Nobody knows.

When everything goes wrong, go to sleep.

[sp1resong]

being self aware suuuucks like yeah this thought pattern/behavior is stupid and pointless and a symptom. i know this. [does it anyways

[feelingsoftheday]

A loaded bank account, a healthy relationship and a comfortable life is all I really want rn

[what-iz-life]

You deserve a calm relationship that's good for your mental health, heart, and nervous system. A lover who's your bestie, your safe space, and soothes your soul during stressful situations. Life is tough enough – you deserve someone who brings you peace, not problems.

[cannibalchicken]

[cannibalchicken]

[varijacija]

[floorsalad]

[killlyourproducer]

[shebloomedbutwontforgethepast]

And after a while you just stop. You stop watering your plants. You stop watching netflix. You stop reading. You stop replying to your friends as fast as you used to. You stop buying yourself nice things. You stop putting an effort into how you look. You stop taking care of yourself like you used to. You stop sleeping. You stop eating healthy foods. You stop petting your dog. You stop socializing.

You stop with everything. You find yourself sitting in your room for hours on end, without doing a single thing. Days feel like years. And you think you can’t do it for much longer.

[stay-close]

“Do you ever lay in bed and realise how not okay you are?”

— Unknown

[wishing-for-deathx]

I look at others and I feel so sad for myself. I’m just existing. And they are living. They are able to move on and get ahead in life but all I do is stay stuck in the past and suffer

[brokenflicker]

"I'm not lazy, I'm just tired. and I don't mean because I've been working hard. Not at all. I'm tired from forcing myself to get out of bed everyday. I'm tired of distracting myself from the thoughts in my brain. I'm tired because all my energy is put to surviving and people don't understand that because all they see is how unproductive you are."

— depression is a disease and it's tiring

[beautifuldarkmind]

I’m jealous of those who can function like a normal human being. They don’t have anxiety holding them back from everything, they don’t struggle to get out of bed or have to put on an act that everything is fine when its not. They don’t struggle to hold friendships and relationships… they don’t feel sad for no fucking reason everyday. Those that can hold jobs and work towards their dreams, the ones who have self esteem and see the beauty in themselves. Those that know what its like to feel safe and secure, not insecure and fearful of it all. 

[prettypositivity]

i hope you heal from the things no one ever apologized for

[worthless-misery]

Dear diary...

I remember once hearing a 40 year old tell me she had been depressed since 15.

I was 14 at the time. And back then I thought to myself, "it can't really last that long, can it...?"

I'm 20 now, and I'm still as depressed as I was back then. And it doesn't seem to ever stop.

I was wrong. Very wrong.

This pain feels endless.

[destroyedlonelysoul]

[y2kgoth]

yes i’m the family disappointment. Someone had to do it

[stardustemotions-deactivated202]

“disappointed but not surprised” has been my mood this whole year

[injedenanfangliegteinzauber]

Ich war schon lange nicht mehr so traurig, so innerlich leer, so überfordert mit allen. Ich war schon lang nicht mehr so negativ. Ich fühl mich unfassbar unwohl, unfassbar traurig. So traurig dass ich morgens nicht mehr aufstehen will & nachts nicht mehr schlafen will. Ich weiß es ist Zeit was zu verändern. Die Ursache rauszufinden. Und ich weiß die Ursache, aber was ist wenn es keine passende Lösung für mein Problem gibt? Wenn es sowieso falsch ist egal welche Entscheidung ich treffe?

[kein-therapie-ende-in-sicht]

-Niemand kann sehen, welchen harten Weg du über Jahre gegangen bist. Niemand sieht deine vernarbte Seele. Niemand sieht die Tränen, du du nachts in dein Kopfkissen weinst. Niemand sieht, wie anstrengend es manchmal ist, zu überleben-.

[unglueckl1ch]

Dann habe ich wieder dieses Gefühl, dass ich mich da zu sehr reinsteiger und mein Problem eigentlich keins ist.