it’s finally over. trump has won. that is ( SADLY ) the candidate our democracy has chosen. this has, by far and in my lifetime thus far, been one of the dirtiest campaigns i’ve had to sit through, but it. is. over. now, is when the real work and challenge begins. no matter what, i am choosing NOT to live my life in fear or hate. i’m going to live it on the same principle i’ve lived the last thirty years i’ve been on this earth: that all people are inherently good and that there is good in this world. yes, i’ve been called foolish for it. a damn idiot by others, but that’s the only way for me to go through these days and years to come. i trust that we, as a people, have good in our heart. some are simply more misguided than others. some have veered off into a dangerous path, but they are not beyond redemption or learning from their past mistakes. i do believe that there is beauty and good in this world and in the people in it and i refuse to allow the election of one man curtail that. as a black woman, i have enough battles to wage on a daily basis. i will not carry this on my shoulders as another. i will show strength and beauty in my actions. i will live everyday as the gift it is. and i implore all others to do so too. i don’t look to every trump supporter as my enemy any more than i believe EVERY trump supporter looks to a hilary one as theirs. i won’t perpetuate a cycle of hate and anger and misunderstanding ( because, honestly, that’s where most hate comes from ) that has been fought against for ages. i won’t live in fear. i will live in love and work towards better. i owe it to myself, my family, my friends, and this world.
OH HOW NAIVE AND HOPEFUL I WAS IN 2016! now i’m all fuck that noise, fuck the establishment, fuck a government that would not keep this man in check for four years, fuck every person that would vote in consideration of their personal gain rather than the well-being of a country, fuck every supporter that believes in him, fuck every person who thinks he should be left unleashed, and fuck any person who — after ALL the lost experienced in this year ALONE— believes that another four years is what this man deserves.
do i still believe in the good of people? yeah, i do. i’ve seen it through the peaceful protests held for my dead brethren and the medical staff that keep trying to curtail such a vicious disease, but that light has also pierced through some of the shadows that show a broken system that seems irrevocably beyond repair. how can you fix anything when the people in power and seats see nothing wrong with what they’re doing? with what they’re putting others through? DO I HOLD HATE IN MY HEART? no, i don’t. i hold anger and sadness in there because i will never know what it feels like to have trust in political officials. that they have accountability to answer to those who voted for them and prove wrong those who didn’t. i’m tired. i’m pissed. i’m so over 2020.
