1698...

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[recaption]

[destroymylife]

[depression03ed]

I'm not gonna TELL my friends about my weight loss. When we see each other after quarantine they will SEE it.

[broken-depressed-hearts]

God I'm so lonely that I feel like I'm losing my mind

[deadbyinsidee]

[failedtosendtryagain]

"Suicide would be easier. I wouldn't have to feel anything. If I were to act selfishly for one thing it'd be the ability to not feel anymore. I want to choose how I react to things. Not just feeling my body whip through emotions like this. I'm angry, then normal, then sad, then back to angry, aroused, to fucking straight up suicidal. My jaw is clenched so hard I think I'll break my teeth if I relax. All I want is to die. I don't want to try and live. But if I don't then all this shit... all this shit is for fucking nothing. If I'm just going to kill myself I should have been doing whatever I want whenever I wanted to. I love my partner and I love my friends but one of these days I'm going to snap and the only music playing will be the sound of sirens in the forest when they find my mangled body in the wreckage of what could have been beautiful. But of course I'm too much of a dreamer and not much of a believer and I'll try to hard till my last breath to bring ease to those who need me. Even as I die I'll let them plant their seeds in my decay and maybe someday.. someday.. I'll want to live another day."

-One of the messages I actually sent.

[homietwt]

[walts-like-its-1698]

🥺

[destroymylife]

have a nice day :)

[mae0x]

music so loud you can’t feel a damn thing

[damostnotdalessa]

passionately kissing in the dark in total silence is a fucking mood

[just-shower-thoughts]

One of the biggest sign of respect you can give to a person is to not turn on the lights while they are sleeping even though you can’t see shit

[spoil-mynight-deactivated201909]

I believe in using songs to say things

[nudne]

not to be a lesbian but you know when you’re kissing a girl and it’s good and soft and she runs a hand through your hair and you feel her smile into the kiss? fuck i’m gay

[cryy1babyy]

I'm scared of relationships.

I'm scared of being used

I'm scared of being hurt

I'm scared if being left

[nuodai]

im such a fuckign jealous asshole i pretend like i dont care but i care so much im gonna explode

[lynaixgia-deactivated20181101]

Who am I kidding. I wanna be in love. I wanna be loved. I wanna be trusted and cared about.

[nootvanlis]

Anonymous: CAN YOU CLOSEUP GIF THE LIP BITE & THE THIRSTY LOOK IN 3x20 @4:35 PLEASE. THANK IF YOU DO

[walts-like-its-1698]

Oooooof hi carm