You can call me Vol or Volcan Idrc (Or Romeo if you wanna be a smartass lmao)
I'm 18+ and touch grass only sometimes 👍
I'm diagnosed with DID but you all probably ain't gonna ever see a lot handling that LMAOOOO
My ass probably gonna be ranting (or casting my shitass takes) in here a lot, so don't expect many baller posts from me that would be rebloggable
My DNI is pretty basic, the usual T.R.A.S.H, Proship and the likes, people without a brain to realize this is just a place for me to scream probably shitass opinions into the void. Edit: Also supporters and players of the MC:SM themed Amulet SMP? Respectfully, DNI <3
LMAO anyways have fun reading this blog when I actually do shit
I ain't using tags except maybe the vent one so I wont show up much places ✌️
Edit:
Actually. Let me make something clear in this pinned rq:
I AM NOT ENCOURAGING THE HARASSMENT OF THE PEOPLE MENTIONED IN THIS BLOG!
If you harass them that is on you entirely and I want you OFF MY ACCOUNT!! This is merely a place to get rage off my chest, and maybe a place to give warning to be careful of certain people in certain communities. I don't and let me emphasize DON'T CONDONE HARASSMENT!!
I need to stop holding off from just dropping this.
This is more me getting my peace of mind, but also doubles as a beware.
So, here it is.
For all the people who may stumble upon this account: Watch out for a person within the Roblox and MC:SM spaces (Especially on VRChat) called ChaoticDevotion/Snowyyybee. By extension I'd also recommend avoiding their partners: KevinZheChair/SpadeDeChaosLord and Neongore.
I believe I should start this off with the most important reason: Neo, aka Chaotic, has stated verbally to both me and my best friend in the past after going no contact for multiple months that for over a YEAR they had known their (Not quite yet at the time) ex, Aviarium/Aptdweller, was an abusive predator. Let me put this into some perspective rq: Before even dating this person, from what I can recall, Neo had been fully aware Aviary was a pred WITH A KNOWN VICTIM... And decided to date them and HIDE THIS INFORMATION FROM PEOPLE anyways. Neo has a community server with 100+ members, many of which were minors afaik. They are also close friends with multiple minors, and allowed Aviary around said minors, once again keeping this information from everyone. Upon breaking up with Aviary, Neo continued to keep them around for quite a long while... Including in that server, only to finally fully ban Aviary when they showed signs they were going to groom a minor who was a close friend of Neo.
And once again, I have stated it before here but I will again. I am not disregarding that you yourself were a victim of Aviary's abuse, Neo, but you were also complicit in protecting a pred by hiding the information and bringing them into spaces with minors.
Also, congrats on completely showing how you view other victims by stating that my best friend who was assaulted through deception by Aviary should've already been over it just cause you were over them. I am disgusted in myself for agreeing with you at the time.
Neo also has made statements within calls in the past that indirectly insults the community they cater their content towards: Such as viewing themself as some form of morally superior to a majority of the VRChat community solely for having a job, thus making them "physically unable of being chronically online".
They also seem to have a tendency to lash out at others for struggling with mental illness/trauma and having issues with certain things, but then will shield certain actions and behaviors they do with their own mental illnesses and trauma.
Also this is probably a more mild issue and a statement that varies from person to person: But Neo has actively defended and kept around someone who abuses their dog. Neo has brought this person around me, knowing I have a VERY strong trigger to animal abuse, only to mention the abuse out of nowhere when finally banning this person. (They were generally a very unpleasant and drama fueled person)
Once again that's a more mild thing that also puts into a perspective of: This is also someone Neo considered dating, and someone that even when Neo knew they were hostile, kept around. Neo has stated "not wanting drama or to be involved in it" but has repeatedly kept around people CAUSING drama.
I also feel it is worth noting: It seems if Neo or Spade have an issue with you or someone associated with you, they will not directly tell you or the person. I have had to serve as a messenger in the past for them when they had issues with my best friend solely because they'd put off or delay talking with them about important issues only to complain about them and treat them like shit in the meantime.
Oh also! Neo! Congrats on shaming rippers and asset sharers publicly only to encourage private ripping and breaking a TOS without any hesitation by asset sharing! You genuinely show yourself to be the dictionary definition of a hypocrite!
The amount of times I've had to watch you be double faced, manipulative, and then shield yourself with excuses about your mental health genuinely fascinates me.
But onto the directly impacted me issues:
You all, I mean you, Spade, Reaper, and Neon, all decided to make a fucking group chat just to tell me you all wanted me gone for a list of reasons that when I brought it up to my mental health professionals? They flat out told me based off existing information and evidence most of your biggest points were false. You wanna know what they told me to follow this up? What all four of you did was not only a manipulation tactic, but also specifically saying I had a victim complex when you all KNOW how much I make sure I try to keep the playing field equal and see where I went wrong was also a MASSIVE attempt to break me down.
You told me I need to have alone time. I took that alone time away from you and Spade and spent it EXCLUSIVELY with my best friend. It was a few hours, cause you never told me how long I should be alone... But here's the thing, Neo and Spade, you also knew I had issues (trauma) tying into isolation and abandonment. You knew I wouldn't handle being fully alone for extended periods cause of this, so I thought "Ya know, this is probably what they meant, right? Spend a few hours away from them how Neo talks about enjoying a few hours of alone time or spending time with others instead." Now here's the thing, when I get brought into that group chat? I got chewed out for spending a few hours WITH MY BEST FRIEND INSTEAD OF COMPLETELY ALONE? Spade literally said "You just couldn't take alone time." And guess what that told a fucking mental health professional? That you all wanted to isolate me to break me down, and for what reason? Well I know already:
You, Neo, cheated. You can't even deny it. Like five minutes after you dumped me, on March 3rd, I looked at you and Neon both had on your profiles a new heart and a date labelled Feburary 21st, which from my recollection was pretty ironic of a day for you to cheat.
Actually: I really wanna talk about that irony.
I told you this, because I genuinely seemed to have that dream out of nowhere. I went to bed that night with whole hearted trust and love for you, and my messages that followed it reflected it. What did I get in exchange not even a full two weeks later? Confirmation that YOU DID THAT EXACT THING! Also, as far as I can recall: You were pleading for a compromise when I told you I wasn't comfortable with Lukas and Aiden dating yet! And this combo'd with how you were telling me I needed time alone and everything else? Many people have started questioning if you were trying to break me down so I'd become agreeable and just accept whatever you'd want. Anyways.
I don't feel like writing much more, I hope Neon is worth it. I hope you learn what being in a polycule actually means. I hope you're having fun streaming on Twitch, and I hope I never run into you or them on Deadlock.
Anyways:
Neo deleting channels and messages when leaving so I didn't have anything to prove my points
Neo deleting messages and a channel out of nowhere while still dating claiming they "hated being vulnerable"
Evidence of asset sharing:
The Phoenix Wings asset in this photo? That's by Neffertity
Burning with life and energy, these stunning wings are sure to set the skies ablaze with your fiery personality! PLEASE NOTE! These wings
Also evidence of privately encouraging ripping: This link was handed to me while in VC and I was told to pick a model I liked
They then after all of this, got into VRC with me using an avatar they claimed to have pulled from the website. I believe it was a Bratbun avatar? I cannot recall. Anyways! Bye everyone. This was for my peace of mind and I'll feel better once this is out.
(PS: Neo and a few friends of theirs are mods in a rather big VRChat Phighting group. So I also suggest being wary there.)
Also because I see that you all hid the date to fake it later
This was in both your bios, thanks. Now you've hid it only for me to see an oh so innocent looking April 12th date on one of your bios? Unironically rich. I'd expect something less messy from you, ChaoticDevotion aka Snowyyybee
Proof they were taken day of btw. With the date of Mudd and Neon getting together in the red photo so your can't pussy foot around this shit.
I need to stop holding off from just dropping this.
This is more me getting my peace of mind, but also doubles as a beware.
So, here it is.
For all the people who may stumble upon this account: Watch out for a person within the Roblox and MC:SM spaces (Especially on VRChat) called ChaoticDevotion/Snowyyybee. By extension I'd also recommend avoiding their partners: KevinZheChair/SpadeDeChaosLord and Neongore.
I believe I should start this off with the most important reason: Neo, aka Chaotic, has stated verbally to both me and my best friend in the past after going no contact for multiple months that for over a YEAR they had known their (Not quite yet at the time) ex, Aviarium/Aptdweller, was an abusive predator. Let me put this into some perspective rq: Before even dating this person, from what I can recall, Neo had been fully aware Aviary was a pred WITH A KNOWN VICTIM... And decided to date them and HIDE THIS INFORMATION FROM PEOPLE anyways. Neo has a community server with 100+ members, many of which were minors afaik. They are also close friends with multiple minors, and allowed Aviary around said minors, once again keeping this information from everyone. Upon breaking up with Aviary, Neo continued to keep them around for quite a long while... Including in that server, only to finally fully ban Aviary when they showed signs they were going to groom a minor who was a close friend of Neo.
And once again, I have stated it before here but I will again. I am not disregarding that you yourself were a victim of Aviary's abuse, Neo, but you were also complicit in protecting a pred by hiding the information and bringing them into spaces with minors.
Also, congrats on completely showing how you view other victims by stating that my best friend who was assaulted through deception by Aviary should've already been over it just cause you were over them. I am disgusted in myself for agreeing with you at the time.
Neo also has made statements within calls in the past that indirectly insults the community they cater their content towards: Such as viewing themself as some form of morally superior to a majority of the VRChat community solely for having a job, thus making them "physically unable of being chronically online".
They also seem to have a tendency to lash out at others for struggling with mental illness/trauma and having issues with certain things, but then will shield certain actions and behaviors they do with their own mental illnesses and trauma.
Also this is probably a more mild issue and a statement that varies from person to person: But Neo has actively defended and kept around someone who abuses their dog. Neo has brought this person around me, knowing I have a VERY strong trigger to animal abuse, only to mention the abuse out of nowhere when finally banning this person. (They were generally a very unpleasant and drama fueled person)
Once again that's a more mild thing that also puts into a perspective of: This is also someone Neo considered dating, and someone that even when Neo knew they were hostile, kept around. Neo has stated "not wanting drama or to be involved in it" but has repeatedly kept around people CAUSING drama.
I also feel it is worth noting: It seems if Neo or Spade have an issue with you or someone associated with you, they will not directly tell you or the person. I have had to serve as a messenger in the past for them when they had issues with my best friend solely because they'd put off or delay talking with them about important issues only to complain about them and treat them like shit in the meantime.
Oh also! Neo! Congrats on shaming rippers and asset sharers publicly only to encourage private ripping and breaking a TOS without any hesitation by asset sharing! You genuinely show yourself to be the dictionary definition of a hypocrite!
The amount of times I've had to watch you be double faced, manipulative, and then shield yourself with excuses about your mental health genuinely fascinates me.
But onto the directly impacted me issues:
You all, I mean you, Spade, Reaper, and Neon, all decided to make a fucking group chat just to tell me you all wanted me gone for a list of reasons that when I brought it up to my mental health professionals? They flat out told me based off existing information and evidence most of your biggest points were false. You wanna know what they told me to follow this up? What all four of you did was not only a manipulation tactic, but also specifically saying I had a victim complex when you all KNOW how much I make sure I try to keep the playing field equal and see where I went wrong was also a MASSIVE attempt to break me down.
You told me I need to have alone time. I took that alone time away from you and Spade and spent it EXCLUSIVELY with my best friend. It was a few hours, cause you never told me how long I should be alone... But here's the thing, Neo and Spade, you also knew I had issues (trauma) tying into isolation and abandonment. You knew I wouldn't handle being fully alone for extended periods cause of this, so I thought "Ya know, this is probably what they meant, right? Spend a few hours away from them how Neo talks about enjoying a few hours of alone time or spending time with others instead." Now here's the thing, when I get brought into that group chat? I got chewed out for spending a few hours WITH MY BEST FRIEND INSTEAD OF COMPLETELY ALONE? Spade literally said "You just couldn't take alone time." And guess what that told a fucking mental health professional? That you all wanted to isolate me to break me down, and for what reason? Well I know already:
You, Neo, cheated. You can't even deny it. Like five minutes after you dumped me, on March 3rd, I looked at you and Neon both had on your profiles a new heart and a date labelled Feburary 21st, which from my recollection was pretty ironic of a day for you to cheat.
Actually: I really wanna talk about that irony.
I told you this, because I genuinely seemed to have that dream out of nowhere. I went to bed that night with whole hearted trust and love for you, and my messages that followed it reflected it. What did I get in exchange not even a full two weeks later? Confirmation that YOU DID THAT EXACT THING! Also, as far as I can recall: You were pleading for a compromise when I told you I wasn't comfortable with Lukas and Aiden dating yet! And this combo'd with how you were telling me I needed time alone and everything else? Many people have started questioning if you were trying to break me down so I'd become agreeable and just accept whatever you'd want. Anyways.
I don't feel like writing much more, I hope Neon is worth it. I hope you learn what being in a polycule actually means. I hope you're having fun streaming on Twitch, and I hope I never run into you or them on Deadlock.
Anyways:
Neo deleting channels and messages when leaving so I didn't have anything to prove my points
Neo deleting messages and a channel out of nowhere while still dating claiming they "hated being vulnerable"
Evidence of asset sharing:
The Phoenix Wings asset in this photo? That's by Neffertity
Burning with life and energy, these stunning wings are sure to set the skies ablaze with your fiery personality! PLEASE NOTE! These wings
Also evidence of privately encouraging ripping: This link was handed to me while in VC and I was told to pick a model I liked
They then after all of this, got into VRC with me using an avatar they claimed to have pulled from the website. I believe it was a Bratbun avatar? I cannot recall. Anyways! Bye everyone. This was for my peace of mind and I'll feel better once this is out.
(PS: Neo and a few friends of theirs are mods in a rather big VRChat Phighting group. So I also suggest being wary there.)
Yet again I'm just sitting here fascinated I let myself fall for someone that was bound to break my heart and play the victim, and there's a chance you might damn well get away with it.
Not cause I won't sit here and out it all to whoever will listen on this blog and within the confines of my servers, but cause you made sure the only evidence I have of your worst behavior over text was deleted. That or you made sure to say the absolute worst stuff verbally, knowing I wouldn't record it.
Does Neon know? Does Spade know? I wonder. Do you hide your bio now cause you know that more people are starting to learn? Does the ASMP know? Does Yatta, Reaper, or just about anyone else know? Or is the wool over their eyes?
How many people were you truly honest with? Or was it only me and my best friend? My best friend you lied to? You claimed so vehemently that you didn't want involved with drama or to deal with it, yet you ALWAYS kept people that CAUSE drama around until they were literally ripped away from you. YOU yourself were the catalyst for SO MUCH drama just by keeping people around. You yourself create drama by lying about people or telling your own cherrypicked versions of stories.
Genuinely? I am disappointed. In you and myself for loving you. You can continue to hide behind your shield of excuses, but if MY upbringing and mental issues are deemed an "Excuse" then so should yours.
I hope you all (the people this blog is mostly about) find this one day. Just so you know that I know one you won't let me go. I know you're still there, and I know that you know it's me. As vague as I am I know the people in question are paranoid enough to recognize me.
And I know one of you especially might happen upon this blog one day with how you keep my other blogs and accounts on platforms added.
I saw you finally unfollowed me on your private Twt. Which means you're aware you haven't blocked me elsewhere. I won't pull that trigger, cause I'd be playing into your narrative if I did. You made the sob story to that group about me, and I know you cheated. You can't even DENY you did I saw the bios before you removed all evidence. You never had the guts to admit it.
You never even pointed out the fact you KNEW the truth about your ex FOR OVER A YEAR and still carried on and kept him around. Is your excuse going to be that you never admitted that? Since you know I don't have a recording of you confessing that? You knew he was a danger. Even when you broke free it took you ages to get rid of him or get him away from people he could potentially harm. It's when it almost happened to ANOTHER person you finally did it.
I'm still not ignoring the fact you were a victim, but I'm also not ignoring the fact you put your own FRIENDS in danger for him.
Also thinking about it... Why should anyone have been honest with you all when you refused to be honest with people? I watched you all throw double standards left and right.
Must be nice for them to be given near endless patience, managing to free one of them from a toxic and abusive relationship with a literal groomer, being shown so much love and care and kindness even in their worst moments
Only to toss everyone aside as soon as a boundary is set down that doesn't let them increase the number of partners they have like a fucking stat in a video game, replacing and cheating on someone they should have cared about as soon as they didn't get what they wanted
Two faced son of a bitch acting all nice and caring to my face only to turn around and call me manipulative behind my back for a drunken breakdown that i apologised again and again for, trying to drag my best friend away from me and excluding me from stuff everyone else was doing when we tried to reach a hand out after we recovered
Hypocritical asshole targeting our main host and making him sound like a creep without saying a WORD to us while constantly doing the SAME SHIT HE WAS DOING SO MUCH MORE OFTEN and egging us on making us think nothing was wrong when if they just SAID ANYTHING AT ALL we would have dialed back
Constantly making us feel like shit with their spiels about not being chronically online and hating communities we were in, despite also heavily taking part in those same communities MORE THAN WE DID, making us feel like we had to follow them wherever they went or we would never recover
I hope their crowns fall one day, they don't deserve to be able to abuse their power like this. I hope one day people see them for who they truly are. They make me sick with the way they act, and the fact they can just so easily get away with it by manipulating everyone around them and pushing a false narrative is fucking disgusting.
Actually... As well to this I'm writing something directed at people who I doubt will ever see this
How dare you all demand honesty and communication from ME when barely any of you all were honest and communicative with anyone else. I get chewed out for one of you (Who you all never should've included but you just HAD to) all cause "They had to find out a lot of info through you all"
WHAT ABOUT ALL THE TIMES I HAD TO BE YOUR ALL'S MESSENGER FOR PEOPLE? Especially someone that was so damn close to me?
Is it just different for you all? Do you all get your special set of rules? You spoke SO much about me having double standards but WOAH! WOULD YOU LOOK AT THAT? YOU ALL HAD DOUBLE STANDARDS! Unironically it is INSANE I let you all talk down to me so much when you all behaved just about the damn same.
Yes, you all had some points I can't deny I had an issue with, BUT A DECENT CHUNK OF THE MASSIVE ONES YOU ALL HAD THE SAME ISSUES WITH
Oh? And what's this other fact? THE BIGGEST SECTIONS WHERE YOU ALL SHOWED THESE COLORS YOU DELETED! And I have the proof you deleted them. You speak so much about ME being some fucking abuser to other groups and yet when I look at the facts you all DEMONIZED me for half the shit you all ALSO did.
I really hope you all find this all worth it. I'm fascinated how much one group can have double standards and lie right in the face of people. Good luck in the future.
Man ya know what? First post is gonna be a massive yap fest that is a massive if you know me this'll be obvious.
But dude I have YET to meet a major TF2 fan who HASN'T fucked me over (At least from my memory) or been tied to and sided with people who fucked me over. My opinion of TF2 due to these people is ABYSMAL.
Of the ones I've met so far I literally have the belief most TF2 fans are genuinely so convinced they're either better than you, better than whatever their new community is, or are so miserable they can't hold something stable for over a year unless they put it on the very outskirts of their existence while still keeping an iron grip on it.
Now I know damn well they aren't all like this, but DAWG WHY DO I KEEP FINDING THE WORST POSSIBLE PEOPLE. "I'm so glad I'm not chronically online" was such a sentiment I kept hearing repeated around those people only for them TO BE CHRONICALLY ONLINE. Idfk bro I'm just geeking out over this bullshit I think lmao
