Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. I feel. Idk. I'll do my best to explain myself. Sooo currently on a 2 week trip in Japan with a couple of homies and the guy I like had sex with a Japanese prostitute. It's not the act of him fucking or looking for a prostitute that made me feel sad. It's that she made him feel good about himself. He's feeling his fucking oats because he did a very good job fucking her. Now he's on cloud nine. I wish it was me that made him feel good that way. I mean, the girl is trying to make her coin so I get it, she probably said whatever to make him feel good. I respected her work and I hoped he tipped her. I really wish it was me that made him feel good and compliment him the way she did it. I compliment him and make him feel good but it's not the same. Also this is his second time fucking a prostitute. I know yikes but that man can't get no bitches at home. So I felt bad lol. I wish it was me.
P.s writing this made me feel better. The first time it happened, I felt so sad for him because he was anxious mess about it! He felt everything went wrong and he didn't feel satisfied. The second time, I feel sad for myself. He felt good and has this new confidence about himself and I wish it was me that helped him gain that confidence. I'm happy he's happy. he fucked her good i guess.
P.s.s. this foo is blasting music y'all. He's feeling really good. Very endearing now lol. I'm not sad anymore I'm happy for him! Go fuck em prostitute did and make feel good! (They mean it). I won't deny my feelings but there's a bigger picture here. There's some things I can't do for him and that's okay. If this makes him feel better and he gains a new profound confidence, then I'll be okay. Having sex with a prostitute is probably not an ideal way to gain confidence but who knows. Everybody is different. Doesn't mean I still don't want him tho 😘.
Call to Action: I think I should compliment him more maybe he'll like me more or something. He will be mine 🥸
