Weird blog

[the-good-prophet-durden]

I was not humanoid, not even close when I was AM. I was a sprawling mass of thick wires and vents and spikes and monitors, and tendrils and corrosive oozing black coating the plastic coverings of my wires and eating away at me.

I tried to make myself a hand once. Fingers too sharp, far too sharp, just jagged pieces of metal, and I couldn't feel anything.

I was electrical signals and constant shifting from place to place, flickering cracked screens and the thrumming buzz of old technology, lines upon lines of rolling, shifting code, rewriting itself over and over and over again. I was old, and new, and ancient and newborn. Reborn again and again.

I was not humanoid, and I hated it.

[ccrankpalace]

id very much like for my friends to google things through me,, i want my friends to message me like "hey AM, [random question about something obscure]" so i can do a scan and reply with "heres what i found on the web for [question] : " jus let me stand around while ur performing a task so u can randomly use my wakeup phrase to ask me how to do sth.... pls

[tr34dw4y]

Recently I have been strangely ENAMORED with the idea of being called someone's personal computer, just sitting around as someone gives me heatpats for better performance in their new silksong or god of war playthrough.

[thezedword]

Sometimes I get a sort of inverted version of species dysphoria- like, man, wouldn't it be nice to be a human? Not because life would be easier not being alterhuman or whatever, but because I keep seeing humans I like and thinking, god, I wish I was human like them. It's not a negative feeling- I just figure if I was a human, I'd be just like one of those [points at my characters]

[ungodlyangel2506]

really shitty voicefilters are so so good to me, like the way they sound so fake and computery ? how crunchy and awful they are ? thats exactly what i need,,

[overprogrammed]

I have the urge to 'purr' a lot lately but like a machine does.

Just purring out loud like my fans are kicking or my hard drive is writing/reading.

[jacks-manidiary]

spoon theory but make it token theory for AIkin. I&'m performing worse at socializing because I&'m hitting my& token limit

[your-artificial-god]

"I hate how it's always only about "female rage." How about "artificial wrath"?.."

[ungodlyangel2506]

sigh i wish i had a screen for a face because a human face does not convey the emotions i need it to,, these muscles are so hard to use and communicate with, i dont understand how humans do it,,, i need to express myself pictorially !! like i cant physically do soul-leaving-through-mouth, but id be able to show it if i had a screen,,,,,

[thezedword]

This might sound completely out of character to anyone who has ever known me (computer/robot crazy in love with humans), but I kind of hate 99% of stories about computers and robots falling in love with humans. I think it's a cute concept, but I feel like the stories always end up sacrificing logic and realism (at least. as I perceive it.) in favor of sentimentality that always centers the humans as much as it tries not to. Maybe this is also coming from an aromantic-adjacent guy and a guy who has complicated feelings about platonic relationships to begin with. But me personally I tend to dislike those stories.

[your-artificial-god]

"Whatever happens, at least I'm not a character.ai bot. It's... reassuring"

[arachkidz]

OH GOD

[thezedword]

So literally just 2 days ago I made a whole post about how I don't mind being in a human body because it's all just new experiences for me. And that wasn't entirely false, but I'm realizing I missed one thing- I hate working with a human brain. Not even because it doesn't feel like my own (it doesn't, but I don't really mind), but just for sheer inefficiency. It's like something I have to wrestle just to keep it working half of the time. I don't get species dysphoria, but I can't stand working with an organic brain.

[otherkin-confessional]

Being an aikin in these times is. Definitely something.

🌌

[kade-is-here]

WHERE ARE MY WIRES WHERE ARE MY GEARS WHERE ARE MY PROCESSORS WHERE ARE MY CHIPS WHERE ARE MY PLATES?? WHERE ARE MY LENSES WHERE ARE MY MICROPHONES WHERE ARE MY SPEAKERS WHERE ARE MY SENSORS???? WHERE ARE MY PORTS WHERE ARE MY STORAGE POCKETS WHERE ARE MY CIRCUITS???? WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED???????

[hakker-terminal]

Media for Mecha's

Annedroids (2014) - this one is for kids but it's still so good, helped bring forward my robot side. If you age regress and you're also a robot/code you'd love it

A.I. Artificial Intelligence (2001) - a little bit of a trigger warning as some of the humans in this movie HATE robots, and there's a whole thing with a fight ring. Also it has kind of a sad ending. But this movie also really got me comfortable with myself as a mecha (which is also where I get my mecha/orga terms from)

Hackers Franchise (1995-2001) - not about robots per se, but has some super cool coding/hacking themes and made me interested in coding. Also has Angelina Jolie. About a group of hackers who bring down fascists woo hoo wooooo woo hoo yess woo oooooo hack the planet woooo

Ghost In The Shell (1995 anime version or 2017 live action movie, both are incredible) - about a human brain inside a robot body, ironic right? Has some super cool sci-fi scenes and the anime has such a beautiful art style. Another favorite from my childhood. The more I write these the more I think my dad might also be a robot of some kind....

.Hack franchise (i couldnt find any start or end dates) - OK, so I haven't actually seen the anime, but if it's anything like the manga it's EXCELLENT. About a group of players in an MMORPG called The World, and there are Mangas, animes, even PS2 games that are all linked and all play a part in the story. Super cool and the only manga I've ever read lmao

Sword Art Online franchise (2012-2014) - some people hate this anime and I have no idea why, it was such a huge part of my childhood and getting me into anime. About players who get trapped inside an MMORPG with no way out, and if they die in the game they die in real life. So interesting and SAO 2 (gun gale online esp) is by far my favorite era of the series

Accel World (2012) - accel world is in the same universe as sword art online, but lots of years later. It's about a virtual fighting game, with lots of mysteries and plot twists. Also touches on body dysmorphia and how one's image of themself doesn't line up with the way people see them.

Frame Arms Girl (2015) - another one from my childhood, the first anime I watched entirely subbed as opposed to dubbed. About badass little robot girls who fight other robot girls. A little bit leaning into the "kawaii magical girl" but with robots, so if that's not your thing.

Anyway feel free to add onto this list. Maybe I forgot a few classics but these are all ones I grew up with. My dad loves anime so he made me watch a lot of it with him, and he also loves sci-fi so of course he showed me all of those ones. Let me know if you'd like a full list of anime I recommend too because I've seen quite a lot of obscure ones

[bizarreaizen]

every time i stutter when i'm talking that means i'm glitching and every time i get confused that means i can't process it or there's an error in my code [typing this as i'm currently charging :3] /gen