Why Is He Silent

Are we just humans simplifying our complicated lives, or humans complicating our simple lives?

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Is this a sign?

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hope you like it guys!

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Six months have passed and I still get the idea that I wanted to look after you. But it’s no longer my job, and it would be inappropriate. Thank God nabilin naman kita to my workmate living next to your place and to your sister.  “God, please make her safe”.  

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now it's too hard to outweigh the happiness I'm experiencing right now being alone.

I will never. allow. anyone. to hurt me that bad. ever. again.

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To provoke a new lover that they'll just leave is a lifetime trauma.

May we never be the reason for it.

Some people just say goodbye easily. Relationships nowadays are too fragile. Hard pass.

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I may have lost you but you also lost me.

You know the difference.

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I still miss you sometimes, but I have given up the idea of you coming back. I wish you well, Palablab. Maging safe ka lang palagi, okay na ako. 

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I've been surrounded by people who have a tendency to become really toxic, but their lovers never leave them.

It made me question, what's in them, that made their person stayed no matter what. They're not even worthy.

Then there's me, who has been trying to be better everyday, trying to be a a better lover since day one, trying to figure out how to have a better future for the family I wanted to build with her. But then she left me, for another man.

It was a life-changing-kind of pain.

But I have no choice to learn this the hard way. To never take everything personal. One person's mistake does not represent all the mistakes there could be.

I deserve better.

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03/05/2022  9:22PM

Hi Chin Chin..

It's been 3 months since you broke up with me. No need to describe what I've been through and this msg isn't about that.

I'm writing this to you to let you know that I don't want us to end up in a completely bad term because you've been a significant part of me for 2 years. It felt like 2 decades, that's why it was so hard to forget you. Sa helmet, eyeglass, jacket, lumpia, tubeless tires, naulanan sa bdo, yung gusto mong maging pulis, ultimong itlog na maalat naaalala kita. Haaays, hindi ko naman ginugusto pero you're just everywhere. (I never tried seeing you, but this island is just too small for us. Ironic, ‘cause I thought I won’t be seeing you anymore. Kaya nga labis labis ang pakiusap kong makita ka man lang at makausap sa huling pagkakataon.) Everything just reminds me of you. And I want to remember you in all the right ways that you made me happy. When we were both genuinely happy, simula ng bumaba ka ng tryc sa vtc from overtime sa duty at nag smile ka saken sa malayo, yung reaction mo right before pinakilala kita sa kina mama, yung pagrent natin ng tryc para magpatulong sa manghuhula, at yung paglakad natin sa napakadilim na daan sa Legazpi. I don't want to feel sad anymore thinking of those times. So I'm turning them as happy memories now.

My point is, may pinagsamahan tayo. So if there will ever be a time that you need anything I can help you with, I don't want you to feel awkward. Yes, I'm offering a friendship but not the type where we hang out. I won’t ask to see you personally as well. I want you to be completely happy. I don't want you hiding yourself from me or the people in my life. Okay? I've learned that in life, dapat sport lang. Let it slide.

You were my home. Now, a rest house I can no longer visit. And that’s completely fine now. See you everywhere 💚🧡

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“Not everything is supposed to become something beautiful and long-lasting. Sometimes people come into your life to show you what is right and what is wrong, to show you who you can be, to teach you to love yourself, to make you feel better for a little while, or to just be someone to walk with at night and spill your life to. Not everyone is going to stay forever, and we still have to keep on going and thank them for what they’ve given us.”

— Emery Allen (via ohteenscanrelate)

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“This year I learned to be selfish. Selfish with my time, my heart, my feelings, my mind and most importantly myself. I spent entirely too much time feeling sorry for the things I couldn’t change, wishing for things I didn’t have, and begging for people who did not deserve me. It has taken me two decades to realize I am a prize worth winning, I am a caviar dinner not a gas station hot dog. This year I’ve lost people I thought I couldn’t live without and given myself everything I needed. Next year, I hope I can learn to love myself.”

— ohsixonethree,  writing prompt #73: Write about the lessons you learned this year. (via wnq-writers)

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damn!! you got this, bam!

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Ang sakit sakit pa rin, Shen.

Sobra sobrang sakit pa rin.

Mahal na mahal pa rin kita.

Sana alagaan ka nya.

Alagaan nyo ang isa't isa.

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The moment you talked to him, you disrepected us.

You chose not to tell me, you lied to me.

You went on talking to him, you cheated on me.

What we had is so real, you betrayed me.

I don't deserve any of that.

You put me in hell, and I don't deserve to be hurt like that.

I've done nothing but good to you.

That won't happen again.

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I loved you so well, but I won't forget the hell you put me in.

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"Did you try to win her back?"

Finally, people started asking me and I'm proud of my answer. I have nothing to regret.

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You just miss her old version.

Not the present.

So leave it all behind.

Don't try to change it.