wanted

give yourself enough space to change your mind

[wearpinkboyswink]

bearing burdens of a loved one bc their loved ones can’t get their shit together

[infiniety]

[thepersonalquotes]

[wearpinkboyswink]

first time on in a while lol

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[sireneas]

[tropi-cally-deactivated20190209]

beach vibes | caffeine dreams | stay golden ~

[florial]

[thepersonalquotes]

[valeriascano-blog]

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[wearpinkboyswink]

i really haven't journaled at all during this trip, but idk i probably should have just to like compose my thoughts. but at the same time, maybe it's a good thing bc i didn't have to like reflect

[thepersonalquotes]

[thepersonalquotes]

[wearpinkboyswink]

be stronger and let it go.

[wearpinkboyswink]

i hope this trip is a good experience and good things will come out of this. from this point on, i'm gonna be happy for the next 2 weeks 😬

[wearpinkboyswink]

studying

so for my gmat tomorrow I have a writing portion. I have 30 minutes to write a dry and boring essay about arguments and supporting statements and boring business things. but its on the computer and I have to type the whole thing. the program that I'm using won't have red squigglies to let me know that I've misspelled a word and stuff so that’s gonna kinda suck bc like grammar is important. so this is me “practicing” my typing skills, even though I'm not really practicing grammar and proper writing. I just need to know that I can type, which obviously I can but like I've always thought of myself as like a bad typer. like I'm not one of those people who types a storm. I mean, people tell me that I do but I don't know I've never seen myself as that. lol I remember I used to do those kiddy games on the computer and one of them was typing. I should do like a test and see how many words per minute I can type, so I can put that on my resume.

so I leave the country on Sunday and whoooo I'm excited. for the most part. I'm pretty blessed to have the life that I do, and to have the opportunities that I do. I'm pretty blessed to have everything that I have in this life, and I'm excited to get a chance to help others that are less fortunate. but of course, bc I'm a human with feelings and I'm a girl, I always forget about the 80/20 rule. in life, we will always get 80% of what we want, but we are constantly yearning for the 20% that we don’t currently have. this is kinda what I've been doing all day today bc I'm hormonal and I'm on my period and stuff. like all day, I tried to remind myself to be mindful and enjoy the moment but I was like kinda waiting and hoping for the one thing that I didn't currently have at the moment. and if you really want something, you have to let it go. and I have, for the most part, just sometimes I forget and I'm like NEED THIS NOW. but I don't get/have the object of my desire bc I know that I can want something so much or whatever and still not get it. but I am also practicing control. its all about self love y'all, self love. inner peace.

but everything happens for a reason, and each day is filled with blessings in disguise. in time, we will figure out why things happened the way they did, but it’s pretty hard to be patient. patience has never ever been a strong suit for me, and I wish I could be better and trust the process. but sometimes I'm weak and just want snuggles, so I lay in bed and snuggle my blanket and read my book to hold me over and remind me of what’s important in life.

okay “studying” and practice over. peace out.