Vivi D. Dreamer @vividdreamer - Tumblr Blog

Fundraisers / Resources

▪︎ Pakistan Prisoner Welfare

▪︎ UN's List of Resources for Legal Aid for Afghan Refugees and Other Asylum Seekers in Pakistan

▪︎ Legal Aid Society Pakistan

▪︎ IMKAAN Welfare (Aid for Undocumented/Stateless People in Karachi)

▪︎ Congo

▪︎ Sudan

▪︎ Yemen

▪︎ Palestine

▪︎ Haiti

Dividers by @omni-resources and @anitalenia

"the sea no longer torments me; the self I wished to be is the self I am." – Louise Glück

Navigation Guide

Poetry -> #vivi writes

My thoughts / vibes / mood -> #the self

Romantic Yearning -> #hopeful romantic

My bookshelf / what I've read -> #vivi reads

Rolan (Baldur's Gate 3) -> #bg3 rolan

Richter x Annette (Castlevania) -> #richter x annette

Quaith -> #oc: quaith

Bio

I'm a poet, a romantic, a nerd, and a depressed adult – who's pretty certain she's also autistic, but cannot be diagnosed at this time (for reasons I can't get into right now). Oh, and I love cats! I love all things nature, but especially cats (and moths...and wildflowers...).

Interests

Fantasy RPGs ▪︎ Fantasy/Sci-Fi animated shows ▪︎ Dungeons and Dragons ▪︎ Intersectional feminism ▪︎ Romantic literature ▪︎ Classical art ▪︎ Vintage/retro fashion ▪︎ Audrey Hepburn ▪︎ Alternative Rock ▪︎ Witchcraft

DNI

TERFs, TRFs, SWERFs and Radfems in general ▪︎ Acephobes ▪︎ Biphobes ▪︎ Zionists ▪︎ Hindutvas ▪︎ Generative AI "artists"

If you can't respect these boundaries, I will simply block you without any arguments.

I know this might sound really bitter and petty, but I won't forget or forgive the people who looked past me—especially the ones who looked past my application. Yeah, I'm taking this shit personally. They knew exactly how badly I needed that scholarship. They weren't stupid. All those jobs I applied to and never heard back from? Them too. I curse them all.

#stuck in pakistan #the self #desi woman #being desi #desi blr #desiblr

I want to give yall a small update on how I'm doing mentally.

I'm not good. I'm not even fine. I'm petrified everyday that I'll be stuck here forever. That no matter how hard I hustle, I am not going to make it out.

I would rather die than live a life in this hell. I don't think I have the capacity to care about anything else anymore. Because this fear has taken up every corner of my mind. I can't sit still or think about anything else without feeling the dread and dreariness of everything that I'm stuck to. Worst of all is that I know no one is coming to save me.

Why did I have to be born here?

I don't know what to do anymore. I wish I was never born at all.

#stuck in pakistan #desi #desi woman #desi blr #desiblr #the self #tw depressing thoughts #tw sui ideation #tw sui implied #tw sui talk #tw depressive

vividdreamer

Feeling really anxious rn cuz this student scholarship I'm applying for just moved back their deadline by 5 days (very evil of them to do that) and I'm still waiting for my previous professor to send his reference letter 🫠 I've only got three more days

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FYI this scholarship is the opportunity of a lifetime for me. If I win it, my whole world will change. I'll finally be able to leave my country and move to IRELAND. If you believe in any gods, if you believe there's anybody out there who might listen: please pray for my success!

vividdreamer

Update: Got my reference letter. It's been submitted!! Now I wait.

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Update (2/?) I got word back from the GOI-HEA. I have not been shortlisted.

I can't describe how I'm feeling. All I can say is...well...I should have known better than to get my hopes up.

#the self #life update

Why do liberal zionists speak of having a "two state solution" AS IF A TWO-STATE DOESN'T ALREADY EXIST, AND IT CLEARLY ISN'T WORKING FOR THE BENEFIT OF THE PALESTINIANS!

#anti zionist #anti apartheid #pro palestine #anti genocide #palestine #free palestine

fairycosmos

theres a big conspiracy theory going round that you can be horribly flawed and also genuinely loved. crazy if true

#nahh there's no way #the self

synnevp

I left them alone for ONE freaking day and they had a baby 😭😂

#the instant “there's something we'd like to tell you” had me crying 💀💀 like YOU DON'T SAY??#bg3 rolan #bg3 dammon #tomodachi life #thunderforge

purpleasters-inseptember

Thirsty Thursday with long-haired Rolan 👅 ✨

What started as a joke for me, actually turned me on a lot lol

#he would do numbers on OnlyFangs #bg3 rolan

snailygoon

That feeling of whipping out your field guide after encountering a cool bird:

#me actually #witchblr

cornamentado

idk man saw a version of this meme and this came to me

#😭😭😭#seriously tho...poor halsin #bg3 memes #bg3 halsin

hellspawn-enjoyer

Original: @koekendo0sje

#i dont need to see the original to understand the reference 💀#im chronically online #bg3 karlach #bg3 astarion

bareee

“Where are the others?”

When the wizard gets hit once XD don’t worry, he’ll be fine.

I gotta remember I can just do lil fun doodles in between comics more often…. one picture, waaaay easier then many. and I can have fun with more shading and detail too with em. What can be some fun doodles, hmmmmmm

#lmaooo poor puppy #bg3 gale

Can't wait for pride month 2026 to come around and for the queer "community" to tell bisexuals for the 16293629362th time that we should be perpetually ashamed of our attraction to men and we might as well not show up to the parades and if we breathe near a lesbian bar our bloodline will be cursed 😃

#pride #pride month #bi pride #bisexuality #bisexual #bi women #bi men #bi people #bi enby #queer #queer women #queer love

mossymeep

a bunch of tieflings ! including my tav, @bumblepuppy's tav, an oracle, and dear rolan (because of course)

#rolan looks cute!!#bg3 rolan

Why does America have a rape culture? Why does every woman have a story? Angela Y. Davis draws the connection to slavery in 'Women, Race & Class.'

"Once white men were persuaded that they could commit sexual assaults against Black women with impunity, their conduct toward women of their own race could not have remained unmarred...Racism nourishes sexism."