not to be like that but i’m really feeling the sad a*rora vibes right now, when she sings “I dont belong here, I don’t belong anywhere.”
because i feel like i dont. i find people i love and they just dont. love me back, not the way i love them. and people who love me do so artificially; because it’d benefit them, not because there’s actually any appeal. i have too much love to give, and no one wants it.
i’m not boring, i dont think. i think im just too much... myself. even though i’m acting a lot, it’s still not enough for anyone.
i haven’t been able to cry since the beginning of q*arantine, i think because my anxiety has sort of stalled out. and i’d /love/ to cry, so I could at least put the emotions somewhere other than inside myself









