Fuck Up

I wanna be myself but I can't. fates rewritten

[headlxess]

[TXT me] {Nate}

[headlxess]

Such a warped outlook on the world. Had he any idea that the sack of flesh constantly trying to get in his way felt such things, he’d probably laugh! How amusing would it be to know just how insane this child really was? Aha! Humans. Always bringing themselves higher and higher on the chain of sporadic warps in behavior. Now if only they could see their flaws within themselves as he could. 

To: Nate From: Nakura

I don’t think where I work would be a good idea to meet me at. If you’d like to meet somewhere outside, however, I suppose we can work something out.

Per-usual, he ignored the last part of the other’s message; not quite as perplexed by the paranoia as he was interested in knowing why his presence was desired. It was strange, really; knowing that this friend of Clyde’s who hated him to the very core wanted to go somewhere and communicate. Except of course— that was a lie and it wasn’t strange at all! Like any deluded teenager who was most likely involved in the habitual influences of drugs or alcohol, Nate was both unstable and predictable. Due to his spontaneous decision making and the lack to thoroughly process actions or words into rationalized conceptions, he was more prone to doing something drastic or in the moment. Because of that basic idea, the only possible outcome without Mr. Donovan’s super vision (and even with it, seeing as wetsuit lad did have the jealous streak), would be something negative. What exactly sort of thing that it could possibly be, however, was still a mystery. A gamble.

To: Nate From: Nakura

I’m going to stop somewhere and get a cup of tea. Perhaps we can meet at the bookstore beside the cafe I’m going to instead? It’s right down the street from the police department, if that gives you any knowledge.

[weakheartedsavior]

He was getting angry now. The whole point of this meeting was to find out information about Nakura and defend himself if anything happened. How could he do that if they were at some random library that everyone goes to? If anything, that was solid enough proof for him that Nakura was a no-good lying asshole. Clyde wouldn't take that though.

To: Nakura From: Nate

why are you saying your works a bad place to go?

why are we going to some public place you probably never even visit

we can MEET there but i wanna scope out where you work too

He needed to stay level-headed if anything were to work but Nakura never went along with what he was asking ever. He'd give a little support or information and just when Nate felt like everything was coming together he'd go offline, essentially avoiding the accusations he made. Oh well. It was easier to lie online and in a worst case scenario he had bribing mechanics on him. Thank God Kenny had received a new gun and gotten the three of them like papers and passports or something? He didn't actually know the details; he wasn't paying attention. The point was, if any of the three of them did something really bad they could just run for the hills. Nate was praying it wouldn't get to that point.

To: Nakura From: Nate

actually it might be better to talk somewhere else

like the skatepark that seems like a poplar location

*popular

[headlxess]

[TXT me] {Nate}

[headlxess]

Scope all he wanted, Nate wouldn’t find much of anything. As someone who worked in the underground environment, certain precautions were to be made before any sort of job was brought up. Having an extra storage place, somewhere that wasn’t your home or a location you frequented around was always the first step. Ensuring that no one found anything or any traces of what you may or may not have, was the second. The third, well, that was just to not forget where you had everything! Of course, it wasn’t like the boy had any idea what sort of complications one had to do to secure their position, right? He was, after all, just a typical teenager who had a few issues and problems he couldn’t healthy sort out.

To: Nate From: Nakura

When I said we should meet somewhere else, I did mean a place where Clyde isn’t currently at. My apartment, unfortunately, is unfit for discussion as of right now. Maybe somewhere else?

[weakheartedsavior]

Did he even really wanna go through with trying something? He knew it was a bad idea, but he was too stubborn to give up at this point and too prideful to admit that what he was doing was doing more harm than good to anyone else. But then, he had already messed everything up, right? His relationships were going downhill and he had given up on ever finding a sensible career so he was entering the underground drug industry with Kenny. His mom would be disappointed, but what else would he be able to do to validate his existence at this point? If he didn't go through with it, he'd be a coward. And if things worked in his favor everyone would understand where he was coming from and would praise him for it and everything could go back to normal.

To: Nakura From: Nate

….how about the police station you work at

if you give me fifteen minutes to get ready i and give me the address I can head over right now

dont try anything stupid

[headlxess]

[TXT me] {Nate}

To: Nate From: Nakura

He is here, though I don’t think he’s quite comfortable with speaking to you and I both as a group.

Perhaps we can meet somewhere without him instead.

[weakheartedsavior]

… He was more than suspicious. If he were to agree and something happened he'd have his evidence, but there was no way he was going to agree to meeting the potential instigator of the bomb threat fiasco if he wasn't armed. Getting back-up was probably necessary but at least he could use this opportunity to scope out Nakura's things casually without making Clyde upset.

To: Nakura

From: Nate

{sent} …. fine whatever

{sent} i choose the location though

{sent} i want to see your apartment

[headlxess]

[text] so apparently the car got towed with me passed out in the back seat.

To: NateFrom: Nakura

Is this your way of asking me to come and get you..or?

[weakheartedsavior]

…. Good thing he was going into this with a plan. It took every ounce of his willpower to not start screaming at Nakura via text.

To: Nakura

From: Nate

{sent} depends is clyde there?

{sent} we still need to talk as a group

[rpmissionboard]

A couple deep questions

1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel? 2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way? 3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you tell them? 4. You are at the doctor’s office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid? 5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love and Trust. 6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not? 7. Would you rather be hurt by the one you trust the most or the one you love the most? 8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more than just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you (or did you) do/say? 9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or Why not? 10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend? 11. Does love = sex? 12.Your boss tells your coworker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your coworker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company? Why or Why not? 13.When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did you have to tell the person? 14. What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a member of the opposite/same sex, you love them or that you do not love them back? 15. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose? 16. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them. Who were they to you? 17. If there was one moment and one time in the last month what would you change and why? 18. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or Why not? 19. You are holding onto your grandmother’s hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? What was your rationale for making the decision? 20. Are you old fashioned? 21. When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it? 22. Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why? 23. If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?

[weakheartedsavior]

An arm. :)

Thanks Daryl.

Too bad that ship is dead. Arm picked up all of its belongings and walked out.

[cittamemes]

Who in FRW do you ship my muse with?

[cittamemes]

Anon or not I'd like to hear your thoughts on how I play my character! Critiques as well as good points welcome!

[headstrongmartin]

texts from last night! meme

[text] He’s like… An octopus that touches my vagina in all these diff ways at the right times. It’s almost unsettling [text] I was orgasming and dying of laughter at the same time. I think I’ve found the One. [text] Do me a favor I want you to reach down the front of your pants and underwear and just feel around for a while… if you happen to find your balls then join us [text] and then she said I drew a line on her forehead with my cum and whispered “Simba” [text] so I was just driving high and I stopped to let a pinecone cross the road because I thought it was a hedgehog. [text] Sex on bubble wrap = best decision ever. [text] Your lack of great college experience of margaritas and foam parties scares me [text] We get an extra hour of sleep. That means we can take an extra shot tonight. Sounds logical. Thank you daylight savings. [text] when someone at the bar asked you a question all you knew how to say was “chug-a-lug” [text] There’s a girl in class eating a pumpkin pie. Like a whole pie straight from the pan with a fork. [text] Apparently I taped knives to my hands and made everyone call me wolverine [text] My house smells like bleach. Also, I do not feel bad about all the stuff I stole from the hospital while I was there. [text] Get here, there are important joints to be smoked and pies to be eaten [text] Can I even tell you how badly I want a day that is just on and off napping and sex with intermittent snack breaks? Because I want that day very badly. [text] He came so hard that he yelled what sounded like a spell from Harry Potter. [text] we were both freshly single and using each other as rebounds. most intense sex I’ve ever had. i felt like a grizzly bear emerging from hibernation in a whirlwind of sexual fury [text] I’ve replaced you with thin mints and masturbation [text] Tuesday Boozeday turned into What-the-fuck-were-you-thinking Wednesday real fast. [text] Have you ever had chicken nuggets while high? Because it tastes like hearing the Beatles for the first time [text] We played Rock Paper Scissors to see who would have to go down on the other person. [text] I just accidentally showed an old lady a pic of my penis while showing her cat pics. So how’s your day going? [text] We go out, we get drunk, we watch Star Wars, we pass out. What’s wrong with this tradition? [text] all i’ve had to eat today is leftover bday cake and a shot of tequila. [text] Pretty sure the guy I hooked up with Saturday gave me a buy one get one free coupon for chipotle. Who said nice guys don’t exist? [text] Apparently nothing brings out sympathy in a barista like asking if they have a hangover special [text] I am trying to think of a way to make alcohol cupcakes [text] You pulled the fire alarm because you had to shit and there was someone in the bathroom. you said you needed privacy [text] im guessing your the one that tried to make bacon in the toaster [text] I just made out with a girl with a life jacket on wtf is going on [text] I am swimming in semen. He must have been holding it in for a special occasion. [text] you should buy a sheep. A) you get an awesome pet. B) free coat [text] We thought you were crowd-surfing until we realized it was the bouncers throwing you out [text] maybe tonight we can turn coloring into a drinking game [text] i think its awesome that according to your mom i’m your friend that caught on fire. [text] So fucked up. Can’t tell if I’m starving or about to puke. Playing it safe and eating froot loops. Tasty in, colorful out. [text] you traded sex for a burrito? [text] I made a game called come to class high and eat nachos. [text] You decided to make a porno with gummy bears and things went downhill from there. [text] it’s not a party till someone uses the fire extinguisher. [text] You’re always adorable, but when you’re drunk, you’re like Chia Pet adorable. [text] this kid just offered me adderall in exchange for my meal points. college at its finest [text] I was cleaning up my drunken mess and I found my ID in a cereal box [text] I am now the proud owner of a 10-12 year old’s Optimus Prime costume from Walmart. Tomorrow is going to be a good day. [text] It’s like eating cereal and milk but instead of cereal it’s gummy bears and instead of milk it’s vodka. [text] we woke up to him feeding us cheetos at 3am. and by feeding i mean shoving them in our mouths and saying “i mean who doesn’t like cheetos” [text] quit making up holidays to get me to go drinking with you [text] I left a cheeto on everyone’s car trailing to the house i’m at, hanzel and gretel style. [text] nobody understood you. You kept speaking french and hiding shit in your boobs [text] When I came home you were using a glowstick to eat peanut butter from the jar. [text] kinda considering buying a life alert for sophomore year [text] My phone auto-corrects smirnoff to poisoned. I think it is trying to tell me something. [text] Anywhere you can eat green eggs and ham, you can have sex. [text] you were running down the aisles of wal mart singing ‘follow the yellowbrick road’. i’m pretty sure you thought the night shift workers were the munchkins & started crying when they wouldnt help u find the wizard. needless to say u were pretty stoned/wasted [text] It’s like the only way I know how to apologize is by giving a blow job. [text] The world would be so much better with thought bubbles. [text] I love taking my adderall while im in class! As soon as I take the pill out everyone around me just stares in envy! [text] You handed some guy a spoon you found, he yelled SPOON GAME, and then the two of you spent the next 20 minutes throwing spoons all over the kitchen. [text] Because when I say ‘You shouldn’t drink anymore’, she hears, ‘I personally challenge you to chug 3 more mixed drinks’ [text] so apparently the car got towed with me passed out in the back seat. [text] You closed the sidewalk off to pedestrians last night. With a glitter covered safety cone [text] never. drinking. again. [text] got some bad news about ur virginity. she didnt make it thru the night [text] I need a good reason NOT to eat this entire jar of nutella right now

[weakheartedsavior]

i want the k ;)))))))))

 Cheek Kiss:

One would think Nate would have taken his confidence down a notch after everything that happened, but Clyde inspired him to the belief that he was now a superhuman who could do insane superhuman things with his creepy robo-arm. And since he was visiting in Kairos for the weekend, he had a score to settle. It was originally supposed to be a driving contest between himself and Dirk, but Dirk wasn’t there so he was stuck, once again, alone with Dave.

Instead of getting in the car, Nate drove his attention to gaming systems. With an arm that couldn’t tire, he was proud of the fact that he might, at least, be somewhat better at video games with a prosthetic.

"I’ll kiss the first person I see" sounded like something out of a truth or dare section of a middle school sleepover guide and, honestly, that’s where he got it from. His mother had one of those Scholastic books from the ‘80’s and when the electricity bill wasn’t paid, there wasn’t much else to do.

He couldn’t possibly explain that without sounding like the biggest fag ever and Dave’s (hopefully) sarcastic comments throughout the entire race of Mario Kart didn’t help him win. Turning into an embarrassed blob, Nate sunk into the couch at the victory screen, closing his eyes and wishing that he could just be back in the camper with Stan and Kenny.

If Dave didn’t give up on the bet, there were still easy ways out. And so, Nate squeezed his eyes shut and held his breath to press a light kiss to Dave’s cheek before retracting into the couch and hiding his face in the arm of it.

Nate was pretty sure he actually was a teenage girl.

[weakheartedsavior]

♬ dance with me nate

Nate had no musical ability whatsoever. His dancing ability was just as bad, for, even though Nate had the flexibility to be a good dancer, he had no sense of rhythm. If he wanted to learn, it had to be from someone he didn’t know so well and by one who could be bribed to secrecy.

Hovering over his contacts, he realized just how impossible his dream was. The circumstances had made all the people he might think of as good dancers miserable and the remainder would make fun of him. He honestly didn’t even know why he was choosing this outlet. He needed something to do to keep his mind off of things, he guessed. Something that wouldn’t involve dragging a bunch of people in because experience spelled out how those encounters worked. And so he pressed Dave’s name from the list and hoped for the best.

He barely knew Dave, but knowing he was safe was good enough. Kenny trusted him and that gave him confidence.

                                                              ~~~~

The only reason he even remembered Dave’s apartment was because of his brother accidentally forgetting where he lived. Dirk was embarrassing and scary to be in a car with, but the experiences were memorable and a lot happier than what was currently going on. The door opened and he immediately tensed up like an idiot. He had no reason to be nervous with Same Love blasting in the background and a kid about his height wearing sunglasses indoors, but he was always like that around strangers.

He honestly didn’t even know what kind of “dancing” Dave even did. Oh God. It was too late to abort the mission when Dave brought out a laptop, saying some stuff that he chose to ignore. Squinting at the text from over Dave’s shoulder, Nate immediately realized why this was a bad idea.

But it was too late. Far too late.

Open in Dave’s web browser in bold, black text were the words “How to Twerk.”

There was no going back now.

[weakheartedsavior]

He fucked up. He fucked up. He fucked up.

And here he was, lying on an over-cropping that lay only about eleven feet from where he originally jumped. It was better like that, he guessed. After laying there, he was filled with regret about how stupid this was. His emotions got out of control, again. And so, he did something stupid, again. He had just been whiny and self-deprecating until he finally snapped out of it and realized that ... HEY... there were people in a lot more danger than he was who needed help. He didn't know where Kenny was but Clyde texted him the details, and so now he was faced with the challenge of undoing his mistakes. That literally meant climbing eleven feet of sheer limestone with a broken ankle, a sprained wrist and dozens of other cuts and bruises. It ended poorly with him just laying on his little ledge once more, playing with his phone and praying that the battery didn't run out before the morning.

He just wanted to curl up and sleep in the camper with his dumb, gay boyfriends. That's all he wanted at this point but he made stupid mistakes and he had to pay the price. He just hoped for the safety of Kenny and that he'd make it to the hospital alright.

Were those ambulance sirens?

[weakheartedsavior]

Wtf i dont have like any threads on nate and ive been so busy lately that I haven't been doing anything so let's do the like for a starter thing hell yeah.

[weakheartedsavior]

He was just really scared and no one would listen to him so he didn't know what to do. But it was probably just jealousy over a lot of things so it wasn't his fault, right? It was just a bad gut feeling was all.

[nezhnayavdova]

Send me 'I want the K' and I'll use a number generator to write a drabble about my muse kissing your muse.

1. French Kiss:

Probably the most famous kiss there is, the French kiss is an open-mouthed kiss where one person’s tongue touches the other person’s tongue. Also called a “tongue kiss,” the French kiss easy enough to execute, but it can take years to master.

2. Butterfly Kiss:

To give someone a butterfly kiss, get close to them so the tips of your eyelashes are touching theirs. Then blink very fast so your eyelashes flutter together like butterfly wings. It’s a fun, cute thing to do while you’re catching your breath from more traditional kisses. You can also give someone a solo butterfly kiss by fluttering your eyelids against their cheek.

3. Single-Lip Kiss:

To give someone a single-lip kiss, take one of their lips between yours and gently suck or tug on it. It’s an awfully romantic kiss, and if you do it right, you’ll send tingles up and down your sweetie’s spine.

4. Spiderman Kiss:

Based on the kiss in the 2002 movie Spider-Man, the Spiderman kiss involves kissing someone whose face is upside-down from yours, so your top lip kisses their bottom lip and vice versa.

5. Earlobe Kiss:

A great kiss to to perform while you’re taking a break from lip kisses, the earlobe kiss involves taking someone’s earlobe lightly between your lips and tugging gently downward. For a more intense earlobe kiss, add a little bit of tongue, or use a gentle sucking motion on their earlobe.

6. Lip Gloss Kiss:

This is a fun, flirty kiss for girlfriends to give their boyfriends. Put on a healthy amount of lip gloss or ChapStick, then rub your lips on your partners’ lips until theirs are coated, too. For extra fun, surprise your partner with a sweet, fruity lip gloss flavor.

7. Eskimo Kiss:

In an Eskimo kiss, two people rub their noses back and forth against each other. It’s based on real kisses that people in Eskimo cultures give their friends. Just like with lip kisses, Eskimo kisses are best executed with your eyes closed.

8. Cheek Kiss:

The cheek kiss is exactly what it sounds like - a closed-mouth kiss against someone’s cheek. Cheek kisses can be used as friendly greetings, flirty thank-you’s or cute, unexpected ways to say good-bye to your boyfriend or girlfriend.

9. Hickey:

A hickey technically isn’t a kiss; it’s a red mark (a bruise, really) left on the skin after someone sucks hard enough on it. Hickeys hurt a little to get, but some people think the sucking feels good, especially on the side of the neck. It can be embarrassing to walk around with a hickey, so before you start sucking, get permission first.

10. Secret Message Kiss:

In the middle of a French kiss, spell out a secret message with the tip of your tongue against their tongue. It might feel a little funny to the other person, but at least you’ll be getting your message across.

11. Vampire Kiss:

The vampire kiss is a deep kiss on someone’s neck that can involve sucking or light biting on the skin. Since some people find it painful rather than sexy, and since the sucking might leave a hickey, always ask permission before you give someone a vampire kiss.

12. Wet Kiss:

Wet kisses are any open-mouthed kisses, with or without tongue. A little bit of wetness during a kiss can be sexy, but try not to overdo it: too much saliva is sloppy. Alternate between wet kisses and closed-mouth kisses and single-lip kisses, and be sure to swallow occasionally so you don’t accidentally drool all over your partner.

13. Lizard Kiss:

The lizard kiss involves flicking your tongue in and out of your partner’s mouth in tight, quick strokes (picture the way a lizard moves its tongue). This is a silly kiss you can try just for fun, but it generally should be avoided because it feels kind of creepy to get.

14. Air Kiss:

The air kiss is a sophisticated gesture you can use as a greeting to your friends and relatives. To give one, rest your cheek against their cheek and make a kissing sound with your lips.

15. The Biting Kiss:

The biting kiss is a more aggressive form of the French kiss. Like the French kiss, it’s open-mouthed and incorporates tongue, but as you pull back, your teeth lightly grab onto your sweetie’s tongue for just a second. Try it once and see how your partner responds. Some people love it, but others think it’s painful or weird.

16. Angel Kiss:

To give someone an angel kiss, kiss them very gently on their eyelids or on the spot right next to their eye, using just your lips. It’s a very romantic way to wake someone up or say goodbye.

17. Neck Kiss:

After French kissing for a while, some people mix it up by trailing their mouth down and “Frenching” the other person’s neck. To execute a neck kiss perfectly, go light on the saliva, focus on the motion of your lips, never stay in once place for very long and never suck hard enough to leave a hickey.

18. Jawline Kiss:

To plant a jawline kiss on someone, give them a firm kiss on the bottom of their jaw, right where their face meets their neck. If they respond well to it, make a path of jawline kisses up to their ear and give them an earlobe kiss.

19. Breath Kiss:

The breath kiss is a fun, silly kiss that’s almost more of a game than a kiss. To do it, open your mouth, inhale deeply and lock lips with your sweetie (like you’re performing CPR). Slowly exhale into their mouth while they’re inhaling, “passing” the breath to them. Without moving, slowly inhale while your partner exhales. Keep passing the breath back and forth until one of you runs out of breath or you both erupt in giggles.

20. The Love Kiss:

The love kiss is any kiss that you give while thinking tender, loving thoughts about your partner. You might not realize it, but your kissing style can be influenced by whatever’s on your mind. Smooching with love on your mind will make your kisses extra soft and sweet. Whether it’s on your partner’s mouth, neck, ear or forehead, the love kiss is the most romantic kiss you can give.

21. The Dementor:

Place your open mouth over your lovers mouth, and inhale. Their shrieks of surprise will entertain you, and you can literally say you have taken their breath away!

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[weakheartedsavior]

Ugh. He ruined everything. Things start to go good again? Nope. Fuck you. Can't let that happen. Nate had to be under constant stress and constant anxiety and this night was the worst because it was friends versus friends. He was so tired and so scared. He had just got back on good terms with Clyde and Stan and Clyde blew up ridiculously and caused a whole new drama fest and Nate wasn't sure whether Stan would ever trust him again. And on top of that, Kenny blamed himself for stuff that Nate just kind of learned to accept. He stopped caring, but Clyde clearly didn't get that point.

He hoped honest words would help at least a little. He just wanted everything to go back to the way it was, but he made it a whole lot worse.

Nate just needed to learn to never talk to anyone about anything personal from him or others ever again.