"Please don't tell me you're giving up on reality, Samsa" 25yo. He/They. Autistic and ADHD. Writer when my mental issues let me. Multifandom/Multishipper. Anti harassment.
So that was it. The thing I was hung up on. Do I actually like Hisashi? Since when? His face? Personality? When did this begin? What do I like about him? What started it? And why now? I don't know. All I do know is... I wish I'd never realized this... Why... did I have to notice? If this love is going to be over before it even begins then I don't want to realize that I'm in love.
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Pairing: Mizuki Akiyama/Shinonome Ena (main) Akito Shinonome/Toya Aoyagi (side)
Rating: Teen
AO3 link here
Summary:
It took another slip-up for her world to come crashing down in the worst possible way.
Well, who can blame her? I mean it was surprising enough that she found it out on her own (not like Akito was going to tell her anything) even though it wasn’t surprising in the least. And that’s when, after she heard Akito’s usual carefulness when he was around Ena’s room drop, she just had to tell someone. Even if “someone” was just her webcam and the empty Nightcord chatroom.
“So, Akito got himself a boyfriend, apparently.” Ena muttered although no one could actually hear her.
Notes:
hi there!! I'm back at it again with my bullshit!! This time I got asked by a friend to write some Mizuena and after reading the infamous Footprints event I was sad and I wanted to cleanse my soul! Thing is, I love mizuena butt my main prsk OTP is akitoya. So I thought that everyone agrees that Akito and Ena tease each other a lot about flirting with "their partners" will not make something out of it!
Big thanks to my friend who placed her trust on me and also VBS stans how are we feeling with the new song why do Akito coms always go this hard??
Anyway I love you Ena Shinonome please don't change!
Btw I might be thinking of writing a sequel of both of their dates and how it ends up being a double date, Ena and Akito are certainly not amused, Mizuki is and Toya is the smallest bean ever! Tell me if you'd like it!
As always, comments and kudos are much appreciated! ♥♥♥
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fic under the cut!
Ena had a bad habit. She knew that it wasn’t just a one-time thing. It happened pretty frequently. The icing on the cake though was that she didn’t realize it herself; her friends had told her the first time it happened, and the second one, and the one after that, but Ena kept forgetting to be more careful.
It’s not like accidentally unmuting herself in Nightcord and voicing her thoughts out-loud had brought her more than embarrassing experiences. Sure, she’d been caught reading tricks to make herself look cuter in pictures so her social media reach increased, she’d been caught reading multiple pancake recipes so she could find one that was both of her and Akito’s liking, but nothing that could deal a fatal blow to her reputation, really. At this point she had nothing to hide, didn’t feel the need to hide anything from the other Niigo members.
But.
It took another slip-up for her world to come crashing down in the worst possible way.
Well, who can blame her? I mean it was surprising enough that she found it out on her own (not like Akito was going to tell her anything) even though it wasn’t surprising in the least. And that’s when, after she heard Akito’s usual carefulness when he was around Ena’s room drop, she just had to tell someone. Even if “someone” was just her webcam and the empty Nightcord chatroom.
“So, Akito got himself a boyfriend, apparently.” Ena muttered although no one could actually hear her.
“No way, Lil’ Bro’? That Lil’bro?” Mizuki’s words almost caused Ena to fall from her chair. Ah, so it happened again didn’t it. She forgot to unmute the mic- but wait, what was Mizuki doing here? It wasn’t even their meeting time yet?
In fact, Ena picked up the routine of logging in five to ten minutes before 25:00 to prevent these things from happening. Her mic was not muted? Cool, no one was there to make fun of her anyway.
That was how it should be, at least. But that’s life for you.
Ena thanked whatever ethereal being was up there watching her; at least she had her headset on. It was Ena herself who spilled the beans, but that was just a wandering thought being put into words almost in a whisper. But god, was Mizuki loud. They always were. They were always cheerful, obnoxious, the first one to lighten the mood. And Ena liked that about them. It suited them better than that expression. She still couldn’t get it off her head, when that day on the rooftop Mizuki looked on the verge of panic.
But she’d told herself she’ll wait. She’d told herself she wouldn’t push and ask for too much. After all that happened in her life, all the slumps, all the feelings of inferiority that she still hadn’t been able to get ahold of, Ena had come to accept that it was okay to be someone who constantly worried about things she couldn’t control. That’s who she was now. That’s all there was to it.
“Mizuki! Can you lower your voice a little bit?” Ena shushed. Great. Someone knew. Fine. She could handle that. At least she knew Mizuki was good at keeping secrets if they wanted t-
Anxiety started to rise from Ena’s core. It hurt more than she wanted to let on, that something was bothering Mizuki and she couldn’t do a thing about it. But it’s like Meiko said that time; talking may make things worse. Perhaps Mizuki needed someone to be willing to wait for whatever that revelation was. And having these twisted thoughts make Ena feel like a terrible person altogether..
“But you’re wearing a headset, Enanan! It’s not like Lil’ Bro can hear you” Mizuki countered; their frown visible on their face through the screen. That playful tone of them was back, Ena never wanted it gone.
“Well, I can hear you, and you nearly busted my eardrums!” However, that didn’t mean she couldn’t retort to Mizuki’s teasing, right? That’s how they behaved around each other. That’s how their… relationship should be.
Mizuki was mistaken. Ena wasn’t a worrywart.
“Fine, fine! Well now that the cat’s out of the bag you can at least tell me the juicy details?” Mizuki pressed on. If Ena felt her heart flutter at the playful wiggle of Mizuki’s eyebrows she didn’t say a thing.
“I do not know any ‘juicy details’! And if I did, I wouldn’t exactly tell you? I mean, sure, it’s Akito we’re talking about, but even Akito deserves privacy. Some of it.” Ena countered, her expression turning more serious than she had intended to at first.
“Besides, the others might be here soon, I doubt they’re as invested in my brother’s love life as you are, Amia.” She added. It’s not as if she needed divination powers to foresee that Kanade and Mafuyu couldn’t care less about that. But, that gave her an excuse to talk to Mizuki later. And Akito will forgive her if word spreads out, right?
Most likely the last ones to realize they were dating had been Toya and Akito themselves. Pretty much everyone around them knew.
“Okay, okay! But we have to talk about this later, you’re not running from this one, Enanan!” Mizuki exclaimed, proud as if they had won the battle or their lives.
“Sure, that’s a promise.” Ena smiled. That’s how it worked between them, right?
Ena grabbed her phone as quickly as she had ever done before once the Nightcord meeting came to a halt. She’d better hurry and text Mizuki before they called them.
I didn’t forget. Ena typed in her private chat with Mizuki. Send.
I know you wouldn’t, you’re not the type to forget promises. Ena’s heart skipped a beat. Why were they suddenly talking, or at least, implying their own feelings in the picture when this was supposedly about Ena finding out that her brother and Toya are dating?
Yeah, right. So. Uh. I heard Akito giggling and saying something about a date in the arcade tomorrow. Next to my room. My door wasn’t even shut yet. I don’t know why he was this careless today, usually he’d walk on eggshells when he was next to my room trying to hide the cheesecake he bought for himself without even thinking I wanted a slice too.
Oops. That text came a little bit longer than expected. Anyway. Send.
Mizuki’s reply was there after a few seconds.
Oh my god. So they are finally dating? Mizuki answers. She can sense their impatience through the screen. Mizuki might as well be giggling on their end, their eyes glued to their phone as Ena continues their cellphone love story.
I didn’t tell you who was Akito talking to, though? Both of them know she doesn’t even have to mention it, but Ena may or may not be trying to keep this conversation going. She feels sorry for Akito. Except she doesn’t.. (Okay, she does. A little bit)
You don’t even have to say it! It’s obvious it’s Toya! Of course. That’s popular knowledge already. For a split second she wonders if Kanade and Mafuyu have the same thought about her and Mizuki. She gets it out of her head. She is more elegant than Akito, mind you.
Well, yeah. I don’t even know how it happened, who asked the other out or how long it has been, though. Ena clicked Send. This conversation would eventually end and this will be just another anecdote in the “Ena Shinonome’s slip-ups in Nightcord” collection.
It probably was Lil’ Bro, you know? He looks like the straightforward type. Just like his sister♪ Ena felt her cheeks heat up at Mizuki’s text. She was, indeed, straightforward. But she’d learned that this approach wasn’t always ideal, and sometimes you can just show you care through patience.
Mizuki was… Mizuki could be described in a lot of different ways.. Ena had honestly no clue of what Mizuki was hiding, but she had long ago stopped actively thinking about it, trying to play detective and guess on her own. She decided to trust Mizuki, it would be disrespectful and it would break their bond if Ena wanted to pry, albeit indirectly. Because suffering shouldn’t be the only bond they shared, right?
You’re right, Mizuki, I guess you could call me straightforward. When she hit send, she didn’t expect to witness Mizuki fumbling over their response, writing something and erasing it in its entirety, only to repeat the same action over and over again until finally, the screen came to life with a new message from Mizuki.
I know, Ena, I can tell that much. Alright. The mood was set. She could make the most of her slip-up and be honest for once.
Ena knew there were a lot of things she couldn’t ask Mizuki. There was a boundary that was pretty solid standing between, unwilling to budge no matter how hard Ena tried. But the thing was, she didn’t have to try. Mizuki was still Mizuki and Ena knew she liked Mizuki.
And if Akito, of all people, finally mustered the courage to stop dancing around Toya (it was painful, at this point) she could face Mizuki. This time it wasn’t about Ena feeling she’s not and never will be talented, it’s not about Mizuki’s secret. It’s just about Ena and Mizuki, and the path they would take together from now on.
Say, Mizuki. If, and only if, I asked you out on a date, what would you say? Send.
The response was there right away.
“Enanan, THE Enanan, has asked me out on a date! I’m so lucky~” Mizuki’s response was just as Ena had been expecting.
Then, consider yourself lucky. Ena typed out her response. Wow, she was starting to feel nervous at that bravery display. If things went south there was always the “I was joking” exc-
I am, I am. When Mizuki was this serious, even through text messages, Ena could almost hear the gentle shift in their voice as they acknowledged that Ena has always cared about them, still does, and will continue to do so.
Can we go to the arcade? I feel like it!
Oh. No. No no no no no.
Mizuki we are so NOT spending our first date spying on Akito and Toya!
…
A voice note.
Fine, she could listen to it, she still had her headset on after all.
I know, I know! Mizuki said in between a boisterous sounding laugh I just wanted to say ‘our first date’ and check how it sounds. I think this might rival my favorite songs. A genuine smile spread across Ena’s face. God, was she eager to see Mizuki and hug them and show her just how… how MUCH she loved them… and to think that Akito had been the catalyst… good grief.
—
He couldn’t believe it. Was that… was that Ena he just caught a glimpse of? And was she with Akiyama?
“Hey, Toya, I think we should change our date location.” Akito uttered, as pissed off as he was at spotting her sister of all people, he was just still basking in happiness at spending his first date with Toya. Official date, at least.
“Why is that?” Toya asked curiously. He may not have noticed, he was pretty focused on that crame game as usual, and did he look cute when he won the third plushie of the afternoon…
“Ena and Akiyama are there.” Akito said.Not like that was unusual, but what were they doing today and near the arcade at that time? Did Ena know about this? Did she know about his and Toya’s relationship?
I think at this point everybody knows except you two. And why the hell did An’s words come to his head?
He can’t lie tho. And what’s more, Ena and Akiyama had been doing exactly the same thing he and Toya had, so… Could it be that…
“I think we might not be the only ones having our first date, Akito” Toya chuckled, his expression softened. “Let’s go eat some pancakes. My treat” He spoke as he dropped the crane game and softly grabbed Akito’s hand and laced their fingers together.
heyyyy it's ✨me✨ local writer who starts a fic and posts the last chapter after two years! Posting the last chapter for Clean Freak made me realize that caejose is the ship i feel most comfortable writing about ;; they mean SO much to me! (I'm mymusicalbox on AO3 btw!)
So I'm here to say, if you can slide into my askbox and tell me any particular idea or scenario you would like to see featuring these two dorks I'll be more than glad to write it!
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