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26 // she // infj // 4w3 h: 173cm // cw: 58,2kg // gw: 55kg

[vnqel]

18//11//2024

I had a mental breakdown TM over taxes and money. I need a new job asap, thankfully I got a contact to a company through a family friend. I’m getting way too stressed out about all this and my sleep is all over the place.

18:00 — coffee w/ milk. (80cals)

20:00 — vegan yoghurt bowl w/ banana & cashews (400 cals??)

22:00 — coffee w/ milk (80cals)

00:00 - veggies (200cals)

3:30 - two rice cakes with cheese slices, veggie paste and cucumber + a cookie + tea with milk (like 230cals total imo)

4:15 - 2 cookies (80cals)

💘Total: 1070 cals

[vnqel]

Hi, I’m coming back to this bullshit again. It honestly sometimes helps me just feel i do something right. It also is triggered in times when im under a lot of pressure and I dont have enough time for myself. Like now, overworked, and unsure about where my life’s heading even (and little control over it anyway).

This time I’ll try to eat something like 1200-1400kcal, more than before because this time around i also work out. It’s been part of my routine for a while but my diet has been wacky.

[vnqel]

07//02//2023 - day 11.

3:30PM

coffee with soy milk

4:40PM

Cheesecake

6:00PM

grain coffee and half an apple

8:00PM

Mushrooms and peas

10:00PM

rice cakes and veggie paste

midnight

coconut yoghurt, cashews, banana

Okay but why was today so hard to restrict…

[vnqel]

Haven’t posted for a few days because it’s all been a mess, not the diet but my mood and life and relationships. Think I’m back now.

Also, I weigh 57,3kg rn, which is 0,4kg less than last time and I consider it progress (it’s only been a few days).

[vnqel]

04//02//2023 - day 8.

Another cheat day bc a party. I had 2 coffees, a bunch of dumplings with cheese, a piece of cheese cake, a lot of crisps, vegan meat and 3 bottles of beer. Oof

[mafuyuh]

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[vnqel]

03//02//2023 - day 7.

a meeting with friends!

4:00PM

coffee with soy milk

6PM-midnight

such a cheat day. Popcorn, cake, garlic bread, crisps, cookies… not many of each tho.

[vnqel]

02//02//2023 - day 6.

Today I won’t count calories bc I had a bubbletea and I have no idea how many kcal it was anyway.

6:00PM

bubbletea

8:00PM

coconut yoghurt with cocoa, banana and cashews

10:20PM

grain coffee

11:30PM

rice cakes with veggie paste and cucumber

1:00AM

tea with honey

2:30AM

oatmeal with cashews, cereal and banana

4:00AM

grapes

[vnqel]

01//02//2023 - day 5.

Starting a new project at work. Also, my sleep schedule is completely out if wack.

5:00PM

coffee with soy milk (80kcal)

6:45PM

a coconut yoghurt with cashes (~200kcal)

9:00PM

Dumplings (320kcal)

11:00PM

grain coffee with soy milk (100kcal)

1:00AM

2 rice cakes with veggie paste and cucumber slices (140kcal?)

3:00AM

Grapes (200kcal idk?)

Total: 1040kcal

[vnqel]

I’m at 57,7kg (0,5kg less than last time)

[kawoo]

my life.

[sailorsenshigifs]

[vnqel]

31//01//2023 - day 4.

Today I’m trying to work on my thesis.

3:00PM

coffee with soy milk (80kcal)

4:00PM

coconut yoghurt + cereal + cashews + chocolate chips (prob around 300kcal)

5:30PM

coffee with soy milk (80kcal)

7:00PM

fried veggies (285kcal)

still writing the thesis. It’s going quite well, slow but steady.

11:00PM

7 dumplings (320kcal)

midnight

2 chocolate pieces, let’s not add it in ;-;

total: something over 1065

[vnqel]

My weight is the same as last time. 58,2kg. Not feeling devastated as long as I’m not gaining.

[vnqel]

Maybe i should eat more around 1400kcal?

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[vnqel]

30//01//2023 - day 3.

I have therapy and an exam today, didn’t sleep much ;;;

11:45AM

coconut yoghurt with a few cashews (like 200kcal)

2:00PM

Vegan “meat”, veggie paste, sprouts (420kcal)

2:30PM

coffee with soy milk (80kcal)

6:00PM

coffee with soy milk + a chocolate chip (prob 100kcal total)

7:15PM

fried veggies (330kcal)

10:00PM

zuccini + veggie paste (100kcal)

Total: 1230kcal