devoted husband

Sammy, don't you cry, close your eyes. Everything is gonna be alright. You're so young and still so free. Sammy, take my hand, I understand, I will try to be a better man. Without you there is no me.

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mamaxwatson‌:

Sam feels her heart begin to sink in her chest as she hears the mournful tone in her husband’s whisper, wishing more than anything that she could say something or do something that would fix all of this. “I know,” she whispers, as though they have to keep this conversation hidden from Nikki. “I can feel how scared you are. But don’t let the fear of the bad that’s coming take away from the good we have left.”

He knew that she was right, but the grief he felt for losing parts of him that weren’t even completely deteriorated yet was almost suffocating. His tone was half-hearted when he responded. “Yeah, you’re right.”

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daredevilcastillo‌:

Cas is about to retort, until she hears the emotions resonating in his words. This isn’t about her, not completely, and that much is confirmed when he claims that he can’t fix his. A heavy weight settles on her chest, and it feels like her lungs are filling up with lead. “It’s happening, isn’t it?” She asks him, though it takes a few moments for her to find the words. “The symptoms. They’re starting to show.”

His face was solemn at her assumption. Cas and Sam were the two people in the world with whom he could never get away with an easy lie. In this case, he didn’t even want to. With Drew, it was harder. He wanted his brother to believe that everything was fine, because the alternative hurt his heart too much to think about. Cas and Sam were different. It hurt watching them realize that his body was deteriorating sooner than any of them had believed it would, but they were able to push past that to lift him up. “Yeah,” he answers, his voice barely above a whisper. “The first tremors started right before the wedding. I haven’t even held Nikki in weeks because I’m so afraid I...” He didn’t finish his sentence. She understood the sentiment without him saying the words.

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mamaxwatson‌:

Sam notices Lip pull away, a twinge in her chest as his expression closes off for a moment. Without saying anything, she leans over and presses a kiss to his forearm, before sitting back up and letting the matter drop. “Either her or Alex, but regardless, I have a sinking feeling we’ll be doing a lot of damage control with her future preschool.”

Lip’s mouth twitches into a semblance of a smile when she kisses him, but this feeling of shame washes over him at the same time. Putting their rowdy friend group aside for a moment, he turns to her. His voice is barely above a whisper as he confides in his wife. “I’m scared to even pick her up anymore, Sam.”

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daredevilcastillo‌:

“Pissed off? No. I’m… infuriated. I feel trapped, like my own body is some kind of prison. I want to break something, just kick it apart, but - I - can’t.” With each word she pounds the bench they’re seated on with her fist. “I can’t stay like this. I have to learn to walk again. Being like this forever will turn me into someone I’m not. Someone hateful.”

Lip listens to Cas explode in a way that he hadn’t witnessed since Nic died. When she finished, he couldn’t do much except shake his head. “No,” he said simply. “I don’t believe that, baby. Because I know you. You do not have a hateful bone in your body. And this...this is something that can be fixed.” His hands are shaking in his pockets, and part of him is so angry at his best friend for not fighting when she had the chance. Oh, how he would kill for that chance. “You have to do this,” he continued. “You have to, so that I have some hope. Because I...Cas, I can’t fix mine.”

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mamaxwatson‌:

“Don’t wish for teeth, babe. I’ve heard too many teething horror stories to be excited for those,” she says, though her words are paired with a grin as she leans into Lip’s embrace. “Seriously, though, between all of our friends, a swear jar could probably raise an impressive college fund by the time she’s in her teens.”

Lip smirks, but his grin slowly fades as his hand begins to tremble on his wife’s shoulder. He quickly extracts himself from the position, crossing his arms over his chest to hide the tremor. He wasn’t sure if he was hiding it from her or himself, but either way it was too painful to watch. “I’m bettin’ that Blair is gonna be our biggest donation.”

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daredevilcastillo‌:

“Never felt this hopeless before,” she answers honestly, having never felt the need to hide how she’s feeling from her best friend. “I still shouldn’t have taken it out on her. She’s just doing her job. It’s not her fault I can’t do this.”

Lip has to chuckle to himself. “Baby, anyone that is in your position would be more than a little pissed off. You don’t have to make excuses for yourself.”

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mamaxwatson‌:

“You know, she’s gonna start talking soon.” Sam murmurs absently, looking down at Nikki as she plays with her toys on the mat. “We should probably invest in a swear jar, otherwise her first word is gonna be ‘shit.’”

Lip smiles, wrapping an arm around his wife. “It’s an impressive first word, anyhow. That hard ‘t’ at the end is difficult with no teeth.”

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daredevilcastillo‌:

“Just stop it, okay?” Cas pushes the trainer’s reassuring hand off of her arm, turning her face away as she tries to stifle the tears welling in her eyes. “Sorry. I’m sorry, just… can you give me a minute?”

Lip watches her, still impressed by her level of determination. His hands are shoved deep in his pockets as he approaches to hide the tremors from her. He puts on an easy smirk as he kisses her cheek. “Never seen you snap at anyone before, baby.”

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itsharland:

It wasn’t for Violet.

Oh, this should be rich. Fine, Di. If not for her, then who?

[ruinedchildhood]

[butchdee]

[brandyalexanders-moved-deactiva]

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itsharland:

Been selfish my whole life, that shouldn’t really come as a surprise.

Oh, sure, selfish. It’s real selfish to help your girlfriend take care of her baby. Even though you hate that baby’s father. Even though you are sacrificing your social life and your sleep to do so. That sounds super selfish.

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itsharland:

I thought I died, for a minute there. I was a nice minute.

I’m sure it was. A really fuckin’ selfish minute, too, though.

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itsharland:

Why?

Because you’re my friend, dumbass.

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itsharland:

They said I was supposed to be honest, so, I’m not really in the mood for visitors.

Too bad. I’m here anyways.

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mamaxwatson:

Yeah, it does. Goodnight, baby.

Goodnight, baby.