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[waiting-for-his-right-tim3]

when they asked me, “o, birthday mo ngayon ha bakit ka nasa Cavite? Nasan boyfriend mo?”

Ayun, nagpapakasaya sa outing.

“E bakit nandun sya? Kelan ba nila yun plinano?”

This month lang. mga boss niya daw nagdecide ng date e.

“Nge. Alam naman niya na birthday mo last year pa di ba? Tapos yan this month lang? Bakit nung nagsabi ng outing date hindi siya nag defend na di siya pwede kasi birthday mo?”

Hhmm

Baka mas gusto niya magswimming kesa makasama ako sa mismong araw ng birthday ko. Masyado na daw kasi akong selfish to ask him to stay for the whole day. May nga ibang araw pa naman para icelebrate birthday ko, kahit di ko na birthday.

Sounds ridiculous, pero nakakahurt na nagresonate to after a day of my birthday. Ang hirap iinsist what you deserve if the person you want to spend the whole day of your birthday prioritize spending time sa iba. iniisip ko na pag sa araw ba ng bday niya, pinapunta ako nila Pao sa kanila ng gabi, anong mafifeel niya na iiwan ko sya? Will that be okay kasi right now, nahuhurt pa rin me. Di ko lang magawang umiyak ngayon kasi nasa labas me at nakakahiya. Pero I dunno. Kahit naman bumawi siya after ng birthday, wala na rin. The fact na he still chose to be there to finish the day ng 20, speaks louder than bumawi on other days.

[waiting-for-his-right-tim3]

I’m still grieving for this. I can’t help it pero minsan nagdadoubt ako pag kasal na kami, will he be convenient of my presence? Prioritize workmates than me? Or our future fam be disregarded kasi may dept outing? Sobrang heart breaking. Lord, help me understand and not resent the past.

[waiting-for-his-right-tim3]

He is always on his phone. I don’t feel loved. Maybe I don’t alwaya have to feel the love anyway

[waiting-for-his-right-tim3]

Don’t let your past hurts ruin your life today.

[remanence-of-love]

[waiting-for-his-right-tim3]

when they asked me, “o, birthday mo ngayon ha bakit ka nasa Cavite? Nasan boyfriend mo?”

Ayun, nagpapakasaya sa outing.

“E bakit nandun sya? Kelan ba nila yun plinano?”

This month lang. mga boss niya daw nagdecide ng date e.

“Nge. Alam naman niya na birthday mo last year pa di ba? Tapos yan this month lang? Bakit nung nagsabi ng outing date hindi siya nag defend na di siya pwede kasi birthday mo?”

Hhmm

Baka mas gusto niya magswimming kesa makasama ako sa mismong araw ng birthday ko. Masyado na daw kasi akong selfish to ask him to stay for the whole day. May nga ibang araw pa naman para icelebrate birthday ko, kahit di ko na birthday.

Sounds ridiculous, pero nakakahurt na nagresonate to after a day of my birthday. Ang hirap iinsist what you deserve if the person you want to spend the whole day of your birthday prioritize spending time sa iba. iniisip ko na pag sa araw ba ng bday niya, pinapunta ako nila Pao sa kanila ng gabi, anong mafifeel niya na iiwan ko sya? Will that be okay kasi right now, nahuhurt pa rin me. Di ko lang magawang umiyak ngayon kasi nasa labas me at nakakahiya. Pero I dunno. Kahit naman bumawi siya after ng birthday, wala na rin. The fact na he still chose to be there to finish the day ng 20, speaks louder than bumawi on other days.

[dailyeffectiveprayer]

Your joy will return. God restores what feels lost.

[thepersonalquotes]

[petitefleuriste]

Keep thy heart with all diligence; for out of it are the issues of life. — Proverbs 4:23

[waiting-for-his-right-tim3]

The assurance I need hahahaha

[lehooes]

source

[thediarylife]

"He is always available. He's just waiting for you."

-ctto.

[waiting-for-his-right-tim3]

Dgroup christmas party

My dgroup asked me what is my theme for this year, and also asked if my relationship with God improved and how so.

Honestly, losing my Mama physically still creeps in sometimes. If magrereflect ako this year, isa sa pinaka masakit ay ang pag iwan sa amin ni Mama dito sa earth. Knowing na first christmas namin ito na wala sya, lalong kumirot nung naisip kong mga ganitong panahon pa lang may set list na agad sya ng ihahanda namin for christmas eve and new year. Sasabihin niya, “dapat may macaroni salad ha. Tyaka lechon”, tapos gigising na lang ako niyan na naririnig sila sa baba na nagluluto. pero ngayon, nahihirapan ako magdecide kung paano ba icecelebrate ang season na ito. Alam ko rin naman na it’s for God’s event, pero ang hirap lalo na part na ng tradition to pray every christmas eve and salubong ng new year.

How can I pray with my Papa, kung hindi ganun ka okay yung relationship namin? I can hear my Mama’s words na alagaan ko sya, pero hindi ko talaga alam kung paano. sobrang miss na kita, Ma. I’m sorry if hindi ko nasabi sa’yo kung gaano ko naappreciate lahat ng ginawa and sacrifices mo for me. Sa mga panahon na sana mas sinamahan pa kita kaysa magmukmok sa kwarto. Alam ko naman na happy ka na with the Lord, I just hope na sana marami pa akong nagawa for you. help me to have the courage and continue what you have started sa fam na ito. lalo na sa faith journey ko Ma. Thank you for reminding me that material things on this earth will eventually perish, only His Word and love will not. thank you for praying with and for me nung nandito ka pa. Di mo alam kung gaano kahalaga saakin yun, pero I’m grateful for you kahit naging parang aso’t pusa tayo. Please, help me to overcome my emotion and trust God more.

God, I’ll hold on to Your promises. I know hindi magiging madali ang journey na ito, pero alam ko rin na kakayanin ko sa biyaya Mo lamang. Help me desire the things that is good and aligned to Your will. For me to have a discernment on every decision I’ll make. Praying for a better Sandrinne not just for my family or friends, but also to people around me. May I glorify You in all things. I love You, Lord!

[waiting-for-his-right-tim3]

Hi love, if you are reading this, I have already got the ring. Praying for His wisdom on when I will propose to you. I love you, junbong ko.

[waiting-for-his-right-tim3]

[waiting-for-his-right-tim3]

Praise report:

Hearing him say things that I have prayed for to God (everyday, Lord please make him the man You want him to be. For Your glory alone), sobrang happy ng heart kooo. him being chosen to be a life coach sa GH for next year, and him telling me his learnings or realizations without me asking. Truly, God is amazing and He is working in our lives! I just hope and pray na he’ll continue to have the hope and grow on his faith. Of course ganun din sakin. Make us strong, Lord. Sa lahat ng aspect ng buhay namin, may You be glorified. help us keep the main thing, the main thing. Love youuu

[artndetails]

let’s stay here. x

[pisces-core]

[freak]

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[blackbellybella]

But also your feelings are valid

And it’s ok to feel stressed and overwhelmed and dissatisfied no matter where you’re at in life.