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too lazy to make this a real blog again but this is a low priority blog for me to cry about my favorite scottish nerd. mostly found on @dreamwaited

#pinned.

i regret my choices and will be adding fitz back to the multi for now @rebelwove

#i want to give him his own blog so badly but i have way too many blogs atm #{ 🔬 || ooc } ❛ error 404. sanity not found ❜#i'll be back

jynerso

“I had no idea, I’ve only emulated human reactions, but to actually feel? The warm sand, the water rushing over me…”

#ALSO CAN WE TALK FOR A SECOND ABOUT HOW OUT OF ALL THE PLACES #THIS FUCKING HAPPENS #ON A MOTHER FUCKING BEACH #FOR A MAN WHO LITERALLY ALMOST DIED IN THE OCEAN #like you can't tell me he doesn't have extreme fear of water now #{ 🔬 || visage } ❛ quiet and pasty ❜#{ 🔬 || aida } ❛ built to be our shield ❜#okay i'm done now

fitz still hallucinates the doctor ( and i hc he hallucinates alistair as well but not as frequently ). that didn’t just go away magically cause he died in that timeline

#it's worse when he doesn't sleep + is stressed #but like may says herself it's hard living with two timelines in her head #and fitz canonly struggled with hallucinating in s2 #so it makes sense he'd hallucinate still #he takes medication for it but some days are just... not great #hallucination tw

𝙵𝙸𝚃𝚉 + 𝙷𝙸𝚂 𝙵𝙰𝚃𝙷𝙴𝚁

there’s a lot of fucked up shit that happens in the framework. fitz basically gets his personality reprogrammed to fit the romantic fantasy of an insane AI. there’s a lot of consent issues there as well as the fact he 100% blames himself for the creation of the framework to begin with. there’s just so much to unpack that i could write a whole thesis on his psyche after that mess of an experience. but i always come back to fitz and his father.

before the framework fitz is actually doing okay. he’s managing his brain injury. he’s a different man than he was in season 1. some things don’t come as easily as they once did. he finds his hands still shaking when he gets tired and words escape him more easily. but he’s happy. or as happy as someone can be when working for shi.eld. there are issues but there’s some semblance of a normal life. a promise that he and jemma can have a normal happy future together. fitz has finally put his childhood trauma behind him. he doesn’t hear his father in his head like he used to. he has other things to focus on ( and other traumas that are louder than his asshole father but i digress )

and then the framework happens. alistair is present in fitz’s life and doesn’t leave when he’s a boy like he does in the canon timeline. fitz morphs into this monster of a man at the lashing of his father’s words and abuse. and even once the framework is gone fitz now has these two timelines in his head. he went from not hearing his father’s voice anymore to now having new horrific scenes play out in his head. and not only is that traumatic enough he also has to sort through what is real and what was just implanted in his mind by aida. he went from controlling the voices in his head to now having his father’s voice louder than ever and backed by the voice of the doc.tor

#the way the show never let this man fucking relax #only when he was /not a regular anymore.#child abuse tw #this is what happens when i listen to little lion man #{ 🔬 || headcanon } ❛ it's just a matter of digging and finding them ❜

i’m so close to just hella ranting about framework fitz even tho most people don’t know what i’m talking about

#i just...#*screams into the void*#{ 🔬 || ooc } ❛ error 404. sanity not found ❜

i just played little lion man for the first time in ages and once again crying over leo.pold fitz

#{ 🔬 || ooc } ❛ error 404. sanity not found ❜#it's just... peak fitz #it even ages so well across all seasons????

sugarpiehoneyduck

agents of SHIELD appreciation week ★ day 1: favorite character

POV: you’re watching season 1 and leopold fitz is stealing your heart

#{ 🔬 || visage } ❛ quiet and pasty ❜#the way all of these make me cry for different reasons :)

... i miss the sweater and ties

#i mean the glow up is great and all #10/10 recommend #but my baby #{ 🔬 || ooc } ❛ error 404. sanity not found ❜#rip season 1 fitz #so innocent #and then the show kept fucking you over again and again

fitzsimmonsfamily

#fitz looking at his wife and daughter with so much love

#{ 🔬 || visage } ❛ quiet and pasty ❜#an aos rewatch is happening soon #even if it'll mostly just fill me with rage #i missed my nug

sajaboys

* 𝐇𝐄𝐋𝐋𝐔𝐕𝐀 𝐁𝐎𝐒𝐒 . sentence starters from helluva boss. adjust as needed. features nsfw topics: swearing, sex, violence, just extremely vulgar language, etc. some potentially triggering subjects.

𝐩𝐢𝐥𝐨𝐭 .

❛ i thought i knew you . ❜ ❛ it didn’t do anything ! ❜ ❛ holy shit , it actually worked . ❜ ❛ i’d like to go on record and say that incident was [name]’s fault . ❜ ❛ oh , sit on a dick . ❜ ❛ whoever left the fucking avocado salad in the fridge , i’m taking it , because i have the worst hangover right now ! ❜ ❛ why would you drink on a work night ? ❜ ❛ oh , i do judge you . quite a lot , actually . ❜ ❛ does immaturely insulting me make you feel better about your sad life ? ❜ ❛ alright , let’s go back to talking about my outfit . ❜ ❛ if i wanted to hear from a spineless jackass , i’d rip out your spine and ask you some shit . ❜ ❛ he’s kind of a piece of shit . ❜ ❛ well , christ on a stick . i guess there is a god . ❜

𝐦𝐮𝐫𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐟𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐲 .

❛ i was a good person , before it all went down . ❜ ❛ think before you act . ❜ ❛ i had a hard time understanding the unprompted melodrama you just spat at me . ❜ ❛ humans are full of secret nasties . ❜ ❛ guilty and innocent aren’t our business . ❜ ❛ this is a really bad time . ❜ ❛ i was thinking , what if we worked out some kind of exchange ? favors for favors ? ❜ ❛ you’ve got to stop using your fancy ass rich-people talk , okay ? ❜ ❛ that’s not exactly how it works . ❜ ❛ i mean , i could fake it if that’ll get your dick hard . ❜ ❛ i’ll just shoot you in your smart-ass mouth ! ❜ ❛ it won’t happen again . i promise . ❜ ❛ i think i just needed a minute to process . ❜ ❛ killing people isn’t that big of a deal if they try to kill you back ! ❜ ❛ that’s messed up . ❜

𝐥𝐨𝐨 𝐥𝐨𝐨 𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐝 .

❛ was that a serious question ? ❜ ❛ we are rich , and we’re hot . ❜ ( alt. ❛ i am rich , and i’m hot . ❜ ) ❛ don’t invite me to shit unless someone’s gonna die . ❜ ❛ you are so cute when you are serious ! ❜ ❛ i’m literally gonna be sick . ❜ ❛ that is… deeply upsetting . ❜ ❛ theme parks always disturbed me . ❜ ❛ this place reeks of insecure corporate shame . ❜ ❛ save it . i’m working . ❜ ❛ i hate that fucking clown . ❜ ❛ y'know , if you suck , you suck ! ❜ ❛ i just want to go home , but home doesn’t even feel like home anymore . ❜ ❛ you’re okay sometimes . ❜ ❛ way to ruin another good thing . ❜

𝐬𝐩𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐛𝐫𝐨𝐤𝐞𝐧 .

❛ i should have known you’d be here . ❜ ❛ awww , you mad , [name] ? ❜ ❛ choke on a sandpaper cock . ❜ ❛ why are you acting like that’s such a shock ? ❜ ❛ you are making this into a way bigger deal than it needs to be . ❜ ❛ i don’t pry into your stupid personal life . ❜ ❛ i challenge you to a fuckin’… challenge ! fuck , i said that twice . ❜ ❛ oh , you’re serious ? ❜ ❛ what was that nonsense ? ❜ ❛ it’s not my fault you got a smooth little brain upstairs . ❜ ❛ you look downright awful . ❜ ❛ y'all ready to get fucked up and make some bitchin’ bad choices ?! ❜ ❛ am i interrupting something ? ❜ ❛ why don’t you chill out ? ❜ ❛ why can’t you stay out of my face for , like , five minutes ?! ❜ ❛ i’m gonna go kill something . ❜ ❛ ooookay , this is too wholesome for my liking . ❜ ❛ i wish i had friends . i don’t have friends . ❜

𝐜.𝐡.𝐞.𝐫.𝐮.𝐛.

❛ do not be afraid . ❜ ❛ please tell me you got that insurance thing . ❜ ❛ could’ve just used the door , dude . doesn’t need to be this whole thing . ❜ ❛ that’s kinda hot . ❜ ❛ let’s kill this rich guy ! ❜ ❛ why won’t you let me die ? ❜ ❛ i’ve never been in love before . i imagine it’s quite nice . ❜ ❛ you’re making things too real now . ❜ ❛ i already sent him a text , and… we’re in good hands , 'cause texts don’t make people angry . ❜ ❛ if you kiss my ass any harder , you’ll go right inside me . ❜ ❛ get out . ❜

#{ 🔬 || memes } ❛ i feel like a dark ages blacksmith looking at tesla ❜#i don't... remember what the fuck that quote is from for my meme tag

I MISSED FITZ’S BIRTHDAY

#{ 🔬 || ooc } ❛ error 404. sanity not found ❜#this is not my year #missed eugene's #missed fitz's #not gonna be on for david's either #rip