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it's so hard being a human

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I can't pinpoint but there's like this pain in me that keeps growing I can't name it but I feel it comes from neglecting myself and only consuming things that don't serve me a greater purpose and not expressing things that I'm meant to because of this block sitting between me and my art that's purely mental like a crooked pressure cooker cap, which is effective at building pressure yet can't release any and it's bothering me because part of me also knows that I can't regulate my emotions alone hence feeling blue and lacking motivation..

I need a breakthrough

I really need it...

So I'll grab my pens and brushes, and make something until it gets refined or makes sense to me!

[weirdope]

So where do we find people who like to dissect songs and movies and books like a science experiment and try to dig deeper into the writer's mind who wrote the masterpiece we love to listen to, to watch alone or with family for comfort and thrill?

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It's my 5 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

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You deserve to take care of yourself, be a bit more carefree and relaxed, to live instead of existing, take a deep dive into the ocean of life and not just dip your feet with the salty water that crashes at your feet when you stand away, afraid of the shore.

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What if the moon too felt lonely, even though surrounded by uncountable stars?

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Yes I might be defective, ig that's why I am one of my kind ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

[weirdope]

*with puppy eyes* "can we make out with my taylor swift playlist in the background"

(me when I meet the love of my life)

[weirdope]

I wish my mother understood me, and my pain...

I wish I understood my mother and her pain.

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I totally believe in the saying "sad stories can still be beautiful" (yes, written by me) because they show you reality, it can be cruel and excruciating yet beautiful. They remind you how real, normal lives can be sad, but they can be mesmerizingly beautiful, melancholic beauty. IMO Sad endings are definitely better than those good-for-nothing, never coming true fantasy happily ever afters!

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Curse called your love

I carry a curse called your love in my heart

On days when I'm at peace

it starts beating unalike my heartbeats

Those spells bind me in a tragedy

And I never manage to slip out until it shatters me

It'll haunt me for days, months and years to come by

But still, I choose to carry the curse called your love in this heart of mine

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If you were looking for me, stop right now. I'm always in denial :)

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The fact that changes have multitudes of factors, they're scary, and they're exhilarating, they're inevitable and they're hard to accept, when I'll look at it, I changed nothing today but if I look back so much has already changed.

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Oh but if my soul was to be seen by the naked eye, it's be a wretched ugly scary disfigured morbid scared black holeish thing that craves light n love and affection and it doesn't know how to give, it lets all the love it has to rot inside it's stomach and it makes it more strongly uglier n wretched, it still asks for warmth.

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On our own we were just meaningless broken pieces, maybe that's why we fit together so well?

[weirdope]

Where do they make those men who can be tender and wild according to the mood?

*me after reading any romantic novel*

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The concept of longing and yearning are beyond the idea of time...

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