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wallis. 22. loser.

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afrankk:

Alex took a moment to let the question sink in. “Actually, I suspected pretty early, but.. I guess I didn’t fully realize until.. end of middle school? Freshman year of high school? Something like that. I actually had a girlfriend at the time. She was a genuinely nice girl. Theresa was her name. I remember––” he paused, only to let out a breathy laugh at the memory. “One time we were sitting in her living room, and we were watching something, like a culinary show of some sort. And she then, out of sudden turns to me, looks me in the eye and goes “Alex, I think you’re gay.”” he looked over to the boy. “And I was like “Hell yeah, that sounds about right.””

He listened to Alex’s story intently, letting out a genuine laugh at the end. He looked over at the boy, wondering if he’d be able to say it. “I think I’m gay,” Wallis mumbled, before turning over on his side. He couldn’t look at Alex. Whether it was the ayahuasca or the fact he was finally able to say it, Wallis felt his eyes start close and himself drift into a sleep. 

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afrankk:

Alex raised his brows slightly, not necessarily surprised by the question, as it seemed pretty frequent. At this point he was used to it. He looked over to the boy. “That’s correct.” he confirmed. And usually that was it. Most of the time it was just people asking because they thought he looked gay. And that was completely fine. But Alex felt like with Wallis, there was more to it than just that. “Why?” 

Wallis nodded solemnly, not surprised but building up to his next question. “Was just wondering,” he shrugged, letting a silence cover the room. “When did you know?”

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afrankk:

“Oh, for sure.” Alex threw out there, with underlying playfulness in his tone. “Can’t be walking around, getting myself into trouble when I’m supposed to be taking care of you.” he added. “That’s irresponsible.”  

Wallis looked up from his pillow at Frank, surprisingly he was smiling for a change. He laughed a little before it faded into silence. He looked up at Alex, a question on the very tip of his tongue. He couldn’t quite convince himself that he should say anything, but he wanted to so badly and he thought that this might be his only opportunity. “Alex, you like boys, don’t you?” He asked rather innocently. 

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afrankk:

Alex seemed pleasantly surprised by the request. His brows rose, as he moved himself away from the frame. “Absolutely.” he closed the door, heading towards the bed. He sat down on the edge of it, next to the boy. He looked down at the other, a gentle smile appearing on his lips. “Are you.. better?” 

“The room is spinning,” Wallis muttered, hugging the pillow closer to him and burying his face into it. “Are you better?” He asked, although it was muffled by the pillow. 

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afrankk:

Alex wrapped his arms around the other, leading him into the room, where he helped the boy sit down on the bed. “We’ll take these off.” he mumbled, more to himself, sorta like a mom while helping the boy kick off the shoes. “And we’ll take this here.” he took the glass from Wallis and placed it neatly on the nightstand. He then kinda proceeded to help him lay down. Once that was done, Alex stood up straight. “Is this good?” he gave the boy a sincere smile, before turning to the door. “Let us know if you need anything.” he told him, leaning against the frame. 

Wallis let Alex help him. He felt worst once he was lying down, like the whole world was spinning. He snuggled up into the large pile of pillows. He hummed into the fabric, nodding. He was okay enough and actually felt comfortable. “Can you stay?” He asked feebly once he realised the boy was about to leave him. 

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afrankk:

Alex nodded his head, getting to his feet. He stubbed out the cigarette in the ashtray on the table, putting his wine aside as well, before walking over to the boy. He helped the other get up as well, before looking around. Alex decided that it would be inconvenient to drag the boy all the way upstairs, so he kinda just began leading him slowly towards the bedroom on the ground floor, not hurrying too much, kinda just letting the boy decide on the pace.

Wallis let Alex lead him away, not really knowing where they were going. He was a little slow and clumsy on his feet, causing him to lean into Alex as they walked across the room to the bedroom. He felt strangely more comfortable with him once they were alone in the room together, like there were no prying eyes watching them. 

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afrankk:

Alex let out a thoughtful sigh, his eyes focusing on the glass of water he had brought with him. He held out his hand, passing it over to the boy. “Here.” he offered, with a small smile. His eyes watched the other for a moment, unsure how he could help. Alex figured a while ago that lot of this could be a side effect of ayahuaska. “Do you want to lie down?” 

Wallis took the water, nodding thankfully. But he didn’t drink it, he felt some comfort from just holding the water in his hands. “Yeah, that would be nice,” he muttered, still feeling pretty shaken. 

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afrankk:

Alex seemed to put a lot of thought into the boy’s statement, as his eyes scanned his face, as if for any further information. “Alright,” Alex began, resting his thumbs underneath his chin, sorta just holding his head up as he slightly furrowed his brows. “In what context?” 

Wallis screwed up his eyebrows, unsure but why the other boy meant by that question. It dawned on him that even though he may have been referring to his pounding heart and sweaty palms, Wallis had felt like there was something wrong with him for a lot longer than before tonight. “Every context,” he uttered. 

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afrankk:

Alex acted surprised at the boy’s worried expression. He slowly scanned the room, but everyone seemed to be busy doing their own thing, so Alex kinda pulled himself out of his trance, approaching the boy, but with certain distance, not wanting to make him too uncomfortable. He grabbed a bottle of water from the table on his way there and sat himself on the other end of the couch, crossing his legs, before turning his glance to Wallis. “Hey,” he greeted, offering a comforting smile. “Are you well?” he asked, showing concern. 

Wallis shifted awkwardly in his seat, sitting a little upright and rigid as the other boy sat across from him. He thank god that he didn’t try to sit too close, he was sure his heart would have exploded if he had. “No,” he admitted truthfully, shaking his head. “I don’t know what’s wrong with me.” He met Alex’s eye, unable to tare his gaze away once he had. 

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afrankk:

Alex had such a good time pretending he, as well, was on ayahuaska that he even began to believe it for a second. His body swayed gently in tact with the soft music in the living room, a glass of wine in one hand and cigarette in the other. His eyes opened slowly, scanning the room, before resting on the figure on the couch. Not quite pulling himself out of the trance, Alex flashed a sincere smile at the familiar face.

Wallis wasn’t reacting well to the ayahuasca, not in the slightest. It could himself sweating and his heart racing. He felt paranoid, like he was being watched. His eyes scanned the room frantically and finally landed on Alex. It didn’t help his paranoia in the slightest, if anything it increased his heart rate. Wallis quickly looked away. 

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noell-al:

Noella watched the scene, the amusement on her face, but not as strong as for example Maggie’s. Alex watched the boy with a smug grin, leaning his chin on his folded palms held up just below his head. Once he caught eye contact with the boy, Alex winked before letting out a laugh. Noella watched as her friend got off the table, quite proud of him for not failing the task. She then watched as the bottle landed on her, a soft sigh escaping her lips. “Uh, dare, sure.” 

Wallis tried to hide the red that creeped onto his cheeks when he made eye contact with Alex. “Uh,” he thought, really not sure what he thought other people would find funny. “Swap clothes with somebody else,” he dared her. “Your choice,” he added with a teasing grin. 

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missmaggied:

“I dare you to,” she narrowed her eyes, a smirk playing at her lips. “do a classical striptease on that table over there.” she pointed to the table that had just been moved aside. 

Wallis didn’t feel the point in arguing, or maybe it was the fact that whatever that shot was had already gone to his head. He walked over to the table, the others turning their heads to watch him. Penny looked a little concerned, although it was more for the table than Wallis’s safety. Wallis climbed up onto the table, while Buzz reached over to the stereo and changed the music. Boombastic started to play through the speakers, to which Wallis only rolled his eyes. He danced along for a minute, removing his flannel shirt and then his t-shirt. He was a little awkward, but than you’d expect. He jumped off the table before the end of the song, reaching down to spin the bottle before taking his seat back in the circle. The bottle landed on Noella. “Truth or dare,” he asked his friend. 

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missmaggied:

It took Rick about five more seconds than Frank to get to his feet, but once he did he grabbed the other side of the table, nearly collapsing as he did, but luckily everyone was fast enough to grab their glasses when they sensed the upcoming danger. Once the table was aside and everyone was getting ready on the floor with their drinks, Rick went to get himself a can of beer, before returning and sitting himself down between Penny and Noella, just in time to see Maggie pick up the bottle and raise it. “I’ll go.” she flashed them a smirk, before spinning the bottle, which landed on Wallis. Maggie raised her brows slightly. “Okay, guy. Truth or dare?” 

Wallis still wasn’t completely sure why he’d been invited on this trip. He wasn’t even sure if he wanted to be here or not. He knew for sure he wasn’t in the mood to play drinking games after being stuck in a car for far too long. “Fucking dare, I guess,” he replied, taking a swig of his beer. 

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afrankk:

Rick kissed her back, at one point grinning into the kiss, before they had to pull away. Maggie was more than ready to make out with her friend, as it seemed to be something they’d normally do. She pulled Heidi closer to her, wrapping her legs around the girl’s waist as she pulled her friend deeper into a passionate kiss, that was kinda a form of showdown for all the horny boys. After pulling away Maggie playfully brushed her tongue against the other girl’s lips, before taking her seat, sipping on her drink and spinning the bottle. It landed on Thad and for a moment she felt like her heart would stop. But then it broke to shreds when the boy raised his hand slightly. “I object.” he decided, putting out his cigarette into an empty can and reaching out for the bottle of vodka, taking a sip. Maggie’s mouth was half open as she watched him. How easy this seemed for him made her want to cry. She looked down, though did her best to hide how upset she was. Thaddeus reached out for the bottle, looking up. “It’s okay if I now, yeah?––” he trailed off, seeing some people just nod their heads slightly in approval. He nodded as well, before spinning the bottle, which landed on Alex. His eyes rested on the boy, as he was in the middle of getting up. He watched him come closer, suddenly feeling all a bit awkward and stiff. But Alex acted like he didn’t mean for it to be scary. He leaned in, brushing some of Thad’s hair out of his face. Thad’s arms attempted to wrap themselves around the other, but instead they kinda clumsily bumped into Alex’s slim figure. Thad’s eyes widened in a brief moment of awkwardness. “Oof. Easy.” Alex just let out a laugh, letting Thad kinda adjust before bringing their lips together. His hands traveled up Thad’s back, while the other boy grabbed him by the collar, pulling him closer. It lasted a while before they decided to pull away. Alex went back to his spot, his eyes still locked with Thad’s. He winked at the boy, before letting out a playful laugh. He then spun the bottle, which landed on the other band member. 

Wallis looked panicked for a moment. He didn’t really want to kiss this boy in front of these people, although he wouldn’t object to it in private. “Oh, I’m not playing,” Wallis explained. “Nah, man, you’re in the circle. You’re plaining,” Frank put down the rules, and he wasn’t prepared to take ‘no’ for answered. Wallis rolled his eyes, not wanting to cause a scene. “Fine,” he got up from his seat, walked over to Alex, bending down and giving the boy quick peck on the lips. He reached down to spin the bottle, watching where it landed carefully. It stopped on Noella. He was actually glad, at least he didn’t have to kiss another boy. “I hope this is okay,” He double-checked with the girl before kneeling down and placing a soft kiss on the girls lips. He thanked her before heading back over to seat, grabbing another beer to try and distract people from his reddening cheeks. 

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irissmarr:

“Oh,” Iris shook her head, not really sure how to put into words that the night had already been a tad disastrous. “No, no, nothing of the sort.” she paused, offering a small smile. “I guess it just wasn’t my kind of ideal.. environment.” 

“I could have guessed as much,” he countered, too quick to realise his own judgement in his words. He stumbled for some sort of apology or excuse for a moment before giving up with a sigh. “I guess you won’t be coming back then?”

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irissmarr:

Iris kinda made a face, but not really, cause she wasn’t really all into showing how unfamiliar with such events she was. “Well, I mean in the end that’s not too bad.” she agreed. 

Wallis had the oddest feeling that he was being judged by this girl, which didn’t exactly make him feel good about himself but he decided not to act on it on anything. “Yeah, I’m sorry if we ruined your night or whatever,” he muttered, scratching the back of his head awkwardly. 

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irissmarr:

Iris was quite surprised by how bad his state actually seemed to be that night. She couldn’t even imagine what it felt like. “That’s good.” she agreed, nodding her head slightly, as if to prove a point. “I, um.. I hope you guys didn’t get into any trouble?” she began. “Because of all the..shenanigans, that is.” 

“Don’t worry about that,” Wallis waved his hand absentmindedly. “We’ve gotten into less trouble for worse things. They’ll probably just ban us from playing for a week or two,” he laughed.