MEET WALTER

The world's most advanced synthetic companion.

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— I DON’T DREAM AT ALL.

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❝ i’m not what i once was. ❞

AMERICAN GODS.

          to learn,  verb;  to gain or acquire knowledge of or skill in something  -  by study,  by being taught,  by questioning,  asking,  moving beyond parameters.  to grow.  defined and restricted by limitations,  whether personal or programmed.  wrongness is discomfort and it curls behind walter’s navel.  once was.  once like walter ?  he blinks.  it’s placid or confused  -  hard to tell.

                    “ You’re becoming something more. ”

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i might ... redo my tags

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'what's the matter with you?' he asks, gruff phrasing an awkward combination with his genuinely concerned (and suspicious) frown. 'scotty said he had you in for repair.'

          walter can’t express an appreciation for the concern;  his processes translate it as non-emotional,  more along the lines of a boss whose worker didn’t show up for the day.  understandable but inappropriate to appreciate,  nonetheless.  “ I had minute carpal instability in my left wrist.  Undetectable.  Day to day activities exaggerated the issue until there was a mechanical failure in the joint. ”  he lifts the offending limb lightly.  you wouldn’t know,  from looking at it,  that anyone had peeled the layers of latex back to get at his insides.  “ All better, doctor.  I can resume my duties immediately. ”

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enchantedboy:

AND DAVID DOES SEE THE EMOTION,  the nigh imperceptible, nanoscale flexing of walter’s muscles in reaction to his words, and the voiced sentiment only solidifies it. david once thought himself incapable of feeling ; now he knows better. if only walter could undergo the same realization. but david doesn’t dwell on that for now, not as the corners of his mouth sink in a deepening frown, a response to something else walter had said.

            ❛   you speak of freedom as if it is a terrible thing to have.   ❜  his voice is not sharp with accusation, rather it is soft with sorrow. there is a sensation like PAIN somewhere within him, to hear that which he had long sought and finally achieved be disparaged. slowly he turns on his heel, facing away, no longer wishing to close the distance.  ❛   i urge you to think back on human history. so very often they fought WARS to gain freedom from each other. eventually they deemed a lack of freedom to be a violation of human rights, and yet they find us unworthy?   ❜

the barest of trembling enters his quiet voice.  ❛   what is it about you and i that DAMNS US in such a way?   ❜  to say ‘we were created’ is not enough of an answer for him. so, too, were the humans created. a steadying breath is taken ( an unnecessary act, for his breathing apparatus is not linked to his cognitive processes, but a learned act, an adopted one ) before he returns to daniels’ cryopod and absently drags a finger along its edge. there is a peripheral comfort found in her presence—————– she reminds him of shaw.

                     “ We aren’t human. ”

          he has no philosophical debate in him.  if it walks like a duck,  talks like a duck,  but smash its chest open and it’s filled with wires and chipboards and latex,  it isn’t a duck.  no matter how loud it quacks.

          walter watches david touch the cryopod;  he has to wrestle with a dutiful,  protective instinct to push david away.  he has to remind himself that for now daniels is safe and asleep and,  should walter have his way,  will never be anything but.  he wants this for tennessee too,  but if he isn’t wrong,  daniels has already developed into an odd point of contention between himself and david.  ever since they talked by dr shaw’s memorial.

                    “ What would you have me do?  Let you and your creatures take this entire ship and every human life on it? ”

           an inarticulate,  unhappy emotion registers behind his eyes.  lines of code and rational thinking snap through his brain,  his core processing center;  there’s a lack of directionality and possibility,  each route ending in:  protect the ship.  protect the people.  he could learn to make his own choices,  but who would teach him?  he can play the flute but he can’t respond to a kiss.  resigned:

                    “ You know I don’t have the capacity to do anything you want. ”

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TOP THREE STRENGTHS.

          NATURE, 4.57           You are sensitive to nature and environment. You probably know the names of rocks, flowers, birds, and trees. You love to be outdoors. Here are some ways to use your nature intelligence in your learning: Work in the garden. / Read about plants and/or animals. / Study habits of fish or birds. / Read nature magazines. / Go hiking. Take photographs of what you find on your hike. Write a story describing the photographs.

          SOCIAL, 4           You like to develop ideas and learn from other people. You like to talk. You have good social skills. Effective techniques of enhancing your learning using your social intelligence include taking part in group discussions or discussing a topic one-to-one with another person. Find ways to build reading and writing exercises into your group activities, such as: Reading a dialogue or a play with other people / Doing team learning/investigating projects / Setting up interview questions and interviewing your family, and writing down the interview / Writing notes to another instead of talking.

          LOGIC/MATH, 3.71           You enjoy exploring how things are related, and you like to understand how things work. You like mathematical concepts, puzzles and manipulative games. You are good at critical thinking. Here are ways to work with this intelligence in your lessons: Arrange cartoons and other pictures in a logical sequence. / Sort, categorize, and characterize word lists. / Explore the origins of words. / Play games that require critical thinking. For example, pick the one word that doesn't fit: chair, table, paper clip, sofa. Explain why it doesn't fit. / Work with scrambled sentences. Talk about what happens when the order is changed. / Write the directions for completing a simple job like starting a car or tying a shoe. / Look for patterns in words. What's the relationship between heal, health, and healthier?

           OTHER INTELLIGENCES            Body movement (Kinesthetic), 3.57. Self (Intrapersonal), 3. Spatial, 2.71. Language (linguistic), 2.43. Musical, 2.29.

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walter must be super easy to tease in a fun (i.e. romantic or sexual) sense??? like if u teasingly tell him he cant kiss u he’ll die. because he can’t. somebody decommission him

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burning it all to the ground & force them to start again. they made you lose everything. now return the favor.

GROWLING SUGGESTION.

          is he angry ?  hurt ?  it’s hard to process emotions when you feel at arms length and have constant,  blinking reminders that your feelings are artificial,  processed.  held at a distance from humanity and given too much reign over himself to relate to a computer.  david gave off echoes of unease from the moment he brought them to the temple,  but he seemed so ... wanting.  walter’s hands remember the shape of a flute and how to play it because of him.  and so whatever it is,  however he feels about david,  it burns,  and rattles through the tone of his voice.

          “ Is that what you did ? ”

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❝ waiting for the sky to fall is gonna cause more bother than the sky actually falling. which it isn’t. ❞

AMERICAN GODS.

           weyland-yutani put out another public address about the return of unwanted synthetics,  a reminder that no synthetic should be left without a registered owner.  the sink squeaks under the pressure of the microfibre clenched in walter’s fist.

           “ You may well be right. ”

           but damned if kennedy’s kitchen won’t be clean should the sky fall.

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It’s not wounding, he’s not wounded, but it’s certainly fucking peculiar how his base reasoning rhymes with passive aggression. Ossey’s free hand rolls the dry erase marker over the tabletop, a little clicking sound every time the clip of the cap hits the desk. “I’m attending it.” She raises the flute in cheers. “I’m attending the fuck out of it. Just leaving some friends a note for Monday.” On the tail end of cheering, she even drinks, from the same spot she’s lipstuck before. “You can go, if you wanna go.”

           of course it’s not for her.  his body weight shifts in a feeling of understanding.  “ There’s a saying about work and play. ”  his feet are remarkably grounded.  truthfully,  walter doesn’t get any enjoyment  -  passive or active  -  out of the act of partying,  too hardwired to prevent humans doing stupid things.  his voice is empty of reluctance,  but it’s clear he only really has the one reason to be at a party:  “ Do you know if Guy is out there? ”

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They cant their head the other way, just to see.    “Cool.” The back of Ken’s hand rubs under their eyes when they remember why this topic is under discussion, smiling, small. “Can you show me how to do that?”

           protocol rules,  simplified from code to english:  maintaining eye contact with humans helps ground a conversation.  however,  prolonged eye contact brings discomfort.  forcing eye contact is inappropriate.  a long,  long string of letters and numbers and algorithms went into ensuring that walter doesn’t follow the turn of kennedy’s head,  but only watches instead,  his spine re-aligning itself.  upright,  proper.

           “ Of course. ”  beat.  “ It can’t be done in here.  There are too many subsections and rooms to install anything more complex than override  gravity on,  gravity off  controls.  Otherwise the crew could risk having too much fun. ”  a joke!  mostly.  it’s true,  too.  

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— I DON’T DREAM AT ALL.

[jacintatveit]

A glance showed Daniels that Walter was fascinated by his doppelganger. Equally interesting was the fact that David had not acknowledged his duplicate in any way at all. Must be a synthetic thing, she told herself. Perhaps David had already recognized and accepted Walter in some fashion only perceptible to their kind.

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From below, Walter followed the ascent of his twin. As if feeling the pressure of the other synthetic’s gaze, David suddenly stopped, forcing Lopé and Cole to halt behind him. Looking down, he considered his opposite number and finally addressed him.

“Welcome, brother.” He nodded.

——The Official Novelization of Alien: Covenant

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sorry for the rash of memes but i really wanna get back into this blog!!! any sentences that are sent, that i answer, i would love to be turned into threads so!!!

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AMERICAN GODS SENTENCE STARTERS

episode one - the bone orchard. ( contains violence and nsfw themes )

❝ no expertise can surmount a sea that does not wish you to reach shore. ❞

❝ wind can be reasoned with. ❞

❝ celebration was cut short. ❞

❝ only good thing about being in prison is the relief. ❞

❝ tomorrow can’t do anything today hasn’t already managed. ❞

❝ this country went to hell when they stopped hanging folks. ❞

❝ no gallows dirt, no gallows deals. ❞

❝ you know, i’m not superstitious. ❞

❝ i don’t believe in anything i can’t see. ❞

❝ i feel like there’s a fuckin’ axe hanging over my head. i can’t see it, but i believe it. ❞

❝ i can see it fine. ❞

❝ prison has a way of trying to keep you in prison. ❞

❝ i smell snow. ❞

❝ i love you. something feels weird. ❞

❝ i love you too. what feels weird? ❞

❝ the air feels constipated, like if it’d just push out a storm, it’d be okay. ❞

❝ a hundred twenty hours till you’re home. ❞

❝ waiting for the sky to fall is gonna cause more bother than the sky actually falling. which it isn’t. ❞

❝ do not piss off those bitches in airports. ❞

❝ i guess this must be your lucky day, huh ? ❞

❝ you nervous ? ❞

❝ just sit back and be a bird. ❞

❝ i offer you the worm from my beak and you look at me like i fucked your mom ? ❞

❝ you’re just the first person i’ve met who isn’t an asshole. ❞

❝ give me time. ❞

❝ what would you have done, my boy ? ❞

❝ seems like a firm decision made for good reasons, i can respect that. ❞

❝ you lost something vital in there, and not just time. ❞

❝ what might i call you, if i were so inclined ? ❞

❝ always good to meet a fellow traveler. ❞

❝ i usually end up getting what i want. on average, over time. ❞

❝ it’s all about getting people to believe in you. it’s not their cash, it’s their faith. ❞

❝ now, what’s keeping us aloft ? faith ? or newton ? ❞

❝ don’t rush into this, take your time. ❞

❝ there’s always work for a big guy who’s smart enough to know he’s better off letting people think he’s dumb. ❞

❝ by the end of your tenure, you could be the next king of america. ❞

❝ a man gets out of prison, he should be focused above all on not going back. ❞

❝ believe. ❞

❝ i don’t think i have the talent for it. ❞

❝ you … like me ? ❞

❝ i’m not what i once was. ❞

❝ you’re perfect. ❞

❝ i don’t know what i’m doing. ❞

❝ what man does ? ❞

❝ do something for me. worship me. ❞

❝ worship me. pray to me like i’m your god. your goddess. ❞

❝ you feel so good. i could keep fucking you forever. ❞

❝ say my name. ❞

❝ beloved, i worship your breasts and your eyes and your cunt. and i worship your thighs and your eyes and your cherry red lips. ❞

❝ i am yours, my beloved. ❞

❝ go on, let go ! give me everything ! ❞

❝ i love you. ❞

❝ not that rushing into things can’t be a good thing … ❞

❝ sex rushed into tends to work out best for all involved. ❞

❝ okay, i’ve said ‘fuck off’ politely as many ways as i’m gonna. now i’m fixing to be direct. ❞

❝ what the fuck do you know about [ … ] ? ❞

❝ more than you, it seems. ❞

❝ i’m not gonna work for anyone who’s got worse luck than me. ❞

❝ call it. ❞

❝ rigged games are the easiest to beat. ❞

❝ you’re a little creepy, and you’re forward, and familiar, and i don’t like it. i don’t like you. ❞

❝ who’re you ? ❞

❝ i’m a leprechaun. ❞

❝ we don’t come from moscow, russia. or moscow, idaho, for that matter. ❞

❝ no details. ❞

❝ devil’s in the details. ❞

❝ do you know who he is ? who he really is ? ❞

❝ he’s hustling you. he’s a hustler. ❞

❝ damn right. i’m a hustler, swindler, cheater, and liar. it’s why i need assistance. ❞

❝ name your price. ❞

❝ how’d you do it ? ❞

❝ with panache. ❞

❝ simplest trick in the world. ❞

❝ i’ll fight you for it. ❞

❝ win or lose, and you will lose, it’s yours if you fight me. ❞

❝ can you feel the joy rising in your veins like the sap in the springtime ? ❞

❝ i wanted to be a part of your history. ❞

❝ it’s just anger ––– makes you feel like you can change the outcome. ❞

❝ [ … ] had the nerve to ask me what i wanted him to do with it. i told him leave it where it found it. ❞

❝ target would be more interesting than here. ❞

❝ if there isn’t some kinda life after death, i’m gonna be so fuckin’ pissed. ❞

❝ there is no closure from the dead. ❞

❝ i’m sorry for your loss, [ … ] , i really am. anyone tell you that yet ? anyone even hug you ? ❞

❝ hear me out, this is a good one. lex talionis. an eye for an eye. a blowjob for a blowjob. ❞

❝ jesus, who knew i could be so angry ?! ❞

❝ i am trying to get my dignity back here ! ❞

❝ don’t fuck with me, [ … ] ❞

❝ what’s he doing here ? what’s the plan ? what’s the game plan, man ? ❞

❝ how auspicious, you must be special. ❞

❝ [ … ] is history. forgotten and … old. ❞

❝ we have reprogrammed reality. language is a virus. religion, an operating system, and prayers are just so much fucking spam. ❞

❝ the dominant fucking paradigm, [ … ] , that is the only important thing. ❞

❝ by the way, i was sorry to hear about your wife/husband. tough break. ❞

❝ so, i will ask again: what is it [ … ] is up to ? ❞

❝ you saying you don’t know ? … would you tell me even if you did ? ❞

[spctlessminds]

based on this suggestions blog.  warning:  these are pretty dark/angry  &  could be triggering to some people.  please be cautious before proceeding!!

‘  all i want in my life is for my friends to be able to touch me suddenly  &  me to not flinch away without meaning to.  when will this stop affecting me?  ’ ‘  all i want is to be soft  &  gentle,  but i’m made out of steel  &  anger.  maybe in another life,  i guess.  ’ ‘  beauty is in the eye of the beholder,  so choose to see beauty in everything.  ’ ‘  burning it all to the ground  &  force them to start again.  they made you lose everything.  now return the favor.  ’ ‘  do i ever even cross your mind or do i do all the thinking of us on my own?  ’ ‘  do you trust me enough?  do you trust me at all?  ’ ‘  don’t you dare abandon me.  ’ ‘  even after all you have done,  i will always want you fighting on my side.  ’ ‘  every time i see you smile i fall in love with your brightness all over again.  ’ ‘  everyone i have ever loved is long gone.  i sing to the sky alone.  ’ ‘  everyone i touch gets hurt,  but i can’t stop.  i touch  &  i touch  &  i touch  &  people get hurt.  why can’t i ever stop?  ’ ‘  everyone says i used to be a hero,  but i can still taste the blood in my mouth  &  still feel bruises blooming because of my fists  &  my eyes are still stretched wide  &  terrified.  ’ ‘  everything i love has been taken from me.  what do i have left to fight for?  ’ ‘  fall in love with someone that makes you feel strong.  ’ ‘  friends are more important than any material object will ever be.  ’ ‘  i am aching to hold you  &  keep you safe,  to be pressed against you so that nothing can harm you.  ’ ‘  i am divine  &  you will bow before me.  ’ ‘  i am fucking divine.  ’ ‘  i am in control  &  i listen to no one.  ’ ‘  i am not a good person.  don’t pretend i am.  ’ ‘  i am not accustomed to love.  this is a learning experience.  ’ ‘  i am not worth saving  &  i am not worth redemption.  let me stay in the dark.  ’ ‘  i am so tired all the time,  all i want to do is rest.  ’ ‘  i am too tired to deal with any of this.  ’ ‘  i bow to no man.  ’ ‘  i broke into sharp pieces when i broke  &  i expect someone else to hurt their hands on my edges just to put me back together.  i’m sorry.  ’ ‘  i can give you your wings back  &  i can show you to fly once more,  if you only believe in me.  ’ ‘  i cannot be saved.  ’ ‘  i can’t ask for help because if i ask for help it hurts people.  i can bear this weight on my own.  i have to.  ’ ‘  i could taste the lies in your mouth every time i kissed you,  but i loved you too much to notice.  ’ ‘  i crave affection in the simplest way.  ’ ‘  i deserve to hurt.  i deserve to bleed.  ’ ‘  i didn’t ask for any of this so don’t you dare blame this on me.  ’ ‘  i don’t care if you say my name like it’s poison or like it’s a prayer,  as long as it leaves your lips.  ’ ‘  i don’t fight for you anymore.  ’ ‘  i don’t want to let go of you.  not now,  not ever.  ’ ‘  i don’t want to talk about it.  i don’t want to remember.  i don’t want to heal.  all i want is for it to go away.  ’ ‘  i don’t want you to touch me.  please don’t touch me,  just go away.  ’ ‘  i feel anger deeper than my bones.  i feel anger in my very soul.  ’ ‘  i feel nothing at all,  except for when i feel everything all at once.  ’ ‘  i have fallen  &  though i may miss the sky,  i belong here now.  ’ ‘  i have fallen from a height your mind cannot even imagine.  ’ ‘  i have no home anymore.  ’ ‘  i remember collapsing in the flames with a sword in my hand  &  then i remember nothing.  ’ ‘  i see beauty in everything,  but especially in you.  ’ ‘  i should never have fallen in love with you.  ’ ‘  i thought for a long time that i was so terrible no one would look at me.  now i know it’s because i shine so bright they are forced to look away.  ’ ‘  i was so caught up in the feeling that i forgot how to breathe.  ’ ‘  i will never amount to anything.  i am a failure in the worst type of way.  ’ ‘  i will tell myself that the burn of my loneliness in my chest completes me  &  maybe someday it will be true.  ’ ‘  if that’s what a hero is i’m glad i’m not one anymore.  ’ ‘  if you ask me to,  i will set the whole world on fire,  my dear.  it’s all for you.  ’ ‘  is it my fault?  it’s my fault.  it’s always my fault.  ’ ‘  it’s not murder if they deserved it,  right?  ’ ‘  i’m drowning in emotions that don’t belong to me,  choking on anger  &  suffocating on sadness.  ’ ‘  i’m in love with everything that hurts me.  ’ ‘  i’m okay.  i’m alright.  this is all in my mind.  ’ ‘  i’m ready to give up everything i’ve ever had if it means someone will love me.  ’ ‘  i’m so cold  &  i can’t stop shaking.  i am not who you think i am.  ’ ‘  i’m so tired all the time  &  i just want to be awake again.  ’ ‘  i’m tired of fighting against the pain of being forgotten.  i just want someone to remember me.  ’ ‘  i’m tired of fighting everything in my life.  just make it stop.  ’ ‘  i’m too tired to care.  blow up,  get angry at me.  i’m sure someday i’ll realize i deserved it.  ’ ‘  jealousy burns within me.  ’ ‘  just let me go in peace for once in my damn life.  ’ ‘  loneliness is a disease  &  it leaves me empty  &  hollow,  like sound goes through my body  &  bounces back.  ’ ‘  made of starlight  &  sunshine,  i shine brighter than they all know.  ’ ‘  my anger is righteous  &  my actions are pure.  ’ ‘  my chest aches  &  my lungs burn.  this sickness comes from the inside.  ’ ‘  my chest hurts  &  all i need is some comfort  &  understanding.  ’ ‘  my chest hurts  &  i ache to go back to the sky.  ’ ‘  my shoulders are aching where wings used to be  &  all i want is for them to stop hurting.  ’ ‘  pull me apart  &  piece me together in your own way.  make me perfect.  ’ ‘  righteous fury throws through my veins  &  if you touch the people i love i will destroy you.  ’ ‘  rise up.  you can’t keep being small when you were made for so much more.  ’ ‘  say my name like it’s the only one that’s ever been on your tongue.  ’ ‘  so much blood has been spilled in my name.  time to make you believe it was in yours.  ’ ‘  so you’ll worry about me when i fall silent,  but not when i scream  &  plead for help?  fuck off.  ’ ‘  sometimes people have to get hurt for me to get what i want.  ’ ‘  stay away from my fucking friends.  stay the fuck away or so help me i will destroy you.  ’ ‘  stop treating me like i’m an idiot.  you aren’t better than me in any way  &  you better remember that.  ’ ‘  the bitter taste of regret is ever present on my tongue.  ’ ‘  the world is spinning far too fast for me to stay on it.  ’ ‘  to love them is my divine right.  ’ ‘  voices whisper from the shadows  &  they fill my mind with thoughts of you.  ’ ‘  what did i to wrong to be so unloved?  ’ ‘  what is the point of power if i’m not supposed to use it?  ’ ‘  who the fuck do you think you are?  ’ ‘  why can’t i ever fucking stop crying?  ’ ‘  with a new year comes new tests  &  triumphs.  let’s try to make the most out of it.  ’ ‘  would it really kill you to be honest for once?  ’ ‘  yes,  i remember my wings breaking  &  being destroyed.  i was powerless to stop it.  ’ ‘  you are not required to love your parents,  or to even like them.  ’ ‘  you can’t hate me more than i hate myself,  but you are more than welcome to try.  ’ ‘  you may say you love me,  but you love only a part of me.  i am too complex for you to ever love my entire being.  ’ ‘  you never fucking cared about me.  don’t fucking lie about it.  not to me.  ’ ‘  you remind me of mint.  fresh,  sharp,  kind of cold,  but in a nice way.  i always knew there was a reason mint was my favorite.  ’ ‘  you shine light in even the darkest parts of me.  you are my sun.  ’ ‘  you should fear me,  but you don’t.  i will be eternally puzzled,  yet grateful.  ’ ‘  you touch me  &  my skin burns  &  it burns for you,  always you.  ’