Weird Flex

⁂ Not pro anything!!! Just hate myself lol ⁂ ✧ 5”2 || Cw: 95 || HW: 135 || GW1: 110 ✅|| UGW: 95✅

[tokyoukai]

nobody:

body dysmorphia: you look like this

[rosymoonfaery]

- Clementine von Radics

[headfever-remade-deactivated202]

i may not be a girl anymore but eldest daughter trauma is forever

[avoidantegg]

op why must you hide the truth in the tags

[17lilith06]

[skenotel]

What the scale sees when I go to weigh myself for the 5th time today:

[tryingsobriety]

[sonyatrap]

[cosmiccorpse]

[toofemmetofunction]

[notreallyanaccidentalnap]

Since I been eating quite "normal" lately I thought "wow great, I recovered, this was all fake haha" but I just got a piece of cake and out of nowhere I had a panick attack and I literally saw my legs bigger than when I saw them in the mirror 2 hours ago, like...body dysmorphia is fcking scary and makes no sense, I hate this

[the-fallen-angel-has-fallen-v2]

It really do be like that 😫

[the-fallen-angel-has-fallen-v2]

I’m such a fucking fake

I can’t even fucking have an ed properly

I’m such a fucking failure

I failed at everything

I really do hate myself

[sadspaceprinc3ss]

I simply do not vibe with food

[my-thunder-thighs]

calories did not pass the vibe check

[food-dont-know-her]

My weight did not pass the vibe check

[ultraskinnylovestuff]

The sound and feeling of my stomach growling for food has become addicting 

[wasted-fairy]

I don’t have a scale at home so I can’t measure my progress that way. I can’t see the number or how far I’ve come. That doesn’t really bother me, I usually figure I’m the same weight.

But today I went to the doctors and they weighed me. I’m 105lbs. I knew I lost some weight but holy shit I met my first goal. I can see myself reaching my UGW realistically now.

[yourlocalbisexualdisaster]

The thing about having depression hit before I was even a teenager, is that I have no idea who I am. I have no memory of what it’s like to live without anxiety, depression, and eating disorders.  I have no idea who I am without these disorders, they’ve defined my entire life. 

How do you recover, when there is nothing to go back to?

[thick-like-a-stick]

Me as fr*ck