Am I living or just not Dying?!

I'll probably kill myself and I honestly couldn't give a fuck

[dead-doves-deactivated20210512]

tumblr: everything okay?

me:

[faerie-hearts]

“I can’t talk right now, I’m doing Hot Girl Shit.”

The Hot Girl Shit in question:

(This joke is overdone but I found it funny lol)

[unsweetenedbby]

haha oops

[being-me-asurvivor]

4yrs later and sometimes I still turn the shower on high to wash you away

Ptsd confessions

[weareallsuicidalkids]

I don’t think I’ll ever stop feeling this way

[desnos]

[sanifairbon-bande]

[weareallsuicidalkids]

How dare you be able to continue to live your life without any punishment

How dare you be able to do what you did to me to other girls

How dare you still affect me after all this time

Fuck you

Fuck you

Fuck you

[weareallsuicidalkids]

The words I can’t say to you yet

I left you alone in that house, with those people, I know your not old enough to understand yet but I hope one day you’ll realise I stayed as long as I could but leaving was the only choice I had left if I could of taken you with me I wouldn’t of hesitated but I couldn’t and I’m so so so sorry for failing you but I’ll never stop loving you, stop caring for you, stop worrying about you. It feels like when I left you a while in my chest was ripped out and now I can barley breath to remind me of what I did how I failed and I welcome the pain because it reminds me of you

[weareallsuicidalkids]

Overwhelming sadness

[weareallsuicidalkids]

So fucking triggered right now honest to god wanna stick my fingers down my throat so bad

[meathook-girl]

“In a tactile flashback, you actually feel sensations related to the abuse (vaginal, pelvic or anal pain, tingling, gagging, smothering, or the sensation of someone’s hands on you) as if it were happening now. Auditory flashbacks include hearing someone breathe, cry, or snore as if they were present in the room you are occupying. Other victims have olfactory flashbacks, wherein they smell things associated with the abuse, such as after-shave. Whatever type of flashback you may have, you will feel as if you are being abused at that moment.”

The Right to Innocence by Beverly Engel

[julius-novachrono]

Important 🗣

[weareallsuicidalkids]

I’m not okay, everything is too much, I have no family, memories of your fucking hands on my skin keep me up at night

I just want to fucking stop

[weareallsuicidalkids]

FUCK ROCK BOTTOM HERE I FUCKING COME

[weareallsuicidalkids]

Slipped

[weareallsuicidalkids]

I’m slipping

[weareallsuicidalkids]

3 months ago you said I was pretty, 2 months ago you said I was beautiful, a month ago you said I was safe, two weeks ago you said I was amazing, last week you said I was perfect today you said I’m everything.

Although I don’t agree with you I no longer think you’re lying and I’m okay with that.