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DO NOT IGNORE YOUR MENTAL HEALTH

I apologize for the long absence.

For many, many years I pushed things down and thought I had them handled and a series of progressively negative events over a couple of years broke me. My normal break down consists of me imploding. No harm, no foul. I didn’t even notice when this one started and instead of just hurting myself, I hurt people around me. I will not forgive myself for that.

I have always been a proponent of mental health, but I didn’t recognize my spiral and I compromised the fabric of my moral being and did some things I don’t know that I will ever come to terms with. The events forced me to open my eyes to how far I had allowed myself to unravel and while I did I’m mediately seek help, it was likely too late for me to salvage some relationships. I have worked extensively with a therapist and a psychiatrist and have a pretty solid diagnosis and hefty medication to start putting myself back together, but I can’t help wonder how things would have been if I had just prioritized myself sooner.

I have a lot of work left to do, but I am hopeful that I will be working forward from now on and not letting the pains of the past twist and destroy the person I know I really am. I am not sure if I have it in me to ever write again, but maybe if I keep working hard enough on myself, I can find some of my creativity.

Don’t rationalize and don’t wait, just get help if you need it. I never thought I would ever hurt anyone, don’t be me.

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Agatha: One learns more from defeat than victory. Therefore, fear the general that has never won a battle.

Wanda: Fancy talk for someone who’s about to draw 24 cards. Uno, by the way.

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Darcy: Do you mind if I slyly mention you’re single?

Agatha: Don’t do that.

Darcy: You won’t even notice!

Wanda: *walking up* Hey.

Darcy: AGATHA’S SINGLE!!

Agatha:

Wanda:

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Monica: Can you please please be serious for just five minutes?

Agatha: My record is three and a half minutes and I was confessing to Wanda.

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Agatha: Am I dramatic? Yes. Is it justified? Also yes.

Wanda: You’re fifty percent right.

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//Ever wonder how random Anons feel when an entire thread is created because of their question? I don’t know why, but that’s what I’m wondering right now.

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//Doesn’t matter because if they asked for something like angst then THEY DESERVE A FRONT ROW SEAT TO WHATEVER HELL THEY’VE CREATED

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//like do they think, “wow, one question and now the notifications won’t stop” or “how long could this possibly go? It was a simple question” ...or maybe more intense, like someone I won’t mention (see above reblog...shhhh, don’t tell) and the blood of their enemies will be strewn across the field of death for all to see and take warning from for centuries to come!...it is definitely an interesting thought

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“How are your studies coming, dear?” She watched the younger witch pour over an old tome of hers as she made a cup of tea. “Need any assistance?”

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When she released her slight hold, she let her hands soothingly trail from Wanda’s shoulders down to her hands to hold them for a quiet moment, listening to her words with a slight smile.

She let her hands rest on Wanda’s thighs as she was pulled into a thankful kiss, the older witch with a smile tugging at the corner of her lips when they finally parted. “Thank you, darling.” Agatha brushed the back of her fingers along the younger witch’s cheek, ignoring the slight ache in her hands from absorbing Wanda’s pain.

“As are you… Now…” She took a step back, gesturing at the shower with a warm smile.

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The brush of Agatha’s fingers across the skin of her cheek, almost tickled. Despite the power they controlled, the other woman’s hands were incredibly soft. Wanda knew Agatha would still be feeling the pain she so willingly absorbed from her and true to form, would not say anything about the lingering pain.

She smiled as the older woman made room for her to get off the counter and prepare to get into the shower. She slowly eased herself down, her knees almost buckling as her weight shifted onto her feet.

She always thought she was in shape until she and older witch tried something new and her body reminded her that there were some things she could not train for.

Wanda chuckled and shook her head, she wouldn’t trade it for the world, but how was she going to keep up with Agatha as she got older. She dropped the cover as she moved towards the shower, stopping before she stepped into the hot water. Looking over her shoulder she asked, “Are you coming with me?”