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Side Blog For My Hyper-fixation Of Anime And Video Game Characters.

[wannaholdhandswithfictionalmen]

👉👈 been forever....but guess who is downloading Genshin Impact to play again and hopefully get my muse back so I can pump out some content for you guys

I am sorry for being the world's most inconsistent writer...

[wannaholdhandswithfictionalmen]

Well, I played nearly all night last night and now I'm playing again in the afternoon and Diluc is basically my main (I use him the most) my party is Kaeya, Barbara and Venti as well and I have fallen in love all over again lol

Might try to pump out some writing soon. Still open to any drabble requests if you guys wanna throw any my way.

[wannaholdhandswithfictionalmen]

Hmmmm.... okay, I am tentatively asking if anyone would be interested in throwing some requests for short drabbles/imagines my way for Diluc, Lisa or Kaeya?

They are the three I'd feel most comfortable jumping back into writing right away.

[wannaholdhandswithfictionalmen]

👉👈 been forever....but guess who is downloading Genshin Impact to play again and hopefully get my muse back so I can pump out some content for you guys

I am sorry for being the world's most inconsistent writer...

[wannaholdhandswithfictionalmen]

omg hi!! ur writing is just *chefs kiss* i just got into genshin and i am dyingg over kaeya 😭 will do anything for this man even get his dumbass sword smh. anyway, i hope to see more great writing from you~~

oh also, can i ask for your pronouns? 💘

—kat 🎪

Hehe thank you Kat, I am very happy you like/enjoy my writing. I honestly haven't played genshin in awhile myself but I still love all the characters so I still want to write for them. Kaeya is my chaotic husband who equally makes me want to roll my eyes so hard I could get a migraine yet I would love to cuddle and kiss him among other things. The duality of loving fictional characters is one I know so well.

I am still working on my Venti Vampire fic and I do have a nsfw request for Kaeya....that I am feeling quite inspired by so....;)

I don't mind you asking, my pronouns are she/her.

[wannaholdhandswithfictionalmen]

Hello, Hi! Everyone's fav clown writer is still alive just inconsistent as all get out. Hahaha-

I know it's been like three months but I wanna say this blog isn't dead, just the end of 2020 was a big oof. I still have a bunch of requests alongside the Venti vamp fic, I am working on.

Also maybe I am yet another simp for Lady Dimitrescu and wanna write something for a tall vampire goddess

[vyctornikiforov]

Reasons why i love this baldy.

[knightwayne]

insp.

[wannaholdhandswithfictionalmen]

I was extremely confused when my friends came to me with "I heard you like Kaeya" and sent me your blog but why, yes; I'm convinced to openly simp and I won't even hide it behind anon because your writing's great and please don't doubt it as my horny ass has been blessed by you; this has been my ted talk. Thanks, have a great day 👀

I feel like words are wholly inadequate to describe the pure joy I got from seeing/reading this. Thank you so much, really.

[wannaholdhandswithfictionalmen]

Been a little quiet those past days but I am still working on my vamp fic, 4k deep now, been shuffling around a few scenes, changing up ideas I have for plot a few times. (Venti still hasn't even made a appearance yet I am a whole 🤡)

Y'all not gonna lie this might be a 10k+ fic. (And that's like the minimum word count in my mind.) I ain't even ready for it and I'm the one writing the damned thing.

And while I really am hoping you guys like it, I also realize this is wholly self-indulgent mess no one asked for and I got requests on hold for this so y'all might hate me for wasting time writing this. It's for me as much as you guys.

Definitely a if-no-one-else-will-write-the-fic-ideas-in-my-head, then damn I gotta do it aondbwoxkanrsk

Anyway, just a quick update from everyone's favorite fool genshin impact writer 😂 (literally jumping right back into writing.)

[wannaholdhandswithfictionalmen]

Your fics are amazing and everything I've red so far just straight up killed me so thanks for writing 👀

Your welcome 👉👈 💕💕

I'm happy as hell you think my fics are amazing? And that you enjoyed them so much!

[wannaholdhandswithfictionalmen]

omg enemies to lovers AND (probably) venti? SIGN ME UP

Enemies to lovers is just *chief kisses*

And I just really had the urge to write for Venti, despite my thoughts towards other characters, hopping on tumblr and asking you guys as well really helped seal the deal for our god boi Venti.

I am glad to receive some eager feedback regarding this Venti fic 😊

[wannaholdhandswithfictionalmen]

Spotify really said fuck you and won't let me listen to my playlist I made. I just wanna vibe to the music and write this vampire fic.....;-;

[wannaholdhandswithfictionalmen]

If big spoon is the sfw version of top, and little spoon is the sfw version of bottom, what's the sfw version of switch?

Snorts.

This is not a serious answer but my mind immediately went knife. Then thought wait sfw so butter knife lmao. Ignore me.

Honestly though I haven't ever really thought of big spoon/little spoon in regards to the sfw versions of top/bottom lol

[wannaholdhandswithfictionalmen]

Im so excited to read your vampire venti and ive been searching for fanfics about him after seeing a fanart of venti with fangs at twitter and Im so happy i found your blog agshuddjd

Well, I am excited for you to read my vampire Venti fic too! It's really a self indulgent mess but I have my hopes you guys will still enjoy it regardless.

And fanart of Venti with fangs, you say? 👀 I don't use twitter myself but I would certainly be interested in seeing that. Oof.

P.s. I am very very happy you found my blog as well, hope you enjoy your stay/lurking on my blog lol

(Also might have some nsfw in this one y'all who nows might finally be my first actual smut fic. I am just that much a hoe for vampires.)

[wannaholdhandswithfictionalmen]

Almost 3k into the fic, establishing some settings, characters and this is my own story and I'm still sitting here like okay when do I get to the part when reader and Venti meet and I just wanna get into it already. Then I'm like damn I gotta write it

I really love being a whole 🤡

Haha the self indulgent is real though.

(the reader is a badass hunter who wields a equally badass chain-whip with a sickle blade on the end, because I fucking said so and I make the rules, also I hate myself and love making fight/action scenes even harder to write by forcing myself to write about something besides swords.)

[wannaholdhandswithfictionalmen]

Okay. Sooo I am definitely gonna go with Venti as the vampire but who knows if you guys end up liking this self indulgent enemies to lovers fic then maybe I might write more on this AU with other characters.

I am literally making a playlist on spotify that's how deep I am into this pit. I have a feeling this will be a long fic too.

Don't normally make playlists because I feel I'm shit at it but the inspiration is hitting me hard right now.

[wannaholdhandswithfictionalmen]

Childe, Kaeya, or Diluc would probably good options but honestly I think Venti is an excellent choice

Venti was my first immediate thought as him being known as Barbatos one of the most ancient, powerful vampire whose powers resides in his voice seduction, persuasion, submission easily invoked with a few words of his enticing voice. Considered a deadly, lethal threat to humanity yet all you have ever heard is stories of him and no one human or vampires has met him in centuries it seems.

But Kaeya and Diluc were close seconds in my mind.

Kaeya a rather secretive, elusive vampire, he has slipped under the radar of the hunters for years until he catches your eye and you never let your prey escape. His motives are unknown, he enjoys playing the game of hunter and hunted yet the longer it goes on the lines of who is the hunter and who is the prey blur. The duality of his person between charming, playful mischief to the cold, calculated seeing and knowing what others don't, always one step ahead is dizzying.

Diluc, a mysterious vampire rumors of his betrayal of his departure from his former coven, he fights vampires and hunters alike his interests aline with protecting humans it seems yet he is still a vampire. He takes no allies, braves all his battles alone and remains undefeated, unchallenged by anyone. You are perhaps the only hunter who could prove his equal, hold the power to take him down or dare to temporarily ally yourself with a vampire?

I haven't even considered Childe, but him being from the deadliest, bloodthirsty clan the Fatui enemies of the church & hunters. He isn't actively attacking humans yet he isn't stepping in to deter his kind. Playing the part of neutral party in the unending war between humanity and vampires. The church isn't pleased with him, his presence, a harbinger, vampire of devasting power and a fickle attitude towards everything.

I like all of them hnnn.

Honestly I am very indecisive sometimes and I do appreciate suggestions/hearing opinions from y'all.