Volatile

All this violence is consuming me.

[thegodfreyfamily]

Unrequited Love {Open}

[thegodfreyfamily]

It’s funny that the strangers first words to him are that he looks like shit. Of course he does. He feels like he’s been crying for ages and no on ever looks pretty while crying, at least not anyone Carson has ever met in his lifetime. A sound between a laugh and a painful sob escapes his lips before her hands are on his arms, but it’s really not okay. How could it ever be?

He looks up at her though, a stray tear falling down his cheek as he tries to compose himself. He bet he looks disgusting and pathetic and sad to her and that’s everything he doesn’t want to be.

[volatile-ky]

She tried to smile at him, but it looked more sympathetic than encouraging. "Was it the kids at school?" She asked, angrily. "I hate those bitches." She mumbled. She doubted that was it. He didn't look like the type of kid that got made fun of at school. She tried to reassure him it was okay again, although she couldn't tell if he was crying or laughing at that point. 

She reached over, wiping the tear from his face before dropping her hands back to her sides. The thought of how awkward it must be for a girl he didn't know to be trying to comfort him crossed her mind again. "I'm Kyler." She said quietly, looking down at her lap. "What's your name?" 

[looking-down-the-barrel-blog]

Barrel wanted to keel over and pass out, but took the hand anyway, still out of breath. “Thanks… but I.. I’m never.. doing that again!” Leaning back, he stretched his back, groaning. “Why would people want to do this in the first place?”

[volatile-ky]

"Suit yourself." She shrugged, taking a few steps back. "People do it to stay fit. And to be able to kick ass like me." She said, smiling. 

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m!a: The Mirror || OPEN

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     “That definitely sounds like an option at this point. Oh, I don’t think I know your name.”

     “Now, now, don’t be harsh. Since when did you start taking orders from girls?”

[volatile-ky]

"My name is Kyler." She said, glaring at the other one. 

[youwillknowhername]

Carrie In Theaters October 18 WhatHappenedToCarrie

[tofindalifeworthliving-deactiva]

Austin shook her hand before shoving both his hands into his pockets. “I’m fine. My shoulder’s a tish on a sore side, but it’s nothing I can’t live with.”

[volatile-ky]

She smirked. "Does this happen to you often, or is it like a one time thing." 

[tofindalifeworthliving-deactiva]

The guy quickly let go and backed away, muttering about a joke. Stepping out of the gun’s range, Austin said, “Frat stupidity. Made even stupider by the fact I don’t go to this school.”

[volatile-ky]

She put the gun down, shoving it back under her shirt where it belonged. "I'm Kyler." She said, extending her hand. "You okay?" 

[thegodfreyfamily]

Unrequited Love {Open}

Carson. Carson! Calm down, Carson!

He’s on the edge of going bat shit crazy and he can’t stand it. There’s this twist in his heart, like a knife, and he can’t stop crying. He. Can’t. Stop. Crying. He’s trying not to tug on his hair but the pain is so bad, like something horrible and deadly climbing up his ribs like it’s a fucking jungle gym. He knows what this is. He knows it so well.

A panic attack.

He’s having a fucking panic attack and it’s all because of her. Her and her stupid perfection and her stupid everything. Why can’t he have her? Why doesn’t she love him instead of all the people who abuse her? Who treat her like a pile of piss? Doesn’t he deserve it? Doesn’t he?!

[volatile-ky]

Kyler sat down next to him, calmly, hoping she wouldn't make things worse. Sometimes when she tried to help things went totally wrong. She contemplated on what to say. She couldn't just ask what was wrong. She couldn't just sit awkwardly and stare either. "You look like shit." She said, immediately biting down on her tongue. Nice one Kyler. She thought. 

She got up on her knees placing her hands softly on his arms. "It's okay." She said in her calmest voice. She imagined how awkward it must be for him to have a girl he didn't know trying to calm him down, but it didn't matter much. If she couldn't do what she was taught to do all of her life, to help, then what good was she anyway? Maybe if she could just get his attention.. "Look at me." She said softly. "Just look at me." 

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m!a: The Mirror || OPEN

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     “Not particularly. I don’t know how this greyface thing works. I don’t want to wind up offing myself.”

     “Oh but Moriarty. My boy, don’t tell me you haven’t thought about how fun it could be. Besides, who knows if I’ll try to shoot you before you have the chance.”

[volatile-ky]

"Well, we could beat the shit out of him and see, if you want to." 

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          [tj]—He sighed and looked back to her, watching as she pulled the gun out. He attempted to hide his surprise, but he couldn’t hide the slight stall in his step.     Giving a snort, he shook his head, “Won’t work. But thanks for the offer, really. It’s very tempting.” 

[volatile-ky]

She smiled. At least she still had the element of surprise. "Oh?" She said, sarcastically. "If it won't work then you won't mind if I shoot?" She asked, putting her finger on the trigger. 

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[abundleoffreaks]

          [tj]—”Really? I could care less. I honestly don’t need another Sami in my life. But thanks, y’know, for attempting to save me, at least. Didn’t need it, didn’t like it, but hey, can’t always get what we want.” He turned to walk away, shaking his head and rolling his eyes, hoping she’d just let him leave without another argument. He wasn’t in the mood for a fight, especially not with her. 

[volatile-ky]

She rolled her eyes. "Oh come on, don't walk away!" She said, walking after him, "You know, if you really want to die so much, I can make it happen." She said, pulling a gun out from under her shirt. "Sounds good right? I'll make it up to you." 

[abundleoffreaks]

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[abundleoffreaks]

          [tj]—”No, you just know nothing about me.” was his instant response, almost sounding huffy as he stared down at her, standing just a bit taller. He knew he wasn’t really supposed to talk about what happened -nor did he have much of a desire to, so he kept his mouth shut about blatantly telling her that he couldn’t die. He really wanted to, just to shut her up, though. It was annoying to hear what she was saying, to be yelled at like that.

      He handled it when it was Sami, because they were forced to live under the same roof, but he didn’t have to take it from her. “I also know what I can handle. But really, thanks for your concern.” 

[volatile-ky]

She scowled up at him, starting to get angry. "I am not concerned." She shook her head. "Not about you anyway."  

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m!a: The Mirror || OPEN

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     “You have no idea.”

     “Oh don’t be so ashamed of me, Mormor. Embrace the fuck up you are.”

[volatile-ky]

"Thought about shooting the ass hole in the face?" 

[abundleoffreaks]

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[abundleoffreaks]

          [tj]—He snorted, “You remind me of Sami.” He shook his head, frowning. Sami talked to him almost exactly in the way that this girl was when she caught him doing things like this. He shook his head and rolled his eyes as she continued on about the ‘death’ thing. At least Sami knew. 

       He looked to her eyes, his own very very serious as he stated, “Look, the stupid car wouldn’t have killed me, okay?”

[volatile-ky]

She stared at him for awhile, softening a bit, and then getting annoyed again. "Are you really that stupid?" 

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m!a: The Mirror || OPEN

mThe Mirror: You become split into two versions of yourself — your good and your evil, for 10 hours.

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     “Try and be nice.”

     “Hm, we’ll see.”

[volatile-ky]

"You seem like you've got a handful to deal with." 

[looking-down-the-barrel-blog]

"Well, this is goodbye. Love ta stick around, but I- uh- gotta scadaddle. You know, forever. So long, suckas!"

"Crap, I give up. That’s too much work. Why’s exercise painful? Thought is was suppose to be good for ya."

[volatile-ky]

"It is good for you." The seventeen year old said, smiling. "You have to work your way up though. You can't just start all at once." She offered her hand as support for him to straighten back up. 

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          [tj]—That he hadn’t been expecting. All he really thought about was that he didn’t care how much it would hurt — it wouldn’t matter, because he couldn’t die anyway. What would it matter if he got a few broken bones? They’d be gone within minutes anyway.

      “If you got a problem with suicide, you don’t have to worry. That wouldn’t have killed me; he’d have been relieved of any guilt he may have felt rather quickly after the initial impact.”

[volatile-ky]

This time she couldn't help but laugh. "I don't care about you. If you have a death wish, go for it! I won't stop you." She said, shaking her head. "But don't make innocent people fulfill your own sick fantasies." 

[abundleoffreaks]

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[abundleoffreaks]

          [tj]—Of course that would be her answer. He could hear the words before she’d even said them, and there they were, in almost the exact wording he had thought them. It didn’t surprise him.

     ”Didn’t you think that maybe I wanted to be hit by the car?” he countered.

[volatile-ky]

She scoffed, rolling her eyes at him. "Selfish fuck." She muttered under her breath, sighing loudly before continuing. "Didn't you think maybe the person in the car didn't want to hit you? Or were you too caught up in yourself to realize they were trying to get you to move out of the fucking way?