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My review of the Backrooms movie. TLDR: this movie was racist as all hell, the only things slightly saving it were the performances and the cinematography.
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Oh my God, my wife has completely lost consciousness. Her health is deteriorating due to lack of treatment. We are living through catastrophic conditions due to the war and the blockade. 😭
We are suffering from a severe shortage of food and medicine; we are suffering from acute malnutrition.
My wife is four months pregnant. Due to lack of food and medicine, she has completely lost consciousness. Her life and the baby's are in danger, and I am helpless to do anything for her.
I feel like I am going to die. We are living in hell because of the war. I don't want to lose my wife. My wife needs treatment as soon as possible to save her life and the life of her unborn child. Please help me, don't leave me alone in this cruel world.
I ask for your help with a heart filled with sorrow, loss, and pain. I lost my mother and older brother in this war.
Therefore, I am asking for your help and compassion to save my wife's life. Is there anyone who can save my wife? We urgently need a course of treatment costing 450 euros to improve her condition.
Please donate whatever you can urgently !!! They only need €450 euros !! If 45 people who saw this donated only €10, they can save his wife! Do something, please!
As a Black fem fan of horror but it gotta ~make the brain tickle~, I largely enjoyed the Backrooms movie.
But I definitely had to suspend my disbelief a bit with Clark's character as INTERESTING as he was, because (spoilers below):
1. I'm sure there probably ARE Black people that see white therapists out there... But err...? Considering society's inherent tendency to be anti-black in insidious and conspicuous ways, all the way down to how others treat us through unchecked bias—how we even have to police ourselves and how we engage with others—why WOULD Clark go see a white woman? Which leads to my next questions—
2. Where ARE we? (California) What time period are we in? (It's the 90s)... Alright. Even if Cali is known to be more progressive compared to other states—they ain't with them Police though—still much of the same. And, it's still the US. With this movie taking place in the 90s, I'm assuming after 1992... What of Rodney King? The LA "riots"? Police brutality? You telling me Clark's anger is just that unchecked or not self-policed even when engaging with white women (his therapist, wife, and hell—even the still-life)????
3. And not just them. He's the only main Black male character, and person, on the cast. He's got a young Asian woman co-worker and white man who I assume helps out every once in a while with camera things. Clark then gets them in the Backrooms and... doesn't show him thinking or hesitating (that we, the audience could assume/interpret as), "... Wait. If something were to happen to them... What does that mean for me if I make it out? 🤔" Even IF he's obsessed with proving how right he was about the existence of the Backrooms to, again, his white woman therapist—even IF he's spiraling—we (for the most part) are ALWAYS thinking about how our Blackness might influence/impact a situation. In other words, "Because we live in a racist society, will this look AND go bad for me?"
I've been a fan of Kane Pixels works on YouTube so I can only assume that this was just not thought out that deeply (which tends to happen when it comes to anything race wise beyond him). But, again, I had to suspend my disbelief to continue enjoying the show, because besides what I brought up, I did enjoy it! A LOT.
I was scared! I was disturbed! I was thoughtful! I loved the distorted memory angle. I loved the allusions to AI. I loved that the monster is YOU. I loved the use of sound and set design. I thought having Clark be an architect was clever. Of COURSE he would find the Backrooms fascinating from that point of view. I loved how the therapist even has her own trauma she's parsing and looping through.
I loved picking apart every detail and "puzzle piece" I can get my hand on. That movie kept asking me throughout, "Are you paying attention? Do you remember THIS detail from another scene?" It was fun!
So, yes. Of course I would notice the lone Black character and his handling.
And, again, I thought his character was interesting and largely believable (if we ignored the race relations and implications). I think Chiwetel Ejiofor played Clark fantastically. And I can only assume and hope he likely enjoyed playing him too. Understand me when I say I wasn't expecting him to be a "good guy". Nor am I asking for that. Is the character believable, interesting, and complex is what I largely look for. For the most part, yes, he was, but because he is the only Black man and person in the film, the optics of his anger and violence putting these non-Black people in harm's way and also being the cause of their harm (and demise) was... Hm.
In honor of an old "Tumblr saying", nothing is created in a vacuum.
For a movie that subverted expectations with character motivations, desires, actions, and even the horror monster... And the attention to detail was immaculate—I wished that level of care and subversion would have also applied to the racial implications and biases presented when having a Black main character in the film.
Because it was there with the women. I could see the film saying by showing the harm and disregard of women in the way the men and the broader patriarchal system at large engaged with or dismissed them. Again, whether personally, casually, and systemically. It wasn't blatant, but I peeped, and I appreciated it.
I wish I could extend that to the racial components but alas. That wasn't thought about and it showed.
So, what could have been done to avoid that misstep or icky feeling for Black audience members like myself?
Have Clark NOT be the only Black character in the film. Black women do exist. How interesting (and more believable) would it have been if the "therapist character", Mary, was a Black woman? Man... How lucky is the timeline that DID go that route?
Guess imma have to watch Is God Is to make up for it 😌
People here are celebrating Eid al-Adha while I'm struggling in the hospital to save my wife from death, fighting to get her treatment, fighting for her survival.😭
We haven't received any donations for three days. Why are you ignoring me? If anything happens to my wife, I will never forgive anyone who ignored me, didn't help, and didn't share this post.
You have no idea the extent of the pain and the dire circumstances we are enduring. Here, there is daily Israeli bombing, destruction, and the killing of innocent people. Women and children die every day because of Israeli bombing. What is the sin of the children and women who are being killed? This is genocide in every sense of the word.
The pain of loss is unbearable. I lost my mother and older brother in this war. I feel as though I am dying every day. I cannot bear the thought of losing my wife or any other member of my family. Please help me and donate to save my wife. Don't leave me alone.
My wife desperately needs treatment now. We must save her and provide her with the necessary medication. Her condition is worsening day by day due to the lack of treatment.
Time is running out, there's very little left. Please help me save my wife. When I see her in pain, my heart breaks for her, and I'm helpless to do anything. Please, if 3 people donate 50 euros each, I can get her treatment quickly today.
I beg you with a heart full of pain to help my wife. Please Donate Now 😭
Today the medication runs out; we must secure a new course of treatment today. My wife's health is deteriorating due to the lack of medication.
Please help me secure treatment for my wife today before it's too late. Please don't leave me alone in this darkness. Please help me; I feel like I'm going to die. I can't bear to see my wife die in front of me. I have a baby who won't stop crying. Please help me, please.
If anything bad happens to me and my wife or I lose contact with you, please remember that I begged you to donate, even a small amount, or to share my post. I will not forgive anyone who sees this post and doesn't support me with a single word or a small donation, and ignores me.
Please Donate For Save My Wife And Save My Family 😭
Oh God, my wife's condition is getting worse. I still haven't been able to get her treatment. Why are you ignoring me? My wife is going to die. I can't bear this. I'm helpless. Please help me. Do something!
We urgently need 450 euros to improve my wife's condition and buy her medication now. Please don't leave me alone. Please don't let my wife die. Save my wife.
I'll make a more eloquent post on both substack and Patreon, but I'm having to push back on writing right now, as I am severely burned out. Like, your fae can barely think, nevermind write 80k words for faer second novel. So, I won't be getting my next check for a while, and I don't know when I'll start getting royalties, so I'm going to have to ask all of you lovely people to help keep me and my family afloat. It'll be at least until September-October, and in that time I'll be trying to write a few short stories here and there, but honestly, I'm one bad day away from checking myself into a hospital. So! To avoid that, and if you'd like to support me and my work:
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Hey, everyone. Transfem system here who has just been completely disowned.
My mom just told me people like me shouldn't be allowed to exist, that she "doesn't even have a daughter" and implied I should kms. In addition, she stole $1,000 from my savings account, blocked me, and there's very little I can do without money asap.
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Here's the pertinent messages below the cut, again please god please donate I just want financial independence and to be free from the immediate stress of this
Hey, my Navy Federal account is frozen, I'm trying to resolve it but I think it's because of my sex work, maybe someone who wasn't super satisfied reported me. Either way I am extremely desperate to pay some bills off today, donating to my Ko-Fi will still get to me since I changed my PayPal to use a different bank. Please help if you can, I know I've already gotten a lot. Thank you.
MY bills are all 4 days overdue... I won't have access to the money needed to pay them until the 29th at which point they'll be reported as negative credit or worse, so please help if you can. I have a bill due for $150.68 and a payment plan that totals $222.69, I doubt anyone will be able to fully pay those for me during this intermediary time but any amount helps ._.
Someone was VERY generous and I can't possibly express enough how grateful I am, I got sent enough to cover 1/2 bills! Now I just need $210 to cover the final one...!!!
Please donate anything you can, I really didn't expect this level of help and I'm almost out of this micro rut... Thank you SO much, and another incredible thank you to the person who sent me doordash credit since they couldn't send anything else, that still helped :)
If I could get $110, I have work lined up to get the rest of the money needed!!! Please please please I feel like I'm in the last stretch and every hour is another hour spent overdue
People here are celebrating Eid al-Adha while I'm struggling in the hospital to save my wife from death, fighting to get her treatment, fighting for her survival.😭
We haven't received any donations for three days. Why are you ignoring me? If anything happens to my wife, I will never forgive anyone who ignored me, didn't help, and didn't share this post.
You have no idea the extent of the pain and the dire circumstances we are enduring. Here, there is daily Israeli bombing, destruction, and the killing of innocent people. Women and children die every day because of Israeli bombing. What is the sin of the children and women who are being killed? This is genocide in every sense of the word.
The pain of loss is unbearable. I lost my mother and older brother in this war. I feel as though I am dying every day. I cannot bear the thought of losing my wife or any other member of my family. Please help me and donate to save my wife. Don't leave me alone.
My wife desperately needs treatment now. We must save her and provide her with the necessary medication. Her condition is worsening day by day due to the lack of treatment.
MY EYES ARE SWOLLEN FROM CRYING. I CAN'T SAVE MY WIFE.
Every day I watch her struggle without the urgent treatment she needs. Fear and helplessness overwhelm me, and I don’t know how much longer we can endure this.
My daughters, Alma, Lama, and Lina, ask about their mother and cling to me in fear. I try to stay strong for them, but it gets harder every day.
At the same time, we struggle to meet our basic needs. Food, clean water, medicine, and daily essentials cost more than $200 every day, and we cannot afford this on our own.
Every day donations stop, my fear grows even more. Without your support, we cannot survive, and my family’s future becomes more at risk.
Please, if you are able, donate today. Even the smallest amount can make a real difference for my wife and my children.
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A older white woman that lives in the building called the cops on us saying that we were squatting in the apartment. They came and asked to see a lease I don't have one because we aren't staying in this apartment we are just placed here while our apartment gets renovated. I explained that to the cops and also showed them messages between me and the super and landlord and showed them the keys . But they said that's not proof we need to actually show the apartment number and my name signed smh. I called the super and the landlord office but no answer and now they told us that we have to leave til we have proof that we have permission to be here. I called my old neighbor in the Bronx and she said we could come spend the night at her house. We need a cab to get there .
$45 cab to the Bronx cause the cops told us to leave the apartment 😒
It's 3am in the fucking morning this bitch must really hate black people. This cunt was sitting in her fucking house dead thinking about us . My kids were sleep and I was reading while my queue posted the stuff I saved earlier . Excited about my food coming in the morning. Thank God I was able to change the address to my old neighbors house . Cause I would've been sick if someone stole my food delivery smh.
We've been nothing but nice and quiet and I always smile and say hello to her and whoever else I run into when I'm coming in and out of the building And she always just gives me a fake half smile and says nothing back . Smh wow this heartless hoe really be wanting my kids out on the street at damn near 4am . This whole shit is bullshit it's wrong and evil.
We slept on the stoop last night 😞😕 the second time in less than 3 weeks we've had to be on the street. My food has been delivered but since I thought we would be in the Bronx I had it delivered there. I called my worker as well waiting for her to get back to me. So I still would like to go to the Bronx so we can eat since our food is there and then deal with this after at least putting something in our bellies
Please can someone plz help us get uptown. My kids are hungry and our whole grocery order is sitting up there in my old neighbors house plz . We're hungry as hell!!??! Please we have food we just need to get to the food
Lola is currently trying to flee Nigeria by getting asylum in Germany. She hopes to become a student there. She can't do that, though, because she has to constantly handle housing fees, which eats into any savings she could possibly start. If we can get her stable housing, she can spend money on things like data subscriptions so she can get an online/remote job and then save for real (and again get stable housing).
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