#WANEHDA..

INSPIRATION BLOG FOR @BANDRONA.

[wanehda]

i sometimes wish i'd stayed inside my mother, never to come out. sharp objects, dir. jean-marc vallée; unknown / unknown, pinterest / unknown, pinterest / the light between oceans, dir. derek cianfrance / the dogs i have kissed, trista mateer / black swan, dir. darren aronofsky / poplar street, chen chen / unknown, pinterest / how to wear your mothers lipstick, warsan shire / mother and daughter, hayan charara / please look after mom, kyung-sook shin / on earth we're briefly gorgeous, ocean vuong.

[humming-a-memory]

“I am a woman built upon the wreckage of myself ”

"And I think I like myself a little broken, with rough edges, a little harder to grasp."

but

I want to be loved

and the world wants to love soft things

not cruel and violent things

and for once i think.. it hurts to be what i want to be

i've heard them say that

but i want to be loved so much; i do not know how it feels like, so

“From my rotting body, flowers shall grow”

but the flowers, will have been invented; and they shall be only a mere mirage

forgive me;

“Can you hate someone for what they have done, but still love them for whom they had been?”

shall I like myself softer and prettier?

is it better that way?

Chris Cleave // Nayyirah Waheed // Clementine von Radics // anonymous // Kelly Cherry // Andre Gide // Edvard Munch // Richard Siken // Jodi Picoult

[wanehda]

you're a mother, ma. you're also a monster. but so am i— which is why i can't turn away from you. [on earth we're briefly gorgeous, ocean vuong.]

[bitesgod]

They are the same and they are not the same. They are the same and they hate each other for it.

Richard Siken, "You Are Jeff"

[indak]

[moonunravel]

Franz Kafka, Diaries (1914-1923)

[lifeinpoetry]

— Maya C. Popa, from "Duress," Wound Is the Origin of Wonder

[wanehda]

some people love death so much they want to give it to everyone. some are more selective. some people don't know they're alive. or a study in clarke griffin. — happy death day, dir. christopher landon / deuteronomy 32:39, king james version / gut symmetries, jeanette winterson / first love/late spring, mitski / where to begin?, sue zhao / the illegals series, ph. monica piloni / stay down, boygenius / the 100 [02x16: "blood must have blood: part 2"], dir. dean white / hurt, johnny cash / the 100 [02x01: "the 48"], dir. dean white; the 100 [02x02: "inclement weather"], dir. john f. showalter; in the dream house, carmen maria machado / this is how we self destruct, lillium / anti-hero, taylor swift / a field of onions: brown study, vanessa angélica villarreal.

[adrasteiax]

Death will come and it will have your eyes From morning to morning, sleepless, an old remorse.

Charles Wright, from Homage To Cesare Pavese in “The Other Side Of The River” (via adrasteiax)

[lilllium]

—Lilllium, from my piece This is How We Self Destruct

[calvinandhobbes]

severance + mark strand, “keeping things whole” / yrsa daley-ward, “9.6” / cameron awkward-rich, “the child formerly known as ________” / marty mcconnell, “when they say you can’t go home again, what they mean is you were never there” / jeanette winterson, gut symmetries

[curtisfarraday]

MAIKA MONROE in WATCHER 2022, dir. Chloe Okuno

[oppred]

Something about mothers - Part 1

Sam Gordon/P!nk/Louise Gluck/Christina Rossetti/wikipedia/Safia Elhillo/Oscar Wilde/Bustle Magazine/unsourced/hannah green

[akaiiros]

Never Wanted To Dance, Mindless Self Indulgence / Wrecking Ball, Mother Mother / War of the Foxes, Richard Siken / Abject Permanence, Larissa Pham / Appointments, Julian Baker / The Worm King’s Lullabye, Richard Siken

[lost-teeth]

[lifeinpoetry]

Some people love death so much they want to give it to everyone.

Some are more selective.

Some people don’t know they’re alive.

— Dana Levin, from “You Will Never Get Death / Out of Your System,” Now Do You Know Where You Are

[hours]

“[V]iolence does not consist so much in injuring and annihilating persons as in interrupting their continuity, making them play roles in which they no longer recognize themselves, making them betray not only commitments but their own substance, making them carry out actions that will destroy every possibility for action.”

— Emmanuel Lévinas, Totality and Infinity: An Essay on Exteriority (translated by Alphonso Lingis)