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Yoonhun airport fashion . . . #yoonhun #yoona #160718 #sehun #160715 #smtown #couple #airport

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Hyori Home Stay (yoonhun version) . . . #yoonhun #sehun #yoona #couple #9094

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Airport - deepblue . . . #yoonhun #sehun #150320 #yoona #150412 #airport #fashion #couple #deepblue

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Yoonhun Airport Fashion . . . #yoonhun #yoona #160808 #sehun #160812 #airport #fashion #couple #edit

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"My Universe" . . . #yoonhun #yoona #sehun #exoyoong #couple #edit #photoshop #poster

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Have no idea for the caption. #yoonhun #sehun #yoona #redcarpet #couple #edit #9094

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Red carpet --- #yoonhun #sehun #yoona #redcarpet #couple #9094 #edit

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“Black Dog”

Okay, I think i have to spell it out or i am going to explode

Few days ago, our beloved Kim Jonghyun (Shinee) left us. i am not really know about him actually but how he dead affected me a lot. he died in the middle of depression is really sad to accept. After i heard about the cause of his death, and watched any sign that he tried to showing to us before he dicide to die is hurting me so much. As if like maybe we could prevent him to die if we could be more sensitive about his condition. I really cursed how he dicided to die, suicide is not gonna make you happy joghyunna, i am really sorry for you. :’(

what happened with jonghyun have to make us realize that mental health is really serious matter. Don’t ever judge lowly dan recklessly if someone tell you he is sad and feeling down. For us in depression state, we actually really want to spit it out to you about what happen to us, but we really don’t what actually matter that makes us being sad. We are truly lost and don’t know anymore about ourself. with what i spoke earlier its clearly that i am also followed by black dog. I realize about that.

I realize my black dog start to gwaning me. Being depressed is so hard to handle. When we are down, we are more being sensitive. Even we start to live in ourself perspective. For me i started to do not believe with anyone else and and start to avoiding them. I feel like anyone starring me lowly and i am just useless person. I feel so lonely but i hate being in crowded place. Blame myself even just for little mistake. Suicide is often cross in my mind. Fortunately i still believing that suicide is not the way to solve it. I am believing that there is living after death, that we have to take any responsibility about what we have done to God (i am Moslem). Just God who i have right now that make me to survive to life.

Next what i really want to talk is phenomenon about fan of joghyun who tried to suicide following him. A lot of people said what she did is over and childish but for me its not and it was really serious matter that we have to take care seriously. Maybe she is like me who being k-popers is not just because we adore about our idol by his appereance and his talent. we in the state of addicted by him. Why this happen? its not as simple as you thought. For me my idol is my hero.

I started to love my idol when i was on the bad situation or i can say i am depressed. I need something or someone to lean on, and then i found him. Afterward i live being his shadow cause actually i have been lost myself. its like i fell in cliff, and he is the only one who grabbed me. So, its not surprising if jonghyun’s fan would kill herself cause she has no one who grab her anymore. So, anyone who judge her lowly just shut your fuck mouth. You don’t know anything about us. I know clearly what i did is not good, being over to love my idol is not really good. So, if you care about us and think what we done is wrong, please help us!!! Help us to find or make us something more stronger that can help us lifted by the cliff. a new thing that more stronger than what we grabbed right now.

Please help us, we couldn’t do it by ourself cause we already hanging on the cliff. Just please help us, please...

#blackdog