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is he attractive or is it just his skateboard? 

[waiffwho]

Always awake when I should be sleep and sleep when I should be productive. Agh! Anyway, I finished Samurai Champloo. It instilled the idea that no one belongs to anyone. Attachment is something we must relinquish. Immediately recognizing the notion “friends are the family you choose,” I considered maybe the series saw truth to that but ultimately individual nature arises and it best that people follow a path in front of them and not someone else’s. 

[waiffwho]

2 Feb 2018

I’m still here and exist. Weird. lol. 

[waiffwho]

16 August 2017

I was once ready to retire from this world. I was once ready to evacuate livelihood approximately 9hrs. ago.

[waiffwho]

15 August 2017

At any given moment I could die. At any point in time I be shot while being black. Why, thank you, Amerikkka. A blessing you have bestowed upon myself, my brethren, and sistren.

[waiffwho]

14 August 2017

Within days of getting a job, I’ve gunned down what websites I’ve maturing into shopping at, what pricey clothing I want, and so on. It's telling how much of a maximalist at heart I am. By nature, I’ve acquired the taste for wants and desires. Free of total hedonism but deterrent from that side of myself I choose to grow into a minimalist identity and state of being which means note to self: quit worrying about the things you’re going to buy before you’ve even got the money to pay for them. 

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Dong dong de jia qi / A Summer at Grandpa’s (1984, Hou Hsiao-Hsien)

[waiffwho]

2:18

do u have2 do u hav2 do u hav2 let it lingerrrrr

[waiffwho]

9 June 2017

I’ve consecutively been scheduled one day a week for 2 weeks and again for the coming a week. I have a job but I don’t have a job. I broke the needle I was using to pump air in my soccer ball. I’m broke as fuck. I’m out of money; I’m out of meds; I’m only nine hours into the fucking morning and still have the rest of this goddamn day to go. 

[waiffwho]

23 May 2017

Love don't mean nothin' if I ain't got you, but the thing is, I don't. I haven't for a few months or maybe even a year—I'm unsure. Either way... I'm out here just searching for substitutes & alternatives that can be the filler space for the unconditional love & support you gave me & the romantic love I've never had. In due time I guess. Matter of fact, you still wound up divorced countless times & living the rest of your years with your children & their beloveds. But what's love if it ain't family, right? Love don't mean nothin' if I ain't got you.

[waiffwho]

631

i hhate apple tm

[waiffwho]

630

the rumbling winds bustle through the city & its silent streets

[waiffwho]

317

when i have kids, i’m gonna explain to them the duality of watermelon like their seed bearings of paper or plastic

[waiffwho]

18 October 2016

Ain’t got time for all this shit. Too depressed with repressed stress. 

[waiffwho]

6:52

whats everythng supposd 2mean n e wæ

[waiffwho]

25 September 2016

I gotta get my shit straightened out & stop watchin' shitty movies on Netflix to pass the time. I hate this shit. Time to change the ways of a westerner, pal.

[waiffwho]

4:58

i’m learnin’ shit, i’m figurin’ it out. bit by bit. piece by piece. i got this, mama.