call was obviously not his idea but he was too afraid of Sarah to not answer.Â
âWhat did you expect us to do? Set up your Tinder profile?â Samâs laugh resonated through the tiny speaker.Â
âIâve heard of people having successful relationships from the Tinder.â Bucky said. âAnd the internet thing will help me take it slow.â
âYou are so not ready for Tinder.â Sarah said.Â
And she was right because the moment Bucky saw you sitting at the bar of the restaurant, he knew. Before he met you, Bucky said he didnât believe in love at first sight because that meant you were only judging a person by their physical appearance but when he saw you, he knew it was real. The emotions he felt were much more than because you looked beautiful, it was like a gravitational pull. You were a magnet.Â
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âYes! Yes! A thousand times yes!â Sam wiped a fake tear as he pitched his voice up. It was a year later and Bucky was practicing his proposal with the only person who knew about it. Sarah could not be trusted with a secret this classified.Â
Bucky stood up from his knelt position with a groan. âYou think sheâll like it?â
âIâm not completely sure why she likes you but youâve been clearly doing something right.â Sam patted his friend on the back. âJust do what you do best and sheâll say yes.â
âI donât think she can tell the engagement story if I propose when Iâm doing what I do best.â Bucky said with a smirk.
âAnd thatâs my cue to leave.âÂ
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Everything was going well, two years into the marriage was when Peanut came in. A beautiful baby girl that had Bucky wrapped around her tiny finger. Peanut was like a little tornado that went through the Barnesâ household, some days were easy and other days- well thatâs where the problems came in.Â
Sam first noticed it at Peanutâs third birthday party. He saw (Y/n) rush in and out of the house, decorations were still being put up and the serving platters with the appetizers were running low.Â
âShouldnât Dad be helping Mom out?â Sam asked approaching Bucky on the dock of the house theyâd bought.
The small ripples and the tranquil sound of the lake had eased Buckyâs nerves just to be altered again by Samâs words.Â
âIâm only in charge of holding up the pinata.â Bucky shrugged his shoulders. âDirect orders from the missus.â
â(Y/n) looks like sheâs about to have a mental breakdown over cupcakes, I think you should go over there and ask if she needs any he-â
âWell I think you should mind your own business Sam.â Bucky said flatly.Â
Samâs eyebrows shot up at his friendâs words and Bucky cursed at himself.Â
âIâm sorry itâs just-â He tried to backtrack but it was too late. Sam got the message and he held his hands up.
âYouâre right, itâs your marriage.â Sam said sternly.Â
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Only a year after that, (Y/n) and Bucky settled the divorce. It hadnât come as a shock to her, and honestly sheâd been thinking about it for some time before he mentioned the D word (and not the one she wanted to hear). They settled out of court and that was that. (Y/n) kept the house and the cat, and he got a pretty flexible schedule for his time with Peanut.Â
That was that, six years of being together was supposed to be erased with one single signature. Bucky had stopped trying and (Y/n) had stopped waiting for him to do something.Â
So now, at least two times a month, she was here. Waiting for the minutes to pass until it was 5pm.Â
Alpine started purring once she heard the muffled voices coming from the other side of the door.Â
âOf course mommaâs gonna be home, silly goose.â Peanutâs small voice said before the doorbell rang.Â
(Y/n) rushed to the door, waited a couple of seconds and took three deep breaths before she opened, not wanting to look like sheâd been waiting by the door for an hour.Â
Will I ever stop getting butterflies when I see him? She wondered.Â
But she already knew the answer, no. Bucky had aged like fine wine, sure he had a couple of grey hairs here and there but he still looked amazingly handsome. And seeing him picking their daughter up so she could reach the doorbell- an activity Peanut thought was incredible and groundbreaking- sent her hormones into overdrive.Â
âMomma!â Peanut yelled, wrapping her tiny arms over (Y/n)âs shoulders as she knelt down.Â
âHi P! How was your weekend?â (Y/n) asked her, taking in the strawberry scent her shampoo had at her dadâs house.Â
âIt was amazing! Uncle Sam was there and he showed me all the new planes they have, I got to watch a movie where Daddy said they copied his fighting style.â She beamed. âI also got to practice fight with some of Daddyâs friends and they said I do it just like Daddy!â
Peanut rushed into the house and quickly climbed up the stairs. âOh! I also got to swing with Spiderman!â
(Y/n) widened her eyes at Bucky, she was about to tell him off for letting their four-year-old daughter swing with a teenager but Peanutâs voice rang through the house.
âDaddy! You need to come up and see my new bed!â She yelled from her room.
âSaved by the bell.â Bucky winked and he too climbed up the stairs of the house they had shared.Â
Bucky came down the stairs ten minutes later, heading towards the kitchen.Â
âYouâve done some remodeling.â He said resting his hands on the counter. (Y/n) only hummed in response.Â
âDo you need any money? Are you wanting to remodel more parts of the house?â He asked quietly. Although they were no longer together, Bucky had promised to take care of the woman who gave him the most priceless thing in the world, his daughter.Â
(Y/n) shook her head. âIâm okay.â
Bucky nodded slowly, taking in the uncomfortable feeling his old house gave him. Heâd bought it with the intentions of remodeling it, to give (Y/n) the house sheâd always dreamed of. Bucky had started it, he fixed up the whole basement and the master bedroom but somewhere in the middle of it all he lost inspiration. He lost himself.Â
âAre you going to tell me why you thought Peter was qualified to swing our daughter around the city?â (Y/n) raised her eyebrows.Â
Bucky chuckled. âSwing is an overstatement and they were in the training room, not the city. I was there, supervising every move.â
âIâm glad she got to spend some time with you, P misses you when youâre on missions.â (Y/n) offered Bucky a small smile, the kind of smile he knew (Y/n) reserved for people who didnât deserve her. The smile meant he had broken his family in two over something he cannot remember now.
âI miss her too.â Buckyâs voice cracked. âI miss you both.â
(Y/n) rubbed her tired eyes, wanting to unhear Buckyâs words. âYou should go home, James.â
âI am home.â Buckyâs voice just above a whisper.Â
(Y/n) shook her head. âThis isnât your home, not anymore.â
Her harsh words drove the knife deeper into his heart.Â
âWe can try-â He started but was interrupted.Â
âYou have no right to come into my house after all youâve done and say that we can try. I tried, for months. I switched up date night, I got a sitter, I asked what you wanted me to become-â (Y/n) let out a dry laugh. âI started to think of ways I could change myself to be someone you wanted. But the problem is that you donât know what you want James.â
âSo donât tell me we can try. Because I played the part, the person who wanted this relationship to work only for you to burn my efforts to the ground.â (Y/n)âs voice waivered. âSo now the only thing thatâs left to do is for you to leave.â
Bucky swallowed the lump in his throat and blinked back the tears.Â
âI almost forgot,â (Y/n) sighed, opening one of the kitchen drawers and pulling out one of Buckyâs action figures Peanut had said she âneeded to surviveâ, even though her father is the one who the plastic is modeled after. âP wanted you to take this so that when itâs career day at school she can tell her classmates what you do. Something about how the figurine has more value if itâs been on a mission.â
âWhenâs Career Day? Maybe I can-â He tried again.
âYouâll be somewhere in Europe.â (Y/n) shook her head.Â
Bucky looked down at the action figure, a model of what he was supposed to be. A protector.Â
âIâll see myself out.â He croaked.Â
Pt. 2 Pt. 3
Hi hiii I know this is short but I just couldn't get Ex Husband Bucky out of my head. Hope you guys like it! <;3
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