The Life Pedals

By WAN CHAND

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Selamat Tinggal.....Tahniahh..

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I only have two option:

1. To be shadow life long

2. To be the mad man...

The world is asking me to be Option 2

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Sometimess i feel like calling her, tell her that i really missed her and her smell..tell her the i really need she to hug me, to kiss me all over my face..and pamper me ... But, i dont want to be the guy that only think about her , when i need comfort...she is always " the beautiful angel" ..she dont deserve monster like me...Praying she will be happy alwayss

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On this day..After the Proposal

4 years Ago

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4 years Ago..

Everything Come To an End..

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Thank you Allah S.W.T for sending me to hers..im the most luckiest guy ever..to experience herr

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“If someone keeps reminding you of Allah, then know that their love for you is true.”

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Its too painful ...Ya Allah S.W.T.

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Ya Allah S.W.T , Kembalikanlah Dia Dengan Halal Kepada Aku Ya Allah S.W.T

Its Ended....

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Even i had too lose you... I'm always grateful Allah S.W.T send you in my lifee..You are the greatest gift i ever had

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Her Last Resort - 21st July 2022

1. Chase Your Dream, focus on being a professional engineer. Accomplish all your plan for HZ, Always prioritize your health.

2. Never miss your Solat, especially Fajr prayers. Recite Al Quran, attend Al Quran class again, Keep her in my Doa, Doa for our relationship sincerely and truly.. insha'Allah Allah S.W.T will grant it. Stop committing sins.

3. Always remember , no matter where i am, who i am, with who i am, she is always there for me, she will always love me till her last breath..and One Day, she will find me and marry me. insha'Allah.

Amin.....

The End

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I'm broken yet i knew nothing i can do about it.

The choice i made destroyed my life.

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Im laying down.

I keep begging people to extend due dates.

I keep giving lies over lies in regards to due dates.

I'm full of empty promises

I have to beg people to trust me

I feel like I'm lying to myself to think positive when it is already too late.

I keep draining my tears

I keep explaining to people rather than proving

If i fail my parents would suffer..

If i don't do something today, i will too late in the future

I can't keep myself up

I can't save enough money to move

I can't even try to be healty

I can't even be a good muslim

I fail my team

I can't take rest

I can't close my eyes peacefully

I hate seeing my tiring face on mirror

I can't even give up

I'm worried over and over

The worst part..others keep going far, buying things, going vacation,spend time with family

While I'm just laying here and struggling to make decisions.

Ya Allah, it just beyond my control.. I can't take it anymore.

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Just wanna to be focus completely to achieve my dream.. insha'Allah

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insha'Allah..its you #babynas