Dreams and Honour

Indie RP blog for Angeal Hewley from Final Fantasy XVII Crisis Core

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//I’ll do a proper post when my brain stops buzzing?? But angeal is over at @wastedsword now

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//I’ll do a proper post when my brain stops buzzing?? But angeal is over at @wastedsword now

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ofrhapsodos replied to your post “ofrhapsodos replied to your post “//im doing full tags for angeals...”

make excuses all ul ike....

angeal hides poetry under his mattress bc he doesnt feel like doing book club with gen

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ofrhapsodos replied to your post “//im doing full tags for angeals new blog and most of them are coming...”

that just makes it better tho it means we've sunk into uR BRAIN

NO BUT ITS BECAUSE OF SEPHIROTH 

I have two quotes i love to associate with Seph and Angeal and Kesh took one for their tag for me so i took the other for their tag for them but-- decided to use more of his works and now all of my tags are poetry and i cant believe myself

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//im doing full tags for angeals new blog and most of them are coming from greek poetry and plays -- and i didnt consider that it might just feed into a certain someones smug poetry bullshit so this is a fuck you genesis it isnt on purpose

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thrxxfold‌:

//I have decided to move Angeal and Lazard to their own blogs– Ive been considering it for a while and I think its the best thing to do

So bare with me as i shift them over

I also wanna semi redo this blog and do my pages better and actually do tags

//Gonna move Angeal! He deserves his own blog uwu

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//Just a mini promo! Please give this a like/reblog if you’d like to write with a Lazard Deusericus from FF7 Crisis Core

This is a sideblog and will follow back from @thrxxfold​

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❝ it’s so nice to hear you laugh again. ❞

things that you want to hear. | x

“Ah- I laugh all the time.” Angeal rolled his eyes but he was smiling still. 

Back to back missions for the last few months, he’d worked himself to the point of near collapse. The warm and gentle heart of SOLDIER had been near unrecognisable until he’d taken a much needed break; spending a week in Banora before returning to Midgar. He’d brought back a small lot of apples for Genesis as well and overall he just felt lighter, better. 

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“Just until I fall asleep?”

Have a Hug | x

“Of course, Gen.” He said softly, helping to carefully position the man so not to jostle his shoulder. He pulled him against himself, wrapping strong arms around him; protective and warm. 

He rested his forehead in his hair, letting his eyes close slowly. He wasn’t going to sleep, just rest, with Genesis cradled in his arms.

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Manhandling symbol starters

Send one for your muse to…

★ - drag my muse by the arm ⁂ - grab my muse by the front of their shirt, possibly shoving them back ✱ - take my muse by the hips to carefully move them out of their way ➜ - smack my muse upside the head ⌧ - grip my muse by the back of the neck © - put a hand on my muse’s back to steer them somewhere ✂ - point sternly at a chair and tell my muse to sit down ✉ - push my muse back down when they try to get out of bed (perhaps involving illness, injury, or sleep deprivation) ☛ - press a finger to my muse’s lips to shut them up ♚ - put a hand on my muse’s knee while sitting next to them, to discourage them from standing up ♧ - slap my muse’s hand away from something they shouldn’t touch ♦ - grab my muse’s hair and yank ♤ - slam a door shut before my muse can leave the room ♞ - physically pick my muse up and carry them ♭ - grip my muse’s jaw to make them look yours in the eye ♨ - rub my muse down with a sponge/wet cloth  ☀ - pin my muse with their arms behind their back ☠ - slam my muse into a wall ☾ - wrestle/pin my muse to the ground

Add as much or as little context as you’d like!

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//oh i hit 100 followers here

hi angeal is soft and stupid and i love and hate him 

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warofthebeasts‌:

It hurt worse that he didn’t understand, that he couldn’t understand. Were they really so different?

“…It isn’t over. You aren’t dead. You can still be what you want to be, can’t you?” After all if he, Sephiroth, could change, if he could learn to be more human, then couldn’t Angeal? “I don’t understand why you’ve given up on everything.”

“I... Wish I was dead.” Angeal said, quieter than before. “Before this is all over, I will be. I plan to make sure of that.”

He felt sick to say it out loud, especially to Sephiroth. It would be so much easier to keep his plans hidden but... Something had broken within him and he couldn’t hold himself back.

“I don’t want to be this.”

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“With me, well, I’m well. Well, I mean I’m in hell. Well, I still have my health - at least that’s what they tell me. If wellness is this what in hell’s name is sickness?”

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“You could have at least spoken to me, Angeal! How would it have made you feel if I’d suddenly vanished without a single word after everything we’ve been through together? It hurt! Not even a word, no reply to my texts, no response to my emails, nothing! As if I simply meant nothing to you! As if I were something to be ignored! As if I was not a person but an object, a thing, something unworthy of even an apology! Have I not already been dehumanized enough in my lifetime? Have I not already faced enough death and loss? The worst thing you could have done was to lead me to believe that I actually meant something to you only to rip it all away without even a word! …I trusted you…you and Genesis. I trusted you to be different…”

He scoffed, but really he was scoffing at what he saw to be his own foolishness.

“I don’t hate you. I think maybe that’s what hurts the most.”

“You... You mean the world to me, Sephiroth. I couldn’t face you, couldn’t talk to you because I despise every inch of my being and I just...”

“You look at me with so much warmth and I can’t bare it. I don’t deserve it. I am sorry, though. For everything. I wanted to be different for you - but I’m not. I’m not anything I wanted to be.” He hadn’t admitted to any of this before. Genesis was suffering on his own so he couldn’t unload to him. It all just hurt so much, just weighed down on all of them in different, suffocating ways.

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“So it’s wings that make you monsters? So it’s being a creation?” Sephiroth challenged, his own single, black wing stretching wide. “Do you realize how ridiculous you sound when you name off every single bit of my life experience to justify that you and Genesis are monsters?”

“Fine.” He snapped; it isn’t anger in his voice but frustration and anguish.

“Fine, we’re all monsters. Perhaps I just wanted to spare you from further bloodshed. Maybe I didn’t want to tear you away from everything you know, even if ShinRa is the centre of all evil… Maybe I just think this is easier if you hate me… I don’t know, Sephiroth. I can’t think straight anymore.”

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"Monsters like you?" He has to laugh through his confusion. "I've been at war since I was six years old. How does that exclude me from being a monster? If anything, I'm a bigger monster than you or Genesis!"

“You fight in a war of their making - You never had a choice. We did and we... We joined SOLDIER. But that’s only some of it.” He stretches his wings out, feathers falling with the movement. “We are monsters. Creations...”

“My own mother did this! To unborn children!”

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//quick bloody gen cause,,, urges,,,