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blake kathryn
Sade Olutola
let's talk about Bridgerton tea, my ask is open
we're not kids anymore.
izzy's playlists!
Janaina Medeiros
DEAR READER
Origami Around
taylor price
tannertan36
Acquired Stardust
Misplaced Lens Cap
AnasAbdin
@theartofmadeline
Stranger Things
Sweet Seals For You, Always
NASA
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@wakeupthewublins
No idea if anyone is interested, but I've been super into making Fresh Animations compatible with various mods and other packs! Really enjoy helping people, and people seem eager to see things finally get compat. So if anyone has requests or commissions, I'm open! Not mandatory, but if you'd like to donate/tip for my work, anything is appreciated, truly!
venmo.com/u/dasawk
Everything I say to people I care about always heavily scrutinized by my brain, picked apart to show how my words could hurt them, and it sucks!!!! It sucks when it feels like your brain is a wild animal
Anyways uh! Other schizotypal individuals (if you want to): do my posts speculating about it… does it seem similar? It’s been something I’ve struggled with for a long time, with pretty much all my relationships too. It all rings close to home
My brain thinks no one would ever like the real me, so it just flees every time I get close to people. I hate it so much
some personal events got me thinking. I believe I’m likely schizotypal, mainly for a few reasons:
* brain is absolutely terrified of interpersonal relationships. makes me feel like I “tricked” people to know the real me. so I often sabotage it by fleeing, even when I want to be close so bad
* Semi related to the previous, but I am absolutely terrified of upsetting people I care about so badly and not knowing. My head goes fight or flight mode and makes me want to run away if it ever perceives me hurting or upsetting someone I care for, no matter how small. Constantly fighting it
* my irl speech patterns involve a lot of “only makes sense to me” stuff as well as vague and weird metaphors that no one except myself seem to understand. sometimes I can explain my reasoning, but even then it’s hard for others to understand
* I have very unrealistic and grandiose dreams of success, where my characters and work are so beloved that I’m able to be on the same level as my inspirations, being big as someone in character and game design, and loved. It sounds silly but my head thinks I can achieve it…
* constant brain gibberish and/or “static” that is constantly in my head unless I drown it out with music or something else. It does not ever stop and never has for as long as I’ve known. could possibly be the AuDHD and tinnitus causing or worsening this, unsure, but figured I mention it
But… yeah. It’s been kind of eye opening finally looking deep inside myself and recognizing the things I’ve done to my loved ones and myself that I’ve always regretted but never put two and two together that maybe it was caused by my brain and not just that I’m inherently like this... Yeagh,
It sucks when a brain is so awful that you’re constantly just fighting off its terror to do what you want it to
there’s something about cold chinese food that hits so fucking Good
birthday dinner sooooon. im achey tho. rip
of course I got my period right after midnight passes and it’s my birthday lmfao. happy birthday body
oh fuck im 32 now huh
day of birth
in theater about to watch hokum
stomach is acting up today something fierce
intense bodily pain is so bizarre and silly. you start to get the cold sweats, and an almost impending sense of doom, which I’m assuming is the body trying to alert to me that it’s freaking the fuck out
stomach spasm meds should hopefully activate soon
PHEW the pain is gone. god bless dicyclomine
stomach is acting up today something fierce
intense bodily pain is so bizarre and silly. you start to get the cold sweats, and an almost impending sense of doom, which I’m assuming is the body trying to alert to me that it’s freaking the fuck out
stomach spasm meds should hopefully activate soon
A bit of a bitch to set up in hard survival, but GOD was it worth it. so satisfying to have it function. Love making functional redstone gadgets
so this took a WHOLE lot of grinding, trading, and time to get here. but!!! I’m so proud of the gear I managed to get that is now reliable and my long term bedrock, switch, hard mode world set!! Minus the bow, all the tools/weapons I use are nicknamed with silly little jokes and puns just because I could
I love feeling so safe exploring now with this reliable gear I worked so hard on getting. So satisfying
getting lots and lots of blue ice in survival Minecraft is hell 😭
creeper