A M I E R A @vodka-ontherox - Tumblr Blog

in the middle of the night, while im in bed in the dark, i feel sad

i miss my family. i miss when things were easier. i miss how we were back then. i miss us as a whole. and it sucks that i still miss it, a version of my family that no longer exists.

im sitting in the dark, alone, on a saturday night.

the fact that this will be my last saturday night alone scares me. but knowing i will never have to spend saturday nights alone ever again is also comforting.

T-6 days until i marry the love of my life

its 3 am and im fighting the urge to fall apart so im back here again

my life feels like its falling apart so im back here again

sometimes i wish my parents got divorced when i was younger. then i wouldnt have 20 years worth of memories of family holidays, hari rayas, birthdays of us as a family. i wouldnt have anything to look back on where we were happy and whole. bc now every time there’s a birthday or an event where we used to celebrate as a family, it triggers a whole lot of feelings and i fucking hate it

why is my anxiety getting so bad

sometimes i just want to run away and disappear. leave all my friends and family and who i was. no drama, no nothing, just gone.

sometimes i feel so alone. even tho i know i have people, i still feel so alone