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Hi I'm Jess I love u *smorch* pink blog Hellooo I used to be Satanisaloli

[doloresinslacks]

[gentlekiss]

gk

[waifuwu]

I wasn’t planning on being alive up till this point. What the fuck do I do now

I’m still getting disappointed, feeling unloved, and feeling useless.

[waifuwu]

It’s odd how I used to feel so comfortable to be myself up until now. Slowly but surely chipping away at who I am and back to being a version of what you wish I was all the time.

[waifuwu]

Things got better for a while. I thought I was happy. I am trying so hard to be happy. All I want is for you to just hang out with me..watch shows and movies with me..I want you to sound like you enjoy being around me. I want to come first sometimes when you think about things to do for the day after work. I just want to be cared about a little bit more.

[lunasea]

i feel like nobody knows me the way i’d like to be known

[heartplush]

[waifuwu]

Now I’m just annoying apparently. You don’t act like you even like being around me, what’s the point. You put up a front for a little while and then blow up with annoyance

[threemilk]

たい焼きアイス

[ashberrrry]

me???? tired???? sleepy???? yes constantly

[honeyrolls]

Peach Cakes

[waifuwu]

Same old same old nothing changes

[waifuwu]

I want to feel wanted. I want to feel desirable. Is it so hard to ask to be treated gently? To be treated like you had treated me in the beginning when you were trying so hard to impress me? I miss that.

[tokyoproxy]

JR川崎駅, JR KAWASAKI Station by Daishi Naruse 

[waifuwu]

I just wanted kindness. All I’ve ever wanted was kindness.

[waifuwu]

You were the last person I’d think to ever choose games over me. I poured my heart out to you when I told you how my ex treated me when I needed him the most, and you became him in an instant. I’m just so disappointed

[waifuwu]

I’m home again. And the overwhelming sadness I feel is starting to settle in. It doesn’t feel right. Something doesn’t feel right. The break was supposed to help according to you, but nothing helped. Just as I expected. I don’t feel well. I feel like I’m going to burst at any moment. I know I’m the problem. I know I need therapy. I fucking wish I could have it. I can’t handle anything that goes wrong in my life because I just fall to pieces. Experiencing so much physical trauma before you made things so much worse for me. I wish I never experienced those things. They ruined me. I feel ruined. I feel like I ruin everything I touch.

I wanted to go see the stars with you this Friday. They’re my favorite place to go to with you. It’s my favorite memories with you. You didn’t seem excited..I feel as though you don’t want to go. You don’t want me to ruin that spot either.

I wish we had more spots together. You had parks and parking garages and $5 movie dates. I have my stars and the big open space. That place made me feel special. I just want to go and feel special again.