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Can you please not leave me hanging?

[wanofakind]

Hi. 👋

Welcome to my life. 🤜🤛

[wanofakind]

☹️

[thoughtkick]

“There comes a day when you realize turning the page is the best feeling in the world because you realize there was so much more to the book than the page you were stuck on.”

— Zayn Malik

[thoughtkick]

“Even if you know what’s coming, you’re never prepared for how it feels.”

— Natalie Standiford, How to Say Goodbye in Robot

[perfectfeelings]

“You ever lost interest because you felt unwanted?”

—

[wanofakind]

Even if we won’t be seeing each other anymore as long as you’re doing okay and you’re healthy. I’m happy and fine with that, I’m relieved.

[wanofakind]

You know, I was thinking about it since before. So when this time comes, it wouldn’t be hard for me anymore. It’s quite sad, of course, but at least I thought about it and expected this already. The pain won’t probably be too deep. 082521

But I was wrong, months later, it still fvcking hurts, those sleepless nights or those crying-myself-to-sleep nights. It hurts so bad! That I thought I regret I had to feel that way before. It left me hanging. Wishing that maybe it would supposed to be easier if we didn’t meet at all and get the chance to be this close with each other. I would rather ask that you shouldn’t have made me feel special, whatsoever. All those things you said and did, I just hope it didn’t happen at all. 092221

[wanofakind]

The people I care about do have something in common, they all leave me hanging. It might be their favorite thing to do.

[thoughtkick]

“The more something upsets you, the more it is meant for you. When it no longer upsets you, it is no longer needed because the lesson is complete.”

— Bryant McGill

[thoughtkick]

“One day can change everything.”

— Unknown

[wanofakind]

More like “one day, everything will change.”

[wanofakind]

[wanofakind]

Never felt right. 🙋‍♀️

[thoughtkick]

“You never get over it. But you get to where it doesn’t bother you so much.”

— Jeffrey Eugenides, The Virgin Suicides

[wanofakind]

Yes 🙂

[wanofakind]

[wanofakind]

Dear God,

I know I said I won’t be asking again, but all those crying-myself-to-sleep nights, the unbearable pain I felt everytime, I’m starting to think please let me meet that one person I can share these struggles with no hesitations, whom I can be with when everything seems dark and messy, maybe just for the fact that I won’t be questioning my worth anymore. I hope this won’t be too much to ask.

[wanofakind]

[wanofakind]

Forever mantra.