Avan

wait until i go on my laptop and fix up this blog to actually look not bad

[tkkatherineblog]

[jamsradio]

[ghostlywriterr]

[gonna-be-luminous]

[feministism]

[r0ad-2-rec0very]

these are resources for LGBTQ+ individuals who are quarantined with unaccepting family.

please, please stay safe during this time. i know quarantine is taking a toll on mental health, physical health, recovery, addiction, etc. and it is important to find a support system.

you are not, and will never be alone.

we will get through this.

[kitcoke2]

you ever just not text someone bc you’re sad and you expect a “hey are you okay” or even just a text in the next couple days but never get one. ahaha pass the bottle mate.

[please-let-me-leave-you-behind]

[ptsdying]

[sj0]

you have been visited by the seven magic dragon balls your biggest wish will be granted but only if you reblog

[hersheyhipster]

Couldn’t risk it.

[justjengie]

didn’t realize they change colors. now I know o gotta wish.

[pinayputa]

THIS SHIT IS REAL I GOT THE JOB I WAS NUTS ABOUT BC I REBLOGGED THIS YESTERDAY maybe it’s a coinkidink but it okay just take the necessary steps to achieve what you’re wishing for and YOU CAN DO IT

[volatile-valkyrie]

Sunday Feb. 9 2020

Looking at my fan in my ceiling

Spinning spinning my thoughts

Up in mud

These new scars on my arm

To show them how much they hurt me

How real my hurt is

How intense my feelings are

Needy, unneeded

I'm alone I'm no one

I've got no one I've been no one

Just show me

Just show me some kind of love love love,

And I'll find my way to my once innocent soul

Someway or the other

The other....

My stitches are gone

But they're itching

For attention for company

"they're so deep"

It ain't as deep as all this trauma fucked me up

So I try again and go deeper

Tryna get that 3 pointer

...Hahahahaha HA...

Why does every corner seem so dark

Why does everyone suffocate me

Why are the walls closing in

Why are the voices getting louder

Tell me about the bright side

Fucking BULLSHIT I TELL YOU

I lie here in no thoughts but all emotion

Where do I go

If not 6 feet under

I stagger on my way to hurt once again

I'm one ignorant asshole

She hurts me Everytime I know

But like a prison I must be punished

Shes been doing sumn to me

Wasn't we supposed to end

I don't know I don't know leave me alone

But I find myself wanting to dream

But the past rapes my potential of a better me

Fuck this gets so annoying by night

Like water in my shoes wherever I go

I just flick you off like my cigarettes

You dig in deep like my blades

And poison me with your royalty

Heads up and the air freezes

I look back into our memory

I won't admit it

But I really wanted to love you

Overdosed

On my toes

On your nerves

Fake lovers concerned

God bless them heathens

The devil's thorning the roses in the field

Gotta run away

My feet are bled through

Like my shirt from the night before

Before...

Before the sweat drops onto the dangerous

The collapsing floor

The addicting beat

The heartbreak repeat

I've got nothing but a bunch of thoughts

All ruled by you by your razor blades

Given to me

321 I'm yours

and you twist me

The atmosphere is blinding smoke

So why must I run to the end

Run to the end

When it's right here......?

Make me dead with your laugh and send me away

With your power and your thorn ridden words

The glass under my feet shattering

And I fall once again

I fail once again

If I could just run my last to the moon

All my blood sweat and years being your stars

Breathe my last to burn in the sun

With my contradicting thoughts becoming your clouds...

My glare turning you into a craze

If only I could make you all bow down to me

I'd sell my own soul for that

To punish you for all you did

I'd sell my last breath just to see you bleed

Bleed the way I bled in front your eyes...

In your classrooms and bathrooms

The way I crumbled under you

I was shredded and forsaken by your merciless actions

And your mischievous little puppets

I'd burn your eyes and your tongue

For humiliating my young self

I'd skin you alive and chew on your skin

Consume your fear

Right in front each one of you

Your laugh is the perfect weapon

Remedy to my torn reality

Got me hacking myself deeper

Making me scream louder

The laughing me

The smiling me

Was murdered

My head in your hands

Ill stab you remind you

Feel all the times I cried and begged in your FUCKING OFFICE

Feel the helplessness

Losing all fucking hope

Living to die

When I hit the jackpot

I'm walking straight towards you

I'm loaded and ready for bloodshed

The lake is sweeter when drowned by your enemies' blood

I want to indulge in your blood

I want to wreck your mortal flesh

Your head's will be my dreamcatcher

Let me sink in your hands

My thoughts dangerous

Your eyes pierced me forever

You banished me

But I see you behind my eyelids

Deeper and deeper

You punish me even in my dreams

You shed my innocence

Even in the afterlife

I'll tune the guitar of my death

To the sound of you all screaming

The perfect song

Just fucking let me burn inside you

And release all the kids you caged

In your picture frame

Of being fucking perfect

[nctaezen]

soft dorm activities with SuperM yong

[jiminrolls]

fun-sized

[taeyungie]

🌻

[jung-koook]

he knows he looks good 😏 (cr: @jjiminssi)

[bluearrow126]

I LOVE THIS SONG

[toastbutteregg]

THIS IS SO ADORABLE!!!