Hi guys! Here it is, part 4 of the Little secret series! I'm SO sorry it took so long to write, but it's here now so I hope you all enjoy. I'm gonna be starting another 5sos mini series soon, so send me which boy you would like it to be about. Thanks so much for all the support. As always, personal imagines are welcome. Love you all! -San :) 2 days, 14 hours and 37 excruciating minutes since Calum told me the words that kept burning in my brain. He couldn't forgive me, and while I understood that, it didn't make this any easier. I had absolutely no right to his forgiveness, but deep down, I still hoped he would give it to me. The moment I seen him look at luna for the first time, I knew I made a terrible terrible mistake. Now it's far too late for me to fix it, even though I would do anything in my power to make it all right. I've been trying to keep myself busy with school, and working extra hours, but if I thought luna reminded me of Calum before, it was nothing compared to what I seen when I looked at her now. Seeing the similarities between the two of them was all I could do anymore, and it was driving me borderline crazy. I even called the boys to take Luna for awhile so I can try and sleep, something I haven't done in almost 72 hours. Not that it helped at all. I just tossed and turned, my mind not turning off. I finally decided to take a walk to my favorite coffee shop for a pick me up and to get a some fresh air. The weather was perfect as it was the time the seasons were starting to change from summer to fall. The once muggy air was now brisk and chilly. I force a polite smile at the older couple at the table near the entrance when I walk in. After waiting a few minutes in line I ordered and shifted my way down the counter and waited for my vanilla latte. "Large? You know that's gonna hurt your stomach if you drink it all." I look up from my phone and see Calum standing next to me, putting his wallet away. I was surprised he remembered that coffee made me sick if I drank too much of it. "I haven't been sleeping much, I need it." I mumble. "Yeah, me either." He replies, fidgeting in with his car keys. We both stand there awkwardly and wait for our drinks, neither of us knowing what we should do. It amazed me how two people could share so much history, and have such an unbreakable bond, yet not be able to speak at all. I sigh in relief when I hear the barista call my name, moving to make a quick exist. "Wait..." I stop when I hear Calum yell as he races to catch up with me. "Yeah?" I give him a questionable look. "I've been thinking..." "About?" I raise my eyebrow, wondering what the meaning of all this was. "Luna, the band, how I was going to work this all into my schedule...you." He bites his lip. "Me?" My chest tightens. "Yeah, believe it or not, I haven't been able to stop thinking about you...listen, I'm pissed at you for keeping something so huge from me, but I'm more hurt." The frown on his face feels like someone taking knives to my heart. "I know..." An ashamed look coming across my sullen face. "I don't think you do. I should have been there for you, I should have been the first one you told the news to. I should have been holding your hair and rubbing your back when you had morning sickness. I should have been out at 3 am getting your ridiculous cravings. I should have been holding you while you cried when the hormones got the better of you. I should have been the one putting the crib together even though you would have insisted I call someone. I should have been there when your water broke. I should have been freaking out about getting to the hospital in time. I should have been holding your hand and whispering in your ear it would all be okay. God damn it, I should have been there." Tears were now streaming down his face and that was enough for me to lose it myself. "I didn't want you to have any regrets, Cal." I sniffle. "The only regret I have is not being able to experience the best thing of our lives with you." He steps closer a interlocks out hands. "I love you, and no matter how pissed off or hurt I am, nothing will ever change that. I may not have like what you did but I know you had good intentions and did it all for me, and that makes me love you even more. I already missed out on too much in your guys lives, don't make me miss anymore." His eyes plead with me. "Calum, I would- oh just kiss me you fool." And he did just that.
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